1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
"of a gown. Throwing my bearded chin upright and drawing"
(Clive James, May Week Was In June)


2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
Shit, I just punched the wall! Ow...


3.What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Uuuh... probably something on Kerrang!.



4.Without looking, guess what time it is:
Uuum... 17:25


5.Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
Well, only 5 minutes out... 17:20



6.With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The song "Sacrifice" by Poison, and cars going by outside.


7.When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
Walking home from school earlier this afternoon.


8.Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
www.pandora.com
Awesome site.


9.What are you wearing?
My Green Day hoodie, black studded belt, brown school socks (eeeuuuurrrgh) and dark blue jeans. Oh, and underwear, but let's not get into that right now...


10.Did you dream last night?
Probably, but I don't remember any of my dreams.



11. When did you last laugh?
On the train at Sam because he didn't think this boy I said hi to was my brother. He was.


12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Gosh, where to start? Some weird egyptian shit, some cupboard, several million bacteria and red paint.


13. Seen anything weird lately?
My family and my reflection in a mirror.


14. What do you think of this quiz?
Meh.


15. What is the last film you saw?
The Fifth Element. Great film.


16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
A few things, a good Bass, a guitar strap, Good Charlotte, and a house just like Castle Bam.


17. Tell me something about you that I don't know.
But if I told you, then... you'd know...



18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
Eliminate pollution.



19. Do you like to dance?
Occasionally, but I think it makes me look fat...


20.George Bush:
Idiotic ass wipe.



21. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Louisa Willow


22. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Uuh.... Liam Cole


23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
Yup.


24. What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
"Hmm, it seems you're a Satanist, go and join the other sensible people in Hell."


25. 4 people who must also do this meme in THEIR journal:
Uuuuh, Dude 1, Dude 2, Dude 3 and Dude 4!!

You know who you guys are...

DAMN YOU CHAIN EMAIL!!

A fucking chain email has lost me a previously really great friend... he was so awesome, I liked him so much, and now because of ONE FUCKING EMAIL he hates me. If you're reading this boyo, and YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE, you've made me suicidal again. Thanks alot, ass wipe.

Why do you still hate me? I've apologised so many times I'm beginning to tire of the word "sorry".

PLEASE FORGIVE ME SOON. PLEASE. I NEED YOU TO. If you don't, only Satan knows what I'll do to myself.

Once again, I got bored.

Iugies Philosophy On Life From This Point Onwards Until She Gets Bored Again And Changes It.
Woah, long title...

Anyhoo...

1. My Chemical Romance and Green Day (esp. Billie Joe!) do and always will rock.
2. Eminem is hell on earth and is TOTALLY awesome.
3. Guitar is awesome.
4. Random family shit is good.
5. GIFT is awesome, and I would do like, anything to live there.
6. Bam Margera is a devil... I love him so much...
7. Freaks are good for the mind and soul.
8. Poetry is awesome.
9. The word awesome is awesome.
10. This philosophy shall form the basic principles of my life from this time onwards, until... oh for f's sake read the 
title!

Hey, I got bored, so...

Iugies Philosophy On Life From This Point Onwards Until She Gets Bored Again And Changes It.
Woah, long title...

Anyhoo...

1. My Chemical Romance do and always will rock.
2. Eminem is hell on earth and so damn sexy...
3. Guitar is awesome.
4. Random family shit is good.
5. GIFT is awesome, and I would do anything to live there.
6. I have a sick mind, and must try to convert it to that of a normal 12 year old [Yeah... like hell you will]
7. Freaks are good for the mind and soul.
8. Poetry is awesome.
9. The word awesome is awesome.
10. This philosophy shall form the basic principles of my life from this time onwards, until... oh for f's sake read the
title!

YES!

This is just a random entry, i want to check some shit...

