Ive never been so happy in all my life, my friends make my life wonderful! they all mean so much to me. i love you guys!
boyfriends! ok... so my first ever boyfriend was dominic, i was with him for just under 2 years... i was 11-12, when i went out with him. he was my foster cousin and he lived with my uncle gerry. i saw him a few times in the 2 years i went out with him, not even my first kiss happend with him. urgh he was minging. i dumped him cuz of the distance. and it gets boring.
then there was jackson.... my first kiss.was with him 3 months and his mate told him i was cheating on him but i wasnt. so he dumped me and i was heartbroken...
then there was daveid. who i fell for .... for some unknown reason. but he chose soph instead of me. which im attually thankful for now. cuz me n daveid have a great friendship, and i think if i went out with him it whould spolit that.(net relationship but i have met with him in person)
then there was dinosor (steve) we were on and off for ages. he fell out with me for no reason, he just enjoyed me beging to get him back. and he is a true bastard. and deserves shooting. (hehe i bit him and drew blood :D) (net relationship) - well untill he started going out with danni, i met him in person.
then there was kyle who i went out with many times. internet slut.... total player. (net relationship) off and on 4 times... last about 2-5 days each time.
then there was vinny. who was a compleat minger. and .... i dint even enjoy being with him. the only reason i went out with him is because i fancyed john. and i enjoyed going to the big wheel and listening to the music. was with him 2 months
then there was ricky. cheated on me. then told the whole school what went on between us.... plus everytime he came to see me it was an 'effort' and he was so boring he dint want to do anythign cuz it was an effort.... arghhhh was with him 4 months
then there was azz.... i dint go out with him, but he played me so bad, he told me he loved me and that he wanted to be with me, when he knew he didnt want a relationship which hurt me real bad, but hes an ace kisser...
The their was Dan. i thought i loved him and he loved me too. after a month i slept with him. he dumped me the day after and broke my heart
and thats the end to my boyfriends.... not many.... but they all screwed me around somehow. .... but now ive got the best boyo ever. <3 love yew Andy
LAYER ONE
-- Name: Lora
-- Nickname: Lora
-- Birthdate: 5/6/90
-- Loction: Hinckley
-- Birthplace: nuneaton
-- Current location: a chair in front of the computer
-- Eye color: bluey green
-- Hair color: black
-- Height: 6ft1/4
-- Righty or lefty: right
LAYER TWO
-- Your heritage:i duno
-- The shoes you wore today: converse
-- Your weakness: i duno
-- Your fears: im expiriencing my fear
-- Your perfect pizza: i hate food
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: meh...
LAYER THREE
-- Your most overused phrase: nothing anymore
-- Your thoughts first waking up: my lifes not worth it
-- Your best physical feature: my eyes
-- Your bedtime: wenever i feel tired i guess
-- Your most missed memory: fook all
LAYER FOUR
-- Soda: dr pepper
-- Fast food joint: kfc
-- Single or group dates: group
-- Addidas or Nike: try famous stars and straps or atticus
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
-- Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino
LAYER FIVE
-- Smoke: no
-- Drink: yeh
-- Sing: yeh
-- Take a shower every day: every other day
--Have a crush(es): yeh
-- Do you think you've been in love: ive been in lust
-- Liked high school: yeh it wernt to bad
-- Want to get married: yeh
-- Believe in yourself: sumtimes
-- Get motion sickness: nope
-- Think you're attractive: nah
-- Think you're a health freak: no
-- Get along with your parents: some times
-- Like thunderstorms: yeh i dont mind 'em
-- Play an instrument: i sing
--Best movie?: drop dead fred
LAYER SIX
In the past month...
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Smoked: no
-- Done a drug: no
-- Had sex: yes
-- Made out: yeh
-- Gone on a date: yes
-- Gone to the mall: yes
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: yep
-- Eaten sushi: no
-- Been on stage: no
-- Gone skating: no
-- Made homemade cookies: no
-- Gone skinny-dipping
-- Dyed your hair: yes
-- Stolen anything: nope
LAYER SEVEN
Ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: yeh
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated. no
-- Been caught doing something: sorta
-- Been called a tease: yes :(
-- Gotten beaten up:no
-- Shoplifted: nope
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no
LAYER EIGHT
-- Age you hope to be married: dont know
-- Numbers and names of children: 3, girls : andee and mckenna boyo - i dunno a name yet
-- Describe your dream wedding: duno
-- How do you want to die: right here right now
-- Where do you want to go to college: im already in college
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: i dunno
-- What country would you most like to visit: america
-- Who is your guardian/ most loved person: mum
LAYER NINE
In a guy
-- Best eye color: not botherd
-- Best hair colour: dont mind
-- Short or long hair: longish
-- Height: same height or taller than me.
