[Life Brings Us Down, Love Picks Us Up]'s diary

920130  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2007-03-15
Written: (6258 days ago)

PEOPLE CAN SAY THEY KNOW IF THEY DONT
LIFE GOES ON AND THERE IS ALWAYS HOPE
THIS AINT A POEM
JUST A PEICE OF FUCKIN ADVICE
YOU CAN TAKE IT OR YOU WONT
DOESNT MATTER I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW
WE LOVE YOU AND THATS NEVER GONNA CHANGE
YOU CANT SAY YOU GONNA START OVER
IF YOU DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE IS OUT THERE
IS THERE ANOTHER CROWD FOR YOU?
DONT YOU THINK THERE WILL BE DRAMA THERE TOO?
DO YOU REMEMBER THE TIMES
WE ALWAYS WENT TO THAT GREAT BIG CHURCH TOGETHRE
MET SOME CUTE GUYS AND THE MINISTER WAS AWESOME
THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW
BUT NOW YOU GIVE UP AND IT BREAKS MY HEART
TO SEE YOU LIKE THIS, LIKE THE WORLD DOESNT MEAN A THING
LOVE DIDNT RUIN YOU...YOUR OWN WORDS AND YOUR OWN THOUGHTS DID
DONT SAY FUCK THIS...DONT SAY FUCK THAT
DONT TELL ME TO FUCK OFF IF YOU WANT ME TO STAY AROUND
DONT SAY YOU ARE SCARED IF YOU KNOW YOU'RE IN LOVE
DONT TELL ME THAT VICKY AND I HAVENT ALWAYS BEEN THERE
YOU DONT TALK AND YOU WONT SPEAK
FOR ALL YOU DO IS CRY AND FUCKIN WEEP
LOVE IS HARD AND YEA ITS CRUEL
BUT WAT WOULD YOU DO TO KEEP IT ALIVE?
IM SAYIN THINGS BECAUSE I LOVE YOU
I CANT SHARE THIS LOVE WITH ANYONE ELSE
I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS DIFFERENTLY
BUT YOU WERE THERE EVEN LONGER THAN ALL THESE PPL
I LOVE VICKY LIKE A SIS CUZ SHE IS LIKE A TWIN
I LOVE ANTHONY CUZ HE IS MY BABY
I LOVE YOU CUZ YOU WERE THERE LONGER
TOOK ME TO CHURCH...BOOSTED MY SELF-ASTEEM AND OUT-GOINGNESSNESS...LOL
I LOVE YOU CUZ YOU ALWAYS KEPT ME LAUGHING EVEN WHEN I CRIED THE HARDEST
YOU CAME TO MY HOUSE AND WE WOULD CHILL ALL DAMN DAY
GO OUT BACK AT NIGHT AND MAKE FUN OF SONGS AND SWIM AND TALK TO THE PEOPLE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE FENCE
PLEASE DONT GIVE UP...IM BEGGING YOU...YES LIFE IS HARD BUT YOU ALWAYS PULL THROUGH
HE MAY NOT BE THE ONE BUT YOU'LL NEVER KNOW
IF YOU GIVE UP NOW AND DONT AT LEAST TRY
YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME AND I FOR YOU...IM NOT LEAVING NO MATTER HOW FAR YOU RUN
IM RIGHT BEHIND YOU...PLEASE DONT GIVE UP!!!!
I WOULD HATE TO SEE YOUR SOUL DIE...YOU MAY THINK THERE IS NO HOPE BUT HUNEY JUST LOOK AROUND YOU...I MAY BE WRONG BUT DONT YOU FEEL THAT MAYBE...JUST MAYBE...THERE IS HOPE IN THIS WORLD...DONT TAKE WAT I AM SAYING AS A PITY THING...DONT THINK I DONT CARE...FOR THE SELECT FEW YOU WONT TALK TO ARE ACTUALLY THE ONES WHO CARE THE MOST
YOU CANT COUNT ON SOME TO BE THERE WHEN YOU FALL
BUT YOU CAN COUNT ON ME TO CATCH YOU FROM THE HIGHEST OF DROPS
TALK TO ME
DONT COUNT ME OUT....LOOK ME IN THE EYES AND SAY I DOTN GIVE A FUCK OR YOUR LIFE AINT WORTH LIVIN
JUST BE THANKFUL IM THINKING OF YOU RIGHT NOW AND WONDERING HOW YOUR GONNA START OVER..DONT LEAVE ME DONT PUSH ME AWAY
LOOK ME IN THE EYES AND I WILL TELL YOU I AM HERE TO STAY

919451  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2007-03-13
Written: (6260 days ago)
Next in thread: 919621, 921915

my family: to let you know....I DONT HAVE A FUCKIN FAMILY!!! the only family i have...do you wanna know...i will name my fuckin family.....they are:
(not in any particular order)
1. vicky
2. sarah
3. andre
4. ashley
5. kayla
6. jack
7. breanna
8. eddie
9. renee
10. justin
11. lots of people from mcgregor
12. every other TRUE friend i have that hasnt backstabbed me
and of course my baby, anthony and his family...they are the greatest and his mom even told me that she wishes us to be together for a long time...no one has ever told me that...and meant it....

this is the ONLY REAL FAMILY i have and the rest of the people who claim to be my "real family" can go FUCK OFF somewhere...i could really care less...the woman who claims to be my mom is now a bitch to me...she could care less if i get knocked up and runaway..she will never treat me the same again....she has had an attitude ever since the incident....i wont get to see my bab for a VERY long time...do you know how much i wanna cry right now?!?!?!?! ANTHONY, VICKY AND ANDRE....I AM SO FUCKIN SORRY RIGHT NOW....MY MOM IS CHECKING EVERY THING THAT I DO NOW...FROM MY ODOMETER TO THE BEDROOM....EVERYTHING!!! CAN WE PLEASE JUST MOVE OUT ALREADY?!?!?!? I KNOW I DONT HAVE IT AS BAD AS A LOT OF PPL BUT I UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY GOIN THROUGH...I WISH THE BEST FOR ALL THREE OF THE PEOPLE I JUST SCREWED OVER...I SHOULDVE SAID SOMETHING...IT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME TO MAKE US LEAVE...NOW I RUINED EVERYTHING...MY FATHER KEVIN IS THE ONLY ONE WHO SAYS HE WILL BE THERE FOR ME....AND MY FRIENDS....I CAN ONLY BELIEVE HIM...MY LIFE WILL BE SCREWED FROM NOW ON...I ONLY WISH TO BE IN YOUR ARMS RIGHT NOW....I KNOW YOU WONT LEAVE ME BUT YOU WERE TAKIN AWAY FROM ME...I LOVE YOU ANTHONY...PLEASE FORGIVE ME...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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