"Look What You've Done"
-Jet

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for u
Cuz all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for u to prove

Oh, look what u've done
U've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until u lose what u had won

Give me back my point of view
Cuz i just can't think for u
I can hardly hear u say
What should i do, well u choose

Oh, look what u've done
U've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until u lose what u had won

Oh, look what u've done
U've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone

Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for u
Cuz all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for u to do

Oh, look what u've done
U've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until u lose what u had won

Oh, look what u've done
U've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone


-i dunno what this means rite now ... but it's just a song that i can't stop listenin to lately ... i really like it ... lyrics too but i dunno rite now ... i just don't kno ...

-well he was affected by my diaries like i hoped he would be ... he seems like he was affected in a good way ... and i'm very very proud of him ... granted i said somethings about him that were not very nice, he will always have a very special place in my heart ...

From: [f.u.c] ([I GUESS THIS IS GOODBYE EVERYONE] :')
To: [*Corona*] (i miss my phillip/read diary bout other ex)
Sent mail 2005-03-14 06:11:07

please take the time to read this . even if you dont want to . please do .

this is a message of goodbye

alrite . the messages that i sent you . i deleted . thats not how i want things to end .

rebecca . if i could take back everything wrong that i did to you . i would . for another chance just to think of us again . to think that something would've happened . and i want to try . but i know i cant . and if i did it wouldnt work and i'm never going to be forgiven . so i'm not going to try . i'm sorry for every wrong doing, every tear thats dropped from your cozy eyes . you're too beautiful to have someone like me in your life . just to make it worse . somewhere out there there's your prince charming . and he's going to make you that happiest person alive rebecca :') and he's going to be the luckiest man alive (': really . i feel bad for myself . for ever ruining the chance to be with you . but .. i'll move on . and i'll find that person too :') :'( probably not ... .. .

i'm still going to think of what life would've been like with you . even as hard as i'm going to try and forget . i know i'm not going to . cuz theres always going to be that one thing that reminds me of you . whether it be by memory or not . you're still going to be there :')

you're the only one thats made my life so wonderful . even when i thought you were being a bitch . it still came out great in the end . and i care about you more now than ever before . thats y i'm doing this . it's not going to happen again :') I promise . this is something i'm NOT going to fuck up babe :') {arent you proud of me ? i am (':} cuz there isn't going to be an again rebecca (': for once i'm doing something right :') maybe not for me . but for you . and thats all that matters . dont think i dont care about you babe . cuz if i didnt i wouldnt be doing this :') lol here i go crying again . lame :P again . i'm sorry rebecca . if i could take it all back i would . i really would . theres no doubt about it .

well i guess i'll get to the point cuz i'm sure you dont want to read this lol :') i'm going to let you go rebecca . for good . because i care about you . i dont want anything in your life thats going to hurt you . i know i have hurt you . but it's not going to happen again . again . i promise . you're a great person rebecca perona . and you only deserve the best . and that obviously isnt me . it has nothing to do with me . i wasnt supposed to be part of your life . i'm sorry for ever messaging you in the first place . i'm going to miss you rebecca :') so much (': i hope you have a wonderful life . and get everything i know you deserve . and i know you're not going to believe this . at all . but again, thats fine . i care about you alot . and i do love you . how could i not :') ? but yea .. i'm going to let you go now babe . you have a GREAT life :') I hope I meet you in heaven (': and i hope i'm wearing some pads if and when i do meet you :'P

byebye babe :') I'm going to miss you (': *gives you one last hug, and one last kiss on the cheek* :')

much love,
xoxox BrandOn :'P

From: [f.u.c] ([I GUESS THIS IS GOODBYE EVERYONE] :')
To: [*Corona*] (i miss my phillip/read diary bout other ex)
Sent mail 2005-03-14 06:24:26

- know how much i want to show you . you're the only one . like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons -

goodbye babe

-this made me want to cry ... i'm so very proud of him ... no words could explain ...

look i don't want everyone thinking i'm a bitch ... i'm not trying to come across that way ... but i've seen other girls get hurt by him ... b/c they have no idea what he does ... please don't be mad at me ... and dont feel like u'r alone in this ... there's another that's a friend of mine ... and i'm sure there's more that i kno too ... but they will give u their stories too ... and i'll ask those ppl to please write in my guestbook if u don't mind ... if u don't want to -don't feel pressured but i just want to warn these other girls who have no idea ... he seems like a really good guy ... and he is at heart but he has no spine ... he doesn't have the "heart" to hurt someone's feelings ... especially girls-that's his soft spot ... i kno him very well ... i was engaged to him at one point ... so girls please do not fall under his spell ... please be smart and think about what u'r doing w/u'r life ... be better than this ... online dating? that's not for u ... u'r better than that ... u deserve better than the ppl on here so don't lower urself to that level like i did ...

