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[godessofpain]'s diary

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Written about Thursday 2005-01-13
Written: (7253 days ago)

what am i gonna do? i just cant stand the thought of nadia being so upset. i just couldnt cope if she killed herself. shes my world surely no-one can take that away from me. its hard enough seeing her with a boyfriend it would be 1000000 times worse knowing see was dead. i feel so helpless. i really cant lose her

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Written about Tuesday 2004-12-21
Written: (7276 days ago)

oh my god im soooooo bored.
just got back from the psychiatrists, ended up storming out. hes such a twat! i dont wanna change i am who i am GRRRRR

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Written about Tuesday 2004-12-14
Written: (7283 days ago)

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Written about Wednesday 2004-12-08
Written: (7289 days ago)

i feel so fukin shitty. grrrrr! i feel soooooo suicidal. just wanna dig myself a bit hole and hide in it until i suffacate. ive had enough now. i cant deal with all this when im so alone.
everytime things start going well they always start taking a turn for the worst again. i cant stand living here much longer. im hoping to run away tonight, just got to wait for my dad to go out.
why do i always end up worrying people and bringing them down with me? i cant do anything right.

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