[American Revolutionary]'s diary

1158617  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2013-03-23
Written: (4059 days ago)

Why is it i give my heart to someone thinking i can trust them they take my trust and shove it into my back like a fuckin dagger?someone explain that....


1150975  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-05-29
Written: (4357 days ago)

I never thought that this is where I'd settle down
I thought I'd die an old man back in my hometown
They gave me this plot of land
Me and some other men
For a job well done

There's a big white house, sits on a hill, just up the road
The man inside, he cried the day they brought me home
They folded up a flag
And told my mom and dad
"We're proud of your son"

And I'm proud to be on this peaceful piece of property
I'm on sacred ground, and I'm in the best of company
I'm thankful for those thankful for the things I've done
I can rest in peace, I'm one of the chosen ones
I made it to Arlington

I remember Daddy brought me here when I was eight
We searched all day to find out where my granddad lay
When we finally found that cross
He said "Son, this is what it costs
To keep us free"

Now here I am, a thousand stones away from him
He recognized me on the first day I came in
And it gave me a chill
When he clicked his heels
And saluted me

And I'm proud to be on this peaceful piece of property
I'm on sacred ground, and I'm in the best of company
And I'm thankful for those thankful for the things I've done
I can rest in peace, I'm one of the chosen ones
I made it to Arlington

And every time I hear twenty-one guns
I know they brought another hero home to us

We're thankful for those thankful for the things we've done
We can rest in peace, 'cause we are the chosen ones
We made it to Arlington

Yeah, dust to dust
Don't cry for us
We made it to Arlington

1149584  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2012-04-14
Written: (4402 days ago)

HANOI, Vietnam (AP) — Vietnamese businessman Pham Dinh Nguyen flew to the U.S. for the first time, drove to a tiny, frigid trading outpost and bought his own piece of the American dream: Buford, Wyoming — population 1.

Nguyen's name was not released last week when he won the auction for Buford — billed as the nation's smallest town — but he has since drawn attention in Vietnamese media and on social networks. Many are lauding him for showing the world that Vietnam has moved far beyond war and poverty.

Nguyen, who bid $900,000 for Buford, runs a trade and distribution company in southern Ho Chi Minh City. He said that although he is not exactly sure what he will do with the town just off Interstate 80, he expects to use it to sell items made in Vietnam.

"Frankly, I just see Buford as part of the United States: A large and potential market for Vietnamese goods," Nguyen told state-controlled media. "Buford is likely to be the showroom for such goods."

Nguyen, 38, has been quoted widely by local media since the April 5 sale, but he did not respond to emailed requests for comment from The Associated Press or return phone messages left with his company, International Distribution Services. An employee confirmed that Nguyen bought the town.

His purchase impressed many Vietnamese. Businessman Tran Thanh Tung said Friday in Hanoi that he was "surprised, but also proud."

It's "something that one could not imagine few years ago," he said.

Buford consists of a gas station and convenience store, a 1905 schoolhouse, a cabin, a garage and a three-bedroom house on 10 acres between Cheyenne and Laramie.

The town was formed as the Transcontinental Railroad was built in the 1860s. Up to 2,000 people lived there before the railroad was rerouted. Now, it's more of a stop off the busy interstate for passers-by eager to get a snapshot with the green road sign that reads "Buford, Pop 1."

The remote property is 8,000 feet above sea level, and Nguyen said that when he visited this month on his first trip to the U.S. that, "waves of skin-cutting cold blew into my face."

"However, I was undeterred because of the desire to own this town," he said.

Nguyen put down $100,000 and will have 30 days to complete the purchase. He says family members in the U.S. are helping to finance the investment, which will help overcome barriers faced back home.

Vietnam is a communist country with strict laws and a maze of red tape — foreigners, for instance, are forbidden from owning property here — and any land bought outside the country requires government approval and a license to transfer money abroad.

Not everyone in Vietnam thinks Buford is a smart buy.

Hanoi student Nguyen Hoang said it was "nonsense to invest such a large amount of money to buy a town in the middle of nowhere."

"It would make more sense if he invested the money in Vietnam to create jobs for his countrymen," he said.

The town was sold by Don Sammons, the self-proclaimed "mayor" who owned it for the past two decades and was its sole inhabitant. He now plans to retire and write a book about his life there.