Sincerely,
Rebecca Anne Perona

ok this may seem spiteful but really it's just a warning to all of those who r ignorant ... or should i say oblivious ... ne ways ... i'm not tryin to be a bitch or the "jealous ex-g/f" cuz i'm ne thing but that ... i'm dating other ppl so i'm not wryed about him ... i'm wryed about all the girls that think they kno somebody ... who don't kno about his lies ... here's a little sample ...

From: [f.u.c] (Mi Niña Sandra. Le amo)
To: [*Corona*] (tina, u fat lard, come eat u'r dinner)
Sent mail 2005-03-09 06:58:11
Comment to: 33681289
Comment in 33728430

 
Hey beautiful ^.^


How're you doing ? What's new ? ? ? lol Even though I JUST got off the fone with you not too long ago lol


Well I really don't know what you want me to write in this msg ... so .. yea lol
Trust me babe, if I had more minutes on my phone I wouldn't have wanted to get off the phone with you . I love talking to you . Even though I dont call you often at all or when I say i'm going to .. I guess I just forgot how great it is talking to you . I love it . And you made me laugh so much tonite it was unbelievable . I loved it .
NO MATTER WHAT YOU THINK REBECCA . I'M ALWAYS GOING TO LOVE YOU LIKE NOONE ELSE . YOU AND I HAVE A RELATIONSHIP THAT I DONT THINK ME AND ANYONE ELSE COULD HAVE . I CAN OPEN UP TO YOU LIKE NO OTHER . I DONT FEEL COMFORTABLE OPENING UP TO ANYONE ELSE BUT YOU . AND I LOVE THAT . DONT ASK ME WHY I HAVENT ASKED YOU OUT AGAIN, KNOWING THAT I HAVE THESE FEELINGS FOR YOU . I GUESS I'M JUST STUPID LIKE THAT . I REALLY DO LIKE YOU BABE . I JUST WISH YOU COULD FORGET THE PAST . I DONT WANT THAT TO BE BRAUGHT UP ANYMORE :( IT MAKES ME SAD KNOWING THAT I DID THAT TO SUCH A WONDERFUL PERSON . EVEN THOUGH YOU DID IT TO ME SOME TOO .
I LOVE YOU STILL REBECCA . NO MATTER WHAT . REMEMBER THIS . YOU'RE SUCH AN AMAZING PERSON AND I THINK YOU DESERVE SUCH A BETTER MAN . YOU'RE SMART, BEAUTIFUL, FUNNY, CARING, LOVING, SEXY, YOU'RE EVERYTHING THAT A MAN COULD WANT . AND I DONT KNOW WHY THESE ASSHOLES KEEP BREAKING YOUR HEART . CUZ I KNOW YOU DESERVE SOMEONE GREAT . {the reasong that i'm writing these all in big letters is so that hopefully it gets through to you ;)} BABE DONT THINK THAT I DONT WANT TO ASK YOU BACK OUT . I LOVE YOU . AND I'M GOING TO FOREVER NO MATTER WHAT I'M DOING AND NO MATTER WHO I'M WITH REBECCA . I'M GOING TO LOVE YOU FOREVER . I LIKE YOU SO MUCH RIGHT NOW . I HAVE NO EXCUSE FOR NOT ASKING YOU BACK OUT . MAYBE I'M WAITING FOR THE RIGHT MOMENY .. OR MAYBE I'M WAITING FOR THOSE FEELINGS TO ALL COME BACK TO ME . I KNOW I CARE ABOUT YOU MORE THAN ANY OTHER PERSON IN !!! MY !!! LIFE ! ! ! YOU'RE SO GREAT . AND AGAIN .. I CANT OPEN UP TO ANYONE ELSE LIKE I CAN TO YOU . ITS A SPECIAL BOND THAT I NEVER WANT TO RID REBECCA . I HOPE WE HAVE IT FOREVER AND EVER . AND SAYING ALL THIS AGAIN MAKES ME LOVE YOU EVEN MORE . AND MAKES ME WANT TO ASK YOU BACK OUT . I GUESS. . THE REASON I DONT COME AND SEE YOU IS PROBABLY CUZ I'M THAT SHY . I DONT KNOW . KNOWING HOW MUCH I LIKE YOU ... I'M JUST AFRAID THAT YOU'RE NOT GOING TO FEEL THE SAME ABOUT ME WHEN I GET THERE . I DONT KNOW .


