hey!today was pretty koel at skool..we had a firedril and since im one of the fire marshalls i helped out aalong wit my other friends emma alex dave and natalie but we had 2 split up and me and alex went wit each other c/ i dint wanna go by myself c/ i didnt know where the secnd grade was lol neway though it was soo much fun bein wit him and in mrs hedstrems class me and alex made up a secret hand shake and eveything that we got off of fresh prince of bellair,it was koel lol and im like ur such a class clown!c/ he was pretending that he was james bond lol and he goes "u know it" lol...but he got cheked out just to watch the florida basketbal game!!but neway though at recess i was by myself c/ the other grls were gettin sooooooo boring and thomas saw me and he walked over wit rishi maggie bailey kaitlen hannah ta'lun dave bernadette and hes like "hey how come ur not wit the other grls?" im like "c/ there kinda boring" and hes like "yeah ikno there like always readin magazines and stuff" im like "yeah" and hes like 'kaylee is over there to" im like yeah shes kiinda annoying" hes like "yah idont like her"and hes like "well im srry i brought all of these ppl wit me,inless u wanted to b alone" im like "naw its koel,ill hang wit u guys" hes like "oh ok" but it was pretty fun lol but in the end i ended up goin bac wit my chik friends....so yeah hes soo sweet!!and in my homeroom teachers class we got to watch a basketball tournament game..not really sure witch one it was but we turned it of c/ it had bad connection...so yeah....and the teacher said that theres a rumor going around that 2 ppl in this class hav ben holdin hands during assemblies and i know EXACTLY who those 2 ppl ARE...its hannah and ta'lun..there like sooo in love!lol..neway though we think its the 7th graders that told the teacher.....but nuttin really happened today though....ijust had 2 sweep:( i hav NEVER swept before..ikno im spoiled lol..ido NO chores watsoever lol...neway cya

hey today was pretty DAMN boring lol...imean like,nuttin really happened mrs wallaces class all we did was take a stupid annefrank lezbian test and in mrs hedstrems we watched a gay movie on the universe..actually it wasnt that gay,it was kiinda koel c/ ilike learnin bout wats beyond oursleves and out there in the world....million lightyears away...ok i need 2 get outta dreamland now lol....sooo oyeah in mrs hedstrems class i told espinoza(as yall no as alex) i told him to throw katies purse in the trash can and he did but qiuckly got it out and katies soo pissed at me AGAIN...she described my personality as a bitch c/ i sprayed jiuce in her hair and face and its still sticky..shes CLAIMS lol,but neway though i just got threw talkin wit my awesome cuz and yeah im bored lol and at p.e i hung out wit my chiks and called the librarian preganant c/ she has a big stomache and becca started crackin up lol well im gonna go now PEACE OUTT


OMG ya kno wat....dave isnt goin 2 dunbar afterall!!!!YES!!lol...inever thought i'd b soo happy!!lol

hey my pimps and pimpettes welcome to my land of thoughts and wonders..and may i add "in my dream times" lol but neway though today is like wednesday and well i really aint got nuttin much 2 say pimpin but uuh...i just got through tellin off one of dose fuckn shitheaded gaurds off..actually 2 of them man there fucked up they think just c/ we cant seee them means they can say watever they want well guess what?if i went to there house right now i bet a 4year old would b sittin up on that comupter givin out those uploading art rule messages "pretending" hes one of those guards lol neway though...



SKOOL!....ok it was fiiiiiiiiine ok at recess my classs got in a biiiig group circle and thought a/b the spring dance and a/b wat songs we were going to do and we hav like soooo much we hav like 25 rap songs and idunno how much rock and like 2 oldies so far and we hav about 5 slow songs so far...but we got a lodda thinkn 2 do...imean,seriously dawg and hmmmm let me see......at random ill name some of the rappers and singersand rockers ok beyonce(isuggested that one lol),ashanti,ja-z,50cent,luda,beatles,franz ferdinand,maroon 5....thats all i can remember right now o and areitha franklin and the supremes and thats bout it so far as i remember o and ciara.....yeah but neway though My homeroom teach wasnt here today so we had MRS REID...ugh..lol...its rumor that she has a hair transplant..gross!but neway though we call her racoon lady heehee..arent we bad?haha but neway and in the afternoon i talked wit my homies lol italked wit thomas,rishi,alex,baliey,bernadette,philip,ta'lun,and katie.....and thats it ithink..yeah....but neway though it was great and we were just talkin bout random stuff....we should i go 2 the movies and hangout sometimes,that'd b pimpin G and well let me c....uuh we had music and the teacher of music..mrs susje she had brought her son wit her...his names jared hes a relly cute lil kid and hes in like 2 or 1 grade..cant really remember but yeah...and well icant remember nething great happnin...



