Why is it human nature to mess any good thing?
Anything at all, we mess with it we turn it until its different..


It's hard to live somewhere you dont belong, i would know i am far from country but i go to this little hick school.. totaly in the middle of no where.. all me "friends" have way to many problems of their own let alone have enough time for someone who doesnt belong..

i dont know why im writing this.. im feeling a bit off centered, you see my world has gone from smooth to dead stop to crazy spinn its like a bad roller coster ride.. and believe it or not that is only today..

I'm still trying to pull all the pieces together and make since of this thing i call a life..

but i had to let out a bit before i went and sleep for like an hr. and a half before i get most likely one of two wake up calls..



Gabriel I love you, you know that..
Im not sure if you will read this but i just got off the phone with you and im gonna go sleep like you said ok??

i love you

and my heart has and will always be yours dont forget that..

your,

Lylli Pandora Richards

Happiness goes by so fast you blink and everything is gone, you remember and it all hurts you. The best memory you can have may often be the worst or last thing you want to remember. Emotions are caused by memories. From the second you are born till the second you die you have every memory, it’s just a matter of being able to reach that memory. People who suppress their memories don’t forget them they lock them in a place just out of reach. I wish I was one of those people. The only memories I can seem to hold on to are the ones that hurt me the most.
I remember me and my friends and then it hits me, I don’t talk to any of them anymore. I shut myself off from people in general so I could protect myself. I opened myself up to someone in hopes that I could be whole again and I was. I thank you so much for getting me to believe in people again, but it’s also you who has made me shut them out once more. I love you more then anything in this world or anything out of this world, and I will never give up on you. I believed in you, I always have and I always will.

From January 1st, 2008 to March 25th, 2008 was the best thing that could have ever happen to me. But my world came crashing down March 26th slowly at first and then made a sudden stop March 29th. Today is March 30th, 2008 the day after my whole world stopped and I am now picking up the big pieces I can find that were my life and I’m forcing them back together even if they don’t fit, kind of like a puzzle piece that your just so sure it goes there you set it down it doesn’t really fit there but you push on it just to make for damn sure it can or can not go there, only I couldn’t care less if my pieces fit together because one way or another they are going to fit the way I want them to.

I guess you were right when you said there is such thing as being too happy, because it happened to me. I was too happy and way too confident that nothing could go wrong in my life, but I was blinded by you. I was so happy in your blinding light that I wish to stay there with you even after it all I’m giving you another chance because I believe your better than that. I’m not giving up on you I never will!

The condom is the glass slipper of our generation.
You slip one on when you meet a stranger.
You...dance all night.
Then you throw it away.
The condom, I mean.
Not the stranger.

-Marla Singer

David Usher - Numb

Hey, have you fallen off the shelf?
Can I help you get yourself, back together?
I'm so tired, can I help you save yourself?

Have your friends all changed?
All the people that you thought would be around,
As your light goes grey,
Are you losing all the hope you thought you'd found,
I think we're numb (x3)

Hey, have you found somebody new?
Have you found yourself unglued, for the first time in your life?
Can I help you save yourself?

Have your friends all changed?
All the people that you thought would be around,
As your life goes grey,
Are you losing all the hope you thought we'd found,
I think we're numb (x6)

And tell me do you feel like dying?
Tell me does it hurt just waking?
Tell me have you lost the reasons you ever wanted to fight?
Has it left you lonely?
Tell me do you pray for morning?
Tell me does it hurt just waking?
Tell me have you lost the reasons you ever wanted to fight?
And you know it's all impossible.

And nothing feels the same,
Life is full now,
Every morning when the light comes in,
Everybody sings the same song tonight,
Better fly away, yeah

Have your friends all changed?
All the people that you thought would be around,
As your light goes grey,
Are you losing all the hope you thought you'd found,
I think we're numb. (x9)

There's Friends then there's friends from TEXAS !!!