Sammons served a tour in Vietnam from 1968-69 as a U.S. Army radio operator, and said at the time of the sale that his life has come full circle.

Nguyen is from the city formerly known as Saigon, the U.S.-backed capital of South Vietnam that fell to the northern communists in 1975, ending the Vietnam War. Some 58,000 Americans died, along with an estimated 3 million Vietnamese.

But much has changed in Vietnam since the days of bombs and jungle guerrilla fighting. It has attracted many American businesses and emerged as one of the fastest-growing countries in Asia, with people who once went hungry grabbing onto every opportunity available. Even in small-town America.

"To be honest, I do not have a specific plan for the town," Nguyen said. "But I think we Vietnamese should not feel inferior. Nothing is impossible!"

1149582  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2012-04-14
Written: (4402 days ago)

I am the waiting one it seems
Days grow somber quickly
Now how the quiet is release
And I feel so lonely

How did you think I would feel
Throw me aside again
How did you think I would feel
I won't let you hurt me again

Now I'm nothing to you I can't see
Just walk away from me
I'm torn apart I can't believe
You'd stand and watch me bleed

She was the one thing I believed
That I needed to hold me
Still I can smell her hear her breath
Feel her body beside me

How long I've waited, waited for you
To come back to hold me
What should I do
When I feel so lonely

How could you do this to me
Betrayed by my closest friend
How could you do this to me
I won't let you hurt me again

Now I'm nothing to you I can see
Just walk away from me
I'm torn apart I can't believe
You'd stand and watch me bleed

What should I do?
Oh how long I have waited
What can I do
When I feel so lonely

How did you think I would feel
You throw me aside again
How did you think I would feel
I won't let you hurt me again

Now I'm nothing to you I can see
Just walk away from me
I'm torn apart I can't believe
You'd stand and watch me bleed

How could you do this to me
Betrayed by my closest friend
How could you do this to me
I won't let you hurt me again

1149497  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2012-04-11
Written: (4404 days ago)

hes just your regular everyday guy
nothing special to him at all
he has faults
like every one of us
that makes us human
no one is perfect
he has one reason to fight
one reason to live
when he sleeps, he hears gunfire
in his dreams
he sees scenes that play over and over
loss of friends
brothers
family
he looks in the mirror and sees who he used to be
a murderer
killer
life-stealer
he hits the mirror, shattering it
fragments falling like empty shell casings
clinking
clattering
falling
his girl comes in, re assures him hes ok
his memories haunt him

1149412  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2012-04-09
Written: (4406 days ago)

There used to be a graying tower alone on the sea.
You became the light on the dark side of me.
Love remained a drug that's the high and not the pill.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and
The light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh,
The more I get of you,
The stranger it feels, yeah.
And now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain,
My power, my pleasure, my pain, baby
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny.
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby?
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom.
A light hits the gloom on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
I've been kissed by a rose
I've been kissed by a rose on the gray,
...And if I should fall along the way
I've been kissed by a rose
...been kissed by a rose on the gray.
There is so much a man can tell you,
So much he can say.
You remain
My power, my pleasure, my pain.
To me you're like a growing addiction that I can't deny, yeah
Won't you tell me is that healthy, baby.
But did you know,
That when it snows,
My eyes become large and the light that you shine can be seen.
Baby,
I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray.
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray.
Yes I compare you to a kiss from a rose on the gray
Ooh, the more I get of you
The stranger it feels, yeah
And now that your rose is in bloom
A light hits the gloom on the gray
Now that your rose is in bloom,
A light hits the gloom on the gray

1148460  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-03-06
Written: (4441 days ago)

be still my beating, shattered heart
be calm my useless breaths
take everything and turn it around
this i must confess
the wall that secludes me from the world
the hammer that strikes hot steel
goes cold with time

1147864  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2012-02-19
Written: (4457 days ago)

<b/> this song is for anyone who is my enemy<b/>

I don't need your forgiveness
I don't need your hate
I don't need your acceptance
So what should I do
I don't need your resistance
I don't need your prayers
I don't need your religion
I don't need a thing from you

I don't do what I've been told
Your so lame why don't you

Just go
Die mother fucker die mother fucker die

I don't need your prison
I don't need your pain
I don't need your decision
So what should I do
I don't need your approval
I don't need your hope
I don't need your lectures
I don't need a thing from you