OYEAH!!one of my best skool friends got mad at me c/ i had sprayed JIUCE IN HER FACE....AND HAIR!!lol,omfg it was hilarious but yeah lol and the straw went flyin past two tables..luckily i dint get in trouble lol.....uuuuuum....this lil chik named abby in 1first grade wannted a hug..omg shes just so adorable (-': but like neways i gave her one!!lol she kinda favors gretchen wilson..RED NECK WOMEN NOT SOME HIGH CLASS BRAOD!lol..omg neways nuttin really happened,i just went wit the flow so yeah Oyah and today at skool the lil second graders did there own version of stations of the cross and sang a song and everything so it was cute but REALLY BORING lol and i sat next to taylor. and aww man theres this kid in my clsas that is now going to DUNBAR he dint even tell us he just didnt show up at skool,along wit his brothers and sisters but i foud out by my brother goin 2 skool wit salvador,the 10grader..so now we only hav 16 kids in r class man ill miss dave so so much..dave ikno ur not readin this but im really going to miss u and iwish u knew how much i felt ilove everybdy in my class (including u)and iremrember we use to talk ALOT in 7th and the begining of 8th but then everything just dissappeared between us and we dint talk as much nemore but now just the thought of u gone from my life and only a memory to think of about u and only pictures im stil going to miss you......but i haf to go now..layta





  RUMORS

1: ashlee and sean made out saturdae!!!!
2:thomas or rishi are goin 2 ask me out
3:jonathen likes me?wat the hell!lol
4:racoon lady has transplants lol
5:thomas likes me
6: me and rishi are "supposelvy going out"lol i wish haha but i fo sho don't kno who in the WORLD started that rumor up lol..imean we just hangout to much..waaaay to much lol
7:dave is goin 2 dunbar

heres a couple of poems:


The sunlight beaming through the shades,shows a bright and sunny day. The fresh smell of afternoon flowers shure don't smell sour. The bed that I now lay in is so comfortable with a baby blue colored sheet,theres no other place I'd rather be,then alone with me. I get to thinking of my friends and family and ponder on where life will send me. Theres no limit on what I could do, for I am me and NOT you. There goes the sound of the icecream man, oh what memories they can carry.Of how I would chase the truck with my best friend,she bought the flavour blue-berry while i bought chocolate ,it felt sooo GOOD then. I remember now those bright summer days,on where I use to laugh and play...ALL day. It was those days that I now miss for it will never seem to be the same,NOw all my friends have moved away and all my memories have been put on display,in my mind for only me to think about.Everything is now gone,while I MOVE on.





HERES another poem i made wen i was depressed and overworked and all that and thinking about how i hardly ever get 2 see my friends b/c they moved and that skool sux and i just feel like a reject siometimes...ok ilstop lol anyways,here it is......





     DEPRESSION
As I look into the mirror I start to cry, of the sanity that I feel inside,My face i hate so much. Isqueeze my fingers hard just to feel the pain that I bare inside. I want the pain to come alive. Ihate the way I feel, I hate the way that I look, I hate eveyrthing that my life is about. Its hard just to close your eyes,when everything is inside, To go deep in depth makes you want to loose your breath, It makes you want to loose your breath and die. Die on that single cry.The single cry that sheded that one tear.The tear of dread, hate, and fear. Nobody's there to help because they wouldn't understand themselves. Well the beginnings always go to an end and ends always starts at beginings.Well I feel my life has finished, therefore I feel diminished.



heres another one i wrote:


Im goint to kill myself tomorrow night, just after the moonrise. Im not going to pack ALL my things just a bowl of icecream and a knife on how i wish to kill myself. Im going to eat the last icecream thats left and remember that I've always hated myself. Everything that comes to mind reminds me that I can't say goodbye, but this is what I've wanted to do.Forget the past and just go through. I go through with my plan,of killing myself off first hand.I remember that I HAVE to pack the knife and also a gun, but first I was going to use the knife and once I feel that staggering pain, of feeling insane and of the hurting and ridicule in my life of pain, I was going to pull the trigger and be gone forever. I had it all planned out when, why, and possibly how. So once it came to tomorrow night, I had snuck out of bed with my things. I climbed the tallest hill and made for my very own kill. I pull out my knife right after the moon rise,hold it up and STAB myself in the wrist twice. I realize how much throbbing pain I have caused to myself and remembered I had brought something else. Since I still wasn't dead, I had pulled the trigger to my very own head.I counted to three and then.......


I W A S D E A D


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hey....its tuesday and im so confused....iwas gettin ready 2 say pissed.....but im confused on how i feel..sometimes i hate being human b/c its usually common 4 humans to b stressed out and pissed or confused and i just hate having all of these moods happning to me at once...its pressuring...idont know if i hav peer presure thats makin this happen or wat..my problems are weird and once there solved they seem sstupid 2 even marol around about....im just weird myself...imean at skool i feel like i dont fit in wit neone...wen i do have friends i just feel like a loser neways...imean is it b/c we're not MEANT to be friends in the frst place?owell....im just so weird right now and theres nobdy who can cheer me up but alex,rishi,thomas or mabe katie or mabe perhaps melonie and alexis but mostly the ppl that i really love from my heart and as a friend..very deeply.but ijust luv katie as a great friend same wit alexis and melonie...ifeel we're all sisters...although katie doesnt have the slightest idea who alexis and melonie are c/ katie just goes 2 my skool...but owell.......neway though i just wish thomas was in love with me just as i am with him...ifind it confusing 2 let my words out to him....ifind it embarrasing and shameful for some awkward reason..mab b/c ill think hes gonna just say no thanku or something..idk its just wierd..imean i can't ever love somebdy that loves me as a grlfriend...and nobdy else ever loves me as a boyfriend probly would love me....its just..idk ive had alot of relationships latly but now all of a sudden after my last brakeup a few weeks ago a guy cheated on me and NOBDY is fallen for me..imean i really don't have any idea wat there true feelings are..imean as far as i know thomas could probly actually like me without me knowin of course but IDONTKNOW!!and i can't possibly ask neone 2 ask him c/ it'd b way embarrasing imean......iguess ill have 2 TELL him perosnally that i like him...somehow ill tell him....without my best friend katie knowning to...ihave to not let her know that im going to telll him all b/c shes in major love with him....Ook we were playin one day and i was like to katie "mabe if i went out wit rishi we could go on double dates if u went wit thomas" and then she ask becca if she can ask rishi out 4 me and im like WAT THE HELL R U DOING lol and beccas like "ithought she liked thomas?"and katies like "u like thomas?"im like ..."uuh well hes ok" and then shes like "don't take my man"....so yeah.....iCAN'T let her know how i really feel about thomas...and if we did go out she would definitly be jelous of me c/ like iask her if she ever gets jelous of thomas and maggie and shes like yeah b/c i wish he would talk 2 me more...and if we went out we would b talking ALOT and it'd end me and katies friendship:(





