well today i will write
i'm sad :(
i gave up pot and ciggerets
and hope and any chance of love
i hate myselfe and my body
my morals and outlooks on my life are shallow
and i'm scared of love
and i push ppl away
it's hard and i'm not dealing
i get depressed
i dream about death and i think about suicide
i'm getting further away from everything
the walls are closing in and i can't breath
suffocated by the hopes of others
and i'm going to fail and let you all down so i may stop it all ...everything

tday i will start the research