I'll be sorry when I'm old
You're so full of shit man

Just go
Die mother fucker die mother fucker die

Boom

I don't need your forgiveness
I don't need your hate
I don't need your acceptance
So what should I do

I'll be sorry so you've said
I'm not sorry
Bang You're Dead

Die mother fucker die mother fucker die

Die

1147832  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2012-02-17
Written: (4458 days ago)

Pirates: Shiver my timbers, shiver my soul
Yo oh heave ho
There are men whose hearts as as black as coal
Yo oh heave ho

Inkspots: And they sailed their ship cross the ocean blue
A blood-thirsty captain and a cut-throat crew
Alligators: It's as dark a tale as was ever told
Of the lust for treasure and the love of gold

Pirates: Shiver my timbers, shiver my sides
Yo oh heave ho
There are hungers as strong as the wind and tides
Yo oh heave ho

Possums: And those buccaneers drowned their sins in rum
Monkey: The devil himself would have to call them scum
Crabs: Every man aboard would have killed his mate
For a bag of guineas or a piece of eight
Alligators: A piece of eight
Octopus: A piece of eight
Mosquitos: Five, six, seven, eight

Stone Faces: Hulla wacka ulla wacka something not right
Many wicked icky things gonna happen tonight
Hulla wacka ulla wacka sailor man beware
Crabs: When de money in the ground dere's murder in de air
Totems: Murder in de air
Stone Faces: One more time now

Pirates: Shiver my timbers, shiver my bones
Yo oh heave ho
There are secrets that sleep with old Davy Jones
Yo oh heave ho

Snakes: When the mainsail's set and the anchor's weighed
There's no turning back from any course that's laid
Skulls: And when greed and villainy sail the sea
You can bet your boots there'll be treachery

Pirates: Shiver my timbers, shiver my sails
Dead men tell no tales

1147239  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2012-02-02
Written: (4473 days ago)
Next in thread: 1147259

a part of me has died today, my former love [Fallen Child Athena] committ suicide, and its my fault..i wish to god it was me that died, not her, she didnt deserve it..it was my fuck up....i screwed up..oh god...i need help, im losing my mind my chest hurts, i cant eat, i cant sleep, i...it hurts to breathe..i feel like im suffocating...i..i...please anyone....im begging anyone please....i cant take it anymore...i caused her to die..how can i live with that? her blood is on my hands....i am a murderer....a cold blooded murderer..i want to die...god take me..please..i beg you.....i...i.....oh god....

1147225  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2012-02-02
Written: (4473 days ago)

i got my shirt in the mail ^^ im wearing it now, ill soon put up pics of how it looks

1147150  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (4476 days ago)

Conversion, software version 7.0,
Looking at life through the eyes of a tire hub,
Eating seeds is a pastime activity,
The toxicity of our city, of our city,

no, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder, disorder,
Now, somewhere between the sacred silence,
Sacred silence and sleep,
Somewhere, between the sacred silence and sleep,
Disorder, disorder, disorder.

More wood for their fires, loud neighbors,
Flashlight reveries caught in the headlights of a truck,
Eating seeds is a pastime activity,
The toxicity of our city, of our city,

no, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder, disorder,
Now, somewhere between the sacred silence,
Sacred silence and sleep,
Somewhere, between the sacred silence and sleep,
Disorder, disorder, disorder.

You, what do you own the world?
How do you own disorder-er-er-er
Now, somewhere between the sacred silence,
Sacred silence and sleep,
Somewhere, between the sacred silence and sleep,
Disorder, disorder, disorder.

When I became the Son,
I shone life into the man's hearts,
When I became the Son,
I shone life into the man's hearts.

1147149  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (4476 days ago)

Born to push you around,
Better just stay down
You pull away
He hits the flesh
You hit the ground
Mouth so full of lies
Tend to block your eyes
Just keep them closed
Keep praying
Just keep waiting

Waiting for the one
The day that never comes
When you stand up and feel the warmth
but the sunshine never comes
No the sunshine never comes

Push across that line
Just stay down this time
Hide in your cell
Crawl in your shell
You'll have your time
God'll make them pay
Take it back one day
I'll end this day
I'll splatter color on this gray

Waiting for the one
The day that never comes
When you stand up and feel the warmth
but the sunshine never comes

Love is a four letter word
And never spoken here
Love is a four letter word
Here in this prison
I suffer this no longer
I put it into
This I swear!
This I swear!
The sun will shine
This I swear!
This I swear!
This I swear!

