ummmm yah, this thing is basically just gonna be me posting poems and/or songs. and like some are good some are bad but w.e don't leave me shit talking about how their shitty or something cuz if you don't like them fuck off.
so umm yah.. MMFCL
i'm always there
feeling alone in the shadows
sitting in the corner at home
feeling that everything blows
in the oppisite direction that the wind goes
feeling like noones around
but know that when your lost you will be found
and i'll always appear
when you start with the river of tears
dont forget i'll always be there
i sware it
you think self mutilation is your only way out
but keep in mind all you have to do is shout
my name and it'll be heard
i'll make sure i lift you up, you have my word
nomatter where you are
from california to japan
keep in mind i'll hold your hand
i'll bring joy to your life,give you the strength to stand
when your feeling like death at 3 in the morning
i heed you no warning
call and i'll be listening
i'll come over and keep your eyes glistening
i would die 10x over to keep you alive
i would die 10x over to see the joy in your eyes
alanna i love you and i will always be there for you
guardian angel pt. 1
if i were to let you go
what kind of friend would i be
to leave you out in the rain
i'd have failed miserably
my job and my reason
for being on this earth
is to give you the spirit
and free you from this curse
when people wrong you
and don't seem to care
when people purposely hurt you
know that i am here
i'm your guardian angel
and i will always be there
my life
the window opens and the sun shines through
a winter scenery and the scent of morning dew
alone in my room on another gorgous day
on my bed i shall forever remain
i will wake up for another week in school
everday that passes is another life or death duel
why doesn't anybody understand me or give me a chance?
what is it that scares them?is it the way that i dress?
why must the world around us corrupt us all?
why can't we be the freespirited children inside us all?
people are scared of what other people think
but what does it matter, why do their oppinions bother us?
shouldn't our goal, be to make ourselves happy
so why does it seem that pleasing others is our lifes duty?
if you hate who i am for the music i listen to
i could care less, you hate me without reason then FUCK YOU
if you stereotype me for the pants that i wear or shirts that i rep.
then don't talk to me because i don't need your shit
i live for alanna and i live for the juggalos
screw anyone that doesn't care or want to know.
i have what i need and with her i will never ever go.
AMC
she brings me to a height where i have never been
she holds me tight and helps me everyway she can
she's there for me, always willing to lend a hand
she'll hug me and talk and everything feels alrite
she never leaves me feeling alone, she's there for me everymornign to night
when darkness covers my face, she brings the gift of light
our arms will embrace, and lets me know it's worhtliving life
she hugs me close, she gives me the will to fight
she heals me and she'll be there til my soul will rest
she's alanna carey, and i love her to death
THEY
they point and laugh at who i am
they cause these breakdowns time and again
they dont care how i feel
they dont care if these wounds ever heal
they dont care for my cuts i have bled
they dont care for the tears i have shed
they hate me because i'm diffrent
yet they can't explain for shit, what normal really is
who are they?
they are everyone, they are everyselfish being in the world
who look out for number 1
thats what makes alanna so special, my shining sun
she's not the same and she cares for me
i love her 100% i love her wholeheartedly
PARTING
my blood shivers cold
frozen and lost is my life, as i've been told
i have nowhere to confide
i wear a mask, the real me ishall hide
i am not wanted, they want something else
everything opposite of me, a positive self
i cower in fear at the people around me
always lecturing how i should be
but what right do they have to tell me how to live life
who had the right to tell them whats the greatest height
who made the laws and was suddenly god
who shot the calls and everyones heads would nod
who was so great they could rule us all
even after they've been dead and gone
they say structural order is what i need
but they must have failed for red is the color my heart shall bleed
life is a jailcell, no better then hell
i'm done with my life as you know it
i thank you all that contributed to it
contributed to MY DEATH.
and yah that's my first set. and like i said don't sign my guestbook saying there shitty or any shit alrite. don't like it then fuck off.