I don't know where this head ache came from. Fucking ow.
I really need to get motivated.
But I can't.
I feel very discouraged right now.
Mmm.. Chocolate.
"C'mon over and we'll have some beer and chili, eh..."
I don't think i'm going to do twelve hours of sketching. I know it's the bare minimum but I'm just bsing it anyways. I might as well take my time on it and make it look decent instead of trying to make it look like I have a mediocre amount of talent even though I do all the sketching hours.
But I do plan on working on the portfolio sort of stuff.
Must not get distracted with terrible fanfiction.
Must draw.
Must not be depressed.
Must not worry about scheduling.
Must not think about summer.
Must write those.. things that I've been trying to write for over a month.
Must fill up on gas.
Fuck. I meant to do that.
Must get birth certificate.
Must buy birthday gift for brother.
Must care.
Must care.
Must not feel guilty about not caring.
...
..
*brain spasm*
OHMIGAWD TWILIGHT
Only a couple more weeks.



I love my roommate. I really do. I'm so lucky. I think I'll get her a valentines day gift just like a good wifey should.

...
Sigh.
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FLUFFEH

*stares in horror*
I just realized...
somewhere... in another universe... Buffy kills Edward.
Thank goodness we're in this one.

So I was all meeeeh about life and sitting here and scheduling and not doing homework
but then I found baby mama on quicksilverscreen.com and now I'm all HAHAHAH about life and not doing homework.

It works.

I realize that I should be enjoying this.
And so that's the only issue.
The issue is, that I'm making an issue of it.
I guess I'm only taking 16 credits next semester.
And one art class.
Ugggh.
but it's with my previous drawing professor... so maybe he'll like push me.
Watch out, he's a pusher.
No art history all week. Whee sleep.
Hat's almost finished.

Amy: So where's the Matrix? (That's the local "dance club" in marquette *snort*)
Nicole: *says in Morpheus voice* It's all around you, Amy, it's everywhere...

Went to that gay/straight alliance costume dance.
Terrible.
But there was this girl (I'm pretty sure she was a girl...She could have been a really hot drag queen)
And she was dressed as "the morning after" and she was wearing a wrinkled man's shirt and ONLY that O.O and her hair was all tousled and she was HOT.

Comedy sportz was nice.

Pretty woman is on.
Sigh.

*stares at winter semester schedule*
Mediocre at best.
No matter what, if I try to keep the workstudy job, I can only take on art class.
And I feel like a failure.

So I'm pretty sure I walked in on my suitemate and her boyfriend.
I thought Summer was there because I had talked to her 5 minutes before hand.
So I knocked and gave a "Yo, yo, yo"
And turned the corner and.
Well, they weren't naked but there was some definate scuffling for covers.
Fuck.

How is it that I can score the same on one test (that I study for) and on another test that I didn't study for.
These silly average grades are bothering me.

Interesting weekend.
Bleh.
Bored sleepy mood.
Exams
Drawing.
Knitting. Yes, knitting.
Fuck.
My entire brain feels like one giant clusterfuck right now.
UGGGH
I don't even know, y'knowwwwwww
Can't wait for next weekend
Pshaaawwwwwwwwwww

Update..
Whoo.
I love college.
Except for that whole work thing.

The art department is very scary this late. With weird creepers whistling.
I'm sure it gets better outside.

*stares at monitor's screen* I think I might be possibly looking at a real live naked man.
O.O...

I feel bleh.
I feel like I can't focus. And yeah.. I know about the study lounge but it's my room I should be able to stay in it comfortably. With out scary hulking Grendel presences...
Next time she's in there... I'm going to just come out naked and scare the shit out of her. And say, "Sorry, I have to be naked now, can you leave?"
That would be a hoot.

And I have so much sketching to do. I am doing it... I was just checking my bank account... and thought I'd rant for a moment.

Ugh. There's no reason I should behave this way. I'm not even pmsing.
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I would very much like to read a good sappy book or watch a sappy book.

