[choke_on_dreams]'s diary
In a quiz thing I complete for nicholas
I was just reading through the answers
and realised how stupid I am:
Look at this:::
24. [Have you ever seen me cry?:] No, I don’t really want to see you hurt and cry, but I want to be the one you cry to :) yes I know I contradicted myself but, like, I don’t want to see you hurting, but I want to be the person you can cry to. Okay now I just repeated myself.
Really Now...
Whats the difference
Well paper one was not as bad as I expected.
I still failed - dont get me wrong.
But it was okay-failing.
Paper two
Oh
my
God.
[m0th3rfuck3r]
It was whorobul
I didnt know Anything at all.
But its okay beacuse people seem to have found that one hard too.
So I feel Reasured to know that :
stupidity comes in large groups of people
Rather than that large group consisting of me and me only. Which is usually the case.
I have good School news Too!.
Im like, Top in the [.C.]lass for:
[.B.]iology.
[.P.]hysics.
[.C.]hemistry.
omfglykewoah - right ?
Well that made me pretty happy.
Nick said he was proud of me.
That made me Happier
I </3 Math. I </3 Numbers. I </3 Questions. I </3 Exams. I </3 Tomorrows. I </3 Exams Tomorrows. I </3 Math/number Questions In The Exam Tomorrows.
okay
So this is just ohsofuckingper
I Just came to a revelation
I dont know Jack Shit.
Whoopdefuckingdoo.
Hello. What?
I think Im going to Cry
nick:Myspacebarhas
me: *lots and lots of spaces*
My space bar has A.D.D.
Even when he's being [ s i l l y ]
Or making fun of me
beacuse
I said he would be "sleep dehydrated"
As apposed to
[x Sleep deprevation x]
(I tried)
Because he has to work crazy hours at work.
Meaning that he will have to be
Temporarily Nocturnal.
Hes my hero.
Whether he Sleeps or not.
.I.Love.You.But.You.Broke.Me .
Written about Tuesday 2005-06-28
Written: (6963 days ago)
Smoked some Weed at lunch
with teh izzy.
She was so sweet:
me: *Talking about Stu* Do you still love him?
izzy: Malavika, your asking me if I still love the guy who ripped out my heart and cheated on me with my best friend while I was in france for one week and then...
me: Izzy. Do you love him?
izzy: *silence* *looks down*...yes.
me: *hug*
And then later::
Izzy: *holds my hand and runs up to katie* Hi we are stuncked sunked, stone stunned...
*pause*
mally and izzy: STONED!
[I'll never make you Cry]
<3 the backstreet boys are back BITCHES <3
[.Lyk.OmFg.Mah.Wh0re.Is.Teh.SEx.]
[♥♥♥CASSANDRA♥♥♥]
your just jealous cos we have crazy sex.
Its just the small things Nicholas does
That makes me // [xxxS0 hAppeHxxxx]//
For ::: example :::
Hes at work currently
But he sent me a msg
From his phone...
saying:::
[I love you baby :) mwah]Things going ay okay.
Sometimes it just feels like
I cant make it through the week
I have so much shit
To do
and Im the worst at
organising anything.
I leave things to the last minute
and by the last minute
I mean
Usually the minute after the last.
Which is not good.
I dont know how im going to do all of this .
K you know what?
I have lots of things to do this week.
Its going to be difficult
My chemistry c/w is due in
on
Friday.
K, This may be an issue since I havnt actually started it.
But its okay.
I also have in all my media c/w in for thursday
Ive done some of it.
Okay. Major thing now:::
MATHS EXAM ON WEDNESDAY
Seriously Have to revise for that.You dont understand.
And I have english in for like friday. But thats not really a problem.
So What I need to do..
Media and some revision tonight
Media and some revision tomorrow night
Finish it tomorrow night...(media)
Then.
Chemistry coursework on wednesday thursday
hand it in on
.Friday.
Thats okay.
Do english sometime.
Its okay.
K.
I can do that.
kthxbye
It was Beautiful.
...We had spoke plenty earlier that day...
We didnt want to say our G0odby3s.
Its always so [♥harD♥].
He had his house alone to himself :(
My house was [ FulL ] of people.
It was so lonely.
But then, just before I went to [.Zz.Sleep.zZ.].
It was [-4-] eh am
I called him.
In my room.
The lights were off.
The moon was [.Leaking.] into my ♥room♥.
I felt empty
I needed him.
He seemed happy to talk to me *blush*
The sky was light.
It was beatufiul♥
We spoke for quite a long time.
It was so ♥[.B.]eautifu[.L.]♥
And just S♥ [R0mantiC]
There was a .s.i.l.e.n.c.e
And he said :
"Oh, My Little [.X//x. Princess .x\\x.]"It made me Flutter.x.x.x.
And then he sang to me,
He has a ♥Beautiful♥ [x...V0ice...x]
He sang...
[+Incy Wincy +Spider+]
and -Hummed-...
[**x**Twinkle Twinkle Little Star**x**]
I cant even begin to describe how close
I felt to him
that night.
It was Perfect
I could almost...
Reach out
And
[x-xKiss himx-x]He had my sunrise.
He has Me.
Wow lots to say today. Maybe a seperate entry for each of the major things you know :P
Well firstly, nicks just left for work.
I dont know why I make it such a big deal,
I mean im going to be speaking to him tomorrow night
once he gets back from saving the world and everything.
My hero.
And also, I should be happy with all the time
I got to spend with him this weekend
It was basically just us :)
We were so close
As close as we could be with an ocean in between us.
But more about that later.
Anyway, I was talking to my mother
and she was lecturing me
about something I did wrong
as usual
but anyway, just as we were leaving to go to bed
the phone rang
and she picked it up
(it was nicholas)
and she said "is it nick?"
and i was like "NO MOM"
cos i figured that cos she was mad at me at the time
she'de proabbly be like "Nicholas, Malavika is busy" or something lame.
But she didnt :)
She conversed with him.
and I was so proud of her.
It was hard for her to do but
she was actually smiling
and laughing etc
She also said he was very "handsome"
and im like "mom - hes hawt"
hehehe.
Things are looking good :)
Things will work out,
Im sure of that
undoubtedly.
I guess the only problem here is time.
I can wait.
He can wait.
But I dont have time to be patient
I want him now.
We spoke briefly and said our goodbyes :)
Im so silly sometimes *blush*
And now hes gone
But its okay
I can speak to him tomorrow right
and its going to be fun fun fun :)
Well this entry is getting too big.
Ill make another one now about another aspect of our
beautiful relationship