-- Best weight:not skinnyer than me and not twice the size of me
-- Best articles of clothing: i aint botherd
-- Best first date location: i aint fusd
-- Best first kiss location: i aint fusd
LAYER TEN
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: ive had a few joints in my life so what?
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: noone anymore
-- Number of CDs that I own: ROFL ... urm 6 desent ones
-- Number of piercings: 5
-- Number of tattoos: none
-- Number of times my name has appeard in the newspaper: i duno
-- Number of scars on my body: 3 main ones god knows how many more....
I see: my computer
I need: a drink
I find: nothing
I want: andy
I have: nothing
I wish: i dint loose my virginity to that wanker.
I love: andy
I hate: not being with him
I miss: nothin
I feel: ok
I hear: incubus - nice to know you
I smell: nothing
I crave: alcohol
I search: for nothing
I wonder: if he really loved me.
I regret: everything.
001: Name: Laura Thorpe
002: Nickname: Lora
003: Country of living: England
004: Birthdate: 5th june
005: Length: 6'1/4
006:Eye color: bluey-green
007: Shoesize: 7
008: School/work: school
009: You smoke: nope
010: Hobby's: listening to music chilling with my friends
011: Brothers/Siste
012: Relationship: yes, Andy <3
013: Piercing(s): 5
014: Tattoo: Not yet
015: Fave Country to go to: Tenerife
016: Are there people you wont reply to?: yes
017: Nicest person you met this year: dont know
018: Person you rather not have met this year: dont know
019: Who would you like to meet: Ally. and Dougie
020: Who do you admire most: my mum
021: Most sexy person(s): Andy, Andy, Jim.
022: Favorite Pajamas: my stripey ones
023: Favorite Car: dont like cares.
024: Favorite Movie(s): way too many to list
025: Favorite Music: loads but mainly emo
026: Favorite City(s): Leicester/Nott
027: Favorite Plush: paris the dog
030: Favorite sound: music, a song that means something to me.
031: Favorite TV-series: The Ashlee Simpson Show
032: Favorite Writer: MArc writes amazing songs.
033: Favorite Nickname: Lora.
034: What is on your mousepad: its black
035: What all is under your bed:well my bed is a matress on the floor. so the floor.
036: Favorite color: Brown and Pink
037: Favorite Song ever: Dashboard Confessional - hands down
038: Favorite song at this moment: Across Five Arprils - Pawn Shop Promises
039: Favorite food: anything with Mayo!!!!!
040: Favorite class in school: Art!!!
041: Favorite drink: red bull
042: Lucky number: 5
044: What deodorant do you use: charlie red
045: Favorite shoes: Converse
046: What time do you go to bed on weekdays: 10 pm
047: What word do you use most: (More recently:) i dont really use a word. i just giggle alot.
048: Most romantic moment in your life: it was romantic, but now i regret it
049: Most embarrassing moment in your life:hahahaha man was it funny
050: You spend your time rather inside or outside: bit of in, bit of out.
051: What do you do in the weekends: hang out with cool people
052: What class on school do/did you dislike most: Science and Maths
053: Your Breakfast: toast or nothing
054: What do you really really dislike to eat: brussle sprouts.
055: Pets: 2 dogs
056: Laugh or Dream: Dreaming of laughing.
057: Serious or funny: Seriously funny
058: Fast or slow: you dirty poeple ;) ... well both.
059: You prefer being alone or have relation: Having a relation
060: Simple or complicated?: simply complicated
061: Cremate or Buried when dead: Buried
062: Sex or Alchohol: alcohol
063: Stay up late or go to bed early: late
64: Light or dark?: theres a place for light and a place for dark
065: Speak or Silence: Speak, but be silent when the moment takes over
066: Tall or small man/woman: Tall
067: News paper: Hinckley Times
068: Hug or kiss: Kiss after the hug
069: Happy or Sad: I love being happy, but at times I like to be sad.
