"One night when i was in 8th grade, i went to a party, and there was this guy there named Tommy. he was sooo hot. we started talking, and we went to the couch to sit down and talk. well, we started moving closer and he leaned in for a kiss, i leaned in to, and we kissed. but just as we were finishing, i saw him make a face like it was bad. and later, he had a friend tell me i was the most horrible kisser ever. i cried for hours, then i slit my wrists for being a bad kisser. i punished myself for not being experienced. "

This is kinda scary.

really embarrasing moment that happened to me some time ago::

This guy was just standing there and he said "How are you?" I thought this was a little weird so I was like "um fine thank you, and you?" and without even replying to me he said "what are you up to?", Again, I thought this was weird and I was like "nothing much..you?".
Which is when he turned around to me and said
"Excuse me, do you mind? Im on the phone"
I could have died.

Somtimes things arent fair.
It isnt fair that Nicholas isnt here with me now.
Oh
What Ide give for just
One Kiss.
One word.
One anything.
Anything at all.
One second.
Just one touch.
Thats all I ask for.
For now.
x </3 x

Yes its hard to be away from the one you love.

matt: k well i gotta go, see ya around angel.

awwww

I feel like a much needed
rant about
Nicholas
you know when you just feel like talking about him
for ever and ever and ever?
yes.
that
exactly.
im lucky becuase ive met alot of really cool amazing
people recently
who are just tehre for me to talk to
x i appreciate that x

me: are you smiling?
rob: no why?
me: I think you are
rob: I am now

*silence*

me: Are you thinking about raping and pillaging an army of sheep?
rob: no not at all. that was like the farthest thing from my mind
me: but it WAS ON your mind though
rob: pfft im strange

*silence*

me: rob. stop thinking it.
rob: oh sorry. my appologies.

Vag: how are you
Me: okay you? media help
Vag: shouldn’t that have been : “okay…you help me with media?”
Me: you know me so well

rob: I like doing other things though
me: mmm I know what you mean...
*Silence*
rob: im reading about some sheep jumping of cliffs
me: and is this what you mean by "I like doing other things"?

on the computer desk:

- kipling cakes. one left.
- twix wrapper.
- empty plate where i had my cheese toastie
- scissors
- a britney spears album
- my [A FUCKING PLUS] english essay
- 8 mile dvd
- orange colouring in pencil
- a broken pen
- a poetry society booklet
- cheats for ps2 books
- a few batteries that dont work
- a broken clalculator
- my head phones
- Glue
- A painting
- a cd
- painkillers
- some paper
- a torch
- a little star bead that fell out of my belt.:(
- a plastic bag
- two novels
- a spring that i broke from my shower
- a light bulb.


and they say this isnt a good working environment?
Imma go overdose on my painkillers and sniff my glue now. goodbye.

He says he misses me too
And I know he does :)
Sometimes its just hard to deal with though because
we're just so far away from eachother.
Even if he was on the otherside of england
it wouldnt be AS bad.
wait.
maybe it would.
no it wouldnt.
because england is england.
its the same goddamn country.
Its just so hard sometimes :(
I dont know what to do with my feelings.






I cant help but feel alone sometimes.
I dont mean to

k.
this is not really good.
I spoke to him today.
Twice actually.
But I Still miss him :(
























Whats wrong with me ? <3

um.
this is kinda embarrasing
I guess.
Well, I have this sort of
!T!H!I!N!G!
kind of [Obbsessive].
This weird repetitive thing I do sometimes
Because I can
And because I like it
I like it so much that it feels
wrong not doing it.
Its one of my many little
“Obsessions”
I like to [Click my mouse]
Lots.
And lots.
And lots.
And lots.
Again.
And again.
And again.
And again.
I type something to someone on
msn
I instantly close the window.
Straight away.
Pronto.
Then go to the desktop
And click
Like a
madman.
And then they Reply
I close the window.
Click a little.
Go on msn.
Click on them.
Click a few times.
write their message
And close it
And the process begins
All over again.
Well *blushes*
I was talking to Nicholas
For a long time
And at the end of the conversation.
I just
Well.
Went to the top of the conversation window
For the sake of it
And.
It went all the way back to the [“Hellos”]
WHICH MEANS
I didn’t
close
The window.
not once
The entire time
I was so happy.
*Blush*
I was so proud
I COULDN’T BELIEVE IT.
I re read the conversation
again and again
Just to make sure
I wasn’t fooling myself.
And I wasn’t :$
im so happy
I told him
And he said he was proud of me.
mmmm.
I feel so good.
Aragh.
Need to go on to the desktop
And click some more
In happiness.

[ I <3 flirting with nicholas] :P

me: oh did you hear about those terrorist bombings in london?
nick: Oh yeah I did. Im so glad you werent there
me: hehe. yeah. Did you see that on the news?
nick: yewp
me: what so they like have news about like other global issues apart from canada and america?
nick: yeah!
me: oh really. LIKE WHAT?
nick: I dont know! I dont watch it!
me: you dont watch the news?!!
nick: well yeah I do but not today or anything
me: then how did you know about the bombings
nick: it was on the news!
me: so you DID watch it?
nick: yeah but I only glanced on it and it just happened to be that story.
me: omg. So even though it was about the country that YOUR GIRLFRIEND was in, you just "glanced" at it!
nick: aaah i watched it for like five minutes
me: wtf. so a glace is five minutes!? omg nicholas next time we're arguing about you checking out some other girl and you say taht you just "glanced" at her, imma know exactly what you mean mr.
nick: OMG MALLY. ERASE THAT FROM YOUR MEMORY
me: nope. its quoted. Its staying.