I feel like I'm constantly being watched!
*shifty eyes*
Not like the "someone's watching me..."
But like the... there's so many people around that I can't watch a chick flick without them coming in and watching it with me and ruining it!
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Omgspace
my bubble.
I don't even care about my roommate. Or my suitemate. They can stay if they want.
Just get Grendel and the Troll Wife out.
I wanted to kill Shana today. She came in while I was napping "Jenny..? Jenny? JENNNY????"
She obviously isn't here you obese HOOKER! GET THE FUCK OUUUUT
*heathcliff face*

Ok so Jenny and I were super naughty. Ashley (my suitmate) and her boyfriend brought home a box that they found on the road while driving home one night. In it they found three massive rolls of toilet paper....
So Jenny and I decided that while Ashley and Summer (my other suitmate) were gone for the weekend we were going to do some.. uh.. redecorating.
So basically we TP-ed their entire rooms. Pictures will be on facebook along with one or two videos of the entire ordeal.
We might get written up.. but I think it's worth it.
Mwhahah..

Me: Yeah... They arn't like the nice AMERICAN lady bugs. The Japanese one's are crazy bitches. They're like the kamikaze of the bug world.

Kid in soc. class: I have an I.Q. of 178.
Well, whoopideefreakin'doo...
And why are you at Northern, Mr. Smarty pants?
Northern, where the 'N' stands for knowledge..
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Ok. Went to hockey game yesterday. AWESOME.
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Went on hike at hogback. Almost died. So out of shape.
But it felt sooo good.
And the view was amazing.
Car condition = bad. Apparently that hill that I went up in houghton really did do damage to the already bad muffler.........We got to hogback and I parked kind of on a hill and I could see the front of my muffler was hanging about 5 inches above the ground... I was like, "Oh..Shit." And when we started heading back I could hear it hitting potholes... So we stopped and Jenny was gonna try and kick it off but it was attached in the back... So I found a lace to a random roller blade in my trunk and jenny tied up the muffler.. I love my roommate.
Calling a mechanic on monday.
Psh, I love my car.
Hockey again tonight.
Really need to work on sketchbook.
Pretty good weekend so far.

Class canceled due to illness..
SWEET. *coughs* I mean.. I hope he feels better.
...This is cool because I'm wide awake. Won't go back to bed. Doing laundry while most of the house is asleep, which means we don't have to have a death match over when our clothes are dry.
And I'm focused, it's relatively quiet and I can draw.
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So I got really pissed at the drawing because I knew it looked off and then I realized what was off and I didn't have time to fix it/start all over and omg.
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So then I went to sleep. Like I said I wasn't going to.
Then we went and got hockey tickets for both games. I'm so excited.
I'm excited for improv on wednesday. Apparently mid terms are coming up...
Gotta love being an art major..
I love my roommate.
I'm sad I missed out on that hike.
Overall. I feel very happy right now.
Not like the external OMGIMSOHAPPEE
But the internal warm satisfied feeling.
I mean that in the least sexual way.
Soc. in half an hour. I like that hippy woman.
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So I feel super sleepy right now.
Julia and I went on a hike. She's like a freaking mountain goat! She nimbly leaps over rocks and branches and I'm like "Ah.. This is far up.. We'll just take our time so we don't DIE"
But it was super pretty out despite the semi-raininess.
Ugh.. I feel so tired. I can't go to sleep and I have.. more drawing to do uggggghaflksjnv;adn
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So. I was on my rounds, walking around the art department and I look up and there's these two girls walking out together and I get this weird pang. I mean.. It's not like they looked like tiffany and aubrey but I imagined that they did and I miss being able to see the friends I really adore.. UGh.
I enjoy my friends here. But it's not like we're true.. *pauses* "friend-mates"-- where we find who we're really meant to be good friends with by trial and error and companionship. The friends here are almost ... friends of necessity. I like each of them, I appreciate each one for their little quirks and uh.. "funness" but I dunno.. We just sort of packed together in the beginning and now we're entering this comfort zone with each other but I don't think any of us are satisfied with the friendships we've developed.
It's not like I can replace what I'm lacking.
How profound.
Is this making sense?
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Ugh.. ok.. I'm just going to finish the OTHER drawing tomarrow.
I better get some sleep tonight.

My day.

..teehee... This is so stupid. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ku8I0XREDs0

I'll just deal.

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Ok. So, by FAR, the best night at improv EVER.
I'm high on life right now. I'm on top. So many people thought we were high or waster but we ARN"T
WE just klashv;ksdnvals;kvn had an awesome night.
And we got invited to a frat party?! WTF
But I don't think it's the kind where you get date raped.. All though one can never be sure.
And now I feel bad.
*cant focus*