well, i guess i should start being nicer to people. but is it worth it??

i wish i was more outgoing, in real life, not the internet...that doesnt count.

one have says yes the other says no...i dont get it

HEY LOOK I WROTE A SONG!! WHOOHOO

haha be very judgemental please



this beds not big enough for the three of us


CHORUS
(if hate was a three letter word
it would spell out y-o-u
now baby im not sorry
but this bed was built for two)

if only you could understand
where i was coming from
maybe then we wouldnt have to
be what weve become
and maybe i could apologize
if you werent so fucking dumb
the things you say the things you do
just make me oh so numb

(CHORUS)


ITS NOT DONE YET!!??!!??

in the mental drunkeness of my mind i slurr the metaphorical visions of sex with you and i together with some other fucking words that make me sound like a poet...


aaaaahhhhhhhhh fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

thats how i feel RIGHT now...because i dont know why is the matter of the fact that i dont know what i want...that doesnt make sense either

doesnt mean anything i just love this song!!

Cavalier Eternal- by Against Me!

girl im sorry but i'm leaving.
we're both at fault, we're both to blame.
and it wasn't the other men cause there were other women.
this just isn't love, it's just the remorse of a loss, of a feeling.
even if i stayed it just wouldn't be the same.

double this drink up into the, tallest glass you got.
you know i aint used to sleeping all, alone.
gonna make it to the moon tonight on a 1 way kamikaze flight.
if i could get so high i'll leave behind my problems,
take em out with the empty bottles.

oh girl, i'm sorry, but i'm leaving.
we're both at fault, we're both to blame.
and it wasn't the other men cause there were other women.
this just isn't love, it's just the remorse of a loss of a feeling
even if i stayed it just wouldn't be the same.

me and this guitar are going swinging blind into the unknown.
you know a song and a stage is all i never needed of a home.
someday i, will call from a payphone in a truckstop on the road
and you'll tell me how much better off you've been on your own.

so girl, i'm sorry but i'm leaving.
we're both at fault, we're both to blame.
and it wasn't the other men cause there were other women.
this just isn't love, it's just the remorse of a loss of a feeling
even if i stayed...
it just wouldn't be the.....
same.

i have a lot of secrets. some of them are not really secrets anymore. and some no one will ever know. theres this girl that i think i like...sometimes i just dont know. but i always have, well since i met her...and i dont know if she likes\liked me or what not i dn. ive spent some quality time with her, ive even fallen asleep in the same bed as her haha. maybe i can tell her how i feel one day. maybe...if she reads this and asks ill tell her...maybe

i hate alot of things. but what i really hate is indy music. what is up with like the whole drumset thing. in every indy video the drummer has like a bass drum, snare and high hat. THATS NOT A DRUM SET. thats just a percussion section. you dont even have to be good to rock that set. and they all sound the same. every indy band soudns the saaaaaaaaaaaaame...oy vei

i really hate you for loving me so much. i really do.

im in highschool waht the fuck. i dont want to think about marriage. you cant do this to me its not fair. dont expect me to know who i want to spend my life with...your too good for me.

letssss seee...im bored. lets get people to hate me.

i like George W. Bush

i support the war in Iraq

i believe homosexuality is wrong, oh so very wrong.

yay let the hatemail pour in!!

YOUR SO FAKE.

you and your drama. oooooh look at me my life is soooo bad.

cry about it.

there are people worse than you out there.




(this attack isnt on any one person its on the youth of America)

you think there is no one like you?? guess the fukc what...your wrong. all the little emo kids like you like to cut themselves. there are so many of you...i cant avoid them. talk about being non conformists and being different, your lieing. your all the same!! i dont know how you think your being different and acting like an individual by doing this...have fun once in a while. smile, go outside, play a sport. dont try and pretend that you dont miss being little and playing outside. maybe one of you will read this and get over yourself...or maybe a hardcore one will kill themselves...thats not my problem, i didnt MAKE you do it. you did it because you want attention. thats why you cut. thats why you dress "differently"...you all crave attention and you want to be loved even though you know you have people to love you. the real non-conformists here are all the people who are normal. but then again no one is normal. so i just contradicted myself. there are stereotypes...mmm i love those. no matter what anyone says. THERE ALL TRUE. think about it. maybe not all of them but most of them. and that influences opinions.



im glad im normal

with these words that flow out of your mouth like "you dont trust me" and "i only love you"...i want to believe you i really do its just that one fukcing thought in the back of my head that shows the images of you screwing him for a while and then laughing about it. im sorry for what i did. i wish i was ok.

uhhh
why is my life so pathetic that i get exited thinking about watching the discovery channel when i get home from work??