070: Life or Death: Life
071: Gig or Disco: Gig
072: Left or Right: Right
073: Sausages on top, or on the side: dont like sausages
074: Dark/ red/ Blonde: Dark
075: What would you ask God if you could ask him 1 single question: who are you?
076: You believe in reincarnation: dont know
077: You believe in Aliens: nope
078: When you die, what will be your last words?: well hopefully im gonna have a long time to think about it. its a spontanious thing,. ill come up with summert when im dying.
079: Does true love exist: yes
080: How many kids would you like to have: 3
081: sitting down?: well yes i am
082: Best feeling: waking up in the one you loves arms.
083: Worst feeling in the world: missing someone
084: What are you afraid of: everything
085: Are you an emotional person: yes, very.
086: Do you ever cry during a movie: yes
087: Your goal in life: to make my life worth it
089: Favorite art-artist:Dav
090: As what animal would you like to reincarnate: a dog.
091: What is the most beautiful part on the female body: eyes
092: Most original place to ask your love to marry you: well if its originional its never gotta be done before has it....
093: What do you think of Elftown: its kinda boring.
094: Is there something you miss about elftown: desent people
095: Where did you get this question list: my ex's profile, cheers ricky
095: Besides elftown, what do you do most on your PC:MSN, myspace and faceparty.
096: Is there a question you missed in this all: I don't think so
097: Favorite Actor: Patrick Swasey
098: Favortie Actress: Julia Roberts
099: Favorite Animes: i dont know?
100: Favorite Mangas: i dont know?
102: What super power do you wish to have: to click my fingers and get what and where i want.
103: Your gender: female
104: Straight/gay/B
105: Single: nope
106: Want to be: no
107: Age you act: depends on my mood
108: Age you wish you were: 14
109: Your height: 6'1/4
110: Happy with it: not really
111: The color of your hair: black
112: Happy with it: Yeh
113: Left/right/amb
114 Your living arrangement: I live with my Mum and Dad
115: What's your job: School
116: Piercings: 5
117: Obsessions: Music, my mobile. and trains
118: Do you speak another language: Nope
119: Have a favorite quote: No
120: Do you have a WebPage: nope
121: Do you live in the moment: I sometimes like to plan ahead otherwise spontainious stuff id great
122: Do you consider yourself tolerant of others: yes
123: Do you have any secrets: Yep
124: Do you hate yourself: sometimes
125: Do you like your handwriting: its ok i guess. could be worse.
126: Do you have any bad habits: most probably/
127: What is the compliment you get most from people: that i have beautiful (come to bed) eyes. hehe
129: What's your biggest fear: everything
130: Can you sing: yes
131: Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool: No
132: Are you a loner: no
133: If you were another person, would you be friends with you: yes.
134: Are you a daredevil: sorta
135: Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself: eveything.
136: Are you passive or aggressive: passive
137: Have you got a question: nope
138: What is your greatest strength and weakness: strength: i can remain being me. weakness: i have my faults.
139: If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be: my heaight
140: There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose: Love
141: How do you vent: god knows.
142: Do you think you are emotionally strong: considering my emotions are everywhere, no
143: Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life: yes
144: Do you think life has been good so far: i geuss
145: What is the most important lesson you've learned from life: its a gift.
145: What do you like the most about your body: my eyes.
146: And least: feet! ikky i hate feet
147: Do you think you are good looking: i guess im pretty, but not beautiful
148: Are you confident: sort of
149: What is the fictional character you're most like: non, im most like myself
150: Do people know how you feel: some do.
151: Are you perceived wrongly: sometimes/
152: Smoke: Nope
153: Do drugs: nope
154: Read the newspaper: sometimes
155: Pray: Nope
156: Go to church: Hell no
157: Talk to strangers who IM you: occasionally
158: Sleep with stuffed animals: Nope
159: Take walks in the rain: Sometimes
160: Talk to people even though you hate them: Yeah, sometimes.
161: Drive: nope
162: Like to drive fast: as I sed I dont drive
163: Liked your voice: its mine...
164: Hurt yourself: im not going into that
165: Been out of the country: Yes
166: Eaten something that made other people sick: most likely
167: Burped: ha ha yeh. burping half way through sex is so attrective.