1147148  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (4476 days ago)

Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane
But the memory remains

Heavy rings on fingers wave
Another star denies their grave
See the nowhere crowd
Cry the nowhere tears of honor

Like twisted vines that grow
That hide and swallow mansions whole
And dim the light of an already
Faded prima donna

Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
But the memory remains

Heavy rings hold cigarettes
Up to lips that time forgets
While the Hollywood sun sets
Behind your back

And can't the band play on?
Just listen, they play my song
Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black

Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Dance little tin goddess

Nananananana nananada nananananana nanananadana
Nananananana nananada nananananana nanananadana

Drift away
Fade away
Little tin goddess

Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black

Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
Fortune, fame
Mirror vain
Gone insane...
But the memory remains

Ash to ash
Dust to dust
Fade to black...
The memory remains
Faded prima donna

Ah, suck it!

Dance little tin goddess dance

Nananananana nananada nanananana nanananadana
Nananananana nananada nanananana nanananadana
Nanana...say yes...nananana nanana...at least say hello...nananana
Nanana...say yes...nananana nanana...at least say hello...nananana
Nana nana

say yes, at least say hello
say yes, at least say hello

1147147  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (4476 days ago)

SLEEP AND DREAM OF THIS
DEATH ANGEL'S KISS
BRINGS FINAL BLISS
COMPLETELY
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, WON'T YOU LET ME STAY?
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, HEAR ME CALL YOUR NAME,
CALL YOUR NAME... SUICIDE
I'VE ALREADY DEID.
YOU'RE JUST THE FUNERAL
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR... CYANIDE
LIVING DEAD INSIDE
BREAK THIS EMPTY SHELL FOREVERMORE.
WAIT, WAIT PATIENTLY
YOUR DEATH BLACK WINGS
UNFOLDING SLEEP
SPREADING O'ER ME
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, WON'T YOU LET ME STAY?
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, HEAR ME CALL YOUR NAME
CALL YOUR NAME... SUICIDE
I'VE ALREADY DEID.
YOU'RE JUST THE FUNERAL
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR... CYANIDE
LIVING DEAD INSIDE
BREAK THIS EMPTY SHELL FOREVERMORE.
SAY, IS THAT RAIN OR ARE THEY TEARS
THAT'S STAINED YOUR CONCRETE
FACE FOR YEARS?
THE CRYING, WEEPING, SHEDDING STRIFE
YEAR AFTER YEAR, LIFE AFTER LIFE.
AN AIR OF FRESHLY BROKEN GROUND.
A CONCRETE ANGEL LIT RIGHT DOWN
UPON THE GRAVE WHICH SWALLOWS FAST
IT'S PEACE AT LAST, OH PEACE AT LAST!
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, WO'NT YOU LET ME STAY?
EMPTY THEY SAY,
DEATH, HEAR ME CALL YOUR NAME,
CALL YOUR NAME... SUICIDE
I'VE ALREADY DEID.
YOU'RE JUST THE FUNERAL
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR... CYANIDE
LIVING DEAD INSIDE
BREAK THIS EMPTY SHELL FOREVERMORE.
FOREVER MORE. [AND END THIS WAR]
FOREVER MORE. [AND END THIS WAR]
IT'S JUST THE FUNERAL I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR

1147146  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (4476 days ago)

You just stood there screaming
Fearing no one was listening to you
They say the empty can rattles the most
The sound of your own voice must soothe you
Hearing only what you want to hear
And knowing only what you've heard
You, you're smothered in tragedy
And you're out to save the world

Misery
You insist that the weight of the world
Should be on your shoulders
Misery
There's much more to life than what you see
My friend of misery

You still stood there screaming
No one caring about these words you tell
My friend, before your voice is gone
One man's fun is another's hell
These times are sent to try men's souls
But something's wrong with all you see
You, you'll take it on all yourself
Remember, misery loves company

Misery
You insist that the weight of the world
Should be on your shoulders
Misery
There's much more to life than what you see
My friend of misery

You just stood there screaming
My friend of misery

1147145  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (4476 days ago)

Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I wanna hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's opened if you're true
If you can understand the me, then I can understand the you

Lay beside me, under wicked sky
Through black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of lives
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining

[chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

Yeah
What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there

[chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you?

