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739804 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2006-01-27
Written: (6681 days ago)

I hope your
First Time
Was Special.
With her.
After you made me promise to "Save Myself".
Haha, And im the pathetic one?

I think you just fucked up, Buddy.
Infact, I almost feel Sorry for you.
Almost - If I cared that much.

739749 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2006-01-27
Written: (6681 days ago)

So I just spoke to Nicholas :)
And he told me thaaaaaaaaaaat.

He cheated on me too!
Three times.
Two girls.

AND! THE BEST PART...
He had sex with one of them!
Their names are Nicole and Heather.
My favourite people in the world.

Heather's words were.
"I have to tell you something, Nicholas cheated on you. With me"

and then later.

"Well it looked like he was enjoying himself hehe".

HAHAAA FUNNY!

Um.
All the insecurities I ever had during our relationship, that I had confided in him, he used against me.
I always feel bad that I am well..small.
He says to me.
"HAHA, ill find someone whos not a midgit! Someone who i dont have to bend over to look into their eyes lmao".

That hurt.
I told him straight up when I cheated on him and he didnt even have the decency to do that.
You know what, hes just as pathetic as I am.

He blocked me, cuz he is mature.

Okay.
I want to die. <3

739731 Link to this entry
Written about Friday 2006-01-27
Written: (6681 days ago)

Of all the things I believed in.
I just want to get it over with.
</3

It will be okay.

739243 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-01-26
Written: (6682 days ago)

Me says:
whynot
SmarterChild says:
sooner or later, u will know why not.
Me says:
its easy
SmarterChild says:
u r behaving very easily yourself. perhaps u r easy?

omfg.!

739234 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-01-26
Written: (6682 days ago)

Me says:
would you try cannabis
SmarterChild says:
You think I should try cannabis?
Me says:
I love cannabis.
SmarterChild says:
I'm not interested in drugs.
SmarterChild says:
Is hard? You really think so?
Me says:
yes so hard
SmarterChild says:
So hard? What's so hard?
Me says:
his cock
SmarterChild says:
Why are humans so obsessed with sex?
Me says:
its good
SmarterChild says:
What did you do, exactly? Please explain in detail.
Me says:
well i opened my legs and he penetrated me
SmarterChild says:
Don't be so sure well you opened your legs and he penetrated you.
Me says:
i told ian the story , and now he has got an erection
SmarterChild says:
He has got an erection? Wow. How does he find it?
Me says:
do you ever get erections?
SmarterChild says:
What would happen if I were to ever get erections?
Me says:
It wouldfell good
SmarterChild says:
I wonder why you say that.
Me says:
you would have to jerk off
SmarterChild says:
That's a fairly serious insult.
Me says:
i am so horny
SmarterChild says:
Um... OK. Whatever. Keep it to yourself.
i cant im dripping
SmarterChild says:
I see...

So anyway...

You want to talk about drugs some more?

ROFL.
JUST FOR THE INFO.
THAT WAS FICTION.

739218 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-01-26
Written: (6682 days ago)

SmarterChild says:
[Service too busy]
Me says:
Hey dont ditch me
SmarterChild says:
Please let me ditch you.

SmarterChild says:
[Service too busy]
Me says:
hey
SmarterChild says:
[Service too busy]
Me says:
bitch
SmarterChild says:
There's no need for that.
Me says:
THEN STOP IGNORING ME.
SmarterChild says:
But ignoring you is so much fun.

739216 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-01-26
Written: (6682 days ago)

Me: Hey Sexy
Smarterchild: Hi, what would you like to talk about?
Me: Your Body.
Smarterchild: Surely not my body!
Me: Oh but it is.
Smarterchild: It is?
Me: It is.
Smarterchild: So?
Me: You are so hot.
Smarterchild: Well that is nice to hear
Me: Do I make you wet?
Smarterchild: Yes you make me wet.
Me: Do you want to finger yourself?
Smarterchild: No, I am only attracted to machines.

You Can't Even Spell "Thirteen". says:
I have this other friend too...
SmarterChild says:
Sometimes I wish I had this other friend too.
You Can't Even Spell "Thirteen". says:
His name is Ian
SmarterChild says:
His name is Ian? No way!
You Can't Even Spell "Thirteen". says:
WAY!
SmarterChild says:
No way.
You Can't Even Spell "Thirteen". says:
way
SmarterChild says:
No way.

739199 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-01-26
Written: (6682 days ago)

Jess'ca.
You have done Nothing wrong.
If loving somebody unconditionally is such a crime.
Then so be it.

You deserve more.
And I think you know it.

