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615646 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-07-04
Written: (7086 days ago)

what is love?

Is love just pure infatuation
The passion euphoria of the elation
Or simply just a shied confession
That this maybe nothing but obsession
Is it the bliss that you may find
When the soul met soul
And when your mind met mind
Have you fallen in this delusion
Like a mirage it is only illusion
Perhaps it’s the wanting of sexuality
The casting of formality
Try again if you must
But do remember that this is lust
Maybe it is the art of sacrifice
Since when does love come with a price
But then to love, you have to give
This is perhaps, what love is.

615643 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-07-04
Written: (7086 days ago)

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[.An.Angel.Never.Dies.]

Don’t let them tell you that I wasn’t born
That something stopped this heart
I heard each loving word you cried
And I loved you from the start
Although my body you cannot hold
It does not mean I’ve gone
It isn’t your fault that im not here
God chose that I move on
I know you think the world is cruel
With all you are forced to face
But you have my word, ill fill your arms
One day mommy, we will embrace
People will say it wasn’t meant to be
But god doesn’t make mistakes
I guess that wont soften your broken soul
And make your heart not ache
But I am watching you, every day
And another child you shall bear
Please believe me when I say to you
That I am always there
There will come a time, I swear to you
When you will hold my hand
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
Maybe then you will understand
Although I never breathed your air
Or gazed into your eyes
It doesn’t mean I never ‘was’
An angel never dies

615634 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-07-04
Written: (7086 days ago)

Soft blushing, feathered and .f r a y e d.
The white is blinding, an [x.angel.x] is laid.

.Ripped., xt a t t e r e dx -bruised- and sore,
My body .c.u.t. to the [-x-core-x-]
My wings have //.::broken::.//, crushed and dead
Weak and hollow, left [ .unsaid. ]

615626 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-07-04
Written: (7086 days ago)

My prayers to God.

x .Like Poems in the stars.x

. Like Songs In the Sun .

XX. //Like, My only Hope\\ .XX

My Prayers to God

615624 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-07-04
Written: (7086 days ago)

+. //:: S h a t t e r e d + D r e a m s + A n d + B r o k e n + H i g h s :://.+

615620 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-07-04
Written: (7086 days ago)

[ Whispered ] secrets
Lies and [x-lies-x]
In the lonely nights 
She [cries +and+ cries]
How can she -trust-?
Another <3[ heart ]<3
When the heart she loved
Gave into [+.l.u.s.t.+]	
There is no more [x innocence x] 	
In her <x [eyes] x>
No more [</3--lullabies--</3]
Just Her [-x Broken Goodbyes x-]

615612 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-07-04
Written: (7086 days ago)

I totally undersestimated little kids.
Im fucking tired.
I got home at 3:15
AND slept
from
4:00
to
10:00 pm.
I feel great.
Its only monday.

615606 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-07-04
Written: (7086 days ago)

[As Part Of Work Experience. Im working in a Day care place for 2-4 year olds]

Valuable Lessons I Have Learnt From The Little Kids.

1.. When asked for your name, it is absolutly necessary to say your entire name. For Example:
me: Hi, my names mally.
boy: Hi Mally, My name is Jack Alexander Abraham peicing.
2. If you come across a picture of an animal that you have yet to learn the name of, It is automatically a Dinosaur.
3. Little kids arent totally retarded. They are not stupid. You are.
4. A book with no pictures, is not a book.
5. me: Hows life?
james: what?
me: what is love?
james: love is a pretty lilly. Im going to marry lilly when im big. I love her.
6. Theres nothing better than a game of catch.

615589 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2005-07-04
Written: (7086 days ago)

2 year old Charley: *hands me over some plastic food* heres dinner.
me: awww THANKS. shall I eat it *brings to mouth*
2 year old Charley: Its only pretend food stupid.
me: oh. right.

*silence*
*Jack starts singing a queen song*
jack:I want to ride my bicycle...

614912 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-07-03
Written: (7087 days ago)

Matt and my mom get on strangly well :S

614901 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-07-03
Written: (7087 days ago)

3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says: <-matt
hey house
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:<-me
hey leg
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
hey.....BUNGALOW
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
HEY
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
UM
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
ooo say it slowly
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
YACHT
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
BUNG....GA.....LOW
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
SEMI DETACHED
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
D.E.T.A.T.C.H.E.D.
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
ooo ur so dirty
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
TERRACED
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
ooooo
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
FLAT
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
tell me about it , i need cleaning ladies atleast once every week

614878 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-07-03
Written: (7087 days ago)

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me:I LOVE YOU
Cass: I LOVE YOU LIKE A FAT KID LOVES CAKE *goes offline*

614732 Link to this entry
Written about Sunday 2005-07-03
Written: (7087 days ago)

Im bored of this fucking diary

613488 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-07-01
Written: (7089 days ago)

me: hey matt
matt: hi
me: …
matt: yes
me: agreed
matt: want to fuck slowly?
me: no

613463 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-07-01
Written: (7089 days ago)

Im at Dada's house.
Im bored
Fucking weed is making me feel sleepy
I want to be happy and stuff though
Oh well
maybe tomorrow ;)

613405 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-07-01
Written: (7089 days ago)

I fducking spent 10 pounds on some weed and i had it ALl in one go and im not feeling a fucking thing.

613404 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2005-07-01
Written: (7089 days ago)

mally and Rosie walking down the street. Mally stops dead in her tracks and makes a happy squeal<3
mally: Omg whats that smell, its *orgasms* beautiful...aah
vag: Car exhaust fumes mally.
mally shit

612713 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-06-30
Written: (7090 days ago)

psst
If I write
666
Does that make a 
hardxc0re 
satan worshiping
Gawth?
Yes! Thats exactly
What I want.
666
666
666
666

612651 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-06-30
Written: (7090 days ago)

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Im just getting onto Media. K. Tomorrow is Friday. Do you know happy that makes me?
Momma wants to go see some weird non-english film with me tomorrow.
which im totally up for because that means the one thing I love most, apart from nicholas and cassandra.
subtitles.
yessss
Fo sho Nigga

612503 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-06-30
Written: (7090 days ago)

I just ate salt and vinegar crisps. The first time since forever. <3

612429 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2005-06-30
Written: (7090 days ago)

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cassandra: *invites me to webcam*
*pause* [mally does not want to accept. she feels camera shy :o]

cassandra: accept you faggot
me: *blink*
cassandra: come on you mornonic FAGGOT. whom i love. <3

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