my best friend kristen died on saturday january 27, 2007. she died of alcohol poisoning, 17 days after her 20th birthday. i feel so sad, depressed, lost, numb. i dont know what to feel. i havent talked to her since about june. but fuck. i was going to call her yesterday and see if she wanted to go eat lunch or something. now i will never see her again. im extremely sad, but im still in a state of shock. i dont know what to do. i feel like its all a horrible nightmare. :( she was such a beautiful person, she was a volunteer at animal shelters and was a friend who always had an open ear. i truly loved her and will miss her greatly. i just cant believe that she is gone. *sobs i remember her so clearly that it doesnt seem real. am i dreaming? i think not. :(