High above the sky,
where dragons fly.
I wonder why
Can't I?
But then I thought,
Why not?
Stupid boy
As the evil seeps closer,
and darkness encloses me,
I become so lonely,
so afraid...
I just want someone dear..
someone to be near...
someone to be right here..
I want you here right now
to be holding me tight.
I never was my self..
Just a lonely boy,
locked inside his shell..
Can anyone save me,
from this hell..
No one's ever been close..
So near that we are one.
So close that we'd break,
if we were moved apart...
I seem to always be the one,
to break and fall...
I am the mirror,
that always gets thrown...
and the shards cut my soul,
ever oh so deep..
and the past, makes me weep.
cause they always seem to know,
the right way to make me lose it all...
Cause I just keep on losing it,
almost losing myself..
But who am I to let them control me?
Who are they,
to control my feelings?
Everything is still so strange...
but I'm warped in the brain,
looking for a paradise...
one that I'll never achieve
it's ever so strange,
what's happened to me,
this fantasy,
that I want to believe...
It keeps me locked inside,
and eats me alive..
cause all I want is you,
but you don't want to believe,
in me..
Help me save me from myself,
before the darkness captures me...
before i slowly...
drive myself insane..
Calm the calamity inside the,
ceaseless static of my mind...
because it's starting to,
eat away at me..
every single night.
Is there anybody there?
Stuck inside a dark eternity,
I'll always be alone.
Wandering aimlessly,
stuck in my, hopeless fantasy..
No don't you get close.
Please get away from me.
What do you want?
My love's forbidden,
can't you see?
It never seems to last
And they all haunt me,
from my past.
So now it's better if I'm alone,
and my heart becomes cold as stone.
Nobody ever wants to stay.
Once there's something better,
they all seem to go away.
So now I'm
Stuck inside a dark eternity,
I'll always be alone.
Wandering aimlessly,
stuck in my, hopeless fantasy..
Nobody ever wants to stay.
Once there's something better,
they all seem to go away.
What is wrong with me?
Is there something I cannot see?
Why should I even bother
Why should I care?
It doesn't even matter,
they never stay there.
Nobody ever wants to stay.
Once there's something better,
they all seem to go away.
they all just...go away.
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
Living a lie, is a must.
We're born to die.
So why must we try
To deny
that which we cannot defy?
What makes us think that
no matter who we are or
where we're from that everybody's
got some sort of the same old problems
that everybody's had since the existance
of man.
We're born to die.
So why must we try
to defy
that which we cannot deny?
Who said we're born,
we cry
we live
we die
Who said that it pays
to carry on?
Even though we think
the things we cannot speak.
Things that brings us to our knees
Some things you just cannot believe.
Things that knock us off our feet
Who said that it's worth it?
Whose grand idea is this?
This scheme of mankind
that'll break and warp a mind,
one that's just tryin to be kind.
We're born to die
So why must we care
if nobody's there
to save our hair
when we need it most?
Why should we care
if anyone dies tonight.
It's not as if we cannot
move on.
I'm tired of the way
people look down at me.
Trying to see what they want to see.
But they'll never see the true me
if they never give me the time of day
to get so close that nothing else matters.
They don't know me.
Only about me.
But what do I care
if anyone's there
to save my hair
when I need it most?
We are born to die
so why must I try
to even lie
about when I cry?
I'm just a day closer
to the day that I die
So bring yourself around
Don't deny yourself what
seems you cannot have.
Get a grip of reality
and what you see
through the facade of me
is a scared little boy
who doesn't want to be alone
I write what I write
so that I can fight
to end of the day
While the clock ticks life away
Going down to the ground
Nowhere to be found
Just know that deep down
There's love to be found
Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
Knowing the truth, is a must.
Feel free to ignore it and/or answer it :-D
1. Were you smiling when you woke up this morning?
i haven't slept since i woke up at 3pm
2. When was the last time you met someone new?
idk
3. What is irritating you right now?
tiredness
4. When did you last eat pizza?
this week
5. Who is the last person you held hands with?
idk, that other kaili chick on halloween?
