My Ruin - Terror
This is what you call me...
I strike terror among men
I can't be bothered with what I think
I bare my cross, my soul, myself
I forgive ... but I never forget
I've been put upon this earth in FEMALE form
But I can't handle myself with the best of you
as well as the worst
and I often have
I have the right to remain silent but I choose to speak, sing
scream
I am
LIPS, HIPS, TITS...
I AM THE POWER OF A WOMAN
STRONG like music
true like friendship
but without my friends there would be no music...
only spoken word
I am able to change
so I live without regret,
without remorse
Only a remix
I am drunk, I am sober.
Heaven doesn't want me and hells affraid I'll take over.
Don't bother trying to censor me, or shut me up
because it won't work.
I am cold and distant yet worm and
close to those who deserve to see that side of me part of me...
the heart of me.
You find me so hard to understand in your world, the world you percieve to be so normal
I am deformed...
scorned, reborn
I am me and I know exactly who I am,
what I am and the wrath
I bring the ugly beauty,
the lying truth,
the virgin whore...
the quiet storm
a lover, a fighter, a saint, a sinner, a sister, a daughter old school... a beginer.
I have decorated my self with love, hate, truth... you
all of you, both of you, none of you...
more than one of you with lips like sugar, eyes like meat.
I've watched men come, go and cheat
I sleep to dream and dream of sleep.
I had a dream Joe
that you were standing in the middle of an open road.
I had a dream Joe
that your hands were raised up to the sky and your mouth was covered in foam.
I've been crucified,
justified and mortified by my behaviour,
both feminine and masculine.
I am contradiction and a juxtapostion.
my relief is my release
and only time will tell all is well that ends well.
I am unsweetened, unclean...
being called drama queen,
ex-girlfriend,
ex-member...
the tantrum, the temper
I point my finger...
take the blame
and this time I will own the name
because nobody is going to ruin me,
if I have to I WILL RUIN
MY SELF AND IT WILL BE 'MY RUIN'!