REBECCA, NEVER FORGET THIS . PLEASE . YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME . I'M ALWAYS ! ! ! GOING TO BE HERE FOR YOU . THROUGH THICK AND THIN, WHETHER I'M YOUR BOYFRIEND OR YOU'VE GOT ANOTHER BOYFRIEND . I'M GOING TO BE HERE FOR YOU . I WANT YOU IN ! MY ! LIFE ! FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE . YOU'RE UNFORGETTABLE REBECCA . I STILL HAVE THAT CALOGNE THAT YOU GAVE ME . EVERY DAY ! ! ! I SWEAR .. I REMEMBER WHERE THAT CALOGNE CAME FROM . EVERY DAY ! ! ! I SWEAR, WHEN I PUT THE NECKLACE ON THAT YOU GAVE ME .. I REMEMBER WHERE IT CAME FROM . EVERY DAY ! ! ! I SWEAR .. I SEE THE BOX THAT HOLDS ALL THE TEDDY BEARS IN IT ... THOSE REMIND ME OF WHO THEY'RE FOR . AND EVERY DAY ! ! I SWEAR ... I SEE THAT LIL BLACK BAG FROM HOT TOPIC AND THOSE LICK ME LICKERS .. I REMEMBER WHO THEYRE FOR AND WHO THEYRE FROM . AND EVERY DAY ! ! I SWEAR .. I SEE YOUR PICTURE .. EVRY DAY BABE ! ! WHETHER OR NOT MY NAME IS ON YOUR PAGE ON ELF TOWN OR NOT .. TRUST ME .. I SEE THEM .. I HAVE ALL YOUR PICTURES THAT YOU GAVE ME THAT I NEVER EVER WANT TO GET RID OF {feeling like i'm going to cry} I'M GOING TO REMEMBER YOU FOREVER REBECCA . YOU'RE THE GREATEST WOMAN I'VE EVER MET . AND I NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER WANT YOU TO LEAVE ME NO MATTER WHAT . I DONT CARE WHAT YOU THINK . IF YOU DONT WANT TO TALK TO ME ANYMORE .. I DONT THINK I COULD JUST NOT GO WITHOUT YOU .
SOMETIMES ITS HARD THINKING ABOUT THE PAST . MAYBE I'M JUST TRYING TO MOVE ON .. BUT ITS NOT WHAT I WANT TO DO BABE . I GUESS THAT MAKES ME LAME . BUT I THINK ABOUT THE THINGS WE HAD EVERY DAY . I STILL REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME I SAW YOUR PICTURE REBECCA . I THOUGHT YOU WERE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMAN ALIVE . AND TRULY, I STILL DO . NOONES GOING TO COMPARE TO YOU BABE . YOU'RE THE BEST AND YOU'RE GOING TO STAY THE BEST . I REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME WE TALKED. AND HOW EXCITED YET NERVOUS I WAS . PACING AROUND THE ROOM AND STARING OUT THE WINDOW HOLDING THINKING ABOUT YOU THE ENTIRE TIME . I REMEMBER WHEN I ASKED YOU TO MARRY ME . I LOVE THAT THOUGHT REBECCA . I LOVE IT {crying} I NEVER FELT CLOSER TO ANY OTHER PERSON IN MY LIFE REBECCA . I REMEMBER THE TEDDY BEAR THAT I HAVE THAT REMINDS ME OF YOU .. THAT I SLEEP WITH EVERY NIGHT BABE . EVERY ! ! ! NIGHT .. IT REMINDS ME OF YOU AND WHERE IT CAME FROM . I LOVE THAT BEAR AND I DONT KNOW WHAT I'D DO WITHOUT IT . I LOVE YOU REBECCA . I REMEMBER WHEN YOU WANTED TO RUN AWAY ... AND I CRIED CUZ I DIDNT WANT YOU TO GO ... CUZ I THOUGHT I'D NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN . I HATED THAT SO MUCH BABE . I DONT WANT YOU TO EVER LEAVE MY LIFE CUZ OF ALL OF THE MEMORIES I HAVE OF YOU . YOU'RE JUST SO GREAT {crying harder} I REMEMBER GOING TO THE STORE FOR YOU AND BUYING YOUR NECKLACE .. I DIDNT CARE HOW MUCH IT WAS .. AS LONG AS IT LOOKED GOOD AND I KNEW WHO IT WAS GOING TO AND IF YOU WERE GOING TO LIKE IT . I REMEMBER ALWAYS WALKING DOWN THE THE FLOWER SHOP TO SEND YOU FLOWERS . I LOVE YOU REBECCA . ITS NEVER GOING TO STOP . EVEN IF I DO WANT TO FORGET YOU . I'M STILL GOING TO REMEMBER THESE THINGS UNTIL THE DAY I DIE {CANT STOP CRYING NOW}
HOPEFULLY THINGS WILL WORK OUR FOR US REBECCA . I KNOW THAT I'M NOT MOTIVATED ENOUGH . BUT I DO LOVE YOU . AND I DO THINK YOU'RE THE ONE I'D WANT TO SPEND MY LIFE WITH . I WOULD LOVE TO DATE YOU AGAIN . AND I WOULD LOVE TO MOVE FOR YOU {EVEN THOUGH THE WHOLE BAND THING .. BUT THAT MIGHT BE ABLE TO BE WORKED OUT SOMEHOW} I WOULD LOVE TO BE YOUR STEADY BOYFRIEND AND ASK YOU TO MARRY ME BABE . I WOULD LOVE TO BE ABLE TO SEE US WALKING DOWN THE ISLE TOGETHER AND SPENDING OUR LIVES TOGETHER . YOU'RE SO BEAUTIFUL . I LOVE YOU . {started writing this to help me feel better .. trying to think happy thoughts but its making me cry even harder lol} I THINK I REMEMBER YOU TELLING ME THAT YOU WANT A RED GOWN . I HOPE THATS IT .. BECAUSE I CAN STILL SEE IT ON YOU .. I'M NOT SURE .. BUT I KNOW YOU'RE GOING TO BE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMAN ALIVE WHEN THAT DAY COMES . I DONT MIND MEETING YOUR PARENTS BABE . I COULD DEAL WITH THAT . AND SPENDING TIME WITH YOUR LIL BROTHER .. HOPEFULLY HE'LL LIKE ME BACK . I WOULDNT MIND BEING ABLE TO GET OUR FIRST {NICE} APPARTMENT AND DECORATING IT OURSELVES . OF COURSE YOU'RE GOING TO PICK EVERYTHING OUT CUZ A WOMANS HOUSE IS ALWAYS WELL DECORATED . AND I WOULDNT MIND LIVING WITH YOU . AND SEEING YOU NIGHT AFTER NIGHT AFTER NIGHT BABE . HOLDING YOU EVERY NIGHT . REMEMBERING THE FIRST DAY THAT I WAS WITH YOU . LOVING EVERY MOMENT . AND WAKING UP TO YOU IN THE MORNING . IT ALL SOUNDS SO PERFECT REBECCA . AND THEN BUYING A HOUSE WITH YOU .. OUR FIRST REAL HOME TOGETHER .. I'D LOVE THAT SO MUCH TOO . I CAN SEE US LIVING IN IT RIGHT NOW . BEING ABLE TO DO THINGS TOGETHER .. PLANTING A GARDEN AND PAINTING THE HOUSE .. AND DECORATING THE INSIDE OF THE HOUSE .. JUST DOING EVERY LITTLE THING WITH YOU . GOING GROCIERY SHOPPING AND JUST NORMAL SHOPPING . AND GOING TO THE MOVIES . I CAN SEE US HAVING KIDS .. AND THATS SO BEAUTIFUL . I CAN SEE MY IN THE HOSPITAL HOLDING YOUR HAND OR DOING SOMETHING .. MAYBE GETTING YELLED AT BY YOU CUZ YOU'RE IN SO MUCH PAIN .. . BUT I'M TRYING TO CALM YOU DOWN . I CANS SEE US RAISING OUR CHILDREN TOGETHER .. AND LOVING THEM TOGETHER . I CAN SEE US HIRING A BABYSITTER SO THAT I CAN TAKE YOU OUT FOR A ROMANTIC EVENING WITH JUST THE TWO OF US . GOING TO A MOVIE AND HOLDING EACHOTHER THE ENTIRE TIME . AND GOING TO A ROMANTIC RESTARAUNT . . . AND JUST LOVE BEING WITH YOU THE ENTIRE TIME . GAZING INTO YOUR EYES THE ENTIRE TIME . I CAN SEE ALL THESE THINGS RIGHT NOW BABE . AND I LOVE THE WAY IT LOOKS . I LOVE THE WAY IT SOUNDS . I LOVE THE PERSON I'M SEEING IT WITH . I LOVE YOU .


