[choke_on_dreams]'s diary

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Written about Saturday 2005-06-25
Written: (7092 days ago)

:::Just some thoughts:::

The reality that you create within your self is nothing more than an audio-visual demonstration of where your attention lies at the time. The universe is Beautiful. It simply presumes that whatever your attention is on, is what you want. Then graciously and quite abudantly it provides you with it. Once you come to understand this basic idea, you may start to understand why the publicized declaration of "[ A war on drugs ]" only serves to create more drugs in this world. Since the Attention is focused on drugs. Just an example.Of this same dynamic applies to increasing everything you Think you appose because you spend so much time and energy fighting to Appose it in the first place. You see, you are your own creator. You construct your mind, build your lives. Your in charge.
However when you put all your attenion on denial instead of addirmation, you seem "shocked" when the universe serves you up a double serving of something you thought you didnt want.
Thats all.

608074  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-06-25
Written: (7092 days ago)

Dear World,

There are millions of things out there that I would love to explain to you. So many wonders, So many exciting and incredible truths. But there are all one thing really, one thing that is just so simple but you need to search so far to finally find the words to do it justice.

Firstly, no matter what race you are, what relgion, what sex, whatever. Theres a strong force that exsists in our universe today that unites everybody. The filling and beautiful feeling, the exsisance of love in each persons heart. The basis of anything and everything, a substance, and abstract noun. A feeling. A warm and fuzzy feeling in which everything else evolves from.

Realtity. That intricate and subtle thing that helps you define your boarders. Whats real? Whats not? Its your own person creation.
You decide. So in effect, you are exsisting inside your self. your own perosn, created by none other than you. Or the power of your own mind. In this way, everything is a simple reflection of an aspect of yourself. Is there no such this as polarity? No right and wrong? Only is and it is you. Do not judge what it is, dont label it, it just creates a seperation.

In that, everything is you. So you are everything.

This is the meaning of the saying "all is one"

You are complete.

Love completes you.

Once you find it, you want no more.

Beacuse everything you need you have.

Everybody else is a part of this wonderfull creation of you. And thus you are a part of everybody else. Love is the recognition and celebration that one person is another facet of yourself. A joining. A explosion of souls. The merging of hearts. One.

Love can be learnt of all things and non things. Fear is a seperation of these parts and the unnacceptance that that is a part of what you think of yourself. But to join these parts, as painful as it may seem, its easy and fulfilling. Its worth it.

If you love something you do not like. Something you do not understand. Again, that is to make it apart of yourself again. To unbreak into yourself. To erase that line of seperation. To accept that the differnce in this world makes it beautiful. This differnce is another part of you.

So reach out.

Be that thing, find its faint reflection in your soul, resonate with it and love it. Accept it for being there and you will be whole again.




  
608069  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-06-25
Written: (7092 days ago)

I am...

.A. spectacualar. Incredible. Wondrous. And Beautiful. Creation.

.An. Intriguing. fantastical. mysterious. breathtaking. awsome. Dreamy. Fantasy.

.An. Explosive. Forcefull. Frightening. Intimidating. Powerfull. Strong. Creator. 

.A. Talented. Creative. Crafty, Intelligent. brillant. Little Girl.

.A. Curious. Inquisitive. Cheeky. Infuriating. Child.

.A. Calculating. Patient. Wise. and slow seer.

.A. Sensual. Soft. Caressing. Gentle. Romantic. And Warm. Lover.

.An. Ugly. Lonley. Distorted. Abandoned. Fractured. Bleeding. Victim.

.A. Selfish. Narcissistic. Obsessive. Cruel and proud. Victor.

.A. Bright. Blinding. White. Light.

.A. Compelling. Persuasive. Member. Of. This. Society.

.A. Mighty. Gust. Of. Wind. A star. In the. Inky Blue. Sky. Cloud.

.A. Im. Not an. Angel.

.A. A vision. Of. Imperfection.

.An. Aid. To. The. Beautiful. The. Wings. Of. The. Angel.

.A. Falling leaf.

.An. Old Oak Tree.

.A. Rain. Drop. A wave. A River. An ocean.

.A thought. A Feeling. A touch.

.A. Vision. A Dream. An illusion.

.A. Letter. A. Sentance. A paragraph. A novel.

.A. Cryptic Code.

.A. Sketch. An Image. A film. A painting. In oils.

.An. Earth. A sun. A satrun. A milky way.

.A. Rhyme. A cry. A song. Poetry.

.A. Me. A you. A them. An us.

.A. Me. Alone.

.I. Am.