168: Been unfaithful: nope
169: Been in love: I am
170: Done drugs: yep
171: Gone skinny-dipping
172: Had a surgery: nope
173: Ran away from home: nope
174: Played strip poker: nope
175: Gotten beaten up: no
176: Been picked on: Yep
177: Been on stage: Yep
178: Been so drunk that you can't remember your name?: No
179: Slept outdoors: Yep
180: Thought about suicide: yeh...
181: Pulled an all-nighter: Yeh
182: If yes, what is your record: just one night
183: Gone one day without food: ive been about 4 days without food.
184: Talked on the phone all night: yes
185: Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: yep
186: Slept all day: yep
187: Killed someone: No
188: Made out with a stranger: yes
189: Had sex with a stranger: No
190: Thought you're going crazy: Yes
191: Kissed the same sex: yeh
192: Done anything sexual with the same sex: No.
193: Been betrayed: Yes
194: Had a dream that came true: yes
195: Broken the law: yeh
196: Met a famous person: nope
197: Have you ever killed an animal by accident: no
198: Stolen anything: nope
199: Been on radio/TV.: nope
Applying for.
so, im mena be round sams right now having fun, unstead she chose kelly over me cuz kelly, being the spoilt smarmy bitch that she is got her own way yet again !!!!
Its not my fault my mum wanted me home early, and all kelly could do was take the piss! and im always her main target and now im fed up of it, so i had a go at her cuz im already pissed off, shes mena be one of my best friends and she bullys me, i mean i get enough of that at school let alone one of my best friends doing it too!
and Sams no better, she SO stuck up for kelly. maybe people should try and understand me for once. I've only just relaised houw much i value my old friends such as Emma, Becky, Hazel and the rest!!! and my newly made friends from jcc, not to mention my EmoGurl Kayleigh!!! <33 (luffluff to you guys!)
I only wish i could spend my time with Andy more. as he probably is my one and only true friend. He's always there for me, i fxckin hate the distance!!! mayjor LUFF to him!!! i love him with all my little broken heart.
then theres Martyn, somehow he does, no idea how, but he makes me smile muchly. and really effects me in an amazing way, maybe its because i like him, but hey who knows! and who attually really cares! he makes me happy thats all i can say. and for now thats good, cuz not yet has he hurt me. hes always sending me caring texts and always wants me to be happy. i just really wanna see him and just hug him and let all my effection pour out on him. cuz im not the only one that deserves a bit of happyness, he does too! cuz hes an amazing guy and he deserves the best. hes a genuin gentleman.... [<3333 luff to him also]
so .... heres the end to my ramble about so called "friends" and to those who mean summink!!
Laters //\\ x+x
everyday i regret what i did. i regret the fact that i know i cant have you, and now i miss being around you, and having your kiss. i dint go off you. never think that. cuz i love you, probably now more than ever. being wihtout you has made me realise how much i love you. but i just dont wanna be in a relationship when i dont wanna be close to anyone, and i dint wanna fuck things up between us, which i most probably have now. i hate the fact were not close no more. it sucks cuz your friends keep looking at me like im a bitch which i most likely deserve. am i a bad person for not wanting to hurt you? or maybe i did hurt you. but trust me, it hurt me more, ive cry'd myself to sleep everynight since weve been apart. i cant bare it cuz i love you and yet were appart. i fuck everything up. i just hope your ok. and i want you to know. i love you with all my heart.
i love you so much ricky *kisses and huggles* you mean so much to me............
Peace out!
xXx
omg yesterday was so funny, me n sam skived off school and decided to start drinking, so we started drinking at half 9 lol we were downing shots of ouzo and bacardi and rum and we had a glass of champain and i had some wine, then we went round sams and had more alcohol. then ricky n blower came round and we drank more then i started to get tipsy and i fell over a few time then we just chilled in sams room we were goin down stairs and blower was tryin to push ricky down them.... in result blower fell down XD it was sooooooooooo funny me sam and ricky wet ourselfs!
urghhhhhhhhhhh
hehe i was with davey and Ricky, callie sam and the 2 sophs wednesday and we played hide and seek in the ashby rd grave yard.... it was dark and i got paranoid! hehe then me ricky dave n soph went back to sophies watched tv and then crashed.... then on thursday soph sophie and daveid went lester so mne n ricky came back to mine dropped my stuff off and went back up town and met up with callie and sam.. we hung out then we all went home hehe.... fun fun fun tahas been a hectic week..... but a bloody fun one!!!! .... but personally tuseday was the best! noone beats andy in my eyes, hes the bestest mate anyone could ever have! anyways
Peace Out!
