Everyone in the history of man was selfesh. The only reason people do anything, is to benifit themselves. People may say they are doing somthing because they are trying to be nice and they dont want enything in return, but either they do want somthing in return or they want to help you and then hold it over your head untill you do somthing for them, or they may want nothing form you but your suffering for their own enjoyment. Even those who love eachother are selfesh, people only love to be loved in return, amoung wanting other things. And the so called selfless people who do charity, they will only do it for the attention and/or self gratification, see the only people we have in mind are our selves. I admit that i am selfesh, and those of you who think you are not selfesh, your are blind idiots.

just incase some of you out there don't know me that well you can read this

100 QUESTIONS.

1. Full Name: Jessi Meeks
2. Your nick name: Sparky(duh)
3. Birthday: May 29th
4. Place of Birth: vallejo CA
5. Zodiac Sign: gimini
6. Male or Female: Female(incase you didn't already know)
7. Grade: 11th
8. School:Shasta high school " home of the wolves"
9. Occupation:nope i get my summer all to myself
10.Residence: i don't need any more stalkers
11. Screen Names: biteme2299, Scarlettdeath99 , Heartache and mylife_is_boring99

__Your Appearence___
12. Hair Color: kinda like fire the roots a a bleach blond and the towards the tips is brownish redish
13. Hair Long or Short: little longer than shoulder length
14. Eye Color: greenish blueish
15. skin color:white (with sun tan?)
16. style: my own
17. Height: 5'6 1/2 - 5'7 not sure
18. Shoe Size: 9-9 1/2 (-_-)
19. Braces?:no
20. Glasses?: no
21. Piercings: my ears
22. Tattoo: i wish
23. Righty or Lefty: right handed

___Your 'Firsts'___

24. First Kiss:Poochie(that was my nick name for HIM at the time)
25. First B.F/ G.F:Andy
26. First best friend:Chris(aka Poochie)
27. First Award: was for art in 2nd grade
28. First Sport You Joined: HAh!thats funny!
29. first pet: my doggie Barely
30. First Vacation:umm i dunno a can remember
31. First Concert:*pouts*
32. First "Love": Justin

___ Favorites___
33. Movie: Joe Dirt
34. TV Show:criss angel:MIND FREAK
35. Color: green and hot pink
36. Band:hmm thats a hard one maybe slipknot or korn or mudvayne
37. Song: at the moment it's Your Man by Josh Turner
38. Food:at the moment POPSICLES
39. Drink: B&J strawberry daiquiri
40. Candy:Charms Blue Razzberry Blow-Pop
41. Sport To Play:um VollyBall and VollyTennis
42. Sport To Watch: football or Basketball
43. Brand Of Clothing: i don't really have a favorite umm i think TRIPP pants look really awesome i guess i dunno i mostly just where whatever is comfertable
44. Store:...O_o hottopick?
45. School Subject:math
47. Book:Tales Of Terror: stories by Edgar Allan Poe
48. Magazine:um Animerica i guess i dunno i don't read to many magazines

___Currently___
49. Eating: nothing at the moment
50. Drinking:a diet cream soda
51. Typing: what do you thinkg
52. Online?: yea
53. Listening To: Wasted Sacrifice by Killswitch engage
54. Thinking About: what Justin said on the phone last night
55. Wanting To: kiss him and do other things to him
56. Watching: the computer screen?
57. Wearing:a black Chick(By Nicky Hilton) wife beater and daisy dukes
___Your Future___
58. Want Kids?: yeah someday
59. Want to Get Married?: yea
60. Careers in Mind: umm maybe a chef of some sort of Artist

__Which is Better With The Opposite Sex___
67. Cute or Sexy:cute
68. Lips or Eyes: eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: kisses
70. Short or Tall: mmmm maybe tall i dont really care
71. Easygoing or serious:mmmm Serious maybe
72. Romantic or Spontaneous:both but a little more romantic
73. Fatty or Skinny: some where in the middle
74. Sensitive or Loud:Sensitive
75. Hook-up or Relationship:Relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: BOTH lol
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: Trouble Maker