7. What's the furthest distance you've gone in the past 3 days?
To Polk's
9. Have you ever kissed anyone named Mike?
never!
10. Besides your bed, what is your favorite thing in your room?
my ps2
11. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
not yet
12. Who is in the room with you?
no one
13. What are you wearing on your feet?
nothing
14. What is/are your favorite pair of shoes?
skater shoes or converse
15. Who was the last person you told you loved them?
idk
16. What was the last thing you ate?
Brownie
17. What were you doing before this?
Checking New Diaries
18. What's the closest item near you that is blue?
mom's old college textbooks
19. What instant messaging service do you use?
Uhh...I use pidgin for them all.
20. What is your favorite website?
ummn...either icanhascheeseb
21. What's the most abnormal thing you've done in the past?
idk
22. What do you wear more, jeans or sweatpants?
jeans
23. What is the last movie you watched?
idk
24. What do you hear right now?
the whirring of my cpu fan
26. When did you last take a picture with someone?
idk
27. Where's your favorite place to be?
away from my parents, or them from me.
28. Where did you sleep last?
bed
29. Where do you shop the most?
idk
30. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
walmart
32. Where was your default picture taken?
computer/dinin
34. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
idk
35. Are you happy with where you are?
fuck no
40. Where is your number one person on your friends list?
home with his parents again
41. What's the story behind your headline?
idk
42. Describe your dream car.
ummn...don't wanna
43. Describe the background on your cell phone.
looping neon/lime greeny thing
48. Describe what you're wearing.
wifebeater, jeans, underwear
49. Do you like candles?
vanilla
51. Do you sleep naked?
no
52. Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be?
no.
53. Do you burn easily in the sun?
idk
54. Do you speak another language besides English?
not fluently
56. What did you do last weekend?
watch a movie with matt
57. Who were the last people you went out to dinner with?
idk
stolen from [de Morte]
Basic About you
Name: Clayton
Gender: Male
Height: 5'6
Eye color: Brown
Hair Color: Dark Brown
Age: 19
Birthday: 10/10/1989
Lefty/righty/a
Piercings: none?
Tatoos: None..(yet??)
Zodiac Sign: Libra
Ring Size: I forget
Grade: Graduated HS
More about you
Are you named after anyone? Nope.
Do you live in the moment? I try.
Do you consider yourself tolerent to others? Depends
Do you have any secrets? Yeah
Do you hate yourself? Nah
Do you like your handwriting? Not really
Do you have any bad habits? I guess
If you were another person, would you be friends with you? who are you????? lol
Any regrets? Yeah
Do you think life has been good so far? I guess
Are you confident? Depends
How long does it take you to shower? 5-15 minutes for a shower
What color is your room? A light beigish white
Where do you want to attend college? IDK! What are you, my mom???
Do you...?
Smoke? Socially/Occas
Do drugs? Nah
Drink? Socially/Occas
Go to church? Whenever I want to or whenever my dad drags me along -_-
Sleep with stuffed animals? Yeah
Take walks in the rain? I wish sometimes
Talk to people even if you hate them? Not really
Drive? Nah
Believe in premarital sex? Depends
Want to get married? Ya
Want to go to college? Eventually
Want to have children? Yes
Sing in the shower? No
Get along with you parents? Sometimes [mainly my mom]
Get along with your sibling(s)? As long as they don't bug me too much
Color/highligh
Like coffee? Yeah
Wear makeup everytime you go out? I'm...not a girl/emo
Love roller coasters? Yes!
Like to cook? By cook you mean microwave? Yes. I like being full.
Have you ever...?
Hurt yourself? Yeah
Been out of the country? Yeah.
Been in love? Yes.
Done drugs? Yeah
Gone skinny dipping? No
Had surgery? No
Played strip poker? No
Been on stage? Yeah
Pulled an all nighter? Plenty!
Gone one day without food? Yeah.
Slept all day? Yeah
Kissed a stranger? No
Had a dream that came true? Yes. But then it was horribly crushed -_-
Broken the law? do you mean federal or misdemeanors??
