[EverlastingDusk]'s diary
Well life, it seems that once again, you are running amock. Oh, how I wish that you would wait for me, come back and take my hand. Your interactions with others leaves me pondering about what I just did. Were I given the chance would I do it again? Misled Affection or Effections. Its all nonsense and you know it.. but then why do you still believe? Go back to that safe, warm place that calls you back constantly. However, it seems that when you go there, you are bombarded by more questions.Answ
... Over and over and over and over again,..
Written about Monday 2006-06-19
Written: (6528 days ago)
,........perpl
Written about Monday 2006-06-12
Written: (6535 days ago)
this stuff is crazy. though choices aren't at all bad, Their interactions with me are unnerving and I find myself confused... and liking it. Why is this so? It has been so long and it is only when I found peace with myself that others step into the light to observe my weaknesses. Do they see them? They might, but I doubt that they know from whence they came. Turmoil, yet i fall willingly into it's tight embrace. I wan't to say so much, but I will say nothing, lest I be heard in vain.
Tell me more,______.
Tell me more,_____.
Tell me more,______.
Figure me out.
Written about Tuesday 2006-05-30
Written: (6548 days ago)
WHAT THE HELL??????? OH MY FREAKIN GOOOSH!!!!!! I don't know what im doing...... Is this wrong...
Written about Thursday 2006-05-18
Written: (6560 days ago)
gah, idk what it is, probably because I have one more day of school left, Stuff is really starting to Irk me!!! Freakin Future looming overheard. Literally> I stapled my college letters to the ceiling!!! idk what i want!! Not just educationally though.. In life too. Everything is stupid to me right now, Love-stupid. Life-stupid. Me-stupid.Clot
Not the best pic, but i like it. Tawny and I, super cool!!
Written about Wednesday 2006-04-12
Written: (6596 days ago)
Moisture falling from the sky.
Droplets slide down my face.
Rain is mysterious and sheilding.
Only then can you not discern my tears from the weather.
Facts Guys should know about girls
when a girl is quiet
millions of things are running through her mind
When a girl is not arguing
she is thinking deeply
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you'll be around
When a girl answers "I'm fine" after a few seconds
she is not fine at all
When a girl stares at you
she is wondering why you are lying
When a girl lays on your chest
she is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a girl calls you everyday
she is seeking your atention
When a girl says "I love you"
she means it
When a girl says that she can't live without you
She has made up her mind that you are her future
When a girl says "I miss you"
No one in this world can miss you more than that
When a girl says No
She means no
Sorry if you were expecting something deep, its just something that i think Guys should know.
Also, Just to save space, Heres a deep song, kinda..
All-American Rejects: It Ends Tonight
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
And I don't want to need at all.
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such distain
The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.
[chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.
If you get sad easily, this might increase the chances of that happening today...
Enclosed on both sides,
Sadness creeps through dark eyes
A black haze of mourning
Surrounds her head
The feeling is mutual,
The feeling is dead.
She tells herself that tomorrows a new day,
Just to keep the fears and the tears away.
Naturally depressed, rarely does she grin
Surrounded by love she refuses to give in
Tending to her wounds, she dreams of flying,
Then realizing her false hopes, she continues sighing.
Her life is good but she can’t understand,
Why everything she holds onto just flows through her hand.
Nothing is solid; yes she yearns to touch it
Just a few more steps and she’ll reach the summit,
Almost to the top,
The mountain fades to gray
Looking around upon death and decay.
Lonely and cold
She won’t fit into life’s mold
Shutting off her mind she switches off the light,
And prepares for the next sadness fight.
Sorry I had to get that out, its a bit depressing i know,
To my Heartache: Why do you have to be so sweet? If you weren't i wouldn't want to be with you so much.
To my Soulsaver: Why do you have to make me laugh? I you didn't I would plunge into depression.
To my MemoryGiver: Why do you have to be so far? If you weren't i wouldn't miss you that much.
To my DreamMaker: Why do have to have that face? If you didn't I wouldn't want to embrace you like i do.......
To You: Why do you have to be who you are? If you didn't i wouldnt be who i am.
Thank you ______, for everything
Written about Saturday 2005-07-16
Written: (6866 days ago)
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WHen you look in the back of the book, you don't always find the ending you want.
WHOOOOOOOOOOOO
Written about Thursday 2005-04-14
Written: (6959 days ago)
This week has been the blackest, darkest, most depressing day of my life. The only person that can comfort me, hates me.......
Those who read this will undoubtedly not understand.
UGH!! Freaking Waterdhavian creatures are getting on my nerves!! I already rescued like 3 of them or something. The Druid, the Brain eating thingy and Gulnan. Damnit this last one is located in the Bloodsailors place somewhere. have to find it. If i don't there will be no cure and everyone will die!! ah, oh well, I tried. lol
I win!! Oh, btw, I must remember to join [Proffesional Idiots].
I HAVE A STALKER!!! I was minding my own business last night, and tawny called me and told me that my x messaged james!!!!! freaking out!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Written about Sunday 2004-12-26
Written: (7069 days ago)
I am not obsiquious...
If you are a taurus contact me...
It's pandamonium...
2005!!!
I am sooo not obsequious...
You're remedial...
Are YOU REMEDIAL...
Perverted pen...
Wooo...
to post a banner
put this
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in your description
but take out the *
So, last night i was really hyper and i was sliding around in my socks and i fell, it was funny yet it hurt. lol, it was awesome, running around gettin on my familie's nerves.. Ahhh, I love it.
*sigh* been a good day and all, but i just feel alone and stuff.. I can't describe it, Its like, you know those videos where that one person is standing still on a crowded street? See, everyone else around them is moving put not that one person, nobody notices he/she. The world just keeps going and it feels like you aren't part of it...