___Have You Ever___
78. Kissed a Stranger: yea
79. Drank Alcohol: yea
80. Smoked:weed? yea
81. Ran Away From Home: yea
82. Broken a Bone: no
83. Got an X-ray: yea
84. Broken Someones Heart: :( yea and i hated it
85. Broke Up With Someone: yea
86. Turned Someone Down: yea
87. Cried When Someone Died: yea
88. Cried At School: yea

___Do You Believe In___
89. God: yea
90. Miracles: yea
91. Love At First Sight: yes
92. Ghosts: yea
93. Aliens: sure
94. Soul Mates:yes
95. Heaven: yes
96. Hell: if theres a heaven there must be a hell
97. Cheating: on test? sure why not|on guys? no
98. Kissing on The First date: a kiss good night?
99. Horoscopes: yeah i have this big book named THE COMPLEAT ASTROLOGER i read in it all the time


___Answer Truthfully___
100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know You Cant Have?:yes when he got moved out of my class i remember that night after school i cried myself to sleep then when he got moved to a new foster home i when home and cried myself to sleep again mostly because i had lost the chance to tell him how much i loved him.......*sigh*....pathetic i kno

This time I'm taking it away, I've got a problem
With me getting in the way, not by my side
So I take my face and bash it into a mirror
I won't have to see the pain

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again

My hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh I cannot breath anymore
For what's inside awaking
I'm not, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything and
Oh I cannot give anymore

My mind's done with this
So hey, I've got a question
Can I throw it all away?
Take back what's mine
So I take my time
Driving humbly down the line
Each cut, closer to the vein

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again

The hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh, I cannot grieve anymore

For what's inside awaking
I'm not, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything and
Oh I cannot give anymore

I'm here to stay (bring it down)
Bring it down!
Gonna bring it down
Gonna break it down
Gonna break it

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again

My hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh, I cannot grieve anymore

For what's inside awaking
I'm not, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything and
Oh I cannot give anymore

Give anymore

The End Of Heartache.... by: killswitch engage

Seek me, call me
I'll be waiting

This distance, this dissolution
I cling to memories while falling
Sleep brings release, and the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you

Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

You know me, you know me all too well
My only desire - to bridge our division

In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors my torment

(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

Am I breathing?
My strength fails me
Your picture, a bitter memory

For comfort, for solace
(Seek me) For comfort, (Call me) For solace
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart
(Seek me) Completion, (Call me) I'll be waiting
(I'll be waiting) For the end of my broken heart

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change
the courage to change the things i cannot accept
and the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people
i had to kill today because they pissed me off
and also help me to be careful of the toes i step on today
as they may be connected to the ass i have to kiss tomorrow
help me to always give 100% at work....12% on monday
23% on tuesday 40% on wednesday
20% on thursday and 5% on friday
and help to remember ......
when im having a really bad day
and it seems that people are trying to piss me off
that it takes 42 muscles to frown
and only 4 to extend my middle finger and tell them to bite me!

Hope Is... BY: killswitch engage

Have you ___________ this summer? SURVEY!!

http://www.christopha.5u.com/

[hah! tihs is cool]

Have you ever just wanted to scream so loud...
have you felt all bottled up and wanted to scream so loud that everyone would hear you and everyone would just stop what they were doing for a second and look up at you and all the walls would fall down and the whole world would fly up in the air and fall back down just how you want it to be and all your problems would go away forever

[  pathetic  ]

[go ahead ask away]



You can ask me any 7 questions ANY FRICKIN THING YOU WANT, No matter how personal, inappropriate, perverted, or random.

I promise to answer the
questions 100% truthfullly.

Repost this and see what
people want to ask you.

[hahahah yes!!!]