JUST KNOW THAT I STILL LOVE YOU REBECCA . AND SOMETIMES IT TAKES SOMETHING TO REMIND ME HOW MUCH I REALLY DO LOVE YOU . I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING I'VE DONE . I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING THAT I HAVENT DONE . I'M SORRY FOR NEVER BEING THERE WHEN YOU NEEDED ME BABE . I'M SOOOOOOOO SORRY FOR BEING AN ASSHOLE TO YOU LATELY . I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LIKE ME ... AND I GUESS I JUST DONT THINK OF IT . BUT YOU'RE SO BEAUTIFUL I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW I COULD EVER MAKE YOU CRY :'( REBECCA ! ! I LOVE YOU ! ! ! I'M SO SORRY ! ! ! FOR EVERYTHING THAT I'VE EVER DONE . I CAN STILL HEAR THE VOICE OF YOU TEARS WHEN YOU'RE TALKING TO ME BABE . I HATE IT . I DONT KNOW HOW I COULD DO SOMETHING TO SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERSON SUCH AS YOU . I'M SO SORRY BABE {CRYING AS SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH} REBECCA . I THINK YOU'RE THE WOMAN IN MY DREAMS BABE . I REALLY DO THINK YOU ARE . I JUST ... NEED TO REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS BABE . I REALLY DO .. I'M SO SORRY FOR EVER HURTING YOU . I DONT EVER WANT TO HEAR YOU CRY AGAIN REBECCA . {CANT SEE CUZ THE SCREEN IS WAY TOO BLURRY} I DONT EVER WANT TO KNOW THAT YOU'RE CRYING, ESPECIALLY CRYING BECAUSE OF ME . IT HURTS ME SO MUCH INSIDE . AND REMINDS ME OF HOW HORRIBLE OF A PERSON I CAN BE . I'M JUST HEART BREAKER BABE :( AND YOU DESERVE SOMEONE THAT ISNT EVER GOING TO EVER MAKE YOU CRY REBECCA . I'M SO SORRY BABE . THAT SOUND OF YOU CRYING BECAUSE OF ME IS GOING TO BE STUCKIN MY HEAD FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE . AND IT DESERVES TO BE THERE :'( I LOVE YOU REBECCA . UNTIL THE DAY I DIE . I LOVE YOU . BUT EVEN WHEN YOU THINK THAT I'VE FORGOTTEN YOU ... YOU'RE ALWAYS ON MY ET PAGE BABE .. AND YOU'RE ALWAYS WITH ME IN MY HOUSE, ALL THOSE THINGS THAT I HAVE AROUND HERE THAT REMIND ME OF YOU . I'M NEVER GOING TO FORGET YOU REBECCA ! ! EVER ! ! I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH !! PLEASE NEVER LEAVE ME AGAIN BABE . PLEASE . . . .










