dont got a bf nemore. his friend had 2 tell me that my boyfriend is cheatin on ME,he ask the grl out fridae anda hes been goin out with me forever it seems,imean hes not honest!thats the main thing i look in a guy honesty love gernerosity decent looking imean i just dont understand,he couldve atleast ben honest with me about cheating on me,so i dont got one.single again

the angel was so pretty inside,she brought out her eyes by the veil she wore.It was pink and colorful with a cloak that was blue.You never wouldve known she was an angel.She was an ordinary person with capris and sometimes slacks she never had a problem with guys taking naps.She never had a problem with ppl whistsling as she passed by she always wanted attention,she craved.You wouldve never known she was an angel.Everybdy was always so jelous they never even gave her a chance.Its like she didnt care that no one was ever there to support her.She was walking a shadow everyday and never noone would follow all they did was stare and whitsle at her beauty and get envious and hate her.She never cared she had so much power and self-esteem but outside of her mind was the sound of the word "reject"everyone considered her a "reject" nobdy ever came for her rescue she only had herself,no one to support her.She always helped and cared for ppl but they would never feel the same way towards her. They would ignore her and go about there bussiness.Yes may i say it was sad but thats how it is somewhere in this very world today.Ppl ignore,hate,get ENVIOUS of other ppl either b/c of wat they hav,how many friends they have,if there popular,how they look....theres so many reasons and ways and choices that theres waaaaaaay to much to type up...while im sitting here typing this very moment everything in this world is changing and whirling by,ppl meet other ppl,ppl getting in fights,wars, ppl's mental or physical actions towards themselves or others.Anything can happen in a heartbeat.

hey,its weird 2 think each and every one of us think different from each other....like we're all totally diferently ppl with totally different mind segments.....and we're living on this planet called "Earth"and its soooo big holding up all of the cuntries and states and EVERYTHING....even the oceans,forests,woods......its jus soo amazingly weird.....ihav no idea y im typing this up but im just curois 2 know where all of this actually came from..imean in science it says the big bang theory is supported by the red shifts witch actually means thats how the world began and its expanding even more.The big bang theory is qouted that"The universe began expanding out of an enormous explosion"why would ppl have that explaniation if other ppl say its not true?its just like ppl wanting u 2 belive in the toothfairy or santa...or even the sandman...although i wish i could believe in stuff like that but its kinda hard 2 b/c ive ben lied 2 all my life-it seems

OMG i got bac from the lock-in and it was soo much fun!!!im just sooo extremely sleepy.we partied til the sun went down and like around midnight we watched Napoleon dynamite and then afterwards we watched finding nemo and i stayed up til like,4:30 and this mornin we just HAD 2 wakeup at 6:00am -they made us cuz i guess they thought they had better stuff 2 do...hmmmm,owell but we danced did the 1,2 step and we shook r asses til they were raw.man it was great we also ate papa john pizzas and iwent crazy with makeup and put sum like all on my face and eveything,afterall there was no boys there-it was a grlee thiing neway it was great..we danced we sang met new ppl had fun best of all we PARTIAAAAD!!!

we had CPR fridae and while we were working in our groups the teacher was giving us assignments 2 do and ithought she told me 2 give rishi CPR cuz he was layin there on his back,and he looked consciouse so i gave him CPR and everybdy started freakin out,im ike "wats wrong?"then there like "THIS IS CPR NOT A MAKEOUT ROOM!"then rishi had woken up from his slumber in class and hes like "wowee i had a great dream,u guys never wouldve guessed wat it was"then everybdy was like lookin all cockeyed and like "t'we know more then u THINK we know"