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change
the courage to change the things i cannot accept
and the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people
i had to kill today because they pissed me off
and also help me to be careful of the toes i step on today
as they may be connected to the ass i have to kiss tomorrow
help me to always give 100% at work....12% on monday
23% on tuesday 40% on wednesday
20% on thursday and 5% on friday
and help to remember ......
when im having a really bad day
and it seems that people are trying to piss me off
that it takes 42 muscles to frown
and only 4 to extend my middle finger and tell them to bite me!

[ EVERY GUY NEEDS TO KNOW THIS ]

When you were 1 year old, she fed you and bathed you. You thanked her by crying all night long.

When you were 2 years old, she taught you to walk. You thanked her by running away when she called.

When you were 3 years old, she made all your meals with love. You thanked her by tossing your plate on the floor.

When you were 4 years old, she gave you some crayons. You thanked her by coloring the dining room table.

When you were 5 years old, she dressed you for the holidays. You thanked her by plopping into the nearest pile of mud.

When you were 6 years old, she walked you to school. You thanked her by screaming, "I'M NOT GOING!"

When you were 7 years old, she bought you a baseball. You thanked her by throwing it through the next-door-neighbor's window.

When you were 8 years old, she handed you an ice cream. You thanked her by dripping it all over your lap.

When you were 9 years old, she paid for piano lessons. You thanked her by never even bothering to practice.

When you were 10 years old she drove you all day, from soccer to gymnastic to one birthday party after another. You thanked her by jumping out of the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old, she took you and your friends to the movies. You thanked her by asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old, she warned you not to watch certain TV shows. You thanked her by waiting until she left the house.

When you were 13, she suggested a haircut that was becoming. You thanked her by telling her she had no taste.

When you were 14, she paid for a month away at summer camp. You thanked her by forgetting to write a single letter.

When you were 15, she came home from work, looking for a hug. You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16, she taught you how to drive her car. You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17, she was expecting an important call. You thanked her by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18, she cried at your high school graduation. You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19, she paid for your college tuition, drove you to campus carried your bags. You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in front of your friends.

When you were 20, she asked whether you were seeing anyone. You thanked her by saying, "It's none of your business."

When you were 21, she suggested certain careers for your future. You thanked her by saying, "I don't want to be like you."

When you were 22, she hugged you at your college graduation. You thanked her by asking whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.

When you were 23, she gave you furniture for your first apartment. You thanked her by telling your friends it was ugly.

When you were 24, she met your fiance and asked about your plans for the future. You thanked her by glaring and growling, "Muuhh-ther, please!"

When you were 25, she helped to pay for your wedding, and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you. You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 30, she called with some advice on the baby. You thanked her by telling her, "Things are different now."

When you were 40, she called to remind you of a relative's birthday. You thanked her by saying you were "really busy right now."

When you were 50, she fell ill and needed you to take care of her. You thanked her by reading about the burden parents become to their children.

And then, one day, she quietly died. And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on your YOUR HEART.

If you love your mom, repost this bulletin. Don't take advantage of her

*laughs hysterically* now be honest ppl...


IF YOU HAD ME ALONE LOCKED UP IN YOUR ROOM...WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH ME? TELL ME IN A MESSAGE,[ THEN REPOST THIS ],YOU MIGHT BE SUPRISED IN THE RESPONSES YOU'LL GET, THEY COULD MAKE YOU LAUGH OR EVEN SMILE ;P

Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way. The only reason someone would hate you is because they want to be just like you.There are at least 2 people in this world that would die for you. You mean the world to someone.Someone that you dont even know exists loves you.When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. When you think the world has turned its back on you , take a look again. Always remember the compliments you received and forget the rude remarks

hey if you want you can fill this out and send it to me^_^ i like getting messages from ppl


1. Name:

2. Age:

3. Fave Color:

4. Fave Movie:

5. Fave Song:

6. Fave Band:

7. Most Embarassing Moment:

8. Are you a virgin?

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Are we friends?

