So I think it is good to start writing a diary before I forget everything. I live from day to day, it does not matter what was yesterday, so apparently live angels. But what I then do? Sometimes I lose between what is actually real. I really do not understand what is happening to me and how to change it. I think maybe it's time to start from somewhere in anything again, be better and have lots of goals, which will make my life. Sometimes I feel that nothing is as it really seems to me that there is something in between all that I see. As if something is still eluded me, but I do not know what. Maybe I am not a normal person, who knows if ever man I am. Sometimes I think quite strongly that there is not my place that I belong somewhere else entirely.

Hm.... Winter.. perfect... cold..

Pahhy Christmas, but in my country isnt snow.

Happy and crazy HALLOWEEN!!!

Sory, but I dont know, why? I can killing everything in my life. I dont know, what i do, because I mean what I do is good. But I havent truth. Because everything is very fast for me. I nerev love real life, but I can live in.

Im fucking my last boy.....

My darling Pety die last weekend. I was sad, because she was my pet.

Emptyness...that is strange emptyness. My mind is anywhere. My facileness is begining resemble trivial people. I´d not such be. My sincerity is denounced, but I don´t like people, because i have the evil traits as others people too. That is slanders, the evil ideas and many other things who bound my mind. I look at today´s people with distance, because they do verdict from first sight, they are false. They never thing with heart. My feelings an my heart is too frozen as of others. I can love and through that I´d can see for be other. My soul bound my good character. Evil among people ingest me. Ingest my soul and I know I Don´t belong here. In eyes people is only false. That´s not any sincerity. and they can´t see the beautiful psychical world. All is too really for others people and they marvel only physical world. That is too bad. I hate people for evil that they extend. I´d get all of the evil traits and I´d throw they into toalet and wash it. The really world is too hard, but my world was perfect. I began live this reality, who every day inclose me. I can´t begin roar, to others realize their mistakes . Maybe I am only mistake of world or I am human who can rapir that mistake what is around him. Only thing, what is good to learn is reliability and never forget every evil can be remendy. Always I will pride that who I am and what I am. I will be opposite of the people thet I see every day. I am not God, I am only crazy who console himself with a big words, what always fail, but I can show exception to the rule.