Body: FRIENDS: Tell you not to do something stupid when drunk

TEXAS FRIENDS: Will post 360 degree security so you dont get caught

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FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr. and Mrs

TEXAS FRIENDS: Call your parents drunk as hell and tell them about the fat chick you tried to pick up

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FRIENDS: Hope the night out drinking goes smoothly, and hope that no one is late for the ride home.

TEXAS FRIENDS: Know some wild shit will happen, and set up rally points and an E & E route.

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FRIENDS: Bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.

TEXAS FRIENDS: Will be sitting next to you saying, Damn...that shit was fun "

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FRIENDS: Cry with you.

TEXAS FRIENDS: laugh at you

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FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.

TEXAS FRIENDS: Steal each other ' s stuff so often nobody remembers who bought it in the first place.

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FRIENDS: Are happy that someone picked up a one night stand and leave them alone.

TEXAS FRIENDS: Will Crawl naked into the room with a camera and hope for the tag team.

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FRIENDS: Know a few things about you.

TEXAS FRIENDS: Could write a book with direct quotes from you.

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FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that ' s what the crowd is doing.

TEXAS FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.

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FRIENDS: Would knock on your door.

TEXAS FRIENDS: Walk right in and say, "I'm home!"

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True Story:
A religion teacher assigned her class an essay on what makes a good Christian. One student wrote about praying nightly, say no to abortion, banning gay marriage, and donating money. The other student wrote about talking to God and allowing people to enjoy their lives, and supporting gay marriage.


The day the teacher was to hand the papers back, she called up the second student and told him she would pray for him when he went to hell. The student asked why would he be going to hell, and why he got an F on his paper. The teacher told him that Catholisim is against gay marriage. The student looked at her for a minute, then said aloud, "I'm gay." The teacher kicked him out of class as if he had said fuck or worshipped Satan.


A girl in the back of class who had a boyfriend and was obviously straight got up and left too.


* If you would leave the classroom, repost this. It doesn't matter if you're straight, bi, or gay. It doesn't matter if you're Catholic or not. Everyone is a human being and deserves happiness. *
[Everyone Deserves HAPPINESS!]


Post this in your house or diary if you beleive the same.

Big Girls Don't Cry
by Fergie

La da da da

The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

The path that I'm walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown, full grown.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I forseek the darker half if I stay

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center
Clarity, peace, serenity
Ahha

[chorus:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

La da da da da da

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I WAS LOOKING AT YOUR PICS. TODAY WONDERING WHEN I WOULD REALLY GET TO SEE YOU, OR REALLY GET TO TOUCH YOU, EVEN KISS YOU, AND WHEN THE NEXT TIME I WOULD BE ABLE TO HEAR YOUR VOICE WAS.. BECAUSE UNTIL THESE DAYS COME I WILL HOLD THOSE IMAGES OF YOU IN MY MIND TO REMIND ME HOW LUCKY I REALLY AM! I NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD BE US BABY, JUST YOU AND ME.. I'LL KEEP YOU IN MY HEART, MY MIND, EVEN IN MY WALLET SO WHEN I THINK IM ALONE I CAN LOOK AND KNOW YOU'LL PULL THROUGH FOR ME WHEN I NEED IT THE MOST.. AND I WISH OUR SCHEDUALS WERE BACK ON TRACK WHERE WE COULD TALK BUT I GUESS FOR NOW THATS JUST WISHFULL THINKING MAYBE ON BOTH OUR PARTS.. BUT UNTIL THEN KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH..

