my new attempt at song writing::

I'm taking it off
I'm shedding it away
I'm leaving you behind

in today's atmosphere
it's hard to see clear
but my x-ray is on,
soon I'll be gone
and I can forget about you

It seems so easy
the thought that it's over
moving on, youre gone
it's over
It seems so simple
the thought that I walk out
and you're broken, in pieces,
screaming my name,
calling me back,
but I keep walking away,
walking as far as I can
hiding from you

Wishing this was possible

aannd thats all i got for now, finish this later :p

a fun song i wrooottteee :)

Im Running

Well the boys are outside, throwin the ball
all the girls are anxious to get to the mall
and I'm hiding, packing my bags
I'm hiding, waiting to get out

Conformity has got its hands on me

I'm running, gotta get away
I'm running, make my escape
I'm running, don't even try to catch up

Wastin' my time with confused little boys
they're just as good as playing with toys
and I'm screaming, sptting out my lungs
I'm screaming, having too much fun

Conformity has got its hands on me
Conformity has got its hands on me

I'm running, gotta get away
I'm running, make my escape
I'm running, don't even try to catch up

You might as well let me go
I'd be out of this town
You might as well, let all your love show
We'd be free from this pa-thet-ic town

Conformity has got its hands on me
Conformity has got its hands on me
Conformity has got its hands on me

I'm running, gotta get away
I'm running, make my escape
I'm running, don't even try to catch up
I'm running, gotta get away
I'm running, make my escape
I'm running, don't even try to catch up
I'm running, gotta get away
I'm running, make my escape
I'm running, don't even try to catch up

i just dont get it, all year from end of 9th, all of 10th and begining of 11th, we were best friends...and now she treats me like im a backup friend, like the guys are more important than me, and that i really dont matter in life....whatever, i miss it, but what can i do.....

....damn you adam

elL whY enN: are you even excited to come home?
JonesGlnn: a little just to visit and work
elL whY enN: :-(
JonesGlnn: i feel like college is home now though
JonesGlnn: anyways, je dois aller
elL whY enN: :-\bye

clicks=uncool


retreat=lame


adam=......

here we go...

what should i start with first?
this is all my honesty people so hopefully if you're wondering how i feel about you...here we go

RJ....august tells me you were wondering why im sooo mad at you....well lets see...maybe its because we went from just becoming really close, to not talking, i mean, like, when the boys left, you and me kinda stuck together, and became really close...and just when we were getting closer, and i set you up with august, it was gone, you stopped talking to me as much, and everytime i would come to you with a problem, all you had to say was "ok"...nothing more...i miss being close, and it hurts that you just completely ignored our friendship for a girl, i love august to death, she's one of my best friends, but i never ignored my friends when i was dating adam, and i hoped he didn't ignore his...i'm very tired and worn out from thinking about this every night....i want my "brother" back...i miss him alot, i miss talking to you....

anyways moving on

mum-hahaha everyone knows this one

adam-{see lyrics: Piece Of My Heart by Janis Joplin}
that will explain how i feel

august and kara-you all know that feeling too

anne and gates-<3<3<3my true best friends

dad-enjoys putting pressure on me -_-

......and thats all for right now -_-_-_-;_;_;_;_;

elL whY enN: are you happy with her
Da Gun Show MC: yes


...

Stephanie Nicole Glavin

Happy 18th Birthday....we're all singing for you down here, and I know there's a big celebration in Heaven :)

RIP

i didn't completely avoid you, you just never approached me and i didn't want to get into it with all those people there



why wouldn't he want to go to homecomming his senior yeeaaarrr???...

i knew i shoulda stayed away from republicans...

i didn't completely avoid you, you just never approached me and i didn't want to get into it with all those people there



why wouldn't he want to go to homecomming his senior yeeaaarrr???...

i knew i shoulda stayed away from republicans...