i dn...i do like the discovery channel, i learn something new almost every day...but i still think i watch too much tv. like most americans. oh sorry thats suppossed to be Americans...capital "A"...i wish i was the artistic type, so i could write lyrics for my band. we have no originals yet. yay more bad grammer...im too lazy to hit the delete button even though i just did like four times to fix the words lazy delete just and did...i feel bad for nano, dogs are so nice and freindly...i guess her sisters isnt...that sucks, i love dogs. sometimes i love my job too. like today. it was easy and fun. but i was really tired. i work at a dunkin donuts by the way. im really sunburnt from the beach the other day. i was in maine, portland maine. it was neat. my gf was suppossed to come up too cuz she lives in maine but she didnt...i didnt really care sometimes i dont like her as much as im suppossed to. if you say i love you do you have to mean it?? i hope not...maybe im just a douchebag then...what ever im only in highschool i dont know what love is yet. i never see her anyways, she lives an hour and a half away. its not like its that exciting when we do see each other. its fun for the moment cuz we do "stuff" together but afterwords i dont feel happier. i think i have depression issues. i was diagnosed with OCD a few months ago too. that was wonderfull, im not taking any medicine for it though. it takes away my personality. what the fuck. why am i writing all this no one will read it...or if you do/did/are reading this then good job. give me you address and i will mail you a high five. i hate how people follow other people's ideals. even those cool kids that are all liberalistic and non-conformist follow someone...seriously, did you think you were the only one?? thats funny. i hope people read this, George Bush is the best president ever!! haha what now. hows that for being non-conformist. i win. 1-me 0-liberals. yay...

i think im done typing in this for now. byebye

joy....im moving to townsend...yay...........TT.TT

A quiz stolen from [Paz], who stole it from [Avatar15]


YOUR LIFE
they call me: uhm ty-kun, tyler, wonder twin, or anything "they" want to i dont care


sex: male

my first breath of air: 11-18-90

status: taken


occupation: casheir at white hen!


Nationality: uhh Norse! haha go Vikings!



REWIND
Most memorable memory: uhm DC trip i guess? or Christmas where i got my bass


worst?: uhh i dont remember


First word uttered: quack like not the sound...the word


First bestfriend ever!: hassan


FAST FORWARD
College planning to go: Miami Institute of Art...for music!


Future resident of: uhh Canadia?


wedding: no idea

Children: uh i dont know 1 or 2 i guess

Looking forward to: sophmore year and my permit then license!


NOT looking forward to: i dont know

PLAY
Feeling: bored thats why i took this survey


Listening: Red Hot Chili Peppers

Talking: no


doing: playing bass

Craving: more amplification for my bass

Thinking of: Mary

Hating: hate is such a strong word...

First love: huh?


Current love: Mary


Love or lust? i dont know


Best love song: hahaha Sir Psycho Sexy by RHCP


When love hurts, you: get over it


True or false: uhh true


Have you ever been in love?: uhm i dont know

Is there such thing as love at first sight?: tough qwestion


THE OPPOSITE SEX
Turn ons: uhh im not oblidged to reveal that information!


Turn offs: ha  ha  ha  i dont know...

Does your parents' opinion on your bf/gf matter to you: no


The sweetest thing someone of the opposite sex can do for you: hahaha you dont wanna kno! jk....or am i?


Where do you go to meet new people: uhm school?

Are you the type of person to holler n ask for numbers?:no?





PICKY PICKY
Dog or cat: both...at the same time



Short or long hair:i have long hair i guess...but in a woman...definately long hair

Sunshine or rain: rain


Moon or sun: mooooon

Basketball or football: both


Righty or lefty: righty


Hugs or kisses: both


1 best friend or 10 acquaintances: 10 bestest frends!


bf/gf or best friend: i dont get the qwestion...gf?


TV or radio: tv


Starbucks or jamba juice: starbucks

McDonalds or Burger King: taco bell!

Summer or Winter: winter


Written letters or e-mails: e-mails

Playstation or Nintendo: hot damn! thats a hard qwestion uhh both?

Disney or Nickelodeon: neither

Car or motorcycle: momocycle


House party or club: house party

Sing or dance: guitar!!


Freak or slow dance: uh slow


Yahoo, google or ask jeeves?: google all the way

MISCELLANEOUS
Can you swim?: mhm

Whats your most embarrassing moment?: when me and bret and ryan tyler did the lyp sync contest in 8th grade

What are you scared of?: uhm big spiders...disease...i dn

What is your greatest accomplishment?:bass

What kinda roof is over your head?: a roof made of candy and gummy bears!


Do you like tomatoes?: the ketchupy kind


How many TVs in the house?: like three

How many phones?: 5 including cells


How many residents?: 5


How many DVDs do you have?: like 6


Last dentist visit: uhh last month i think

Last doctor visit: i dont kno a few months ago

Last phone call: uhhm i dont remember