It's been decided. I think... I am going to join the army. If I am very lucky I'll actually do something that matters. Nothing could be grander. Where I am at, right now. I cannot be what I want to be. I don't care what anyone thinks. My persons has always belonged to the military. It's what I was born to do. But, I will be a medic; I love being a medic. I love helping people. It just kills me knowing that there is someone out there fighting and dying, and I cannot help them. It'll be for a minimum commitment. Maybe 3-4 years. I dunno when I am going to do this, but it'll prolly be after Christmas. I wanna get one more Christmas in with my family. They deserve that much. Only Dad knows my intentions and he approves. It'll kill my mom and sisters, but I need to move on. My buddy Sadiq is going to join me. We'll be doing the buddy program. I cannot think of a better friend to go through that with.
I'll post more as I know more. And, I will post the address for my unit and everything else when the time comes. Letters are always welcome.
I feel the need to share this bit of information with everyone.
There is a VERY special woman in my life. One whom I love so, so, so, so dearly. She has made these past months worth living. I want everyone to know that I am hers, totally and completely!
This will be our first Valentines Day together. Laura, [sweet.tx.tea], Jane, Laura-Leigh, my lovely Laura-Leigh, When God's love fades from the world, that is the day I shall stop loving you. You are my pride and joy above all else, and nothing shall change the fact that I love YOU, and no one else. Be mine? 'Cause I am certainly yours.
Your sweetheart,
Austin ChiefPanda Gescheidle
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I did it! I passed the National Registry for EMS! Now, I need to know one thing. What do I do from here? I can either play it safe and not do 911 calls, or I can do 911 calls. Does it even matter? Is it worth affecting one life at the chance of burn out? I'm just not sure anymore. Don't know what to do. I know I LOVED running 911 calls. The excitement was almost too much to take. Thoughts?