I am eating strawberries and whip cream. I have just glaced at the can of whip cream and noticed it has no dairy products in it. This is a mite disconcerning.
Today was the most frieghtning day of my life. I had my best friend over for dinner. We were on my padio, he was playing his guitar and I was writing some music riffs on paper. I was off in my own world and I finally realised he had stopped playing. I turned and looked at him because he is usually talking or joking. He was white as a ghost and looked at me with what I can only discribe as "dead eyes". He was holding his chest and said "my heart stopped". He fainted shortly after. I called an ambulance and to make a long story short, he is in the hospital now. The doctor said it could be a negitive reaction to the chemotheripy he has been having. I will never forget today ever.
Down too long like I was before/ I never thought Id see the day.
Can't be wrong coz I know the score/I guess there is no other way.
~Chorus~
Reminded of you!
Reminded of you!
Reminded of you!/ Reminded!
There it is all in black and white/It looks like thats the way it goes.
Doesnt matter if its wrong or right/Coz by now Im sure that I know.
~Chorus~
Never felt so undecided(undecided)/Everything that I had has been taken away.
Never felt so self enfrightened(self enfrightened)/All of this bullshit, Im surely to blame.
~Chorus~
Except your fate and you will be well/But the truth is that it never ends.
Few can say that they've been through hell/But you'll always lose another friend.
~Chorus~
Never felt so unimportant(unimportant)/Everything Ive ever said has been taken in vain.
Little girls so scared and fringhtened(scared and frightened)/All of the things that Ive done are still subject to change.
Reminded of you!
Is it love that tears people apart? Or is it people that claim to love, but have actually lost all interest.
Someone once told me "We are real people, we have feelings"
I completely understand this statment now. I have been made to kill a relationship, with someone Ive grown to not know at all.
I ,at one time, would claim to know this person more than anybody else. I was lead to believe this, I was nieve. I was a fool to believe that forgiveness can be shared by two "friends".
Mabye it is I who ,for lack of a better term, is the asshole.
Mabye I was just a lost soul who believed love could conquer all obsticles. Love connot conquer "anything". Love will put a man to death. Ive said it before and I will say it again. Love is for suckers.
I have felt pain, from a childhood spend on the streets, from a father who would beat me for trying to hug him, from a mother who would sit and watch as my father would throw me out on the streets for weeks upon weeks.
Pain was, at one time, my only friend. I learned what a friend was through pain. All I had one the street was pain. A 10 year old child grows up fast when subjected to living in a gutter.
from that, I am now me. A spent most my childhood living in trash, and now ive become just that....trash.
disregard the past two entries. i was stupid to think that. im sorry all, i think i still better leave as i prolly dont have many friends now
well i went for a walk and got home to find my "lover" having sex with my "friend" mark, also my bassist. so i sent her out of the room and beat mark to a bloody pulp. i had to control myself. I wanted so badly to go all the way and finish his life, but i had to stop. She was gone by the time i had finished. after i called an ambulance for mark and he was gone, i found a note on my dresser that read: "dear NewBlood, i can't love you anymore, i have found another." Ive said it before, and i'll say it again for the last time. Love is for suckers!
well confession time. last tueday i was diagnosed with lung cancer. i told some people that it ws in my leg, i didnt want people to feel bad for me. but it was still a lie and thats not fair. so yeah. there it is
Ive come to a scary conclusion,the
Ive come to a scary conclusion,the
man these freakin pills im on are crazy. the lable says i cant drink alcohal after takin them but i did and i cant feel my arms.