im just pissed right now...everything is commming out of me now....its kinda like im cleaingin out my closet...imean...idon't care a/b wat u ppl think im just gonna type wat I think..im gonna start typing my true feelings and emotions...it doesnt really appeal 2 me if ne1 reads it or not...my friends should trust me enuf by now and no thigs that not regular ppl no....and no im a great person....im not that bad....at least thats usauuly wat pl think..they say im koel..but newayz,ijus feel totally different now...imean i like certain ppl...but ialwayz end up gettin my heartbroken wen im with that one person iluv...he ends up braking everything i hav..mentally,emotionally...ihav a bf now but he says that he wont ever do sumthing as lame like that 2 a sweet grl like me...but thats wat my last bf told me...wat happened?he called me a bitch and said i talked 2 much...how did i follow through with that?well i got pisssed and im ending a relation wit him right now cuz his friend told me he didnt wanna talk 2 me nemore..and if its not true then he should b mad at his friend not a me...omg,hes such an ass....hes like "o im srry i was an ass 2 u,ithought u wouldnt go out with me,ithought u h8d me"well...guess wat?ido now

wenevr i type in this here diary i speack my mind and wat i FEEL......idont care who reads this and if you don't like it at all..icould care less amatter of fact....ur the one who chose 2 read this...well,newayz...idunno wat im feelin right now...usually wen im off the edge i usually relax my self...not by the way ur probly thinkin..perve.... i mean by meditating....not naked or nething...just by laying down and thinking a/b spending a dae with friends or a guy that i really like....either mab going 2 a beach on a sunny great dae in r bathiing siuts and playin in the water or walking along side the shore talking about the gret friendship and memories we've ben through 2gether....or even just sitting along side the beach in lawn chairs being lazy.....imean,ijust love to relax myself....idid it yesturdae cuz it was real sunny and bright in my room...and ijust lay there thinking...some ppl can do it,if u hav a positve mind...but if u don't ull drift away in sumthing disasterous....but newayz my point is....nuthin really lol....ijust luv expresing my thoughts...like eminem..yeah,like him...and if u don't like it fuck you...cuz this is me...

hey,my bf brokeup wit me last night....4 a stupid reason.He actually told HIS friend 2 tell me this "ur a bitch and he thinks u talk 2 much". Imean its like "wtf"and he dosesnt even wanna talk 2 me nemore....he didnt even tell me that we hav broken up,we were like,not talkin 2 each other 4 a week and he jus assumed i kne i guees...imean,thats so stupid...he actually got his friend 2 say that we brokeup..he couldnt tell me simply himself.....imean its jus,idk....fuckin retarded...wenever i hav a bf I either brakeup with him...or HE either brakes up wit ME...has nuttin 2 do wit FRIENDS

skool had jus started and the dae was ok..it was normal,of course there was sum differnceses but talkin in similarity it was BORING,imean we worked on r group projects 2dae and went 2 the computer lab...OMG ta'lun is such an ass,he told me that my watches were tacky.....im like well at least i like them,nobdy ask 4 ur opinion...newayz,enuf a/b that asshole....im glad im ALSO in the group wit becca but like we're doing a project based on the book "A christmas carol"By,Charles Dickens.....becca,ta'lun and me r doing a report on how in the victorian ERA there banquest were held..like wat they wore,ate,wat music they played and all dat shit...but yeah,it was also pretty dmn boring if ya ask me...we found NUTHING....man,that sucked we wasted an hour ONLINE lokin up victorian crap...and we found NUTHIN...man,thats jus bullshit newayz the day dragged on and we made fucked up snowflakes,me and alex made up a gang called "the snowflakes"we made a chant and everything,is was hilarious....ushouldve ben there,haha..not that ull ever b....newayz im like"yup,we'd b ridin up in the pimp moblie....WITH SNOWFLAKES ON IT!",ha...well...ig2g nuthin interesting has really happened...jus the fact that i now hav a BOYFRIEND!oyeah,lol....his name is [oasis_182]hes nice and hot....jus ready 2 eat,lol....l8r!!

yuuuuuuuuummy yuuuuuummy...jus right 4 ur tummy.....HAHA *cracks up*ijus KILL myself...NOT...cya pimps;)

fat albert was such a great movie....iwent wit my bro and mom

..............eattin chocolate icecream....isnt my life wonderful?lol

not doing nething right now...jus goT through eattin...it got warm here 2dae,and i was soo heppy!but then unfortunaetly it started raining and i didnt get 2 go outside and enjoy the weather it was like 63degrees..owell,its gonna b warmer tomrw...im sooo sooo bored right now and christmas break is almost over!icant believe it!imean ive ben waiting 4 christmas 4ever seems..and its finally .......over..... it lasted 2 qiuckly then i expected it 2...hmmmm,owell.....newayz TAKE MY POLL...THAT 70s SHO IS IN THE LEAD!!!

i met a new best friend 2dae,his name is [trackstar]hes soo awesome and sweet!!,he jus makes u heppy...hes mde me heppy already!!omg,jus visit him and ull c!