Title: I




Author: [f.u.c]



Date: Friday April 16, 2004



Memo: Rebecca



[©] Brandin Paulsin






I miss you, I hug you; I kiss you, I love you.


I LOVE YOU MORE THAN THE WORLD REBECCA . AND THOSE FEELINGS ARE ALWAYS THERE . I PROMISE YOU .


LOVING YOU *hugs you tight and gives you a soft kiss on your cheek*
FOREVER AND FOR ALWAYS ;)
BRANDIN ( :

-yea he said that bullshit ... and yea that's just what it was ... BULLSHIT ... moving on ... a lil while later ...

From: [f.u.c] (Mi Niña Sandra. Le amo)
To: [*Corona*] (tina, u fat lard, come eat u'r dinner)
Sent mail 2005-03-09 21:55:23
Comment to: 33731510
Comment in 33732217

 
alrite
i understand babe
i know what you're talking about
and . . i know you're not going to believe me
but she doesn mean much to me at all
I COULD NEVER FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT HER LIKE I DO YOU REBECCA
I PROMISE
I LOVE YOU
AND I WANT TO DATE YOU
EVEN THO MY MOOD IS HELL
FUCK FUCK FUC KF UCK

-yea he was talking about his beloved "nina" ... i have nothing against her but i do not want her to be hurt by him ... b/c nobody deserves that ... -the shit that he pulls ... next ...

From: [f.u.c] (Mi Niña Sandra. Le amo)
To: [*Corona*] (tina, u fat lard, come eat u'r dinner)
Sent mail 2005-03-09 22:21:44
Comment to: 33733506

 
i promise ill make everything right rebecca
becuase i do love you
i know i do


-yea i'll believe that when i see it ... here's some more confirmation ...

