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RAPED

I cry out in anguish
No reason to hide
You’ve torn off my wings
and you’ve stolen my pride
I clench my teeth
And I dig with my nail
I fight and I fight
But still I fail
With disbelief
I reconsider my fate
I wish you were done
But I’ll just have to wait
Finally you finish
I crouch over and cry
I look up at you
and see the demon in your eye
hearing harsh words that
you say unto me
sullen I think
“vous M’Avez conquise”

(which is french for you have conquered me)

she is me revised and edited!

OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCE

I look down at my hands
The fingertips trickle with blood
Next, a glance to the floor
There lay a girl
Kindred to my age
I almost recognize her
Her brunette hair stained russet
Her terra-cotta eyes now an undetermined grey
But who is she
I now look to the mirror
Vacant
Only showing that of which I see behind myself
Not a soul to manifest
Then I realize who the girl is
She lay draped in white
Almost like a fallen angel
Cast down from the haven she had created for herself
She had wanted to escape everything
What an inconceivable thought
To wish ones self dead
Just to leave all the terrors behind
Daunted all her life
With no support for a future that she herself could not control
Perdition may reign
On her family and friends
But no longer
Will she have the chains at her ankles
Tearing away at the flesh
I can’t fathom what I have done
But what can I do
The girl that lay on the floor so cold
She is me

look at me once, just once and i'll go away,
do you think they would notice if i died today,
if my ghost walked by them would they even feel me,
with all of these pills i take, no one can heal me,
theropy sessions, ridilin and more,
when i was raped, they called ME the whore,
but when i am swimming the water sets me free,
and i dont even realize that no ones there but me,
look at me once and i'll have no more to say,
just let me know i'm really here, and then i'll go away.

...i made that one for those of you who ignore me.

NO LONGER THERE
I stand here looking myself in the eye
I ask my reflection what makes me so shy
I am very outspoken, my heart has its will
but my soul has been broken, so I stand here still
my hands stay steady, the pistol doesnt shake
I swear I'll do anything to release this headache
nobody knows me, they don't understand
to die is for freedom, not just for an end
I'll be gone no longer by anyones side
no longer will I have to run or to hide
somthing is happening it is not right
the memory of a friend on a warm summers night
I think I will stay, just for a while
for if I leave my parents will no longer smile
no matter what you do, no matter what you say
no matter what happens, I'll still feel this way
everyones looking at me, why do they stare
they are all looking at somthing thats no longer there

SHE IS ME
I look down at my hands
My fingers drip with blood
I look down at the floor
There lay a girl
About my age
I almost recognize her
Her brown hair stained red
Her brown eyes turning gray
But who is she
I look in the mirror
Nothing
There is no one there
Then I realize who the girl is
She lay draped in white
But one would think it were red
Almost like a fallen angel
I can't believe what I have done
But what can I do
The girl that lay on the floor so cold
She is me!