[choke_on_dreams]'s diary
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note:
I love cassandra
and Nicholas.
He called me today at work because he was worried.
Isnt that sweet.
I miss him.
its just hard not talking to him that much, and not having him, you know ..here.
well ill tell you all about that story tomorrow.
as of now.
Im tired.
Im going to bed.
nightynighty poppet
brother: Even your daughter doesnt like you
dad: I know, :( but I cant get everyone to like me can I.
brother: no but, have you realised, no body really likes you..
dad: no its not true, i have more friends than you do
brother: no you DONT. your daughter doesnt even like you
dad: who malu?
brother: *Sarcastically
dad: hahaha
brother: If you spend some time with her, to just get to know her a little bit she will love you too. If I dont spend time with her then she hates me, but if I talk to her and stuff she really loves me.
dad: I better just leave her alone. Do you think Sara (little baby we know) likes me?
brother: shes to young to like you. once she gets older shes going to hate you
dad: oh great. great future prospects for me. Why should I stay here if nobody likes me.
brother: I didnt say NOBODY lieks you. I just said most people.
[A conversation I overheard. It made me smile a little]
cass: what are you up to?
me: umpa
lumpa
umpadedoo
if you are wise
you;ll listen to me
what do you get
if you
...smoke some pot?
a pain in the back
or are you a yacht
lmfao.
IM GOOD SISTAH. YOU?
cass: nothing much nugga
me: I enjoy a good spanking
cass: and I...like ostriches
Libby: what are these? *points at my breast*
me: uh..LOOK CLAY!
Libby: are they boobies?
me: I dont know. LOOK CLAY!
what is love?
Is love just pure infatuation
The passion euphoria of the elation
Or simply just a shied confession
That this maybe nothing but obsession
Is it the bliss that you may find
When the soul met soul
And when your mind met mind
Have you fallen in this delusion
Like a mirage it is only illusion
Perhaps it’s the wanting of sexuality
The casting of formality
Try again if you must
But do remember that this is lust
Maybe it is the art of sacrifice
Since when does love come with a price
But then to love, you have to give
This is perhaps, what love is.
Written about Monday 2005-07-04
Written: (6956 days ago)
Don’t let them tell you that I wasn’t born
That something stopped this heart
I heard each loving word you cried
And I loved you from the start
Although my body you cannot hold
It does not mean I’ve gone
It isn’t your fault that im not here
God chose that I move on
I know you think the world is cruel
With all you are forced to face
But you have my word, ill fill your arms
One day mommy, we will embrace
People will say it wasn’t meant to be
But god doesn’t make mistakes
I guess that wont soften your broken soul
And make your heart not ache
But I am watching you, every day
And another child you shall bear
Please believe me when I say to you
That I am always there
There will come a time, I swear to you
When you will hold my hand
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
Maybe then you will understand
Although I never breathed your air
Or gazed into your eyes
It doesn’t mean I never ‘was’
An angel never dies
The white is blinding, an [x.angel.x] is laid.
My body .c.u.t. to the [-x-core-x-]
My wings have //.::broken::.
Weak and hollow, left [ .unsaid. ]
x .Like Poems in the stars.x
XX. //Like, My only Hope\\ .XX
[ Whispered ] secrets Lies and [x-lies-x] In the lonely nights She [cries +and+ cries] How can she -trust-? Another <3[ heart ]<3 When the heart she loved Gave into [+.l.u.s.t.+] There is no more [x innocence x] In her <x [eyes] x> No more [</3--lullabies--</3] Just Her [-x Broken Goodbyes x-]
I totally undersestimate
Im fucking tired.
I got home at 3:15
AND slept
from
4:00
to
10:00 pm.
I feel great.
Its only monday.
me: Hi, my names mally.
boy: Hi Mally, My name is Jack Alexander Abraham peicing.
2. If you come across a picture of an animal that you have yet to learn the name of, It is automatically a Dinosaur.
3. Little kids arent totally retarded. They are not stupid. You are.
4. A book with no pictures, is not a book.
5. me: Hows life?
james: what?
me: what is love?
james: love is a pretty lilly. Im going to marry lilly when im big. I love her.
6. Theres nothing better than a game of catch.
2 year old Charley: *hands me over some plastic food* heres dinner.
me: awww THANKS. shall I eat it *brings to mouth*
2 year old Charley: Its only pretend food stupid.
me: oh. right.
*silence*
*Jack starts singing a queen song*
jack:I want to ride my bicycle...
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says: <-matt
hey house
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:<-me
hey leg
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
hey.....BUNGAL
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
HEY
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
UM
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
ooo say it slowly
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
YACHT
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
BUNG....GA....
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
SEMI DETACHED
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
D.E.T.A.T.C.H.
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
ooo ur so dirty
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
TERRACED
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
ooooo
3 Matt - GO SEE THE WIZ!!!!! 8th and 9th July!!! says:
FLAT
-+ .I am Cold and I am Shamed Lying Naked On The Floor. +- says:
tell me about it , i need cleaning ladies atleast once every week
Written about Sunday 2005-07-03
Written: (6957 days ago)
me:I LOVE YOU
Cass: I LOVE YOU LIKE A FAT KID LOVES CAKE *goes offline*
me: hey matt
matt: hi
me: …
matt: yes
me: agreed
matt: want to fuck slowly?
me: no
Im bored
Fucking weed is making me feel sleepy
I want to be happy and stuff though
Oh well
maybe tomorrow ;)
I fducking spent 10 pounds on some weed and i had it ALl in one go and im not feeling a fucking thing.