[lykedude.hes playing MIND GAMES WITH ME. lyke WOAH]

[mally is an expressive] guitarist has a versatile voice and is a [striking songwriter]
[mally is able to integrate] his thorough knowledge of anatomy and physiology with[the practice of massage]
[mally is such a video] - I say PORN
mally [is not directly measured or statistically estimat]
mally is [trusted by]
mally is wrapping sunders leg
mally is the acuvue® 2 colours™ color expert
mally is the owner of art from the soul
mally is a [god amongst men] when it comes to his knowledge of the [fairer sex]
mally is determined to keep [looking for the killer] on his own
mally is having [a ball]
mally is from minnesota and i am from michigan
mally is the disgusting by
mally is particularly proud of developing work standards for a ?10
mally is heavier boned [HEY ASSHOLE!]
[mally is a beautiful name]
mally is quite right that these two propositions are not equivalent according to the ordinary use of the word "ought
[mally is actually made out of squishy lead] lmfao
mally is a black female
[mally is a prolific poet] with many publications over the years
mally is
[mally is one of the smaller mysteries] OMG YES. THIS IS GOING ON MY HOUSE
mally is leaving
mally is on the [trail of the thieves]
[mally is swank"] SOS THIS
[mally is defended by barty's own silent admission of love for her] - note: going on my house but change "barty" for nick.
[mally is a botanical artist] and co
mally is a year old married
[mally is concerned more with traditional logic] than with modern logic
[mally is angel?s] partner
mally is happy to report that funding for his group hasn't dropped off as much as gmhc's
mally is an integral part of your ministry
mally is certified as a diplomate with the american board of internal medicine and is a member of the medical staffs of st
mally is generally regarded as [a trend setting pioneer whose innovative methods have been used successfully for several years]
mally is the daughter of marny
mally is rag a muffins fluffy little sister
[mally is an 18" floppy panda made from a stone and brown english mohair with wool felt paw pads] going on house
[mally is a priest]
mally is sponsoring
[mally is of low frequency] this too</n>
mally is [on the right track]
[mally is a young woman caught in a home life that anyone would dread being a part of] <b>same
mally is a syracuse
[mally is an ex new york city policeman with a grudge against vince bellazoni]
[mally is obviously an upright member of the community whose morals cannot be brought into question]
[mally is voiced by the person who did baloo in the classic jungle book] lmfao yes this too. everything pink ggoes on my house
mally is on building place and tocha is an inspector in bus communication company
[mally is known]
[mally owns] so fuckin true
mally is a detective with the syracuse police who promises the mother of two missing children that he will find them alive and bring them home
mally is directed by coventry's kathi leahy
[mally is a different dimension than when you get it out of the box]
mally is co
mally is related to enstrophy
[mally is a little bit too intrigued by boys who seem to have mysterious pasts]
[mally is to good to be true]
mally is given
[mally is required for admission]
[mally is not out of her mind]
mally is jason and marcus's teacher
mally is the largest
mally is ird's director of operations and project manager for indonesia projects
mally is your personnel ifficer
[mally is my best friend in life]
[mally is not optional]
mally is minimal
[mally is the target of just about everyone and]
[mally is funny]
mally is on her way right now with soup for me
mally is a graduate of both bastyr university
mally is written entirely in c without the use of rtl constructs
[mally is standing at the podium]
mally is sitting at a chair
[mally is already here?]
mally is the elder statesmen on this young team and she helps push the younger runners such as newcomer kellie magaw
mally is diluted to the volume needed for makeup
mally is? nathan no
mally is just inbounds past the top of the key
[mally is responsible for the language it contains]
mally is doing just fine taking care of her father and her sister

www.googlism.com

[ I <3 flirting with nicholas] :P

me: oh did you hear about those terrorist bombings in london?
nick: Oh yeah I did. Im so glad you werent there
me: hehe. yeah. Did you see that on the news?
nick: yewp
me: what so they like have news about like other global issues apart from canada and america?
nick: yeah!
me: oh really. LIKE WHAT?
nick: I dont know! I dont watch it!
me: you dont watch the news?!!
nick: well yeah I do but not today or anything
me: then how did you know about the bombings
nick: it was on the news!
me: so you DID watch it?
nick: yeah but I only glanced on it and it just happened to be that story.
me: omg. So even though it was about the country that YOUR GIRLFRIEND was in, you just "glanced" at it!
nick: aaah i watched it for like five minutes
me: wtf. so a glace is five minutes!? omg nicholas next time we're arguing about you checking out some other girl and you say taht you just "glanced" at her, imma know exactly what you mean mr.
nick: OMG MALLY. ERASE THAT FROM YOUR MEMORY
me: nope. its quoted. Its staying.

me: *ranting*
nick: shut up your mouth