TODAY......was BORING....and weird...nuttin really happened either...(like it ever does?LOl)neway it was just...idk i dont even fel like typin bout it,,ijust go by random stuff ok..igot jeolous of natalie G. (ALEX GF) b/c i hav a lil secret crush on my best guy friend(alex)and he jumped on her back...c/ he was playin wit her....and well...alex sat by me in lit class while taking r test and he gave me the answer to nuumber 2 and he was "humpin" the desk..KIDDING lol...it was just a joke between me rishi and alex...but neway though we had P.E and it was only freetime to where we could do nething we liked mostly the guys and 2 grls in my class polayed basketball and i just hungout wit the other chiks....and wel...boring day..yeah..ihate skool..who doesnt...wen days like these happen EVERYTHING u possibly think about sux..even ur friends ill hav 2 say:(. ....omg...rihsi liike totally ignored me 2dae...ihad 2 say hey to him in order for him 2 talk 2 me for the whole day...but like the only words we shared was 'hey" owell...neway though he sounded so hot wen he said it lol...but in my dreams right?.....*sigh* ill NEVER get the right guy...iguess that chain letter was right....my love life IS going down like hell of shattered glass windows,since i didnt send that letter 2 11 ppl...owell...let it be

hey,today was...intersting...ok first of all i typed it all out on eltpack and i was goin 2 paste it on here but i cliked on "undo" on accident!fuck me!lol just jokin but that toitally sux ass neway though i godda type the whole thing up OVER neway though today was koel iguess..it was kinda sorta confusin 2 think a/b it though..ok rishi wasnt there and the only fun time i had in class was in mrs hedsrtems c/ in mrs wallaces it was like "so what time r we leavin again?"lol and durin mrs wallaces like near the end of class me and katie and alex went to the loungin part where we layed down on pillows witch is in the back of the class...but yeah it was periity boring but newy though in mrs hedsrtrms it was funny thomas is so hilarous while bein hot at the same TIME!!lol....scandolous!*inside joke bewten my class* but neway though lmao at recess christne,katie,and julie and me were hangin out and christine is like "so how did u like makin outn wit rishi?" im like "what the hell r u talkin bout?"and shes like" i kno what yall were doin saturday night in the corner of the big playground"..iwas like "we didnt do nething,i was just followin him to talk wit him,we're just friends!and shes like "friend "lier""LOL c/ she saw us commin from the playground by areselves walkin beside each other but yeah and shes like so where r yall havin yalls honeymoon?and then shes like i better b the bridesmaid!lol but i was like shutup!and iwas like instead of talkin mbout me and rishi wat about KATIE AND THOMAS...and then katie is like al embarresed and then we 're like YEAH!and im like lets call thomas over here and then chrisitne is like YEAH and she shouted his name out and him dave and alex came walking over to us and christine like told him that we were tlaking about weddings and stuff and shes like u kno u guys would make a good wedding couple....cuz katie has the BIGGEST crush on thomas omg u wouldnt even believe how much she loves that dude...neway though shes like we were just playin so,dont wrry and then we were like laughin and stufff but neway after skool was kinda koel.....hey that ryhmed!!but neway though it was pretty koel like me and thomas and alex were talkin and thomas ask wat highskool i was planin on goin 2 and i told him and he wasnt sure witch highskool he was goin 2 and we were just talkin and stuff and then he has 2 leave and i was tlakin wit alex and we were talkin bout saturday night and how fun it was and about gettin busted by the cops and eveyrthing and about the bouncin thing..it was great!but yeah and then me and him had 2 go 2 after care c/ it was 3 and hes like well u can talk wit me and u wont b bored and then hes like do u usually go 2 study hall? and i was like yeah,with brittany and bernadette and hes like aah alright so we went but soon as we got there my mom was there!she was waitin 4 me lol but yeah and i was like cya and hes like u godda go home now?i was like yup and hes like oh alright cya layta alligata lol...but yeah thats the only interestong things that happened..pretty boring huh? well neways though its just confusing....a/b thomas imean seems like he likes me and hes wantin 2 know who ilike and everything why dn't he just simply ask me out?lol...but owell