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OMG I GOT TO SEE TASTE OF CHAOS.. it was the best fucking night of my life.. i got to meet 10 band members and 14 signed stuff and yes i said that right 10 and 14..
ok everyone i got to meet:

THEE ARMADA:
Josh-Vocals
Brian-Drums
Taylor-Guitar
Mike-Bass

30 SECONDS TO MARS:
Jared Leto-Vocals/Guitar
Tomo Milicevic-Guitar
Shannon Leto-Drums

AIDEN:
wiL Francis-Vocals
Angel Ibarra-guitar
Nick Wiggins-Bass

AND NOW THE PEOPLE THAT I GOT STUFF SIGNED FROM:

THREE ARMADA:
Josh-Vocals
Taylor-Guitar
Mike-Bass

30 SECONDS TO MARS:
Jared Leto-Vocals/Guitar
Tomo Milicevic-Guitar
Shannon Leto-Drums

AIDEN:
wiL Francis-Vocals
Angel Ibarra-Guitar
Nick Wiggins-Bass

EVALINE:
Richard Jonathan "R.J." Perry-Vocals/Viola
Christian Lewis-Guitar
Dominic DiCiano-Guitar
Steven Forrest-Drums
Steve Padersen-Bass/Synth
(the reason i got them is because my mom stood in line to get their poster for me and they signed it..)

if you want to know anything else just ask me and ill tell you..
all the bands were bloody awsome.. and i would so do it over again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7eN_lwlPPV4


http://members.tripod.com/paige_halliwell/id1.html

"Thank You"

I thought that I could always count on you,
I thought that nothing could become between us two.
We said as long as we would stick together,
We’d be alright,
We’d be ok.
But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I’ll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back

Yeah!

I wonder why it always has to hurt,
For every lesson that you have to learn.
I won’t forget what you did to me,
How you showed me things,
I wish I’d never seen.
But I was stupid,
And you broke me down,
I’ll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had you can have them back

When the tables turn again,
You’ll remember me my friend,
You’ll be wishing I was there for you.
I’ll be the one you’ll miss the most,
But you’ll only find my ghost.
As time goes by,
You’ll wonder why,
You’re all alone.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back.

So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back

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i was listning to one or my random mix cds and this song was the very last song and it is starting to fit almost all of my real relationships i hate life sometimes and loves a bitch..


In Demand By: Texas

when we were together i was blown away
just like paper from a fan
but you would act like i was just a kid
like we were never gonna' last

but now i've got someone who cares for me, (yeah)
wrote my name in silver sands
i think you know you've lost the love of your life
(you said) i was the best you've ever had

because i'm in demand, (hey)

you're thinking of the way you should've of held my, (hand)
and all the times you'd say you didn't understand
you never had our love written in your, (plans)

but now i'm in demand

i never think you saw the best of me (ahh haa haa haa)
there's a side you'll never know
'cos love and loving are two different things (ah haa haa haa)
set your sights far too low

but now i've got someone who cares for me, (yeah)
he wrote my name in silver sands
i think you know you've lost the love of your life
(you said) i was the best you've ever had

because i'm in demand, (hey)

you're thinking of the way you should've held my (hand)
and all the times you'd say you didn't undersatand
you never had our love written in your plans

but now i'm in demand

you're thinking of the way you've should've of held my (hand)
and all the times you'd say you didn't understand
you never had our love written in your, (plans)

but now i'm in demand

it's only when i fall asleep
i see that winning smile
when my dreams just move along
you've lost the race by miles

yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
stay, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

because i'm in demand
you're thinking of the way you should've of held my (hand)
and all the times you'd say you didn't understand
you never had our love in your, (plans)

but now i'm in demand, (yeah)
you know i'm in demand
(say you're in demand)
you know i'm in demand, (yeah)

always in demand, (yeah)

never had our love written in your plans

you know i'm in demand

you see me in demand

everytime we lie awake
after every hit we take
every feeling that i get
but i haven't missed you yet
every room-mate kept awake
by every silent scream we make
all the feelings that i get
but i still don't miss you yet

only when i stop to think about it

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
i hate everything about you
why do i love you

everytime we lie awake
after every hit we take
every feeling that i get
but i haven't missed you yet

only when i stop to think about it

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
i hate everything about you
why do i love you

only when i stop to think about you,
i know
only when you stop to think about me,
do you know

i hate everything about you
why do i love you
you hate everything about me
why do you love me

i hate
you hate
i hate
you love me

i hate everything about you
why do i love you