From: [f.u.c] (Mi Niña Sandra. Le amo)
To: [*Corona*] (tina, u fat lard, come eat u'r dinner)
Sent mail 2005-03-09 22:23:58
Comment to: 33733774

 
probably because peoplea re going to want to know who that person is babe
i still love you i do love you
and i'm GOING To make everything right
you wait
i promise rebecca
i swear on my fucking grave

-hmm ... yea always all talk ... sayin one thing and doin another ... big surprise ...

From: [f.u.c] (Mi Niña Sandra. Le amo)
To: [*Corona*] (tina, u fat lard, come eat u'r dinner)
Sent mail 2005-03-10 20:16:04
Comment to: 33796012
Comment in 33847967

 
i dont want you to leave me rebecca . dont think that idont have those feelings for you . i dont care if you believe me or not . i know what i'm talking about . and i know you're not going to believe that . but i dont know if i can date you again rebecca . i dont know if i can . becuase everything is going to go to hell because all you think i do is fuck everyone over . i'm sorry . i'm sorry you get the wrong idea . i'd love for you to be my friend rebecca . i'd love to keep you here in MY life . cuz i do not want to lose you . but whether you stay or walk is up to you . i will try and stop you tho .

-yea u actually think he cares? or he's tried to stop me?? lol yea bullshit ...

girls please don't be fooled ... [f.u.c]'s not all that he's cracked up to be ... he is a sweetheart but he has no spine ... so please be careful ...

"we share a connection no one could break, not even time can erase what we've been through. throughout the years, we've kept in touch. and it seems like our feelings remain the same. no matter what happens, i could never forget-forget the smiles, forget the flowers, forget the presents, forget the notes, forget the laughs or forget the tears. miles separate us but our hearts connect us and bring us to a place where no one else could touch. i hope that this place will not be lost in time or space. ~*Love Always*~your *Babe*~"

guess i was wrong ... guess i'm not that special one u feel at home with ... but i can still sleep at nite ... cuz i kno that it's not my fault ...

"i walk out of this darkness
with no sense of regret
and i go with a clear conscience
we both kno that u can't say that
here's to show
for all the time i loved u so ...
have u ever been low?
have u ever had a friend that let u down so?
when the truth came out
were u the last to know?
were left out in the cold?
cuz what u did was low ..."

o yea kids! i'm changin my name cuz this is my nickname at the restaurant i work at ... :P and i thought it sounded better too :P ;)

ok i'm pretty sure i went to the tanning bed today for the first time in a few yrs :P and my ASS is FRIED! :P ahahahahaha no joke tho :P it's hilarious!!!! big red area :P haha ... funny stuff :P i'm probably goin on saturday too tho :P heehee ... i'm stayin the nite w/courtney sat ! woo hoo we're proally gonna go guy shopping .... again :P ... as u see-we've been unsuccessful :P haha ... her brother didn't work out cuz he's a man hoar but there's more out there :P hehe ... ne ways ... i'ma go rub some vitamin e on my ass! :P

*for an ex-b/f who does kno who he is*

"Love Makes The World Go Round"
-Ashlee Simpson

Here, here i am again
And im starin at these same four walls
Alone again
And now, all the colors blend
And im growing numb and I've become
This empty page

Hold on, its tragic
Stumbling through all this static

I just wanna talk to you
And my broken heart just has no use
And I, I guess promises are better
left unsaid, yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that im the only
But I'm the one who's crawling on the ground
When you say love makes the world go 'round

My love, look at what you've done to me
For someone who has felt so strong
It's amazing I'm completely gone

Hold on, its tragic
Stumbling through all this static

I just wanna talk to you
And my broken heart just has no use
And I, I guess promises are better
left unsaid, yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that im the only
But I'm the one who's crawling on the ground,
When you say love makes the world go 'round

If that's the kind of love you give me
I'd rather be alone, believe me
It's not the way you 'posed to treat me
I'd rather walk away

I just wanna talk to you
And my broken heart just has no use
And I, I guess promises are better
left unsaid, yeah
Everytime you try to tell me
You say the words that im the only
But I'm the one who's crawling on the ground,
When you say love makes the world go 'round, yeah
You say love makes the world go 'round
Everytime you try to tell me
I dont care you're not the only
Dont you know I'm coming back around
Cuz I say love makes the world go 'round, yeah
Cuz I say love makes the world go 'round

*for an ex-b/f ... who doesn't kno*

"Undiscovered"
-Ashlee Simpson

Take it back, take it all back now
The things I gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips,
I miss that now
I can't try any harder than I do
All the reasons I gave, excuses I made for you
I'm broken in two

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

Don't walk away

Touch me now how I wanna feel
Something so real, please remind me
My love, and take me back
Cuz I'm so in love with what we were
I'm not breathing I'm suffocating without you
Do u feel it too?