2. Do you have a crush on me?

3. Would you kiss me?

4. ...with tongue?

5. Would you enjoy it?

6. Would you ever want me 2 ask you out?

7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?

9. How would you rate me on a 1-10 scale?

9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?

10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?

11.Would you walk on the beach with me?

12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?

13. Do you/have you talk shit about me?

14. Do you think I'm a good person?

15. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)?

16. Would u take a shower w/ me?

17.Do you think I'm hot?

18. If you could change anything about me -would you?

19. How far would u go with me on a first date?

20.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

21. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

22) Do you think im easy?

23) Do you think im smart?

24) Will you repost this to see what others think about u?

Either grab a writing utensil and something to write on, or just remember your anwers.

Apparently this is 99.9% TRUE

Don't peak at the answers, cause it ruins it.

Have fun.













1) Write the name of a person of the opposite
sex.





















2) Which is your favorite color out of red,
black, blue, green, yellow?




























3) Your first initial?



























4) Your month of birth?



























5) Which color do you like more, black or white?
































6) Name of a person of the same sex as yours.
































7) Your favorite number?









































8) Do you like California or Florida more?
















































9) Do you like the lake or the ocean more?











































10) Write down a wish. (A realistic one).


ARE Y0U D0NE?
iF S0 SCR0LL D0WN.
(D0N'T CHEAT... iM WATCHiNG Y0U...)
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THE ANSWERS

1. You are completely in love with this person.

2. If you choose:

Red - You are alert and your life is full of
love.

Black - You are conservative and aggressive.

Green - Your soul is relaxed and you are laid
back.

Blue - You are spontaneous and love kisses
and affection from the ones you love.

Yellow- you are a very happy person and give
good advice to those who are down.


3. If your initial is:

A-K You have a lot of love and friendships in
your life.

L-R You try to enjoy your life to the maximum
and your love life is
soon to blossom.

S-Z You like to help others and your future love
life looks very good.


4. If you were born in:

Jan-Mar: The year will go very well for you and
you will discover that you fall in love with
someone totally unexpected.

April-June: You will have a strong love
relationship that will not last long but the
memories will last forever.

July-Sep: You will have a great year and will
experience a major life changing experience for
the good.

Oct-Dec: Your love life will not be too great,
but eventually you will find your soul mate.

5. If you chose...

Black: Your life will take on a different
direction, it will seem hard at the time but
will be the best thing for you, and you will
be glad for the change.

White: You will have a friend who completely
confides in you and would do anything for you,
but you may not realize it.


6. This person is your best friend.

7. This is how many close friends you have in
your lifetime.

8. If you chose:
California: You like adventure.
Florida: You are a laid back person.

9. If you chose:

Lake: You are loyal to your friends and to your
love. And you are very reserved.

Ocean: You are spontaneous and like to please
people.

10. This wish will come true only if you RE-POST THIS BULLETIN
in one hour and it will come true before your next birthday

racist mothers fuckers beware

A black man walks into a cafe one early morning and noticed that
he was the only black man there. As he sat down, he noticed a
white man behind him. The white man said, "Colored people are not allowed here."

The black man turned around and stood up. He then said:

"When I was born I was black,"

"When I grew up I was black,"

"When I'm sick I'm black,"

"When I go in the sun I'm black,"

"When I'm cold I'm black,"

"When I die I'll be black."

"But you sir..."



"When you're born you're pink,"

"When you grow up you're white,"

"When you're sick, you're green,"

"When you go in the sun you turn red,"

"When you're cold you turn blue,"

"And when you die you turn purple."

"And you have the nerve to call me colored?"

The black man then sat back down and the white man walked away...

Pass it on if you dislike racism or any form of ignorance

Babble babble bitch bitch
Rebel rebel party party
Sex sex sex and don't forget the "violence"
Blah blah blah got your lovey-dovey sad-and-lonely

fuck yea ppl guess what song this is and whos it by.................................................................................................................. yes this is how bored i am(-_-)