You know, there are these things I think about all the time, and I can't turn off my thoughts, and I wish I could, but I never can, and they're always there.

the meds help some, but even ritalin can't stop all these unwanted invasive thoughts which keep me from being happy. if there was a way to drown them out I would.

you know, I really hate that I sound better on the computer, or on plain old paper than I do when I talk. I never know what to say, or anything. it sucks, it really does.

I seem to be saying "you know" a lot this morning...

whatever, off to read the second Harry Potter book.

ciao.

Meh... Inusodamnbored.... o_O

blargh.....

I feel like writing a song or a novel, or even poetry... and god-fucking-damnit I hate poetry.... -.- I r so damn bored you wouldn't beleive it....

had a debate in S.S. and I sucked... god, I hate debates, or public speaking... I have terrible stage fright...

Biznatch!

hahahahahahahahahaha, yeah whatever. I'm sure they expect me to come running back with apologies anytime soon. but who cares, cause I won't. they lost out, it isn't my fault. XPPPPP

. . . bored. XP

weird. her fault