people are shallow....very shallow

damnit

nick clark...i hate you

sillyAug62: such great heights IN MY PANTS!
elL whY enN: wonderful tonight in my pants
elL whY enN: slide in my pants
sillyAug62: dirty little secrets IN MY PANTS
elL whY enN: where is the love in my pants
elL whY enN: clocks in my pants
elL whY enN: wonderful tonight in my pants
elL whY enN: slide in my pants
elL whY enN: black balloon in my pants
elL whY enN: jack and diane in my pants
elL whY enN: dont stop beleiving in my pants
elL whY enN: free bird in my pants
elL whY enN: send me on my way in my pants
elL whY enN: free falling in my pants
elL whY enN: a thousand miles in my pants
elL whY enN: who are you in my pants
elL whY enN: baba o'riley in my pants
elL whY enN: pinball wizzard in my pants
elL whY enN: Come Fly With Me in my pants
sillyAug62: I caught fire in my pants
sillyAug62: feel good inc in my pants
sillyAug62: sugar we're going down in my pants
sillyAug62: be my escape in my pants
sillyAug62: an honest mistake in my pants
elL whY enN: Do somethin in my pants
sillyAug62: holiday in my pants
sillyAug62: you and me in my pants
elL whY enN: safety dance in my pants
elL whY enN: just what i needed in my pants!
sillyAug62: fix you in my pants
elL whY enN: lets talk about sex in my pants
elL whY enN: push it in my pants
sillyAug62: grind with me in my pants
elL whY enN: PIMP JUICE in my pants
sillyAug62: hands down in my pants!
elL whY enN: breath in my pants
elL whY enN: cool in my pants
elL whY enN: simple man in my pants
elL whY enN: am i missing in my pants
sillyAug62: over and out in my pants
elL whY enN: daylight in my pants
sillyAug62: girl in my pants
elL whY enN: God put a smile upon your face in my pants
sillyAug62: the deepest blues are black in my pants
elL whY enN: Pay The Man in my pants
sillyAug62: jingle jangle in my pants
elL whY enN: fight for your rights in my pants
elL whY enN: pieces of me in mypants
sillyAug62: rape me in my pants
elL whY enN: better off in my pants
elL whY enN: unreachable in my pants
sillyAug62: milk it in my pants
elL whY enN: MILKSHAKE IN MY PANTS!!!!!
elL whY enN: undiscovered in my pants
elL whY enN: fame in my pants
elL whY enN: rebel rebel in my pants
elL whY enN: under pressure in my pants
elL whY enN: lets dance in my pants
sillyAug62: daddys little defect in my pants
elL whY enN: feeling this in my pants
sillyAug62: just a kid in my pants!!
elL whY enN: I miss you in my pants
elL whY enN: DOWN in my pants!!!!!!
elL whY enN: Go in my pants
elL whY enN: all of this in my pants
elL whY enN: im lost without you in my pants
sillyAug62: crazy in my pants
sillyAug62: the girl all the bad guys want in my pants
sillyAug62: yellow submarine in my pants
elL whY enN: Nice n Easy in my pants
sillyAug62: everything is alright in my pants
elL whY enN: 69 tea in my pants
sillyAug62: parting gift in my pants
elL whY enN: dizzy in my pants
elL whY enN: hands up in my pants
sillyAug62: larger than life in my pants
sillyAug62: don't cha wanna ride in my pants!
elL whY enN: Bounce, Hop, Drop in my pants
elL whY enN: CLINT EASTWOOD IN MY PANTS!!!
elL whY enN: an american girl in my pants
sillyAug62: buddy holly in my pants
sillyAug62: barbie girl in my pants
elL whY enN: im not a girl, not yet a woman in my pants
elL whY enN: OOPS i did it again in my pants
sillyAug62: ass like that in my pants
elL whY enN: somebody told me in my pants
elL whY enN: all these things that ive done in my pants
sillyAug62: mr. brightside in my pants
elL whY enN: with you in my pants
elL whY enN: one step closer in my pants
sillyAug62: i should have cheated in my pants
elL whY enN: minority in my pants
sillyAug62: Don't trip in my pants
elL whY enN: girl's in my pants
elL whY enN: drop it like its hot in my pants
sillyAug62: thank you billy graham in my pants
elL whY enN: underneath your clothes in my pants
elL whY enN: overprotected in my pants
sillyAug62: when you sleep in my pants
elL whY enN: barenaked in my pants
elL whY enN: nothin' in my pants
sillyAug62: wake up in my pants
elL whY enN: hot in here in my pants
elL whY enN: feel it boy in my pants
elL whY enN: ordinary day in my pants
sillyAug62: be my escape in my pants
elL whY enN: Hands In My Pants
elL whY enN: first date in my pants
elL whY enN: jeremy in my pants
sillyAug62: all that i've got in my pants
elL whY enN: CANT TOUCH THIS IN MY PANTS!!!!!
sillyAug62: numb in my pants!
sillyAug62: swing life away in my pants
elL whY enN: i still havent found what im looking for in my pants
elL whY enN: pride in my pants
elL whY enN: i need a lover in my pants
sillyAug62: sooner or later in my pants
elL whY enN: hurts so good in my pants
sillyAug62: basket case in my pants
elL whY enN: your wildest dreams in my pants
elL whY enN: the voice in my pants
sillyAug62: i'm not okay ( i promise) in my pants
sillyAug62: going under in my pants
elL whY enN: needles in my pants
sillyAug62: so cold in my pants
sillyAug62: one step closer in my pants
sillyAug62: all the small things in my pants


we are amazing...and very bored people

went for a walk with jamie last night, somehow ended up in the indian villiage...hmm oh well lol...uhh thats about the highlight of my night last night

and again i sit here and listen to emo like a crazy loon

God I miss him...and i thought i'd be able to move on...but i cant

i cant damnit...