IM JUST PLAYIN!LOL....that dint happen.....but like,we did have that stupid CPR class though

hey,im soo happy oasis said that his friend made all of that up he really didnt think it all up he didnt even breakup with me...im so happy:) .i kno my diary has ALODDA mixed moods goin on here and there lol...but its all kooo,imean thats wat i dairy is isnt it?recording THOUGHT?well neway jus wanted 2 say that im not mad at him nemore but bye

ay,im bac jus chillin at my moms work but neway "write down yo numba or sumthin"just playin-BWT,thats a qoute from a rap song.....if u were wonderin.....IDONT WANT NOBDIES MOTHA FUCKIN NUMBA!,lol...now we got that cleared outt the way...so,lets move on shall we......okie doke....like i was ABOUT 2 SAY TIL U INTERUPTED,lol..(ikno,i interupted myself but it sounds much better sayin that u interupted instead b/c it makes me sound like an asshole....a SMART asshole,lol)but newayz....idid that march 4 life thingy where u walk for the poor babies that didnt live or that hav been obused or wat not and also if ur AGAISNST obortion..not FOR obortion but AGAINST it...but neway,it was ASSFUCKIN COLD!!!!iwas jus freezin my little ASS off out side...man,we had 2 walk at least 13 blocks all da way up 2 the capitol an d once we got there we had 2 stand 4 at least an hour in the FREEZING cold.....but b4 we got there an on the way this dude was shoutin out murderer 2 the pl that were actually FOR obortion..imean,how can u possibly b FOR obortion..imean,thats nuttin but the devil man,u wanna hurt or may i say the right word we're lookin for here...KILL..and yeah,its a strong word but if u wanna b FOR obortion then u hav strong harsh feelings and actually wanna KILL a poor inecent baby..iman,wats ur fuckin problem exactly?neway im out PEACE MOTHAFUCKAS

ay,igot a pimpin cap 2dae....its da best,lol...iluv it!its black velvet and on the front in pink cursive letters it says"baby girl"im wearin it side ways now,like will smith lol..igot it from only the best place EVER!!well..next 2 claires..but newayz,citie trends is like DA BOMB baby

im pissed,spazzed out,confused,weird,emotional,depressed,outta wack,crazy....everything...its true

im just pissed right now...everything is commming out of me now....its kinda like im cleaingin out my closet...imean...idon't care a/b wat u ppl think im just gonna type wat I think..im gonna start typing my true feelings and emotions...it doesnt really appeal 2 me if ne1 reads it or not...my friends should trust me enuf by now and no thigs that not regular ppl no....and no im a great person....im not that bad....at least thats usauuly wat pl think..they say im koel..but newayz,ijus feel totally different now...imean i like certain ppl...but ialwayz end up gettin my heartbroken wen im with that one person iluv...he ends up braking everything i hav..mentally,emotionally...ihav a bf now but he says that he wont ever do sumthing as lame like that 2 a sweet grl like me...but thats wat my last bf told me...wat happened?he called me a bitch and said i talked 2 much...how did i follow through with that?well i got pisssed and im ending a relation wit him right now cuz his friend told me he didnt wanna talk 2 me nemore..and if its not true then he should b mad at his friend not a me...omg,hes such an ass....hes like "o im srry i was an ass 2 u,ithought u wouldnt go out with me,ithought u h8d me"well...guess wat?ido now

wenevr i type in this here diary i speack my mind and wat i FEEL......idont care who reads this and if you don't like it at all..icould care less amatter of fact....ur the one who chose 2 read this...well,newayz...idunno wat im feelin right now...usually wen im off the edge i usually relax my self...not by the way ur probly thinkin..perve.... i mean by meditating....not naked or nething...just by laying down and thinking a/b spending a dae with friends or a guy that i really like....either mab going 2 a beach on a sunny great dae in r bathiing siuts and playin in the water or walking along side the shore talking about the gret friendship and memories we've ben through 2gether....or even just sitting along side the beach in lawn chairs being lazy.....imean,ijust love to relax myself....idid it yesturdae cuz it was real sunny and bright in my room...and ijust lay there thinking...some ppl can do it,if u hav a positve mind...but if u don't ull drift away in sumthing disasterous....but newayz my point is....nuthin really lol....ijust luv expresing my thoughts...like eminem..yeah,like him...and if u don't like it fuck you...cuz this is me...

