[choke_on_dreams]'s diary
Who am I? A question that warrants my attention. Deep longings to become aware. Awareness beyond this existence. Am I really there?
If only you knew me
Then maybe youde see
Im not all the things that I appear to be
You judge me so viciously in your ice world of hate
You judge me like youve seen the stars with my fate
You judge me by my appearance and the way that I talk
By the way that I act, or the way that I walk
if only you knew me deep down inside
Perhaps you would see the soul that hides
Hiding from the cold wold that you knnow and you love
A corrupted passion of anger from the skies above
If only you knew me then maybe you would see
See your best friend, Im just another you in me.
A friend you need through good times and the bad
A friend to be near when your happy or sad
Our spirits will soar happy and free
God constructed these unique creations
If only you knew me
:::Just some thoughts:::
The reality that you create within your self is nothing more than an audio-visual demonstration of where your attention lies at the time. The universe is Beautiful. It simply presumes that whatever your attention is on, is what you want. Then graciously and quite abudantly it provides you with it. Once you come to understand this basic idea, you may start to understand why the publicized declaration of "[ A war on drugs ]" only serves to create more drugs in this world. Since the Attention is focused on drugs. Just an example.Of this same dynamic applies to increasing everything you Think you appose because you spend so much time and energy fighting to Appose it in the first place. You see, you are your own creator. You construct your mind, build your lives. Your in charge.
However when you put all your attenion on denial instead of addirmation, you seem "shocked" when the universe serves you up a double serving of something you thought you didnt want.
Thats all.
There are millions of things out there that I would love to explain to you. So many wonders, So many exciting and incredible truths. But there are all one thing really, one thing that is just so simple but you need to search so far to finally find the words to do it justice.
Firstly, no matter what race you are, what relgion, what sex, whatever. Theres a strong force that exsists in our universe today that unites everybody. The filling and beautiful feeling, the exsisance of love in each persons heart. The basis of anything and everything, a substance, and abstract noun. A feeling. A warm and fuzzy feeling in which everything else evolves from.
Realtity. That intricate and subtle thing that helps you define your boarders. Whats real? Whats not? Its your own person creation.
You decide. So in effect, you are exsisting inside your self. your own perosn, created by none other than you. Or the power of your own mind. In this way, everything is a simple reflection of an aspect of yourself. Is there no such this as polarity? No right and wrong? Only is and it is you. Do not judge what it is, dont label it, it just creates a seperation.
In that, everything is you. So you are everything.
This is the meaning of the saying "all is one"
You are complete.
Love completes you.
Once you find it, you want no more.
Beacuse everything you need you have.
Everybody else is a part of this wonderfull creation of you. And thus you are a part of everybody else. Love is the recognition and celebration that one person is another facet of yourself. A joining. A explosion of souls. The merging of hearts. One.
Love can be learnt of all things and non things. Fear is a seperation of these parts and the unnacceptance that that is a part of what you think of yourself. But to join these parts, as painful as it may seem, its easy and fulfilling. Its worth it.
If you love something you do not like. Something you do not understand. Again, that is to make it apart of yourself again. To unbreak into yourself. To erase that line of seperation. To accept that the differnce in this world makes it beautiful. This differnce is another part of you.
So reach out.
Be that thing, find its faint reflection in your soul, resonate with it and love it. Accept it for being there and you will be whole again.