scratch that

anne thanks for being there and not excluding me nor forgetting about me

i feel like such a joke to my friends

anne and gates-thanks for not making me feel left out all the time and like a moron =)

JoradTheDevourer: have you heard the song "dont stop believin" by journey
JoradTheDevourer: i heard it on the radio today
elL whY enN: oh my
elL whY enN: how could i have not?!?!?!
JoradTheDevourer: sounded like something youd like
elL whY enN: EVERYONE LIKES JOURNEY!!!!!!!!
elL whY enN: *sings with high pitched voice*
elL whY enN: just a small town girl
elL whY enN: livin in a lonely world
elL whY enN: took the midnight train goin annyywwhheerrreee
JoradTheDevourer: she took the midnight train
elL whY enN: just a city boy
JoradTheDevourer: damn you beat me
elL whY enN: born and raised in south detroit
elL whY enN: he took the midnight train
elL whY enN: goin annnyywwwhhheeerrreee
elL whY enN: *guitar solo*
elL whY enN: singer in a smokey room
elL whY enN: the smell of whine and cheap perfume
elL whY enN: for a smile they can share the night
elL whY enN: it goes
elL whY enN: on and on and on and on
JoradTheDevourer: yes i can see you know it
elL whY enN: lol


ahhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well DUH i know it EVERYONE DOES!!

CapGinyu67: must be like how mike likes skinny girls and i like girls with curves and love handles.

...well maybe i shouldt like mike anymore

elL whY enN: why do you think i liked you for so long
elL whY enN: lol
sploga123: lol
sploga123: you shoulda told me
sploga123: i kinda liked you too at the beginning of 9th
elL whY enN: really?
sploga123: yes
elL whY enN: damnit
sploga123: i was just affraid
elL whY enN: *smacks head*
sploga123: lol
elL whY enN: i liked you from 8th grade to like..middle of 10th!!!!
sploga123: lol
sploga123: for me end of 8th beginning of 9th
elL whY enN: im mad now
elL whY enN: lol
sploga123: lol
elL whY enN: aww
sploga123: hey just letting you know if i wasnt madly in love with dani i would go for you
elL whY enN: i told you when it was too late
elL whY enN: haha thanks cory lol
sploga123: lol
sploga123: yea i was too affraid to ask you

lol ITS NOT FAIR...i liked him since 8th grade and watched him go from girl to girl while i was "the best friend" grrrrrr

oh well..

JonesGlnn: what's on your mind?
elL whY enN: what isnt on my mind
JonesGlnn: well?
JonesGlnn: what isn't?
elL whY enN: pizza
JonesGlnn: anything else?
elL whY enN: animals?
JonesGlnn: what are you thinking?
elL whY enN: how much i need to get out of pittsburgh
elL whY enN: and away from everyone i know here
JonesGlnn: is it that bad?
elL whY enN: more or less
JonesGlnn: i'm sorry, i miss home from time to time,
elL whY enN: are you comming home next summer or staying there?
JonesGlnn: yeah i'll be coming home
elL whY enN: because if you're staying i think adam anne and maybe someone else and i are going to come down visit you then we;ll all go to the beach
JonesGlnn: get my license, get a car
elL whY enN: aw yay
elL whY enN: wlel nevermind the beach
JonesGlnn: and then i won't be coming back
elL whY enN: wait what
JonesGlnn: next summer i'll be at home to get a driver's license, and a car,
JonesGlnn: i'll go back to school in the fall
JonesGlnn: and stay down here
elL whY enN: what about holidays?
JonesGlnn: this college has a habit of its alumni not leaving town
JonesGlnn: i can't say i blame it
JonesGlnn: the city is amazing
JonesGlnn: it's got the highest gay population on the east coast
elL whY enN: what about holidays
JonesGlnn: i dunno
JonesGlnn: maybe christmas
elL whY enN: :-\
JonesGlnn: britt, if you were here, you'd never want to leave either
elL whY enN: nevermind
elL whY enN: well i hope you like it there
JonesGlnn: i do, you should come here for school, at least visit

......wow am i not happy..... -_-

so last night really wasnt that bad...

i think i got a big crush on mike though

=[ eek lol *blushes*