OMG!!!ihad like soo much fun today!!!!!!!!!!!ok there was this international festival thingy but myfriends and me just ate the food in the caefteria and then we went out on the playgroud wen it was pitch black dark and we were like talkin and swingin on the swings and we went on the slide and aelx and natalie were flirtin around and layin on the slide beside each other LOL and shes like "this is weird"lol but besides that thomas crawled in the slide asnd threw rocks down at them!!!!!lmao but neaway though me rishi and bailey went in the litle kid primary buliding and it WAS SOO DARK!i thought rishi was goin 2 make a move or sumthin lmao,pardin my perveness lmao but neway he didnt and we had to sneak paast the rooms so know teacher or nebdy outside would see us INSDE the building and the second time we went in there it was me bailey and rishi and maggie and maggie left c/ she didnt wanna get in trouble "goodie goodie"lol and baliey left c/ she thought someone was comming so she left so it was just me and rishi and im like eveyrbdys goin and hes like yeah and we were just walkin out so nuthin happened and we were snekain out so a teacher wouldnt see us!lol c/ i didint wanna b in there by areselves ya kno;)im just not redy for that type of thing lol but neway we left and went outside wit the rest of the crew and ijust looked at his cell phone wit him and he has some AWSUM ring tones!!and well after that we just went out around the playgroud where nobdy would see us (as in my classs and 2 7th graders)and then the police went around and busted us!!!ther like "u all hav to go around where eveyrone else is" its liekt hey thought we were doing drugs or sumthin!lol but newy though we left but we hung out outside awway from eveyone but just not in the same place so then thomas was like "we should get on one of the rides" we're like alright!so we did and we got on the bungee thing but me and katie didnt git to go the frist time they did so they went a second time c/ we ALL wanted to go!and OMG!!it was sooo much fuckin fun!!!an d we all fell on each other lol it was like we were wrestlin but ta'lun went off 2 talk wit his grlfriend on the phone "hannah" and hes like i dont wanna hangout wit yall c/ yall suck,its like WTF!he WAS hangin wit us!!but who cares a fuck bout him lol but afterwards we just like hungout and thomas threw alex's SHOE IN THE DUMPSTER AND THIS GRL DIVED IN THERE AND GOT IT!!!!!EEEEEEEEEW!neway though then around 10 everyone left cept me and katie so we hungout,danced to music and well had a great time together and talked bout guys and I FOUND OUT MY EARING FELL OUT!!!!!it was the prettiest one VER!iwas going to wear it to the spring dance but i was like walkiin wit rishi and he let me talk on the phone so idid and iwas like "hello" and thomas is like "hey christina" im like "whos this" and hes like "is rish there?"im like hold on and ta'lun wanted the phone so i gave it to him lol but yeah it was soo much fun today...IHAD NO IDEA!!!but neway i was suppose to b in a shitty st particks parade but i ditched the idea so owell lol well dats it iguess i had MUCH more fun doing THAT!!!and this new kid named jonathon was there and he kept eyein me!!lol so much stuff happened though!!!more then i can type!!iwould probly write a whole book if i did type all of it lmao

heres a poem i made just a second ago lol:

The sunlight beaming through the shades,shows a bright and sunny day. The fresh smell of afternoon flowers shure don't smell sour. The bed that I now lay in is so comfortable with a baby blue colored sheet,theres no other place I'd rather be,then alone with me. I get to thinking of my friends and family and ponder on where life will send me. Theres no limit on what I could do, for I am me and NOT you. There goes the sound of the icecream man, oh what memories they can carry.Of how I would chase the truck with my best friend,she bought the flavour blue-berry while i bought chocolate ,it felt sooo GOOD then. I remember now those bright summer days,on where I use to laugh and play...ALL day. It was those days that I now miss for it will never seem to be the same,NOw all my friends have moved away and all my memories have been put on display,in my mind for only me to think about.Everything is now gone,while I MOVE on.



HERES another poem i made wen i was depressed and overworked and all that and thinking about how i hardly ever get 2 see my friends b/c they moved and that skool sux and i just feel like a reject siometimes...ok ilstop lol anyways,here it is......



          DEPRESSION
As I look into the mirror I start to cry, of the sanity that I feel inside,My face i hate so much. Isqueeze my fingers hard just to feel the pain that I bare inside. I want the pain to come alive. Ihate the way I feel, I hate the way that I look, I hate eveyrthing that my life is about. Its hard just to close your eyes,when everything is inside, To go deep in depth makes you want to loose your breath, It makes you want to loose your breath and die. Die on that single cry.The single cry that sheded that one tear.The tear of dread, hate, and fear. Nobody's there to help because they wouldn't understand themselves. Well the beginnings always go to an end and ends always starts at beginings.Well I feel my life has finished, therefore I feel diminished.


heres another one i wrote:

Im goint to kill myself tomorrow night, just after the moonrise. Im not going to pack ALL my things just a bowl of icecream and a knife on how i wish to kill myself. Im going to eat the last icecream thats left and remember that I've always hated myself. Everything that comes to mind reminds me that I can't say goodbye, but this is what I've wanted to do.Forget the past and just go through. I go through with my plan,of killing myself off first hand.I remember that I HAVE to pack the knife and also a gun, but first I was going to use the knife and once I feel that staggering pain, of feeling insane and of the hurting and ridicule in my life of pain, I was going to pull the trigger and be gone forever. I had it all planned out when, why, and possibly how. So once it came to tomorrow night, I had snuck out of bed with my things. I climbed the tallest hill and made for my very own kill. I pull out my knife right after the moon rise,hold it up and STAB myself in the wrist twice. I realize how much throbbing pain I have caused to myself and remembered I had brought something else. Since I still wasn't dead, I had rose the trigger to my very own head.I counted to three and then.......