Stolen anything? yeah
Been on radio/tv? uhh...newspape
Been in a mosh-pit? No
Bungee jumped? No
Had a dream that kept coming back? Nah
Gone out of state? Yeah.
Live in other states? First four months of my life.
Eaten an entire box of oreos? Nah
Had a movie marathon? Nah
Spun until you were immensely dizzy? Yeah
Been on a plane? Yeah
Ran into a wall? Yeah
Been rejected by a crush? Yeah
Cried in public? Yeah
Cried over a movie? Not that I recal...how about an anime? =P
Pranked called someone? Yeah
Gotten a cavity? Yeah
Shopped at Abercrombie and Fitch? No
Broken a bone? Nah
Fallen from a tree? Nah
Passed out? Nah
Been to a theme park? Yeah
Eaten sushi? Yeah
This or That
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonalds or BUrger King: BK
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate-vani
Black or White: Black
Burgers or Hot dogs: Burgers
Boxers or breifs: I wear underpants >.>
Book or magazine: Ezine/Ebook?? =P
TV or radio: TV
is the glass half empty or half full: Technically...
sun or moon: MOOn
hot or cold: Hot-warm?
romantic comedy or thriller: Either/or
waffles or pancakes: Wafcakes?
Florida or california: Texas!!
Black and white or color photos: Sepia
The city, the beach, OR the country: A beach in the country?
Tennis shoes or sandals: Converse?
Sweet or sour: Swour?
Private or publie school: Public
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino
English or history: English
Science or math: Science
Do you believe ...?
in miracles? Kinda
in magic? kinda
in God? Yeah
in Satan? Yeah
in ghosts? Yeah
in luck? Yeah
in love at first sight? Kinda
in Santa? Nah
in the Easter Bunny? Nah
in witches? Kinda
that it's possible to remain faithful forever? I do.
in wishing on shooting stars? Not really
that cussing is a necessity in life? No
yourself? Depends
Love and all that -
Do you consider love a mistake? Nah.
If someone you had no interest in had interest in dating you how would you deal with it? Tell em no
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them? Somewhat
What is worst about the opposite sex? Jealousy, and control issues(even worse when compounded with whining when their way isn't done)
Who and when was your first crush? Does kindergarden count o.O
First thing you notice about the opposite sex? Face
Right this moment...
What are you wearing? Wife beater. Carpenter Jeans. Navy Starter brand shirt and a white button up shirt and ankle socks and Chuck Taylor Converse with blue flames[not the plastic ones, right into the canvas]
What are you worried about? Not alot
What book are you reading? None
What time is it? 17:31
Are you bored? Yeah
Are you tired? Nah
Are you talking to anyone online or on the phone? No
Are you lonely or content? Lonely
Are you listening to music, if so then what? Nah
The Last...
Dream you had: I don't remember
Nightmare: I haven't had those in awhile
Time you cried: This morning...
Movie you watched: I don't remember
Movie you rented: Idk
Book you read: IDK
Word you said: idk
Time you laughed: idk
Person to call you: idk
CD you played: CDs??? pheh
Song you listened to: idk
annoyance: Siblings
IM sent or recieved: idk
Time you yelled: Today
Person you yelled at: Bro
time you were a skirt: I'm not a girl
time you fought with your parents: Fought or yelled one thing and then took a bath?
Time you wished on a shooting star: idk
Thing you ate: hot pockets
Time you showered: idk. bathed today
Nail polish color worn: never
Your favorite:
Type of gum: -shrug-
Restaurant: this
Season: is
Type of weather: starting
Emotion: to [lonelymoon]
Color: get
Perfume: on
Candy: my
Pizza topping: nerves
Fruit: !
Veggie: !
Type of cake: !
Magazine: !
TV Show: And
Day of the week: Those
Month: Were
Holiday: My
Number: Answers
Sport to watch: For
Flower: This..
Q: Type in "<your name> needs" in the Google search:
A: Clayton needs it at Teach Effectively!
Q: Type in "<your name> looks like" in Google search:
A: Clayton looks like a natural as he effortlessly swings a sturdy rope known as a MoneyMaker Junior above his head before cleanly releasing it with a flick of the wrist.
