Yup I spent most of the day cleaning the oven and the kitchen; I haven’t seen my nephew in 4 days and miss him ALOT. I’m tired, and sad, and stressed about black Friday, and I’m really not looking forward to cooking on thanksgiving. Why don’t men cook or bake? I hate that they think themselves too superior for that kind of thing. If you’re a man and you think a woman should be the one cooking… Then I hate you.

I miss my nephew.
I miss my sister.
And my nails look like shit thanks to cleaning the oven.
Hmph!

I saw him today. I wasn’t even expecting to see him but I did. I would’ve cried if my dad wasn’t right beside me driving. He still takes my breath away. It doesn’t even hurt anymore. It just makes me angry. I lashed out at my dad for no reason. I wanted to yell and scream and kick things. I wanted to crumple into a little ball and cry. No matter what I did to get him off my mind I just couldn’t. The feeling just consumed me. And now I’m here sitting alone in my room crying. The only thing going through my head is the words that he once said about us. “We could’ve had a life together if not for your brother.”