I W A S  D E A D

heres a poem i made just a second ago lol:

The sunlight beaming through the shades,shows a bright and sunny day. The fresh smell of afternoon flowers shure don't smell sour. The bed that I now lay in is so comfortable with a baby blue color sheet,theres no other place I'd rather be,then lone with me. I get to thinking of my friends and family and ponder on where life will send me. Theres no limit on what I could do, for I am me and NOT you. There goes the sound od the icecream man, oh what memories they can carry.Of how I would chase the truck with my best friend,she bought the flavour blue-berry while i bought chocolate ,it felt sooo GOOD then. I remember now those bright summer days,on where I use to laugh and play...ALL day. It was those days that I now miss for it will never seem to be the same,NOw all my friends have moved away and all my memories have been put on display,in my mind for only me to think about.Everything is now gone,while I

hey....today was aaalright i guess.....stil we had a sub for the afternoon c/ my homeroom teach left for somewhere and well we got on r laptops and took 2 tests 1 vocab and one literature and well me and alex are doin alright for a start iguess.....like he started talkin really hes like "hello everybdy"and it was only me and kim lol we were at r lockers but i was just like "hello"but yeah and afterskool i talked wit him but its just not the same,its like hes stil mad at me or sumthin c/ usually he gets more into talking with me and stuff but instead we hardly did nething imean ugh owell itll all b over hopefully and well we really stARTED talkin aLIL bit when katilen was waven bye to me and i was like "was she wavin to me?"and hes like "idunno,im not even sure if she likes me nemore for her 2 b wavin at me" and im just like "oh"and im like "well i know sumthin u don't know" hes like "what?"im like u promise not to tell" hes like "yeah" im like "ok" and im like "u godda promise!"hes like "ok ok ok" and hes like "if u tell me sumthin i dont know ill tell u somthin u don't know" and i was like ok so i told him and hes like 'oh i knew that already"im like no u didnt!" and then he starts smiling and hes like "yeah...idid" im like okaaaa but besides that nuthin happened....so yeah


and OMG!!!at recess my whole class cept for like dave,ta'lun,alex,and emma were playin DARE and omg!it was soo much fun!and well i was dared to tell this grl she was sexy lol and I DID it!!man it was a WILD game even worse stuff den that happened it was soo much lool it was so hilarious to!but i dont feel like typin all dat up but neway though coach found out about my class playin dare so at P.E today we werent allowed to play it,so instead we had played the QUESTION game it was soo much fun like rishi he came up wit all of deese ?'s!!and i ask one to i was like "would u guys either choose sex or alchohol" majority was alcohol but i wouldve picked sex idint say though but rishi is like once ur drunk u can hav sex but becca is like u wouldnt feel nething though.and well we were just askin all of these ?'s and rishi ask the question "who would u bang in r class"it was like OMG!!man thomas shouldve been there it was soo much fun lol but to bad he wasnt here today and another ? was how old would we b if u wanted to have sex? neway though i godda go now so layta~!!!

ya know ya love me,Christina

hey!nuttin much happened today......just mad at one of my friends alex and hes mad at me!uuuuuugh!!ihope we get over this c/ i really love him as a friend and i kinda hav a deep crush on him.....omg,im just soo sad.Ook it all started today wen the teacher wanted him 2 pick a team member to work wit him on this project that only a few ppl got 2 do and i was one of them and well he didnt pick me!imean why was it so hard to pick 2 ppl outta some ppl he doesnt even talk to and some ppl he does and imean ive told him that hes a real great friend and that i trusted hiim...iguess that doesnt matter to him nemore though:(


well neways though he picked HANNAH and then he wanted the teacher to pick somebdy for him and she did and she picked KATIE.....ugh...:((((((( AAAND to top that off they went over and worked by MY desk and he saw that i was mad and hes like"hey watsup christina"im like "ugh nuthin"and he just went offf for a while and then katie got on his nerves and hes like "god stop being so annoying theres other ppl that actually wanted to help on this that didnt get to" man i was stil so pissed and he didnt even do nething he just was looking at me c/ i guess he knew i was mad so then he didnt even talk to me ...like i got over it after a while and i ask him a question anad he didnt even respond to me he just went off somewhere....god!!!!!god!god!GOD! so now i was mad at him so now hes mad at ME...its just BULLSHIT and now im just sad,im not mad nemore so we havent spoken yet right now im just in the world of gettin dissed by friends and me dissing my friends and just all dat.....



man i hate eveyrthing one right now...and alex well hes the guy that i never get mad at...c/ we're like best friends....but that just changed everything right there totally everything...ill say more tomrw..hopefully the moon shifts and leads me to the right planet for friendship healing......don't mind my pro of reading horoscope perosnality problem...ijust read horoscopes so itll make my dys much better instead of much worse..it said that i should b shifting into the moon of relationships and dating and alll that shit...but owell..nuttin happened yet so iguess its not true neways....