omg today was soooooooooo amazing i went to nottinham and met up with andy and brandon. then we went back to andys house and went in andys room *feels priviledged* and and and we did stuffs and had a laugh. it was just soooooooo amazing. then we had to leave :( i cryed on the bus ...... it was so horribal leaving them ....... but dont worry im gonna go see em again soon!
this is the longest time ive been away from ricky! 2 days! 2 fuckin days and i gotta put up with it untill wednesday! anyways weve been together 4 weeks today :D yayyyyy plus im seeing andy on tuseday! YAYYYYYYYYY and daveys coming down wednesday too! yayyyyyy
ok so i guess everyones fed up with hearing abour ricky from me. yeh? well heres summert new, ive decided what tattoo im gonna get for my 18th, Andys designing it. were both gonna design each other a tattoo and get it and put each others names at the bottom of it ^_^ yayyyy hehe. He mes the absolute world to me. seriously, i whould of killed myself in the past few months if it wasnt for him! i know i seam like a happy person, but deep down there alot of proplems and i can get very insecure. and the only one i can openly talk about them to is andy.
YAYYYYYYYY me go see him next tusedayyyy ^_^
hehe anyways ive been with Ricky like just over 3 weeks now, its so amazing, hes another person thats made my life happyer LOTS more happyer, im so happy to be with him, weve seen each other almost everyday since weve been going out ^_______^.
but the thing is why are people suddenly turning into compulsive lyers and lying all the time to me...... well i guess i cant say people. its just one person really. someone i thought i could trust. the they go and really hurt me....... Thanks alot!
but i dont care. i have the main people in my life, my boyfriend, my well...Andy and my parents. thats all i want and its all i need, so peace out
Rickys the best thing thats ever happend to me! i love him so much and i never wanna loose him!
i hate you so much right now!..........
i LOVE you ricky
and i love you andy
you 2 are the only people i want in my life atm..... i hate some people i really do
I've been with Ricky 3 weeks today ^_^ and im the happyest ive even been. I love him sooooo much. todays been fun ... and cold :/ but ive had ricky to warm me up hehe. anyways ........ peace out
being with ricky is sooooooooo amazing, im so damn happy im with him ^_^ id be so lost without him now. i love him sooooooooo much and i really mean that i love him.
these are the people that mean something to me :-
Ricky
Andy
Sammy-jo
Callie
Sam
Mum
Dad
Sophie
Soph
Klee
Kelly
Leon
Daveid
Gracie
Milly
Annie
Auntie :-
Nikki
Peta
Caz
Anne
Steph
Tracey
Linda
Mel
Uncles:-
Tony
Tony
David S
Hayden
Chris
Sean
and i'll carry this on later........
Caio for now!
Thismorning i woke up to this song and sang it ^_^ it means so much to me cuz it reminds me of my cousin gracie
TINA ARENA LYRICS
"Chains"
Your arms are warm but they make me feel
As if they're made of cold, cold steel
A simple kiss like a turnin' key
A little click and the lock's on me
Can't move my arms, can't lift my hands
I won't admit to where I am
But I know baby, I'm in chains
I'm in chains
I pretend I can always leave
Free to go whenever I please
But then the sound of my desperate calls
Echo off these dungeon walls
I've crossed the line from mad to sane
A thousand times and back again
I love you baby, I'm in chains
I'm in chains
I'm in chains
I'm in chains
Should have known passing through the gate
That once inside I could not escape
I never thought this could happen to me
Never thought this is where I'd be
But baby, baby, baby, look at me
Baby, baby, look at me, I'm in chains
I'm in chains
I never thought this is where I'd be
Never thought this could happen to me
Also thismoring ive thought about Ricky... as i do every morning.... and probably every minuet im apart from him :/ i hate leaving him him and i love being with him . i
its amazing how being with someone can make your life so happy, Rickys made me so damn happy over the past 2 weeks. I love him sooooooooo much!!!! i love spending time with him. i love my hugs off him. i feel safe when im with him, I just wish all my friends could be as happy as i am. i want them all to feel the love that i feel. i get so upset when my friends are unhappy :( but i know that there all there for me. and im so lucky for what ive got. i love you ALL every single one of you!
thats all for now....
Peace out (as aley whould say)