One of the most frightening things in this world is rejection by those you love. When you love the whole world, well, it can make things a bit difficult.

In this case, though, I fear rejection from my extended family. I just posted on myface that I am a Southern Baptist, which is going to go over REALLY well, I can tell you. They'd probably prefer to hear that I'm pagan or something and I know they'd like it better if I were Jewish, since half the family is. I'm incredibly nervous right now. Still, I should be able to state my beliefs, and I have done so. Hopefully this won't blow up in my face TOO badly.

It's been a long, long time.

I'm getting a lot happier, mostly due to Tyler and the likelihood that I'll move out in the fall. Mostly Tyler, though. Whenever I get depressed, he just holds me and tells me I'm beautiful :) He really helps with everything. I like his parents, though not his brother... Marshall is a bit of a jerk. Marshall borrowed twenty bucks from his mom to play poker and didn't pay her back when he won a hundred. Sheesh. I like the church Tyler's parents go to, I'm considering joining it. They are very open, pleasant, accepting people, yet they don't accept what goes against their values. This, I like.

I suck at disc golf. MAJORLY. I flunked every hole. >.>

I love RENFEST!! We went in October, it was so awesome. Third biggest in the nation ^^ It lasts for two whole months XD Of course, we didn't go for that long, just for one weekend, but it was cool. Tyler and I are going to another one tomorrow, but I'm not expecting much. It's a family friendly one and that cuts out a lot.

Hope all of you are doing well.

Bye!

Gotten from [Hebstsonne]

Are you more man, or woman?

1.[X] You love hoodies
2.[X] Dogs are better than cats
3.[X] It's hilarious when people get hurt
4.[X] You've played with/against boys on a team
5.[ ] Shopping is torture (matters what for and with whom)
6.[x] Sad movies suck
7.[ ] You own an Xbox 360
8.[ ] You wanted/played with Hotwheel cars as a kid
9.[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter
10.[ ] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega
11.[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
12.[ ] You watch sports on TV
13.[ ] Gory movies are cool
14.[ ] You only go to your dad for advice
15.[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps
16.[x] You like going to football games
17.[ ] You used to/do collect football cards
18.[X] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
19.[X] Green, black, red, blue or silver are one of your favorite colors
20.[X] You love to go crazy and not care what people think
21.[X] Sports are fun too
22.[X] Have talked with food in your mouth
23.[ ] Wear Boxers to bed
24.[ ] Or your socks on at night

total: 11
Multiply the total by 7
Score: 77


GIRL PART

1.[ ] You wear lip gloss
2.[ ] You wear eyeliner
3.[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors
4.[ ] You wear the color pink/ have worn the color pink (I HATE PINK!! GRAGH!)
5.[ ] Go to a female for advice
6.[ ] You KNOW cheerleadings a sport and you argue about it
7.[ ] You hate wearing the color black
8.[x] You like shopping
9.[x] You like wearing jewelry
10.[x] Skirts are a part of your wardrobe
11.[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars (....how...could...anyone..not..*dies*)
12.[ ] It takes you around 1 hour (or more) to shower get dressed and put on make-up and accessories
13.[ ] You smile a lot more than you should
14.[ ]You have more than 10 pairs of shoes/sneakers
15.[ ] You care about what you look like
16.[x] You like wearing dresses when you can
17.[ ] You love, LOVE movies
18.[x] Used to play with dolls as a little kid
19.[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it
20.[ ] Like taking pictures when you're bored

total: 6
Multiply the total by 7
Score: 42

Apparently, I'm more male than female, but not at all typical anyway XD

*dances* Daily Poem number FOUR! BOOYA! *laughs happily*

Blarg... I'm sick. Getting better now, I can walk and talk without pain. According to the doc, I have either a sinus infection or strep throat. Hopefully, this will go away soon and I won't get the pink eye that my brothers did.

I wish that my friends would want to talk to me enough to instigate conversations. I'm always the one to call people or message them, never anyone else. It makes me feel pretty lonely.

Alright, I'm not leaving. -.- I sure feel like it, though.

You know what? That just... that does it. I'm sick of this. I'm sick of being lied to and used, of making friends and then finding out they weren't my friends in the first place. I'm leaving. I might come back to check on my REAL friends, like [Skife] and [Arthin]. I know who they are. I know they really care about me. Then again, I might never come back. Goodbye.

Woohoo! My third time on the Daily Poem, and with Sweetly Alone too! ^______^

Greyscale by ME

All around me I have friends
That accept my life and let me in
They urge me to be happy for them
I try, I try, and I try to let happiness win

But I sit alone in the grey
I watch them, the others
It is silent, I watch their ways
THEY have a way into the colors

I love my friends, I care
But I remain here, nowhere
Lost alone in the black
Knowing there's no way back

The white glares into me
And by it's harsh light I can see
My life, my joy, my pain,
All colors swirling down the drain

"Be happy, be happy!" they cry
While I let out another sad sigh
For I know they will always fail
With my life on the greyscale

Wheee!!!!!! I talked to [elfboy] today, for an hour and a half straight *stares* Tis odd, normally I have to get off before then. My dad is STILL asleep at 1:11 in the afternoon... he might have just woken up. Yikes. It allowed me a lot of time to talk though ^_^ I'd call Brett or Joshua but I have the feeling that both are somewhat busy.

Very insane but not happy. It's raining. Nastily. Thunder and whatnot. Ick. I feel terrible. Raistlin and Vitani - vewy noice peoples. Which is why I miss them so much. Yeah, Quiran, though I talked to her yesterday. I wish they could visit, but even if they had time and money that wouldn't happen. Stinky. Nasty. HORRID. Especially for Raistlin, because I know him better and he lives in the oosa... USA. It would be rather difficult for Vi to visit, as she lives in Sveden. *sigh* I hate this.

*grin* Happy and obviously insane. Ask Vitani if you don't believe me.

Today so far is pretty good, but I think it's about nine. (My clock needs to have its batteries replaced...) Already talked to [dark starlight], [Vitani] (VI!), and a few others...

68 days and counting since Raistlin's been gone... and I have been gone to the grave...

I WON THE COSTUME CONTEST FOR HARRY POTTER 3! WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOO! YEAH! YAY! WHEEE! *jumps all over room in happiness* This is the first time that I've won ANYTHING! Now, I don't really like that it was for HP 3, as I don't like the movie, but I guess it's for just Harry Potter as I dressed like they did in the other movies. So... *Egyptian dance*