Haughty Intellectual
You are 57% Rational, 14% Extroverted, 42% Brutal, and 57% Arrogant. 
You are the Haughty Intellectual. You are a very rational person, emphasizing logic over emotion, and you are also rather arrogant and self-aggrandizing. You probably think of yourself as an intellectual, and you would like everyone to know it. Not only that, but you also tend to look down on others, thinking yourself better than them. You could possibly have an unhealthy obsession with yourself as well, thus causing everyone to hate you for being such an elitist twat. On top of all that, you are also introverted and gentle. This means that you are just a quiet thinker who wants fame and recognition, in all likelihood. Rather lacking in emotion, introspective, gentle, and arrogant, you are most certainly a Haughty Intellectual! And, most likely, you will never achieve the recognition or fame you so desire! Sweet!

To put it less negatively:

1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive.

2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.

3. You are more GENTLE than brutal.

4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.

¿Jamás maravilla lo que hicimos? ¿Se preguntó jamás por qué hicimos nosotros? Adivino que la vida apenas no es eso gran. Adivino que la vida está apenas repleta del odio.

Reasons why I'm depressed:
·My p- is due and I hate my p-.
·I have a continual headache.
·I have no friends in my form and barely any in my year.
·At every available second I want to break down and cry.
·My parents are always angry at me, and each other, and people they work with.
·I have suddenly realised I cannot sing, after at least a year of deluding myself.
·Everyone expects me to do something, and never thanks me when I do it.

I hate my life. I cut my finger yesterday. The pain was like a drop of ice into my life.

My mum (no, not Dad, just mum) is redoing my bedroom. My brother took some units downstairs and broke the front door window, that cost £300. Desperately want to cut self but cannot find knife. Everyone shouting at everyone else. No money. Cold. Extremely sore throat. Want to break down and cry but will only be left if one does so. This <-> close to killing myself. Need to do so much homework I'm gonna pass out. Headache. Emmensly tired. And... I have headlice. Oh, and my hips stick out so much, i have only 3 pairs of trousers still fitting.

Carrot's Poems
More of Carrot

You may not believe
What you are meant to see
and it seems the world's gone mad...

And although you wish to hide it,
You can't help but say it

You've lost it.

And you've mucked it up again...
Too much, too soon...
'Guess I shouldn't speak at all...'

Lost so many friends
Gained so much hate
'All by being me...'

Now you must change...
You have to change yourself...
Otherwise...

Mucked it up again...
Too much, too soon...
Guess I shouldn't speak at all...

Lost so many friends
Gained so much hate
All by being me...

I have to change...
I have to change myself...
Otherwise...

It's goodbye...

I need you here, with me.
I need to have you close.
You're the only one I can trust with this,
So listen, to me my baby.

No-one else could hear me cry,
But you heard me, my dear.
No-one else could see me die,
But you saw me, my dear.

Stay with me forever.
Stay by my side.
Stay to console, Stay to help.
Stay, without you, I die.

This is the kind of love you hear in fairy tails.
This is the kind of love you never know you had.
This is the kind of love no-one can stop.
This is the kind of love we have.

Stay by me Forever.
Keep with me always.
Never forget that I need you.
And love me many more days.

Stay By Me

Together we will get through this.
Together, baby, don’t cry.
Together, my baby, we will conquer all harm,
Together, we can reach the sky.

Together Forever

The Top Ten

Today, I am suicidly depressed. I seemed to be depressed most of the time nowadays. But not kill myself suicidely, crawl into a dark hole and stay there for the rest of my life. I hate this. WHY? WHY? All this stuff has happened, I've got problems I don't want to tell anyone. And I can't tell anyone. It's not fair. I just want a simple life, why can't I have it?

I am doomed to be bored today. I have to go to my sisters concert, with my great aunt and uncle. My mum didn't even give me a choice. She said on tuesday: We're going out to kings lynn on friday meg. I had no chance in hell of getting out of it. If I don't appear back here tonight, then consider me dead. Either through boredom, or frustration.

I feel shit. I feel so shit I could kill myself right now.