607688  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-06-24
Written: (7092 days ago)


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607671  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-06-24
Written: (7092 days ago)

Hey guys,

Im tired
My hole closed.
Getting it re pierced though at pagan piercings
So not to worry
Teh stud will be back
And once again
Ill be gangstuhh

606716  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-06-23
Written: (7093 days ago)

:::Fucking statistics exam tomorrow. Do I know anything?NO:::
606713  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-06-23
Written: (7093 days ago)

nick: *reads “share spaghetti on the list I made of things we need to do” awwww sharagetti !
me: lol what sharagetti ?
nick: I meant to say share spaghetti
me: ROFLMFAO.
Nick: Okay Oka THANKS ENUFF
me: lmfao “thanks”
nick: I mean “that’s” oh man im losing my typing steak
me: STEAK HAHAHA
 

606703  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-06-23
Written: (7093 days ago)

:::Nicholas writes naughty things in my diary.:::
It is however a "secret diary entry"
So only naughty for me to see.
I like that
606417  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-06-23
Written: (7094 days ago)

nick: Im so horny
me: i have to revise today for my maths exam tomorrow
nick: yeah you can do that after

nick: your such a wussy wussy sad person

605741  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-22
Written: (7094 days ago)

>Mally loves Nicholas Lots.

Together we are....


-x-[SusPenDeR] [ W0maN ] and [InDiG0] [ B0y ]-x-

605737  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-22
Written: (7094 days ago)

[Nicks coming back!!]
605651  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-22
Written: (7094 days ago)

Nicholas = ♥.F.o.r.e.v.e.r.♥




































♥.F0r The Rest 0f Ever.♥
605527  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-22
Written: (7094 days ago)

[Message sent to >enter username of someone cool<. Elftown loves you and wants to hug you! (Unless this message was an insult or a chain message.) May you have a wonderful night!]

What does that mean?

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Written about Wednesday 2005-06-22
Written: (7094 days ago)

http://www.fetchfido.co.uk/games/exit2/exit2.htm


^^This game is XRAZY^^

I cant fucking get past like the 5th level.

Its got me hooked

and its so stupid.
605491  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-22
Written: (7095 days ago)

The father

The son

The Holy Spirit




A.k.a




 
Daddy
Junior

Spook





When jesus broke the peice of bread, he said "[Take this and eat it, for it is my body]".

He did not say "[ Eat Me ]"




The virgin mary

<[Mary with teh cherry]>




rub-a-dub-dub thanks for teh grub. Yeah GOD!

605474  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-06-22
Written: (7095 days ago)

Taken from Izzys diary. But its just so true

28 Ways To Make A Girl Smile
1. Tell her you think shes beautiful, not hot or fine or sexy.
2. Hold her hand at any moment, even if its just for a second.
3. Kiss her on the forehead.
4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5. Always tell her you love her, at any and all times.
6. When shes upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
7. Reconginize the small things, they usually mean the most.
8. Call her sweetie and baby.
9. Sing to her, no matter how horrible your voice is.
10. Pick her over your guy friends, and especially girl friends.
11. Write her notes, she loves them.
12. Introduce her to family and friends as your grilfriend.
13. Play with her hair.
14. Pick her up, tickle her, play-wrestle with her.
15. Sit in the park and talk to her.
16. Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes.
17. Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night, just because you missed her.
18. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
19. Carve your names into a tree (but then plant a new one together for the damaged you caused).
20. If she's mad at you, kiss her.
21. Give her piggy back rides.
22. Buy her ice cream.
23. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
24. Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
25. Look her in the eyes.
26. Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
27. Kiss her in the rain.
28. If you're in love with her, tell her.

604841  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-06-21
Written: (7095 days ago)

I love it when Im listening to music on the bus or in a vehicle of some sort, 
and 
I look outside and I see somebody walking perfectly to beat to the song im listening to. 
Its magical.
It makes me smile every time
For some reason
I guess it makes me feel that
someone
somewhere
out there in this world
it may not necessarily 
be that person,
But somebody out there
is in sync with me.
Whatever that means.
Music.
Or Life.
Or what not.
Somebody knows.
Somebody feels the beat.
The beat of life :)
It makes me smile.
Its magical.
604829  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-06-21
Written: (7095 days ago)

My boyfriends the cutest thing evar.
evar.

Im so lucky.
I hope he realises that I never
take him for

Granted

There isnt a moment that im not So greatfull for everything we have.
Everything we've been through
and everything we have to come....


