ok.... up tell now i have been prity good about hiding, but now i dont really care who reads what. There is some one i love deep deep down with all my heart but we live so far apart its hard to keep every thing going. i rember i used to just stare into her eyes and thank god every night that i was with some one so amazing. but im going out with some one else now and i dont know if i love her or not i care for her alot i know that but im afraid of being hurt agion. not buy the girl i love but by the girl im with. im not going to say her name cause shes the only person who really knows me on this site. but she needs to know that i do love her. but she dosnt belive me. persoaly im afrade of it.... love.... every time that word has ever enterd my life bad things happend and i was the cause of it. my brain is like a milkshake right now. every thing is messing up right now. but if u read this know that i do love u, and i do want to be with u its just as of right now i found some one thats close to home. i would love to be with u but living so far away from each outer is hard on both of us thats y u broke it up in the first place. just know that i love u