Q: Type in "<your name> says" in Google search:
A: Clayton says pride hurt by benching
Q: Type in "<your name> wants" in Google search:
A: Clayton wants the Tampa Bay Buccaneers to 'Let him play'.
Q: Type in "<your name> does" in Google search:
A: Clayton Does My 2 Year Interview
Q: Type in "<your name> hates" in Google search:
A: CLAYTON HATES BEING IN DEBT
Q: Type in "<your name> asks" in Google search:
A: Clayton Asks - Can Newspapers Reinvent Themselves for the Internet Age?
Q: Type in "<your name> goes" in Google search:
A: Clayton Goes Tribal!
Q: Type in "<your name> likes" in Google search:
A: Clayton likes the forest on Flickr - Photo Sharing!
Q: Type in "<your name> eats" in Google search:
A: clayton eats a doughnut
mmmm donut
Q: Type in "<your name> wears" in Google search:
A: Clayton wears a gold service star in memory of his brother. I don't have a head brother o.O
Q: Type in "<your name> was arrested for" in Google Search:
A: Clayton was arrested for speeding and driving while impaired
Taken off [XxTsomexX]
Relapse prevent
Trigger intent
Now drown, high-strung
Say X amount of words
Your solar bipolar panic disorder seems
Harder & harder & harder
Still you try to control it
You mold the mold
Yeah you shape to mold
Boy your bold your bold
But your shape is bold
You’re symptom superficial
To what they call nonia
Minus the speed
Could you imagine the phobia?
OH!
(Recording )x2
Your brain is falty wiring
The reason for tiring
Keep treating the curse
Imagine the worst
Systematic, sympathetic, quite pathetic, apologetic, paramedic,
Your heart is prosthetic
A plate of quite peculiar on a dish of my own
A tablespoon of feather, tickle me to the bone
Give me recipes for happy
With the chemicals gone
Drinking freedom from the bottle to the tune of belong
Oh!
(Reporting…call
Oh!
(Reporting, reporting, I can’t believe)
Oh!
(calling you to see)
Oh!
(I can’t believe)
The main game…
(Calling you to see)
Oh!
I’m Sick of shaking never waking
From the hell I achieved
I never knew you till you left me
With the crying disease
Another curing reassuring way to buckle the needs
"So mistreated," I repeated never blessing your sneeze
Now deleted & defeated I will stand on my own
Yeah, your memory that punches me
Has broken the bone
Give me recipes for sorry I’m admitting I’m wrong
Still your memory that punches me
Has broken a bone
OH!
(Reporting…I only want to see)
(Reporting, reporting, I can’t believe)
Oh!
(Reporting, I only want to see)
Oh!
(Reporting, Reporting)
(I can’t believe)
The main game…
I only want to see
The Main Game!
(Calling you to see)
(2 call outs…)
http://www.you
Have you ever been so lonely
there's no one there to hold
just pull me in or disown me
and then
climb inside
my arms are open wide
have a look inside
It is not that I am scared to learn
just why I'm empty inside
just hold my hand to show some concern
if I live or die
My eyes are are open wide
help me look inside
Singing (justin sings)
I hear the water drip from the faucet
it's sweetly falling into
who know
I'm gently closing the closet
and I fall to the floor
and crawl to my room
the thought of ending it soon
just let me sleep in my room
hear me CRY...
cry
cry
cry
No, I hear a knock at the front door
Don't come in
I try to look at you but I can't stop shaking
leave me alone just go away
Mother I'm soo scared
I'm so scared
An empty bed but all of my sheets
are gone
they're wrapped around me and you
all is quiet but the drop of my gun
'cause I...
I want to belong to someone
but maybe life's not for everyone.
http://www.you
[message on voicemail:] Hi Justin! This is your mother. I was just calling to see how you were doing. You sounded really uptight last night, it made me a little nervous. I just want to make sure you are really okay and wanted to see if you were checking in on your medication too. You know I love ya. See ya! Bye Bye!