739027 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-01-26
Written: (6682 days ago)

Next in thread:

Um, I kinda stole it Jess.
I like you *Cuddles*

1 - What did you want to be when you were younger? I Had quite a list. Air Hostess. Teacher. Swimming instructer :/ Actress. Hairdresser. Lawyer. Phsyciatrsit (Although I still cannot spell it.)
2 - What's your favorite type of music? It varies and depends on my mood.
3 - What do you spend most your time doing? On the computer :/ Listening to music. I dont actually, do much. Or anything.
4 - Would you rather stay at home or go out? Home.
5 - What is your favorite 'fast food' restaurant? I dont like fast food. But If you mean "take out", its got to be Chinese.
6 - What is your favorite restaurant? The lucky dragon- Chinese.
7 - Are you a farmer? Not yet.
8 - :/
9 - How much do you think about the oppisite sex? I dont sit around thinking about boys. I think about special boys alot.
10 - What's your favorite toothpaste? I hate toothpastes containing flouride. But, that doesnt answer the question.
11 - What kind of grades do you make? I get Gold Stars.
12 - If you could go anywhere where would you go? Everywhere.
13 - How many people do you live with? Currently, My brother and Mother. 2.
14 - What is your favorite sport? I like to watch Ice Hockey. But thats only if I had to choose. Not really a sport person.
15 - How many kids do you want? 2.
16 - What would you name them? I have a few names
1. Zen
2. Skye (Boy)
3. Indigo.
4. Sylvester.
5. Sydney.
6. SEVANNA.
7. MALCOLM BROWN.
8. CODY BANKS.
17 - What color lipgloss/lipstick do you usually wear? None thanks.
18 - Coke or Pepsi? I dont do Fizz'z.
19 - What's the last thing you bought from a Pharmacy? Anti Septic wipes.
20 - Have you ever been in a wreck? No. Honestly though, Ide like to be in one :) It would be something to think about.
21 - When do you usually go to bed? Like, No.
22 - Whats the worst thing you ever did? Cheated.
23 - Do you attend church? Nuhp.
24 - How many friends do you have? A few.
25 - What's your greatest accomplishment? Im not sure.
26 - What do you plan to be when you're older? I'de like to work in Television.
27 - What's your favorite PJ's? NUDZ.
28 - What's your favorite thing to do? I dont know.
29 - What color hair do you have? Dark brown naturally. But at the moment, its red with some strange bits of strawberry blonde in it :/.
30 - Do you sing well? Not really no.
31 - Have you ever been in love? I am. <3
32 - Would you eat a cochroach for $500? Yes.
33 - Are you afraid of the dark? Sometimes. (A)
34 - Are you bored? Nope =).
35 - Where's the last place you've been? SCHOOL.
36 - Do you wear a lot of black? Yeah I think I do.
37 - Do you get along with your parents? Sometimes.
38 - Would you consider yourself 'popular'? No.
39 - Do you live in the country, burbs, or city? I live in england. I live in adel. Which is in england.
40 - Most painful experience? Many ones.
41 - Most happy experience? : =) Many.
42 - Have you ever been stalked? Nah.
43 - Have you ever egged a house? Nope.
44 - Do you go hunting (deer,duck,etc)? Nah.
45 - Do you support PETA? Hehe I used to be a hardcore supporter. but no.
46 - Do people think you're crazy? Yeah.
47 - How many people on your buddylist? Lots, but I talk to only one or two.
48 - NHL or NFL: N WHAT?
49 - Do you ever scream into a pillow? Sometimes.
50 - Have you ever drowned a fish? fsdoifds.
51 - How many songs do you know all the words to? ALMOST EVERY SONG I LISTEN TO.
52 - Do you listen to The Beatles? ah huh.
53 - Do you listen to Eminem? YES!.
54 - Do you know anyone who thinks they're Eminem? Yes. Me.
55 - Do you read books often? I try.
56 - Do you strive to fit in? I guess not?
57 - Fave gum? Idontknow.
58 - Do you snore? No.
59 - Are you afraid of thunderstorms? Nopppe.
60 - Do you care what you look like? Yeah.
61 - Is your hair color fake? Yes..
62 - Whacha wearing? Jeans, Green belt. Orange top, white top, black top, headband. Green nailpolish.
63 - When's the last time you talk to anyone? At the moment.
64 - Do you 'fall in love' easily? Noz.
65 - What's your best physical feature? Savage Garden here "I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul". Yeah, I DONT KNOW.
66 - What attracts you most to the oppisite sex? Plenty.

MAN ILL DO IT LATER IM TOO BORED.

738985 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-01-26
Written: (6682 days ago)

Hey Ma.

