How are you?
I'm not fine.
I'm not fine at all.
I have two history essays that are due in for Thursday.
I have yet to begin either.
I have to finish my maths project.
Its in for Friday.
I have yet to begin this.
My boyfriend thinks I'm cheating on him with one of my best friends.
Who keeps trying to kiss me.
He thinks I'm “letting” him.
And that I want him to.
He asks me “what’s wrong?”
Like everything’s right.
I like this other guy, but not like that,
But all this attention he’s getting
Is making me think about him more and more.
I feel frustrated.
I cant control myself.
Nicholas asks me if I would mind if he talks to “Nicole”.
I don’t like Nicole.
I feel like he’s doing it just in spite.
Because I'm still talking to matt.
He hasn’t been in contact with Her for a long time.
But suddenly feels the need to get into contact with her again.
I find that rather Pathetic..
I said to him
“If you want to. Go for it.”
”Send Her My –Love-“.
I ask one guy to send me one thing I need.
But he cant find the time of day to just send me like 3 files.
Picture files.
small files..
Instead he continues with his life
No body really cares ;;
All I'm asking for is
One moment of your time.
Nicks brother comes online.
“Great” I think.
I have someone to talk to.
Before I even get a chance to tell him
All the problems of my Life.
He’s feeling ill.
He has to go to .S l e e p.
And off he goes.
I'm acting like a Bitch. to my boyfriend.
The only one I love more than anything else in the world.
My mother just started to throw all my Cd’s in the bin.
Because I didn’t put them back in the cover.
I just left them there.
I feel sick to my Stomach.
I keep procrastinatin
Im a Horrible, Horrible person.
”I'm very fine thank you”
Apparantly ;;
Everybody has feelings,
But not everybody cheats.
I dont want him to have feelings at all.
And he told me, He didnt.
Yeah.
Do I have a social life?
No, acutally.
me : but what if you think im a prick?
nick : sweetie..you ARE a prick.
me: what if im pricker than you think
nick : i dont think thats possible.
me: *says something*
nick: that was a really sexy thing to say. im quite turned on now.
GOD.
WHY cant she just FUCKING LEAVE HIM.
Im Not Relgious
But Sometimes I
Pray.
For him.
And I know
Its All
Fake
;;Out.
..Somethings got to change.
My horoscope said so.
Paper Is For Writing And The Cat's For The Rat. Cheese Is For Rationing.
Instructions
He's Worth Waiting For.
Wait for your Man and not a Boy.
Wait for the Man Who Finds You Beautiful. And Not Just Hot.
Wait for the Man Who Calls You Back after you Hang up On Him.
Wait for the Man Who Will Stay awake while your sleeping. Just to Watch.
Wait for the Man who kisses your Forehead and Ch33k.
Wait for the Man who wants to show you off to his friends when your in your sweats.
Wait For the Man who is willing to cry to you.
Wait for the Man Who will tell you his Insecurities.
Wait For the Man who will hold your hand infront of his Friends.
Wait For the Man who constantly Reminds you that he [Lo.ve.s] You.
Wait for the Man Who Gives you his Coat Because you were Shivering.
Wait for the Man Who Appologizes after he realises he did something wrong.
Wait for the Man Who Doesnt. play MIndGames With You.
Wait For The Man Who is your [B.est.Fr.ie.n.d.] and not simple a Lover.
Wait for the Man who you Trust with Your DignIty , and not just your Body.
Wait for the Man who wont make you Choose between your Friends. and Him.
Wait For the Man Who turns to his friends and says "Shes the one."
Izzy: **asks someone** Uhh Have you seen Sara?
Person : uhh…?
Izzy: well she’s tall and has blonde hair.
Person: jeesus do you know how many of them there are in that school?
Me : haha yeah everyones tall and blonde. No wait there are like two people who aren’t BUT WE’RE OUT HERE.
And He Left.
Again.
me: Man, I think your the submissive one in this relationship.
Izzy: Mally, anyone in a relationship with You would be submissive.
me: *says something repulsive*
Ixxy: *LOOKS FIERCE* Mally you sick retarded bitch.
I need to SuSu.
Everything you can do//
I can do Better.
And when all hope is gone.
Im here.
I love you Nicholas.
Im so glad I met somebody whos..taught me so many things.
Now I know that
you dont need to have touched a person to get butterflies
you dont need to have held a person to trust them completely
you dont need to have fucked a person to feel like you need them inside you :P
you dont need to have kissed a person to love them totally
you dont need to have met a person to need them, with everything you have
you dont need to have held hands with a person, to know they complete you.
In everyway possible.
Youve taught me so much. I dont want to let that go.
ever.
He hits her.
The barriers are back Up.
The defences are On.
My dad is Still and ass.
Nothing really changes.
It was only a few tears.