hey,my bf brokeup wit me last night....4 a stupid reason.He actually told HIS friend 2 tell me this "ur a bitch and he thinks u talk 2 much". Imean its like "wtf"and he dosesnt even wanna talk 2 me nemore....he didnt even tell me that we hav broken up,we were like,not talkin 2 each other 4 a week and he jus assumed i kne i guees...imean,thats so stupid...he actually got his friend 2 say that we brokeup..he couldnt tell me simply himself.....imean its jus,idk....fuckin retarded...wenever i hav a bf I either brakeup with him...or HE either brakes up wit ME...has nuttin 2 do wit FRIENDS

skool had jus started and the dae was ok..it was normal,of course there was sum differnceses but talkin in similarity it was BORING,imean we worked on r group projects 2dae and went 2 the computer lab...OMG ta'lun is such an ass,he told me that my watches were tacky.....im like well at least i like them,nobdy ask 4 ur opinion...newayz,enuf a/b that asshole....im glad im ALSO in the group wit becca but like we're doing a project based on the book "A christmas carol"By,Charles Dickens.....becca,ta'lun and me r doing a report on how in the victorian ERA there banquest were held..like wat they wore,ate,wat music they played and all dat shit...but yeah,it was also pretty dmn boring if ya ask me...we found NUTHING....man,that sucked we wasted an hour ONLINE lokin up victorian crap...and we found NUTHIN...man,thats jus bullshit newayz the day dragged on and we made fucked up snowflakes,me and alex made up a gang called "the snowflakes"we made a chant and everything,is was hilarious....ushouldve ben there,haha..not that ull ever b....newayz im like"yup,we'd b ridin up in the pimp moblie....WITH SNOWFLAKES ON IT!",ha...well...ig2g nuthin interesting has really happened...jus the fact that i now hav a BOYFRIEND!oyeah,lol....his name is [oasis_182]hes nice and hot....jus ready 2 eat,lol....l8r!!

yuuuuuuuuummy yuuuuuummy...jus right 4 ur tummy.....HAHA *cracks up*ijus KILL myself...NOT...cya pimps;)

fat albert was such a great movie....iwent wit my bro and mom

..............eattin chocolate icecream....isnt my life wonderful?lol

not doing nething right now...jus goT through eattin...it got warm here 2dae,and i was soo heppy!but then unfortunaetly it started raining and i didnt get 2 go outside and enjoy the weather it was like 63degrees..owell,its gonna b warmer tomrw...im sooo sooo bored right now and christmas break is almost over!icant believe it!imean ive ben waiting 4 christmas 4ever seems..and its finally .......over..... it lasted 2 qiuckly then i expected it 2...hmmmm,owell.....newayz TAKE MY POLL...THAT 70s SHO IS IN THE LEAD!!!

i met a new best friend 2dae,his name is [trackstar]hes soo awesome and sweet!!,he jus makes u heppy...hes mde me heppy already!!omg,jus visit him and ull c!

......4christmas i got jewlry,clothes,shoes,CDs,dvds,houseshoes,watch,perfume,jewlry box,claires gift card..ect

hey,im back...bored as hell will ever b......newayz,christmas was ok...cept i didnt hav it wit my dad....ithink 2 of my cuzins r hot....idont think thats wrong even though u might...imean we hardly ever c each other,so its not like we see each other everydae.....newayz i talked a/b that in my other entry below sumwhere newayz im frezing we jus got bac from Fort Smith and my brother is watchin a boring fucked up sho on monster trucks...newayz...im out!layta

im listeing 2 my grl ashanti,and im jus sittin here freezing my ass off and iim gonna turn in2 a popcicle if i ju sit here...its like snowin here...im not gonna go outside...this is like the first time i didnt go outside wen it snowed...imean its like literally freezing!iwant hot weather!!!newayz,this sux i wanna go outside and play baskatball or sumthin...but i cant the only thing 2 do is go outside and thro snowballs,wat fun.newayz,ican't wait til christmas then i can b ctually doing sumthiin and being with my family while opening presents,lol...well,im gonna listen 2 sum of switchfoot CD in a minute and i finally emailed rishi,lol....so PEACE OUT