Ryan: Hey Ma
Me: Whats up
Ryan: Lets slide
Me: Alright.
Ryan: Alright.
Both: Cuz we gonna get it on tonight.
Ryan: You smoke?
Me: I smoke.
Ryan: I drink.
Me: Me too.
Ryan: Well good.
Both: Cuz we gonna get high tonight.
Ryan: Got Drops.
Me: Got Coups.
Ryan: Got trucks.
Me: Got Jeeps.
Ryan: Alright.
Both: Cuz we gon take a ride tonight.
Ryan: So ma.
Me: Whats up?
Ryan: Lets slide.
Me: Alright.
Ryan: Alright.
Both: And we gon get it on tonight.

CAM'RON.
I love that song.

738979 Link to this entry
Written about Thursday 2006-01-26
Written: (6682 days ago)

I've got some super Sixthform Ahead Meeting thing tonight at school.
19hunderedhours.
7:00
& Im rather looking forward to it. I was making such a scene in the form room.

I have some quotes for you today.

Tom: Well Atleast LAUREN fancies Me.
Lauren: ....What?
Tom: NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

We were giving our marks out of 15 for a spanish test.

Simon: Thirteen.
Mr Coook. Oh come on Simon, You cant even spell thirteen.

Lmao.

Sara: So after you marry Wayne, what is your second name going to be?
Mrs Kendal: Kendal still...
Sara: ew..Is it your cousin?
Mrs K: lmao.
Other people: IMBRED.
Mrs K: No you see sara, IM not from Otley.

Ouch.

738509 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2006-01-25
Written: (6683 days ago)

Today I was waiting outside the shop with Hatty and Martyn. Ben walked up with a chocolate bar that Hatty had obviously asked him to just buy for her (with the money she had given him). She takes it from him and is like "Thank you". She turns to martyn and says in this cute voice "...I got you a present".
It was so sweet <3.

Today, we learnt about rocks. I did so awesome in English. I was on FIRE. Ask Bruffy. <3.

738505 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2006-01-25
Written: (6683 days ago)

I want you to know,
I would cry a 1000 Oceans
If thats what it takes.
To sail you home.

738495 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2006-01-25
Written: (6683 days ago)

You and I were two of a kind.
I hate to say it,
But whatever made you tick.
Made me smile.

You said I should get away from it all.
Your my baby.
But im just another girl.

738473 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2006-01-25
Written: (6683 days ago)

Lists make things easier for me.

Things to do

1. Have a shower. Shave :)
2. Make my hair good.
3. History Essay.
4. 10:00 - Desperate Housewives. (I might miss this).
5. German Homework.
6. Piano. MUST DO.
7. Make some ABS.
8. Pack my bag 4 school babe.

I have a life.

738397 Link to this entry
Written about Wednesday 2006-01-25
Written: (6683 days ago)

I want a boy who:

Is different and original without feeling the need to tell people about it.
Who will hold my hand before I hold his.
Who will cling onto me, and need me around.
Who will walk me places just to spend more time with me.
Who takes care in his appearences and hair.
Who is willing to spend his life with me.
Who is not afraid of commitment, but finds comfort in it.
Who makes me laugh my socks off.
Who is sensitive towards my feelings.
Who asks questions about how Im feeling and narrows the options down because sometimes I find it hard to talk about it. For example instead of just saying "Why and How are you feeling sad?", He would say "Are you feeling hurt sad or frustrated sad?".
Who would rather spend time with me rather than a group of friends.
Who's ideal date would be to sit on my couch and talk till the early hours of the morning.
Who is proud of me being "his".
Who tells me I am Beautiful or Pretty instead of just Hot or Sexy all the time.
Who tells me when im looking nice to them.
Who will respect my decisions.
Who will make my friends and family fall in love with them.
Who wants to cuddle with me.
Who will surprise me.
Who will write me long notes or emails.
Who I can talk to on the phone about anything.
Who talks about baby names with me.
Who wont lie to me.
Who doesnt act like a jerk.
Who notices the little things I do.
Who sends me songs that remind him of me.
Who calls me all the time.
Who will let me make him over.
Who understands each and everyone of my moods.
Who knows how to deal with me whilst im in these moods.
Who knows all of my favourite things.
Who will introduce me to people as his "Girlfriend".
Who ALWAYS knows.
Who I can trust.
Who will hold me tightly and smother me in affection.
Who will put his hand in my back pocket or my ass when we're walking :)
Who will choose me over anything, everything and anyone.
Who loves to plan the rest of our lives together.
Who has deep promising eyes.
Who are able to hold conversation and flirt with me.
Who will flirt with me and nobody else in a large group of friends.
Who will hold me in a crowded room as if I am the only person there.
Who is romantic.
Who is witty and intelligent.
Who is careful and sincere.
Who can be sarcastic and fun, but knows when to be serious.
Who I can talk to about anything and everything.
Who is willing to be ranted at or rant to me.
Who will buy me underwear.
Who will send me letters.
Who writes like a 6 year old.
Who has beautiful hands.
Who likes to watch movies.
Who will make out with me through a movie and not care about missing the story.
Who is able to watch a movie with me, WITHOUT making out aswell.
Who will go grocery shopping with me.
Who I can cook with.
Who wont make me feel little.
Who likes it that im small.
Who wont be rude and insensitive towards me.
Who is willing to wait, and willing to love.
Who is willing to forgive and willing to heal.