604654  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-06-21
Written: (7096 days ago)

Some songs worth your time



Christmas card from a hooker in Minneapolis by Tom Waits
Karma Police by Radiohead,
All these things that I've done by The Killers,
Mr Brightside by the killers, 
Perfect day by Lou Reed,
Maps by The Yeah Yeah Yeahs, 
More than woman by Pink Grease, 
Tom's Dina by Suzanne Vega, 
Express yourself by NWA, 
Little Thoughts by Bloc Party, 
Idioteque by Radiohead, 
Needle in the hay by Elliott Smith, 
Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley, 
Subterranean Homesick Blues by Bob Dylan, 
Citizen erased by Muse, 
Love will tear us apart by Joy Division, 
This charming man by The Smiths, 
District sleeps alone tonight by Postal service, 
The New Year by Death Cab for cutie, 
Rainy day woman by Bob Dylan, 
Oxygen by Willy Mason, 
No woman no cry by Bob Marley, 
Fake plastic trees by Radiohead, 
Imagine by John Lennon, 
Hounds of love by The Futureheads, 
A forest by The Cure, 
Lucy in the sky with diamonds by The Beatles, 
All mapped out by The Departure, 
Blowing in the wind by Bob Dylan, 
Bang bang by Nancy Sinatra, 
The man who told everything by The Doves, 
I heard it through the grapevine by Marvin Gaye, 
Window licker by Aphex twin, 
Visions of Johanna by Bob Dylan, 
Plug in baby by Muse, 
Heaven knows I'm miserable now by The Smiths, 
1979 by The Smashing Pumpkins, 
Gimme some more By Busta Rhymes, 
Banquet by Bloc party, 
Underwear goes inside the pants by Lazyboy, 
When I see an elephant fly from the movie 'Dumbo', 
Do I have your attention by The Blood arm, 
Apply some pressure by Maximo Park, 
Mission Impossible by Limp Bizkit, 
What a wonderful world by Louis Armstrong, 
Sinnerman By Nina Simone, 
Dont look back in anger by Oasis, 
Brand new colony by Postal service, 
Seen the light by Supergrass, 
Cannonball by Damien Rice, 
Drug ballad by Eminem, 
Mockingbird By Eminem,
So here we are by Bloc party, 
First day of my life by Bright Eyes, 
Formed a band by Art Brut, 
She dont use jelly by The Flaming lips, 
Meantime by The Futureheads,  
Emily Kane by Art Brut, 
Golden Brown by The Stranglers, 
Road to nowhere by The Talking Heads, 
Ever fallen in love by The Buzzcocks, 
Common people by Pulp, 
Son of a preacher man by Dusty Springfield, 
Talkshow host by Radiohead, 
Killamangiro by Babyshambles, 
Blow it out by The Features, 
William by The Others, 
It's a wonderful life by Black, Female of the species by Space, 
Should I stay or should I go by The Clash, 
Dreams by The Cranberries, 
Wuthering Heights by Kate Bush, 
In the morning by The Coral,
Your so vain by Carly Simon, 
Make me smile by The Cockney Rebels, 
Waterloo Sunset by The Kinks
A friend in Need by Placebo,
Killing in the name by Rage against the machine,
Bulls on parade by rage against he machine
People of the sun by rage against the machine
Fuck the police by rage against the machine
November rain by guns n roses
Wind beneath my wings Celine Dion 
Wind beneath my wings by Bettie Midler
The scientist by coldplay
Yellow by Coldplay
Roses by Outkast 
The magic school bus theme by the magic school bus
Dont wanna miss a thing by aerosmith
Ironic by Alanis Morrisette
Im a bitch By Alanis Morrisette
Hit me baby one more time by Britney Spears
Them bones by alice in chains
Whiskey lullaby by Alison Krauss and Brad Paisley
Everything I do by Bryan adams
Summer of 69' by Bryan adams
Beauty and the beast by celine dion
Ganstas paradise my coolio
How i could just kill a man by Cypress hill
How you remind me by nickleback
Hero by chad...(cant spell name)
Kissing you by Desree
Colours of the wind by pochohontus
Dont want you back by eamon (I cant help it)
Candle in the wind by elton john
Your song by eltown john
100 years by five for fighting
Killing me softly by the fugees
I will survive by gloria gaynor
Broken angel by hanson
Angels by Robbie williams
You can do it by ice cube
Rainmaker by Iron maiden
Dance of death by Iron maiden
Stairway to heaven by Led Zepplin
Without you by mariah Carey
Televators by the mars volta
Ovbiously by mcfly
Tainted love by marilyn manson
Beautiful people by marilyn manson
Evolution by motorhead
Feelings good by Muse.
Space dementia by muse.
Stop crying your heart out by Oasis
I want you to want me by letters to cleo /NOFX
Levitate me by teh pixies
From this moment on By shania twain
If it makes you happy by sheryl crow
Kiss me by six pench none the richer
Handbags and the gladrags by stereophonics
Fuck her gently by tenacious D
Drops of jupiter By Train.
Drugs dont work by teh verve
I will always love you by Whitney Housten
Thriller by Micheal Jackson
Helena by my chemical romance
You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison by my chemical romance
I'm Not Okay (I Promise) by my chemical romance
Billy jean by michael jackson
The earth song by michael jackson

604597  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-06-21
Written: (7096 days ago)

Words I cant say


[+]massachusetts [I say massatwoshits]
[+]Temporarily
[+]Similiarily [I dont even know if im spelling it right]
[+]Antidisestablishmentarianism
[+]Phenominon
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