Wow.
I've been off of elftown for so long.
I missed it.
Anyway
for those of you who don't know
I've changed a lot.
I was reading that stupid ass survey thing I took forever ago and I was re-reading it and I think, "Shit, was I really this stupid and immature?!!?" lol
So I changed it.
I also have more piercings now...
Which I know isn't important
But I did most of them myself which makes me happy.
Four in each ear now
One lip ring
and my best friends, Naya and Rae Rae helped me do my belly button and in return I helped do theirs.
Soooo...
that's all that's new for me, really.
Oh and my boyfriend is Nelson.
I don't know who my boyfriend was the last time I was on here
but he's not my boyfriend anymore.
LOL
^.^Peace
XOXO,
<3 alwayz,
Velvet
SINGLE SINGLE SINGLE SINGLE!!! and i feel FREE
OMG I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER phew
well i feel LAME. cuz me and my boyfriend have gotten in two fights in less than a week and im just so pissed off cuz hes been acting like shit and stuff....
dude i'm such a bad person i swear lol
velvet
dude im so confused about this thing. ive been like losing sleep on it too and friggin i dont think that its good lol.......*sig
velvet
CANT I JUST CATCH ONE FUCKING BREAK??!?!
i'm pissed. again. looking back, it seems like i only write in my diary when i'm pissed off. anyways, i was talking to my friend and boyfriend on the fone and i said i had to go cuz my mom said that i couldnt be on the computer and the fone at the same time so i decided to get off the fone because i was on the computer first for one, and because it was getting boring and i was starting to get pissed because my boyfriend was saying that operation ivy and stupid shit like that was better than zeppelin and i was like wtf and AFI or w/e i mean what the hell and anyways, i really wasnt in the mood, i was already really upset about something (which i still am) and then friggin, he was like "ud rather talk to ur computer than me?" all sarcastic and shit it gets so annoying when he does that argh and i was just like, "no but i wanna be on the computer right now" and hes like "fine bye" while im just thinking go piss up a flagpole cuz i'm so pissed. cant he mature or something. i'm so pissed and upset and confused and upset and shit god i'm just totally fuckin frustruated. i mean hes just totally pissing me off and theres something else.....but i dont wanna write that cuz anyone can read it and...yeah lol (my friggin MOM can read it so) but yeah im seriously just SO PISSED OFF!!! what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!
velvet
soooo i'm kinda pissed off. cuz yeah well my friend had this birthday party and uh yeah him and my other friend were really cool but his other three friends must have broomsticks up their asses or something cuz they're really stupid and bitchy and so (kk their names are ryan, trevor, tyler, kenan, and nate. YOU ALL KNOW WHO U ARE...if ur out there and even care lol) trevor and ryan are being cool cuz they're the shit they're fucking cool and i guess that tyler was okay some of the time but kenan all he ever wants to fucking do is fight with me about music and shit and it PISSES ME OFF and then nate just wants to pick on me and call me a loser (which i am, but it gets annoying to hear it in groups) and fucking....yea
velvet
wtf i'm so pissed seriously. everyone has been pissing me off today. like friggin nate and kenan. they're all pissed because i said something that critizied nirvana and shit and its pissin me off. it wasnt even that bad i just said that kurt cobain was a crazy bastard but that he was a genius but nooo they get all pissed and nate shouldnt be talkin' cuz he went to a fuckin green day concert and they suck balls. honestly if they think that moshing is so "rock" w/e i dont care and kenan use to be cool until he became too fucking cool to hang out with people that werent in high school so fuck him too. plus, there's no one to talk to so i'm just seriously hating EVERYTHING right now. and there's no one to hang out with so i'm just like "fuck it" cuz my friends were trying to drag my ass back to white deer and i was just there fuckin yesterday i dont wanna go again i'm way too lazy for that shit. seriously, i'm having an off day
velvet
GOSH i dont have any messages and there's no one on whenever i'm on!!! FUCK IT ALL!! i'm so bored.....i bore MYSELF....okay i'm gonna go crawl in a hole and ignore myself now...
velvet
just to let anyone know that if they want to go around and try to piss people off by trying to annoy them on purpose its not gonna work on me for one, and two i dont care if ur seventeen and u have a full time job and you're about to graduate. ur a loser that needs to grow up and u piss me off cuz ur a workaholic and you make me laugh lol oh! and you need to make better comebacks.
velvet
god freakin nobody is on at the same time i am. like, none of my friends anyways
random quote from my bestfriend hunter
"our times away from each other make our times together more special!"
okay i feel so pissed at myself. more pissed at myself than i ever probably will for a LOOOOOOOOOOONG time. well i feel really bad because i shouldnt have broken up with my ex boyfriend over the internet because now he totally hates my guts (WHICH i dont blame him) but he was still a really good friend and i wanted it to stay that way but i totally fucked things up so here i am, back at the beginning, wondering if its best to just give up going out altogether. and i feel bad cuz this dude was a good friend!!! he was one of my best friends before we were even going out and now i still wanna be friends with him but i know that he totally thinks that i should burn in hell and i feel REALLY BAD lol....ugh. but yeah, i'm pretty sure i'll get over it.....after a long time but...in the meantime, i should find out if he wants to bite my head off cuz (hes on elftown) he ended the relationship "friends" with me (again, totally dont blame him, i'm such a bitch) and yeah, that sucks. i mean, dont like him anymore, but i still feel bad! i still wanna be friends!
velvet
camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer camp white deer....CAMP WHITE DEER GODDAMMIT THAT STUPID FUCKING CAMP WHITE DEER IS FUCKING POSSESING ME!! not really but i'm seriously pissed......
YES!! I TALKED TO CAMERON YESTERDAY! TWICE! YES! i was right, he came home kinda late, lol. it was bitchin 2 hear his voice after three weeks though!!!!!!! LOL he was being his funny self too which was tight.
xoxo,
luv alwayz,
velvet
PS ONE MORE DAY UNTIL I SEE CAMERON
well my bf came home today but i havent gotten to talk to him DAMMIT! cuz he doesnt have my number and i already called and i got the machine and hes not on the computer. i have the strangest feeling he's coming home late lol but yeaaah, i just cant wait to see him!!!
xoxo,
luv alwayz,
velvet
PS two more days until i see cameron
well my bf cameron is coming back tomorrow!! i havent seen him in three weeks and its been HORRIBLE!!! i mean for crying out loud the last time i saw him we werent even going out!! the last time we actually TALKED we werent going out, this pisses me off. but he seriously does like me (at least thats what i heard) but yup....I MISS HIM SO MUCH! i'm gonna talk to him tomorrow and then on monday i'm just gonna hug him and squeeze him and hug him and squeeze him...okay that sounds really fucking nasty i didnt mean it like that fucking a that sounds so wrong. oh well. but yeah......umm.
xoxo,
luv alwayz,
velvet
PS Three more days until i see cameron