Ok, so I talked my dad for the first time in 5 years yesterday. I asked him why he's hasn't been coming around, and all he had to say was "Well, I didn't know I was welcome around here." I was so mad. All I said back to him was "Right", then I walked away. He works right down the road from me, and never once has he willingly come over to say hi.

(sep. 3...2005)

I am really missing my dad right now....he should be hear, with us.....but he left for some 1 else....who is totally wrong for him...and he forgot all about his other family...i havn't seen him in over 3 years, and now that it is my brothers birthday, his 15th, he should be hear, with him...and where will he be next month on my birthday...were will he be when i get a broken arm, or leg.....right now i think that he has totally forgot about us....and right now is the time i need him the most, i just wish he would come home...spend at least one more day with us....but i know that will never happen....he hates us....but we need him.....he needs to stratin my brother out....he needs to help me....and he needs to be there for me and my sister when we need him. He hasn't called, written back letters, or even stopped by. And the funny thing is that he works right down the road! This whole thing is messed up....

(august 7...2004)