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

[solo]

Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes, now I see it

[chorus]
What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

What I've felt, what I've known
So sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, cause I'm the one who waits
The one who waits for you


Oh, what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, just turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

(Background) So I dub thee Unforgiven.

Oh, what I've felt
Oh, what I've known

I take this key (never free)
And I bury it (never me) in you
Because you're unforgiven too!

Never free
Never me
Because you're unforgiven too..
Oo-Oh-Oo

1147144  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (4476 days ago)

Outta my way
Outta my day
Out of your mind and into mine
Into no one
Into not one
Into your step but out of time

Headstrong
What's wrong?
I've already heard this song before
you've arrived
But now it's time
To kiss your ass good-bye

Dragging me down
Why you around?
So useless

It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch

It ain't my bitch

Down on the sun
Down and no fun
Down and out where the hell ya been?
Damn it all down
Damn it unbound
Damn it all down to hell again

Stand tall
Can't fall
Never even bend at all before
you've arrived
But now it's time
To kiss your ass good-bye

Dragging me down
Why you around?
So useless

It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch

Outta my way

Outta my way
Outta my day
Out of your mind and into mine
Into no one
Into not one
Into your step but out of time

Headstrong
What's wrong?
I've already heard this song before
You've arrived
But now it's time
To kiss your ass good-bye
And now it's time to kiss your ass good-bye

Dragging me down
Why you around?
So useless

It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch

No way but down
Why you're around?
No foolin'

It ain't my smile
It ain't my style
It ain't my bitch

Oh, it ain't mine
Ain't mine
Your kind
Your stepin' out of time
Ain't mine
Your kind
Your stepin' out of time

Dragging me down
Why you around?
No foolin'

It ain't my fall
It ain't my call
It ain't my bitch
You ain't mine

1147142  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2012-01-31
Written: (4476 days ago)

what is love? when you realize youve hit the wall at the end of it all, a promise of forever is broken and the ground is forever unsteady, im not perfect, ive never been perfect, im not some straight edge person, ive seen and done things that i hate myself for, but youve kept me from hating myself, ive been there when you needed me, but now the tables have turned around, and the world i created with you is slowly coming undone, if you could see what the world looks like through my eyes youd understand, but the again life is tricky, i will never surrender

1147060  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2012-01-29
Written: (4478 days ago)

good news, my mom ordered the navy top for me, its a different one from the one on my page, but its the same style, my step dad wasnt too happy about it, he dont like me wearin military things, which i do, but oh well, i got it to wear it, he said if he catches me wearing it he is gonna burn it, oh well...

1147026  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2012-01-28
Written: (4479 days ago)

Little supernovas in my head
Little soft pulses in my dead
Little souvenirs and secrets shared
Little off guard and unprepared

I was never good enough to find
I was never bad enough to mind
In the middle I will do my best
Take me in your arms and leave the rest

I will give you anything to

Say you want to stay, you want me to
Say you'll never die, you'll always haunt me
I want to know I belong to you
Say you'll haunt me

Together, together we'll be together, together forever

Little variations on my page
Little doors open on my cage
Little time has come and gone so far
Little by little who you are

I can see the patterns on your face
I can see the miracles I trace
Symmetry in shadows I can't hide
I JUST WANT TO BE RIGHT BY YOUR SIDE

I will give you everything to

Say you want to stay you want me too
Say you'll never die, you'll always haunt me
I want to know I belong to you
Say you'll haunt me
[2Xero]

Together, together we'll be together, together forever
I BELONG TO YOU
[2Xero]

Little supernovas in my head
Little soft pulses in my dead
Little souvenirs and secrets shared
Little off guard and unprepared

I will give you anything to
I will give you everything to

Say you want to stay you want me too
Say you'll never die you'll always haunt me
I want to know I belong to you
Say you'll haunt me
[2Xero]

Together, together we'll be together, together forever
I BELONG TO YOU
[2Xero]

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