......4christmas i got jewlry,clothes,shoes,CDs,dvds,houseshoes,watch,perfume,jewlry box,claires gift card..ect

hey,im back...bored as hell will ever b......newayz,christmas was ok...cept i didnt hav it wit my dad....ithink 2 of my cuzins r hot....idont think thats wrong even though u might...imean we hardly ever c each other,so its not like we see each other everydae.....newayz i talked a/b that in my other entry below sumwhere newayz im frezing we jus got bac from Fort Smith and my brother is watchin a boring fucked up sho on monster trucks...newayz...im out!layta

im listeing 2 my grl ashanti,and im jus sittin here freezing my ass off and iim gonna turn in2 a popcicle if i ju sit here...its like snowin here...im not gonna go outside...this is like the first time i didnt go outside wen it snowed...imean its like literally freezing!iwant hot weather!!!newayz,this sux i wanna go outside and play baskatball or sumthin...but i cant the only thing 2 do is go outside and thro snowballs,wat fun.newayz,ican't wait til christmas then i can b ctually doing sumthiin and being with my family while opening presents,lol...well,im gonna listen 2 sum of switchfoot CD in a minute and i finally emailed rishi,lol....so PEACE OUT

hey,sup?imet a new friend...his name is [s8in]....ithink u guys should visit his site...cuz like hes new...and hes awesome!,lol

hey,im bac...well we spent the night at For smith and it was great....my little cuzins didnt really undertand the fact of going ...but we went cuz of my great aunts funeral....and i hardly new her...but i understood....unfortunately i didnt get 2 go 2 the wake cuz it was monday....iherd she was real prety though...they fixed her up and evrything,she looked young all over again....she was my great aunt lucy...she use 2 live in L.a...she had pretty light skin with loong curly light brown hair......owell,right now im listeing 2 ashanti's new CD "concrete rose"man,its bad....ino it might sound weird...but i hav like a huge crush on my cuzin and his older 17year old brother..but like its not that gross 2 me cuz like,we hardly c each other...its not like we're brpother and sister...now THAT would b gross,lol....newayz...and my brother has a crush on like theres sisters,lol....there my idols cuz there pretty,smart,very talkative and sociable...and there jus awesome,lol....newayz...thats it 4 now,im gonna talk 2 my friends now....there waitin

decided not 2 go 2 Fort Smith 2dae....got 2 damn l8e,so we'll b going tomrw....leavin tomrw and comin bac tromrw.....gettin up reeeal early though...fuk that!ill fall asleep b4 we even reach the next city probly,lol....ig2 get up at around 6.....its a funeral we're goin 2....dont ask....inless ur a friend...other then that ill b pissed at u

im pissed....so pissed im not even gonna type nehting else....BYE

leaving 4 Fort Smith....tell u guyz all about it once i get bac!!!!!~*buh bye*~

hey,i got back from the movies with becca and kim....it was great!we saw that unfortunate events movie..iluved it!but like it was 2hours.....it was sooooo much fun....can't think of nehting else 2 talk a/b on here other then TAKE MY POLL....CARTOONS IS IN THE LEAD!,lol..well thats it 4 now,iguess....cant wait til christmas!

had r christmas party 2dae...it was great..we had pizza,chips and dip,cokes,DrPepper,sprite,diet coke,friut,ECVERYTHING A PARTY NEEDS BASICALLY!,lol...we also had music....and the teach put a video in but nobdy watched it,we jus all hung out and took pics...it was great...not much 2 say....i also starightened my hair....usually its like...straight,but not as straight as i want it...its like reealy pretty right now..im watchin ACE VEN TORA

i got bac from the um.....sleepover thing......idont really wanna talk a/b it....im srry im jus depressed.....nobdy can help me....i can solve my own problems..i usually do....nobdy cares a/b my problems obviously....i solve other ppls and solve mine....but nobdy can actually solve mine....i jus wanna go 2 sleep....and think a/b how 2 solve this situation im delting with all by myself...nobdy actual;ly nos how i feel....but i guess apperantly it doesnt matter...owell,ill go cry myself 2 sleep...goodnight (-L-)