I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? it is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
I'm sober now for 3 whole months it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so f***ing far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
http://www.you
PULSE OF THE MAGGOTS - SLIPKNOT
This is the year where hope fails you
The test subjects run the experiment
And the bastards you know is the hero you hate
But cohesion is possible if we try
There's no reason, there's no lesson, no time like the present
Tell me right now, what have you got to lose?
What have you got to lose, except your soul?
Who's with us?!
(I fight) for the unconventional
(My right) and its unconditional
(I can only) be as real as I can
The disadvantage is I never knew the plan
(This isn't) just a way to be a martyr
(I can't) walk alone any longer
(I fight) for the ones who can't fight
And if I lose, at least I tried!
(We) We are the new diabolic
(We) We are the bitter bucolic
If I have to give my life, you can have it
(We) We are the pulse of the maggots
(I won't) be the inconsequentia
(I won't) be the wasted potential
I can make it as severe as I can
Until you realize you'll never take a stand
(It isn't) just a one-sided version
(we've dealt) with the manic subversion
(I won't) let the truth be perverted
And I won't leave another victim deserted
(We) We are the new diabolic
(We) We are the bitter bucolic
If I have to give my life, you can have it
(We) We are the pulse of the maggots
(Do you understand?) Yes (x4)
Say it again, say it again
(We won't die) (x8)
(We fight) 'til no one can fight us
(We live) and no one can stop us
(We pull) when we're pushed too far
And the advantage is, the bottom line is
(We never) had to fight in the first place
(We only) had to spit back in their face
(We won't) walk alone any longer
What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger
(We) We are the new diabolic
(We) We are the bitter bucolic
If I have to give my life, you can have it
(We) We are the pulse of the maggots
(Do you understand?) Yes (x4)
Say it again, say it again
(We won't die) (x4)
These slipknot songs are awesome =D
Would you even care?
If I ran away...would you care?
Would you care if I bled?
If I was dead would you care?
If I disappeared...
If I showed up tomorrow...wou
Would you care if I was healed?
If I stayed alive would you care?
If I was found...would you care?
If I didn't call you...would you care?
Would you care if I needed more time?
If I was locked away would you care?
If I layed around crying...would you care?
Would you care if any of this happened?
Would you care if you never saw me again?
Would you care if I never talked again?
Would you even care...?
http://www.you
Colon Open Bracket - The Heartache of Soccer Moms lyrics
From you,
The water seemed to fall
The fire seemed to burn it out
Hold that candle to your heart
For a time
For a time we'd wait it out
& I'm sorry i moved on
& I'm sorry you're not gone
But hear, don't look for me
Because I already waited
& I promised you a heart
& I'm sorry we're apart
But hear, don't look for me
Because I already waited
For you
I'd write another song
But you'd forget that one aswell
You know you're 10% above us all
To see you mourn
To keep inside
To hold it back and not talk online
What was I just meant to think
It looked like you were moving on
& I'm sorry I'm happy
& I'm sorry what you've seen
But hear, dont look for me
Because I already waited
& I'm sorry I moved on
& I'm sorry you're not gone
But here, dont look for me
Because I already waited for you
1 Corinthians 13:4-7 NIV
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
...OMFG >_<
how many people here are from waco?!
hrm...oh wait, i can go check...
to the search option!!
update!
Not Over (Written by Me, [NukleaЯ EveЯgloW™])
When the world comes crashing down
And all is lost...
When no one is around...
All hope may seem to be gone,
But I know...
I know that it's not over.
Not over, not over.
I know it's not over...
I need someone there beside me,
Someone to love me...
Just to hold, for my own...
To wash away, the pain,
Make everything feel alright...
I know I may have messed up,
Screwed up, failed again.
No one's perfect...
And I know...
I know that it's not over.
Not over, not over.
I know it's not over...
So please forgive me....
For what I've done...
I'm sorry
I just don't know what to do.
But I know,
When all hope may seem gone...
I know what I need,
And that somethin, is someone...
To love for my own...
To make it feel alright
I'm sorry, but I know,
I know that it's not over.
Not over, not over.
I know it's not over...
I'm sorry, but I know,
I know that it's not over.
Not over, not over.
I know it's not over...
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