hey!well let me fill ya in wit today...well nuttin much happened really,alex had to move from my group today in mrs wallaces class,witch sucked lol c/ we had to take a stupid test and well in the afternoon in music class my whole classs and 7th got in trouble by the principal c/ of the rackit and playin around we were doing and she called us hoolagins,LMAO....and we godda write a letter and are parents gotta sign it and we have to bring it bac tomrw.....uum nuttin really happened,so thats all the interesting things iguiess lol..o and we just got skool camras only in 8th and 7th grades though...pretty weird huh?they say its motion detectors or digital camras...dont know!but the principal said its for if neone walks in and steals nething..we really need it though c/ my skool is seriously in the damn ghetto lol




ya know you love me,Christina


------------------------------ITS NOT OVA!!---------------------



RUMORS GOIN AROUND AT SKOOL



-Thomas likes maggie and possibly hes gonna ask her out ne day now.....(personally,ithink that there just friends or that if he DOES actually ask her out hes gonna keep it a secret b/c now eveyrbdy thinks that he likes her and he denies it soooo i bet he'll keep it a secret once they PROBLY go out so they won't get all "WE TOLD YA!AND U DENIED!")








-rishi likes becca





-hannahs goin out wit ta'lun c/ shes desperate for a boyfriend to complete her life





-Natalie's gay(or thats wat katie thinks LOL....hehe loooong storIES!)



-tif and luke "suppovly"went out for 4months and never told us nething now we found out by ashlee but we';re not for sure if its actaully true



-thomas likes ME!yippie lol



-that theres a guy tryin to break in2 our skool



-emmas frontin lol





-josh likes me...hes ok...but not my type lol


-taylor and katie brokeup c/ she liked luke better..*aaaw*
i herd that rumor from my grl brit!luv ya grl:)
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     BEST DRESSED of graduation pics!!
16-worst:1-BEST



16:bernadette
15:emma
14:thomas
13:kim
12:dave
11:hannah
10:natalie
09:becca
08:brittany
07:ta'lun
06:philip
05:baily
04:rishi
03:katie
02:alex
01:ME OF COURSE!!!lol



-ALL OF U GUYS WERE HOTT!ISWARE!!


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WEEEEEELL dats all i no fo now!!chek bac layta dough pimps &pimpettes!...ya kno ya wanna;)

hey watsup!ok let see today we had GRADUATION PICS....and it was soo much fun!!!OMFG!!ok first igot to skool and everybdy was admiring each others clothes,like skirts tops and shoes and stuff and our hair was soo fab!and well we took pics and stuff...then after a while we got in with the drivers adn i was in mrs edwards car wit katie emma and bernadette and then we drove to st.johns -finally got there and we stood out in the freezing cold just waitin 2 get r pic taken and meanwhile we were taken pics again lol hell i for got MY camra but the other grls had theres and we were doing the marlyn monroe posses lol cuz it was soo windy and we were just bein r silly selves!lol and then it came to my turn to get my GRAD pic taken FINLLAY!lol and then i was done so i went in mrs edwards car and me and katie clowened in her car while waitin on the other ppl to get done wit there pics and the guys were all so hot!ihave to dmit wit there ties and dress tuxs OMG!lol...katie actually thought a funeral was going on since they were dressed so GREAT..lol...



but finally after pics we went bac 2 skool and changed outta our dress stuff and into our casual clothing and then we just basically hung out til it was time 2 go to chilis...witch was around 10:50 we left c/ it first opens at around 11:00 and wen we got there they let us in erly..wicth was GREAT...and my normal self i hardly ate NETHING but one bite of hamburger and some fries and there water was NASTY cuz there was lemons in it so it tasted like lemon water and emmas like"itss al in her head c/ she just doesnt like lemons"(its like shut the fuck up lol)...and emma was complainin bout me not eattin my food..shes like "u know somewhere in africa a kid would eat that hamburger for his life"and im just like "well,i can't help it that im not huungry enuf to eat that damn hamburger so just fuck off"i mean damn shes always in ppls business but neway though...there was some hot waiter dudes lol and emma didnt eat her corn on the cob and i was like "theres some kids in africa thbat would die for that corn on the cob"..now wasnt that a BURN!lol...but wen we left from chilis to get bac at skool we just did nuttin but read or w/e and we looked at grad pics we took and ppl complimented mee on my clothes and my hair and stuff and it was soo totally FUN!!and around 2:00 we went to P.E and i just sat wit my homegrlsn and espinoza(alex)came up and hes like "hey watsup?"(and he touched me on my shoulder,witch gave me the shivers lol)and im just like "nuttin" then katie called thomas over and we were all talkin so then he showed us his back,where he got a HUGE scratch and he flashed us by lifting up his shirt lol.....wasnt to bad though * raises eyebrow*lol.....but yeah then P.E was over and we just went on the stage and rishi gave me some gum that he stole from katies purse lol then we all left and said bye and stuff lol...so that was my day and right now im just typin this up as u read....well.not RIGHT as ur readin it,but YA KNO lol.....neway though laytas!!!!



ya know you love me,Christina

------------------------------ITS NOT OVA!!---------------------


RUMORS GOIN AROUND AT SKOOL


-Thomas likes maggie and possibly hes gonna ask her out ne day now.....(personally,ithink that there just friends or that if he DOES actually ask her out hes gonna keep it a secret b/c now eveyrbdy thinks that he likes her and he denies it soooo i bet he'll keep it a secret once they PROBLY go out so they won't get all "WE TOLD YA!AND U DENIED!")