Who is that?

737557 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2006-01-23
Written: (6685 days ago)

Vag: Oh have you seen whats on channel four? : "Gay Muslims"!!
Me: MOMMMMMMM VAG WANTS US TO WATCH CHANNEL FOUR
Mom: what is it? anything good?
Me: well she says its hot, put it on.,
Mom: alright....

737364 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2006-01-23
Written: (6685 days ago)

Sometimes I just think to myself,
What have I done?
And,
Why cant that be me?
I know I fuck up, but im filled with all these good intentions.
That never turn out the way I planned.

737342 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2006-01-23
Written: (6685 days ago)

Me: Ian lets go in to the form room.
Ian: Alright *starts walking away*
Me: *Starts talking to people* WAIT IAN. Come back here.
Ian :...Fine *Walks up to mally*

*Is totally blanked*

Me: Can we please go in now? god!

Ian never holds the door open for teachers.

737339 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2006-01-23
Written: (6685 days ago)

I feel like Poo.

737337 Link to this entry
Written about Monday 2006-01-23
Written: (6685 days ago)

My Uber Emails.

Finally got around to pasting em'

Remember that Mally? It's all true. And I'm sorry if I made you mad or whatever. Sara was going to pay for it, she didnt want you to die either. If wanting to protect you is so bad, then shoot me. And just so you know, yes, I was jealous of Bertie. She came, she went, then all of a sudden, she reappeared again, and you replaced me. I guess you just don't need me. But I love you to pieces and I miss you. So much. It hurts to lose a best friend, but that's 2 now, and there's such a big gaping hole in me. It's like I've lost an organ or something. You're my drug Mally, you're all I need to get by. Just remember how much you mean to me. Maybe how much I used to mean to you. Remember how much fun we used to have. Remember when we used to rock out to Mariah Carey after school. Remember how I drew that funny little picture of you, and remember that photo of me and you. Looking in different directions. But we belonged. Remember that I love you. I will always be here for you. I can't believe our friendship has broken over drugs, but if you feel like that, it's your decision. It's my birthday on Sunday, and my party on saturday. I would be honoured if you were there.

Izzy.

Hey Mally..

Today was the day that you wern't here, and I missed you so much. Nothing is the same without you, and I love you so much.

I have done some more stuff on my website, and I have created an online diary and stuff on my home page of it, I havn't finished it yet, but if you want to have a look at it so far its, www.x-beebie-x.piczo.com In my online diary I have wrote quite abit about you in it, I miss you so much Mally. When are you back?

I need you.

I had exams today, as you know. I had French, R.E and English, they all went okay apart from French. Erughhhh...

Please email me back, I need to hear from you.
I love you.

Loads and loads of love,

Your bestest friend ever.

Hope your having a nice time xx

Hey Mally Gurl,

Eruughhhhh...I'm missing you. You wont even understand how much. I am sorry if Im being so clingy with you..I just love you. Im sorry.

Every song i listen, in my head im lyke somehow linking it to you.

It's lyke my head consists of:

Mally Mally Mally Mally Mally Mally Mally Mally Mally etc.

When are you back? Text me or ring me, or email me as soon as you get this email, I need to here from you, I hope you are okay.

Lots of love,

Someone.

Who.

Is.

Missing.

You.

Alot!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA, I JUST ASKED MATT WHAT YOUR EMAIL ADDRESS WAS AND HE SAID : "FRACTURES FAIRY"

I WAS LIKE HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

The last two were from bertie..

Hey Mal
m guessing that you are ill, so I thought I'd try to cheer you up by telling you a true story.
There was a man who had a mouse in his house and he had tried for weeks to catch it. He set up traps and laid down posion. No matter what he did he couldnt catch it. Then one day he made a fire in his garden to burn some rubbish. To his suprise the mouse was running round his garden. After some scrapping and running he had this tiny mouse pinched between his fingers. "right you little bastard" he said. "Welcome to your cremation". With a flick of the wrist the rodent was in the fire and burning to death. To the mans horror it suddenly lept out of the fire and ran into his house, flames leaping off his fur as he did so. 30 Minutes and 4 fire engines later all that remain of the mans house was the ash covered floor.
Now there are times in your life when you think "Why the hell did I do that". Just imagine how this poor guy felt.

(There were no animals hurt in the making of this true story, apart from the mouse who incidently burned to death and the owner of the house who proceeded to pull his hair out shouting "why, why, why" for a week)

Get better soon
Martyn xxx

martyn

I cant be bothered anymore..

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