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you
Yeah I need you

When I'm in the dark and all alone
Dreaming that you'll walk right through my door,
Its then I know my heart is whole
There's a million reasons why I cry
Hold my covers tight and close my eyes
Cuz I don't wana be alone

All the things left undiscovered
Leave me waiting and left to wonder
I need you
All the things left undiscovered
Leave me empty and left to wonder
I need you, I need you

Cuz I can't fake and I can't hate
But it's my heart
Thats about to break
You're all I need
I'm on my knees
Watch me bleed
Would you listen please
I give in
I breathe out
I want you, theres no doubt
I freak out, I'm left out
Without you, I'm without
I'm crossed out
I can't doubt
I cry out
I reach out
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away
Don't walk away

*for all the people who believe that their life is not worth living b/c i believe it is ... no matter what*

"Give It All Away"
-Ashlee Simpson

Hey you, living for tomorrow
You sell your dreams for a pocket of change
Hey you, smokin' up your sorrow,
Just pointing fingers at someone to blame
Hey you, you turn your back on your children
It's left you in that big burning bed
This life's like livin in the gutter
All this pain just makes you feel dead

You're just givin it all, givin it all away
You're just givin it all, giving it all away, hey, hey yayayay

Slow down
Just look a little closer
You might find thats its not the end
You wonder how, your life can get better
When you're alone you just tear yourself down

You're just givin it all, giving it all away,
You're just givin it all, givin it all away
You're just givin it all, giving it all away,
You're just givin it all, giving it all away, hey, hey yayayay

Try and find your better half now
Open your eyes, and find yourself

Hey girl, screamin for attention
Once you get it, you throw it away
I'm broken, I'm pickin up the pieces
I won't live in all your mistakes

I'm just givin it all, givin it all away
I'm just givin it all, giving it all away,
I'm just givin it all, giving it all away,
I'm just givin it all, giving it all away, hey, hey yayayay

tell me something, if i were to walk away - would u come after me? or would u follow me and just not stop me? or would u watch me walk away? or would u go u'r separate way?
-the true test to see if someone loves u ...

ex-boyfriends ... meh

lol

"My Boo"
-Usher feat. Alicia Keys

There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby ooh you'll always be my boo

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
It's the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
It's the only way
We know how to rock

Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and
People screaming your name
Girl I was there when you were my baby

It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taken over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man who's in my life
You will always be my boo

Yes I remember boy
Cause after we kissed
I could only think about your lips
Yes I remember boy
The moment I knew you were the one
I could spend my life with
Even before all the fame
And people screaming your name
I was there and you were my baby

It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taken over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

I was in love with you when we were younger
You were mine my boo
And I see it from time to time
I still feel like my boo
And I can see it no matter
How I try to hide my boo
Even though there's another man who's in my life
You will always be my boo

My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

My oh, My oh, My oh, My oh, My Boo

It started when we were younger
You were mine my boo
Now another brother's taken over
But its still in your eyes my boo
Even though we used to argue it's alright
I know we haven't seen each other
In awhile but you will always be my boo

I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
It's the only way
We know how to rock
I don't know bout cha'll
But I know about us and uh
It's the only way
We know how to rock

ahh i need help :P lol makin my wiki page ... i'm workin on it but i need someone to help me make banners for Rebecca's Fan Club ... if ne one can help me please let me kno! :D much love ... o yea an if ne one can help me do ne thing else on a wiki page that'd be great help ... msg me babes ! :P thanks !

much love,
rebecca

"Whiskey Lullabye"
-Lyrics by Brad Paisley
-Sung by Brad Paisley and Allison Krause

She put him out like the burning end of a midnight cigarette.
She broke his heart: He spent his whole life trying to forget.
We watched him drink his pain away, a little at a time,
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind,

Until the night:
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger.
And finally drank away her memory.
Life is short, but this time it was bigger,
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees.
We found him with his face down in the pillow,
With a note that said: "I'll love her till I die."
And when we buried him beneath the willow,
The angels sang a whiskey lullabye.
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la.
La la la la la la la,
La la la la la la la.

The rumours flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself.
For years and years, she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath.
She finally drank her pain away, a little at a time,
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind.

Until the night:
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger.
And finally drank away his memory.
Life is short, but this time it was bigger,
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees.
We found her with her face down in the pillow,
Clinging to his picture for dear life.
We laid her next to him beneath the willow,
While the angels sang a whiskey lullabye.
La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la.
La la la la la la la,
La la la la la la la.

La la la la la la la
La la la la la la la.