-rishi likes becca



-hannahs goin out wit ta'lun c/ shes desperate for a boyfriend to complete her life



-Natalie's gay(or thats wat katie thinks LOL....hehe loooong storIES!)


-tif and luke "suppovly"went out for 4months and never told us nething now we found out by ashlee but we';re not for sure if its actaully true


-thomas likes ME!yippie lol


-that theres a guy tryin to break in2 our skool


-emmas frontin lol



-josh likes me...hes ok...but not my type lol
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          BEST DRESSED
16-worst:1-BEST


16:bernadette
15:emma
14:thomas
13:kim
12:dave
11:hannah
10:natalie
09:becca
08:brittany
07:ta'lun
06:philip
05:baily
04:rishi
03:katie
02:alex
01:ME OF COURSE!!!lol


-ALL OF U GUYS WERE HOTT!ISWARE!!

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WEEEEEELL dats all i no fo now!!chek bac layta dough pimps &pimpettes!...ya kno ya wanna;) xX___Xx

hey,2day was pretty boring but ok iguess.....uum i wokeup this mornin around 9:30 and me and my mom went shopin around 11 somethin and got bac late but im so bored right now.....idint get to go to the guys basketball game iwish ik did though:( owell idunno wat 2 talk bout lol....well im gonna go now since i can't think of nething interesting that happened 2dae


RUMORS GOIN AROUND IN SKOOL:


-Thomas likes maggie and possibly hes gonna ask her out ne day now.....(personally,ithink that there just friends or that if he DOES actually ask her out hes gonna keep it a secret b/c now eveyrbdy thinks that he likes her and he denies it soooo i bet he'll keep it a secret once they PROBLY go out so they won't get all "WE TOLD YA!AND U DENIED!")


-rishi likes becca

-hannahs goin out wit ta'lun c/ shes desperate for a boyfriend to complete her life

-Natalie's gay(or thats wat katie thinks LOL....hehe loooong storIES!)

hey,todae was kinda koel um cant remember much though cuz i didnt go to my moms job afterskool,instead i got cheked out to get my hairdone for graduation pics this tuesdae and well the lady that was doin my hair brought her son wit her to work and she told me that he had a crush on me and hes like blushin and stuff lol he was sooo cute!..........in FIRST grade!lol hehee and she kept callin him a pimp,man ilove that lady shes like my older sister we have the WILDEST conversations!lol and there as this white guy that came in there and he looks like harry potter so they always call him that!..BEHINF his back of course!!but Shaye said that the older 6thgrls always likin her son and stuff...iwa like REALLY?shes like yea!but also 2dae i went shoppin wit my mom and in dillards my mom bought me a skirt that ive been wantin and in khols OMG!!they had some CUUUTE!!purses and belts and jewlry i wish i could buy that HWOLE store out sumetimes....well not the mens/boys clothes...well actually i would...i'd buy the whole store out for my family and friends!!YUPERz!!!but neways lol we also ate at chik-ful-a.WELL thats bout it that happened...o and im gonna b on a float for saint patricks day parade c/ my skols makin one soo nuthin really happened today at skool...not that i remember at least....OMG!!natalie can't have her b-dae party at her house c/ of her inground pool is leaking!!that sooo sucks!!!well ill cya layta iguess c/i godda finish up a project for skool...we have to biuld a toy and pretnd that we're actually saling it and we have to answer all of these questions a/b the profits and how much it'd b worth and like wat age group wouldf b most likly to play wit it and about the materials we'd use....we have to hav DETAIL DETAIL DETAIL....o and omg at lunch time alex came to sit by me and we talked bout the play and stuff thats goin on called "holy moses"he dint tryout for it,ididnt either c/ of....well LOOONG STORY!!but i really wanted to neway though and we were like "why do they call it holy moses when moses isnt even in the damn play"?lol.but some of my friends got the parts they wanted and bailey got all 4 of the solo song parts she wanted...so yeah an my other friend becca got a boy part!!lol she really wanted the main character but instead she got the boy part.....she tried out for that to ONLY b/c they wanted her to but she actually got it!!!well neway though the guys in my class have a tournament in basketball tomrw and i really wanna go!!!ihope ill b able to!!..... but ill cya layta


ya know ya love me,Christina

why is it that u cry even more once someone trys to help you through ur problems?is it cuz u care bout ur problem and u know that somebdy cares bout u that u care so much abuott he problem?or is it cuz u wish that they would just go away wen there tryin to help u out but u dont got the strength to tell them so it makes u cry even more?idunno i just know the feeling...icried last weekend and well my mom had ask me wat was wrong and it made the crisis even worse....idunno i guess u know that someone that hasnt paid attention to u actually cares and will b there wen ur sad...the least person u could think could b carin bout u inside...even ur worst enemy perhaps...u never no cuz its buried deep inside there soul.they want u to think that there all superior to u but in the inside there just week,in the outside they just showoff and do smack....