I am... .A. spectacualar. Incredible. Wondrous. And Beautiful. Creation. .An. Intriguing. fantastical. mysterious. breathtaking. awsome. Dreamy. Fantasy. .An. Explosive. Forcefull. Frightening. Intimidating. Powerfull. Strong. Creator. .A. Talented. Creative. Crafty, Intelligent. brillant. Little Girl. .A. Curious. Inquisitive. Cheeky. Infuriating. Child. .A. Calculating. Patient. Wise. and slow seer. .A. Sensual. Soft. Caressing. Gentle. Romantic. And Warm. Lover. .An. Ugly. Lonley. Distorted. Abandoned. Fractured. Bleeding. Victim. .A. Selfish. Narcissistic. Obsessive. Cruel and proud. Victor. .A. Bright. Blinding. White. Light. .A. Compelling. Persuasive. Member. Of. This. Society. .A. Mighty. Gust. Of. Wind. A star. In the. Inky Blue. Sky. Cloud. .A. Im. Not an. Angel. .A. A vision. Of. Imperfection. .An. Aid. To. The. Beautiful. The. Wings. Of. The. Angel. .A. Falling leaf. .An. Old Oak Tree. .A. Rain. Drop. A wave. A River. An ocean. .A thought. A Feeling. A touch. .A. Vision. A Dream. An illusion. .A. Letter. A. Sentance. A paragraph. A novel. .A. Cryptic Code. .A. Sketch. An Image. A film. A painting. In oils. .An. Earth. A sun. A satrun. A milky way. .A. Rhyme. A cry. A song. Poetry. .A. Me. A you. A them. An us. .A. Me. Alone. .I. Am.
Hey guys,
Im tired
My hole closed.
Getting it re pierced though at pagan piercings
So not to worry
Teh stud will be back
And once again
Ill be gangstuhh
nick: *reads “share spaghetti on the list I made of things we need to do” awwww sharagetti !
me: lol what sharagetti ?
nick: I meant to say share spaghetti
me: ROFLMFAO.
Nick: Okay Oka THANKS ENUFF
me: lmfao “thanks”
nick: I mean “that’s” oh man im losing my typing steak
me: STEAK HAHAHA
It is however a "secret diary entry"
So only naughty for me to see.
I like that
nick: Im so horny
me: i have to revise today for my maths exam tomorrow
nick: yeah you can do that after
nick: your such a wussy wussy sad person
>Mally loves Nicholas Lots.
Together we are....
-x-[SusPenDeR] [ W0maN ] and [InDiG0] [ B0y ]-x-
♥.F0r The Rest 0f Ever.♥
[Message sent to >enter username of someone cool<. Elftown loves you and wants to hug you! (Unless this message was an insult or a chain message.) May you have a wonderful night!]
What does that mean?
^^This game is XRAZY^^
I cant fucking get past like the 5th level.
Its got me hooked
and its so stupid.
The father
A.k.a
Daddy
When jesus broke the peice of bread, he said "[Take this and eat it, for it is my body]".
He did not say "[ Eat Me ]"
The virgin mary
<[Mary with teh cherry]>
Taken from Izzys diary. But its just so true
28 Ways To Make A Girl Smile
1. Tell her you think shes beautiful, not hot or fine or sexy.
2. Hold her hand at any moment, even if its just for a second.
3. Kiss her on the forehead.
4. Leave her voice messages to wake up to.
5. Always tell her you love her, at any and all times.
6. When shes upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you.
7. Reconginize the small things, they usually mean the most.
8. Call her sweetie and baby.
9. Sing to her, no matter how horrible your voice is.
10. Pick her over your guy friends, and especially girl friends.
11. Write her notes, she loves them.
12. Introduce her to family and friends as your grilfriend.
13. Play with her hair.
14. Pick her up, tickle her, play-wrestle with her.
15. Sit in the park and talk to her.
16. Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes.
17. Throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night, just because you missed her.
18. Let her fall asleep in your arms.
19. Carve your names into a tree (but then plant a new one together for the damaged you caused).
20. If she's mad at you, kiss her.
21. Give her piggy back rides.
22. Buy her ice cream.
23. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.
24. Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants.
25. Look her in the eyes.
26. Slow dance with her, even if there isn't any music playing.
27. Kiss her in the rain.
28. If you're in love with her, tell her.
I love it when Im listening to music on the bus or in a vehicle of some sort, and I look outside and I see somebody walking perfectly to beat to the song im listening to. Its magical. It makes me smile every time For some reason I guess it makes me feel that someone somewhere out there in this world it may not necessarily be that person, But somebody out there is in sync with me. Whatever that means. Music. Or Life. Or what not. Somebody knows. Somebody feels the beat. The beat of life :) It makes me smile. Its magical.