i feel so fukin shitty. grrrrr! i feel soooooo suicidal. just wanna dig myself a bit hole and hide in it until i suffacate. ive had enough now. i cant deal with all this when im so alone.
everytime things start going well they always start taking a turn for the worst again. i cant stand living here much longer. im hoping to run away tonight, just got to wait for my dad to go out.
why do i always end up worrying people and bringing them down with me? i cant do anything right.