hey 2dae was pretty awesome nuhtin really ecxiting happened though.In mrs walaces class alex ask me another one of those questions agin about if i think him or katie is a koel friend and ithought he said "do u think me or katie flirts better?"im like uuuuh katie"and he opens his mouth wide lol then im like "both of yall" and then im like "wait no,u are"lol so he was happy and im not mad at him or nebdy but ihad my mom write an excuse letter for P.E 2dae so i wouldnt have to do it....for a special reason that might come unexpectantly but that reason never came so i just said ithink were havin freetime neway so ill just go ahead and dress into r p.e uniform and so i did and so we did have freetime where we could do watever we wanted and like my whoole class just shot hoops and rishi was lettiin me have his basketball to shoot and of course as guys do,they were showin off lol but then i got real tired so i sat in front of the stage wit natalie and we talked bout graduation and gossiped boutt his grl in our class named hannah, who got a new hair cut and how we HATED it lol til rishi gave her a basketball and she left and then after a while he gave me one to so it was like "y head/why not?"lol iluv basketball neways though,so yeah.......neways though afterskool outside it was so qiuet while we were waitin on r parents it was me,ta'lun and thomas and some lil kids and like my mom finally pulled up and thomas said "cya christina" to me!and i was just like "cya"bac lol neway though thats it...nuthin to interesting goin on 2dae heehee....u lucked out huh?well sowy!!and layta hata









heres the lent rap my group made up 4 music/lifeteen and the ppl in my group were :
     1:rishi
     2:Brittany
     3:Hannah
     4:Philip
     5:Ta'lun


heres the rap...but the boys left to do some stuff for a teacher so it was just me and the other grls rappin this...we changed the words around from ciara and missy elliots song 1,2,step


I GAVE UP JELLO,TO MAKE THE CHRISTIANS SAY HELLO AND THEY KNOW IM ROCKIN THE BEAT,IKNOW U HAVENT HERD OF ALODDA GREAT CHRISTIANS LIKE ME BUT U KNOW U BEST BELIEVE,IM 5FOOT ONE IWANNA HAVE SOME FUN AND YOU BEST BELIEVE IM NUMBER ONE......yeah we all took turns in a line,so we each had two lines also IT COULDNT BE LONG EITHER!...it was CRAZY!lol...thats it though...



HOTTEST COUPLES 7&8TH GRADES:



Ta'lun/Hannah=8th
Alex/natalie=8th and 7th
Ashlee/Sean=7th....there not the hottest though..hmmm owell lol

hey!half the day pissed me off....actually just the end in music class all b/c a guy called one of my best friends a name..idunno wat it was...she never told me,and he didnt either....but im so furious neway though OMG!iwas back at skool 2dae obviosly and wen i came in i got my books from the offfice came bac and emmas like "for ur information i was the one who stopped talking to YOU"and im like "wat the hell are u talking about?"and shes like u stopped talking to me for a stupid reason"im like "I DONT EVEN CARE NEMORE!"and shes just all quiet and stuff i mean for peats sake and shes like "natalie told me why u stopoped talking to me"im like "wtf!"imean gah wat a bitcheroo lol neway though later on in the day in mrs wallaces i got to sit by my favorite ppl!!!alex and katie!!cept im mad at alex now cuz he wouldnt tell me wat dave called katie....so yeah.....neway though also in mrs hedstrems class i had this note that i made..it was a sticky note,right?and i wrote on it "kick me if u hate me"and i passsed it to alex cuz he was sittin diagonnaly across from me from behind and i gave it to him and im like "put it on katies back"OMG!!and like lmfao he did!!and unfortunatly the fuckin thing FELL off!wat luck she had ,huh?and also he just HAD to ask me this ,but hes like "outta this group(as in him and katie,lol),who do u think is the koolest?and hes like "and u can't pick urself"...im like "uuh i dont wanna answer that!"and hes like "comeon!" im like "noo!!"and kaites like "loser!!*smiles*"and im like "i pick ALEX!"ha!thats wat she got and well he ask her the same question and shes like alex!im like "uh!"and then i ask him and hes like "definitly YOU!"and then im like "yay!!!"but yeah.....


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and well we had are math test today in wich was TOTALLY unexpected and well i got like a ...iforgot but that test brought my grade down and also the fact that i forgot my homwrk last week so i got a 67 as average for my math...and yeah im tellin ya my exact math grade for now,idont give a fuck wat yall think cuz its not like i kno u guys personally lol neway though i'd tell my friends i dont care bout my grades at this point in life neway though and at music class,we're switchin it to LIFETEEN:THE EGDE....where we talk about teen stuff such as peerpresure and lent for dummies and about wat lent means and about teens and drugs and all dat good stuff (sarcasm)lol....but neway and we got into our rap groups also witch totally sucked cuz i was mad at rishi and i was in his group to and i didnt even wanna say NETHING to him.....cuz he dint talk to me all day and i was mad at him for that:( but yeah,ihate it wen my friends do that or wen they hide somethin from me....but neways i got homwrk witch sucks BIG TIME ASS lol and well i godda go read a new novel for skool,we're reading a BORING book its called "a dairy of a young girl"its ANNE FRANK...omg SO BORING!but yeah and i godda go now.....so PEACE OUT PLAYAS


you know you love me,Christina