La la la la la la la,
La la la la la la la.

just a lil fyi ... me an that girl ... the one i talked about down there in the last entry ... me an her r kool now ... we're buddies ... she's a sweet girl ... an i'm not just sayin that ... me an her get along great ...

take care nancy ;)

lol ppl kill me! ahahah sry i just hafta laff .... so funny ... one wk a girl hates me b/c my ex still loves me (as i do him) an the next wk she has a new "LOVER" who she's going to spend the rest of her life with an someone she is just so happy with! ahahahahahaha lol i'm sry i just find it funny cuz it's almost bi-polar cuz one minute she's suicidal and another guy comes along an she's "the happiest" she could ever be :P hehehehehehehe sry lol i'm not trying to laff at ne one in particular i just find human nature funny ... u gotta laff at things once in a while ... put a smile on u'r face an let it loose ... take it easy! .... don't ne one think i'm makin fun of this girl either cuz i'm not ... i used to be like her ... but i just find it funny now ... i want every girl to remember tho : there will always be another one who comes along so don't wry about the last one ... a better one should surface soon ;) ... keep the faith an don't lose hope ladies :)

ps-read my song "Men Don't Change" in my profile too ;) lol funny stuff :P

Do take care!

Much Love,
Rebecca A. Perona
-AKA-
*Bapsie*

-*- couldn't sleep last nite ... didn't go to bed till past 1 an then woke up at like 6:15 this mornin ... what is the deal man ... got lots on the mind :S ... good an bad ... an lots of unsure :\ ... hmmm ... -*-



KEITH URBAN - You'll Think Of Me Lyrics

I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah

And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday

"A Little Past Little Rock"
-Lee Anne Womack

I had to leave my life in Dallas
that town will always be you
in every crowd, on every corner,
every face I'd see you
so with nothing more than a tank of gas
I drove away without looking back
and I guess that's how I got where I am
going anywhere as fast as I can

Now I'm a little past Little Rock
further down the line
too soon to know what's up ahead
too late to change my mind
I've got to keep my heart out of this
and both hands on the wheel
I'm learning more with every mile
just how leaving feels
It's a lonely stretch of blacktop
out into the blue
don't know where I'll go
or what I'll do
I'm a little past Little Rock,
but a long way from over you

these headlights on the highway
disappear into the dark
and if I could have it my way
I'd go back to where you are
Oh, but I can't turn this thing around
and nothing short of breaking down
is gonna get me off this road I'm on
but I'm still a far cry from gone

Now I'm a little past Little Rock
further down the line
too soon to know what's up ahead
too late to change my mind
I've got to keep my heart out of this
and both hands on the wheel
I'm learning more with every mile
just how leaving feels
It's a lonely stretch of blacktop
out into the blue
don't know where I'll go
or what I'll do
I'm a little past Little Rock,
but a long way from over you

I'm a little past Little Rock
but a long way from over you



"Never Again, Again"
-Lee Ann Womack

Never again, again
Once more I'll let you back in
I know how the story ends
But I can't help myself

You'll break my heart I know
Through my tears I'll watch you go
Then just like it's always been

I'll say never again, again
Each time you leave
I say I've had enough
But I must be addicted
To your kind of love

I swear to myself
I'm gonna stand my ground
But one look at you
Breaks my defenses down

And here comes never again, again
Once more I'll let you back in
I know how the story ends
But I can't help myself

You'll break my heart I know
Through my tears I'll watch you go
Then just like it's always been
I'll say never again, again

I swear to myself
I'm gonna stand my ground
But one look at you
Breaks my defenses down

And here comes never again, again
Once more I'll let you back in
And just like it's always been
I'll say never again, again
And just like it's always been
I'll say never again, again.

ya kno what ... i'm not gonna fite w/u ... u can have him ... he obviously has chosen yal over me ... i do love him more than ne thing ... an i really thought that we could have gotten married an spent the rest of our lives together .... i still kinda think that but i kno that he can't do it ... he can't be faithful enuff .... he thinks it's ok to do these kinda things .... it's not ... so whoever out there hates me an what not ... i'm sry ... an i hope that somehow u will forgive me for w/e it is i've done to u ... an if u want a guy who's gonna cheat on u three times then so be it .... this is my warning .... i hope that u girls do not get hurt in the process like i have over an over again ... i still love him .... but i kno that i shouldn't ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... that's what hurts the most :"( ... but don't pity me ... this is not an entry for me to look for pity an to just totally self pity myself .... that's not what i'm doing ... i just don't want ne one to hafta go thru what i've already been thru ... please be careful ... :( ...