Dear Diary [<3]
My life is like spiraling downward.
I couldn't get enough money to go to that Bloodred Romance and Suffocate Me Dry concert. It sucks coz they play some of my favourite songs like [stab my heart out coz I love you], and [Rip Apart My Soul], and of course.. [Stab Me Rip Stab Stab]! And it doesn't help that I couldn't get my hair that flippy thing either, like that guy from that band can do. Some days I rip my heart out.
I'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can be, you'd be non-conforming too if you looked just like me. I have paint on my nails and make-up on my face, am almost emo enough to start shaving my legs. Coz I feel real deep, when I'm dressing in drag, I call it freedom of expression...m
Stop my breathing and slit my throat, I must be emo. I don't jump around when I go to shows. I must be emo. I'm dark and sensetive with low self esteem, the way I dress makes every day feel like [.H.a.l.l.o.w.e.e.n.] I have no real problems but I like to make believe, I stole my sisters mascara now I'm grounded for a week. Sulking and writing making poetry are my hobbies, I can't get through a [.Hawthorne.] [.Heights.] album without sobbing. Girls keep breaking up with me,its never any fun they say they already have a pussy,they don't need another one.
Stop my breathing and slit my throat, I must be emo. I don't jump around when I go to shows. I must be emo. Dye in my hair and polish on my toes. I must be emo. I play guitar and write suicide notes. I must be emo.
My life is just a black abyss, you know? Its so dark. And its suffocating me. Like I'm in a hole tightening its grip. Tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans. Which look great on me by the way.
When I get depressed, I cut my wrists in every direction, hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection, I write in a line drew and wear thich rim glasses. I tell my friends I bleed black, and cry during classes. I'm just a bad,cheap imitation of goth, give me catcher in the rye, and watch me jack off. I wear skin tight clothes, while hating my life, if I said I liked girls, I'd only be half right.
I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo,I must be emo. Screw X-box I play old school Nintendo. I must be emo. I like to wine and hit my parentals. I must be emo. Me and my friends all look like clones. I must be EEEEEEEMO.
My parents don't get me,you know? They think am gay just coz they saw me kiss a guy. Well a couple of guys. But I mean its the truth...why can't two, or four dudes make out with each other without being gay? I mean, chicks dig that kinda stuff anyways. I dunno diary, sometimes I think you're the only one that gets me. You're my best friend.
I feel like Tacos...
Me: do you enjoy touching horses
vag: in what context
me: in a totally sexually context
vag: MALLY
me: lol okay in a non sexual context....
vag: ugh no im not having this conversation with you
me: lol okay like, example, i like touching furry things, but it doesnt nessisarily mean that i am attracted to all furry things
vag: yes but you are
me: yes but thats not teh point
Dear Ian,
Check out the awesome Bass line In "Break me Shake" - Savage Garden.
Yours forever,
Malavika.
x
Dear Isobel,
Im sorry for shitting in your mouth.
Yours always.
Malavika
x
Edit that.
I can.
He remembered.
Fuck.
I cant use [Drive Faster Boy.] anymore.
Need a new one I guess.
Matt has this idea that if he squeezes my boobs, Ill fart.
Matt: Mally so if i squeeze your booobs your fart, what happens if I squeeze your ass?
Me: Ill shit on you.
Nick was high ;;
Nick: I always thinks that...
Me: wait..."I always thinks" lmao.
Me: You are being MEAN.
Nick: I am NOT
Me: you ARE
Nick:...Sorry.
Nick: Ill brb.
Me: okay sure bebe
*five minutes pass and Mally clicks on nicks window. Hes sitting there blankly*
Me: lol Babe...
Nick: *laughs* I forgot to say im back.
Me: haha...
Nick: mally...
Me: yes?
Nick: Im back
Mally: *says something*
Nick: wow youve never said that word before...coooo
Mally: said what?
Nick: that word?
Mally: what did i say?
Nick: neat
Mally: no i didnt?!
Nick: yes you did..
mally: nick i said I love you...
Me: whatare you thinking/>?
Nick: are you asking me special questions?
Me: what?!
Nick: are you asking me special questions because im high?
Me: like what?
Nick: like what are you thinking?
Me: nick dont i always ask you that?
Nick: yeah
Me: *trying to talk dirty*
Nick: OOOHHH SHES RUBBIN HER PUSSY NOW. OOHHH.
Me: *burst out laugh*?nick stfu. I cannot do this while your high.
Nick: your like one of those people who one 5 dollars at on the lottery...im nothing special.
Me: No, im one of thsoe people who dont buy lottery tickets because shes got everything she needs at home.
So listen,
its bonfire night tonight.
But I do not participate in such events.
Thank you.
Goodbye.
I may quite possibly stay over at Izzy's tonight,
along with my GOOD BEST FRIEND ;; Harriet QUEEN BELL.
Yes.
Nicholas and I will be Level four by the end of this weekend.
Guildwars. Yes.
I really should start studying for my exams I guess ya?
See Ya Later Sexy.
Thats what he says;; Yeah.
.:YoUr LiKe PoIsEn RuNnInG tHrOuGh My [V/e\I/n\S]:.
When She Jumped, She Probably Thought She Could Fly.
Upon Request, I think I could quite possibly write a little bit more on this diary.
Vag. Ahem.
Hey Man,
Today I called Nick, and It was like :
Nick: Uh oh.
Me: *silence* *Tries to stop laughing, because she thinks shes rang the wrong number* Is Nick there?
Nick: *Funny Voice*Uhm...Ya Ill give it to him *Silence* Hey Bebe, That was me all along.
*LAUGH FOR EVER AND EVER AND EVER*
Tom: I gtg guys
Nick: OHHH PLEASE DONT GO MAN PLEASE, IM GOING TO MISS YOU SO MUCH OMGGGG PLEASE, DONT LEAVE ME.
Mally: Bye man.
Tom: Ok Ill stay.
Nick: jk leave.
Mally: omg nick, well done.
Mally: *laughing really hard*
Nick: *silence* Okay. You just snorted. that was funny.
Im
Booooored.
Im a sex machine
Ready to relode.
Everytime I use ;; or &&. I just feel So Cool.
My stomach really hurts.
I think today is a Windy day lmao.
Its not a surprise anymore.
;;Its a failed surprise.
Like an
Abortion.
What? Do I LOOK Like Like A Florist?