The girl I asked out said no, so needless to say I am disapointed but life goes on. I guess I will have to find someone else.... Ah work in 90 degree wether... fun.

Well mostly I have been working and hanging out with the guys playing cards. Other than that I have ask some one out but I am still waiting on what their answer is. I am really hoping that she will say yes but anything can happen.

I have been thinking since my last entry. Mostly about how relationships work. While I was thinking I realized that one of the most important part of a relationship is communication and conversation. While Rose is a good friend of mine we seem not to have alot in common as far as small talk and general conversations go. I mean we talk but it is usually a couple of sentances and then a pause in the conversation for a few minutes until one of us comes up with some question that we know isn't going to lead anywhere and will result in the pause in conversation we had just experienced. Another thing is about communtaction. For a teenager living with her own parents and no car she sure is hard to get a hold of. Again while this session of thinking I stubled on another thing relationships need. To have a sucessful one you need to at least be able to catch them on their phone and talk for a few minutes and every once and a while see them in person. If I can't even be able to ccatch at home to talk to her let alone see her what would be the point? So the longer I thought the more I realized that even if we entered a relationship that was considered to be more than friends it would still be the exact same situation as far as talking and visiting goes. Now I have made up my mind and as often as it changes this will be one of the things that does not. I will not ask her to be my girlfriend and keep are relationship as nothing more than friends.

Well the date didn't go exactly as planned. I picked her up and took her to my friend James' graduation party. While at the party she decided to invite James and his sister along to the movies with us. I didn't really care that much seeing as James is now living in Saginaw and I won't be able to hang with him much. The movie was good though, we saw Transformers (James' choice), it was done fairly well and the action scenes were awesome. Needless to say I didn't get to ask the girl (from now on known as Rose) out beeing James and sister. I think later this week maybe tommorrow or Wensday I will ask her out and take her to Roscommmon's art festival this Saturday. I geuss we will see how this one plays out.

Till next time
LWC

So it seems it has been about two months since my last entry. During May I prepared for my last month of my junior year in high school. I so believe I passed all my classes. Other than that I went to a few parties with my friends. I started working on the 13 of June and it has been fun so far. Lately I have spent my evenings pondering my life, where it is going, what I would like to do, and how my relationships affect me. I have found out very little through my ponderings on where my life is going but I have found myself feeling lonely. Most of my friends have gone on summer vacations so I am with out their company, but more than that I have found that as the days progress I feel a growing need for a female companion. I feel the need for affection and as I said above company. Usually I can gain the company through my friends and make false affections through tricks and dreams, but lately as distactions have been few and far between the tricks and dreams seem not to be working. So I have resolved to "grow a pair" and seek out said companionship. I hope to write soon and with good news in a forward step, but until then my heartfelt wishes of hope, love, and happiness.

its been a couple of weeks since my last entry. not a whole lot happened. this last weekend i want on a fast for religious reasons no big deal. other than that my sisters birthday was friday the 27th. my birthday is this upcoming wesnday the 2nd of may. i dont think anything especially fun is going to happen but i dont particularly care its just another day so i will write soon hopely but until then so long.

wow... again it has been a while since the last entry. nothing has really gone on that is different than usual. the smae old go to school, do homework, play world of warcraft, sleep thing. i hung out with [Blasphemy] a few times but generally was be my self. im going to our high school prom this saturday with river a good friend of mine. she is pretty cool, shes into the whole fantasy art and games and tv shows like i am. i dont think that we will be more than friends but i am thinking of asking her out. i dont really know what is going to happen but heres wishing for the best.

So friday was fun. My friends Zach and Adriane stopped by and we hung for a while. Saturday I worked all morning.
It wasn't fun at all. I walk a mile and a half through snow and ice... To top it all off it was a swamp and the ice was thin. I was soaking ass wet. On the bright side I did make some money. I'm not really looking forward to the upcoming week. My friends Adriane and Kenny are going to DC and I don't know what I'll do with the time I usually use hanging out with them. Oh, well life go on.

Today was a good day. I feel better and it was really nice outside. It was in the low 40's and the sun was shining. Tomorrow I don't have school and I'm looking forward to the long weekend. On wesnday the quizbowl team and I will be heading to Mount Pleasant for the grand championship for quiz central so that has me pumped up. Tomorrow I am going to have some friends over to play dnd and video games so that wiill be fun. Oh yeah, test week is OVER!!!!! So now I can relax and unwind.... I love the weekends.

Wow it has almost been a year since last diary entry... Well I found out that the girl (who shall remain nameless) that I like has a boyfriend. By now I would have thought that I had gotten used to this kind of thing but I'll admit I'm pretty upset. Most of the girls that I ask out either have boyfriends or give me a completely lame ass excuse. I guess I just have horrible "hey I'm taken" vision... Good news is that I did find a date to my junior prom. The girl is cool and a close friend of mine so it should be fun. I guess I have something to look forward too but I don't really feel all that great. I feel like by now I should have found some one that likes me as much or even more than I like them, but whatever. Its not like I don't have the rest of my life to find some one but I think it would be nice just to have some one who I can call a girlfriend and who likes me and be called their boyfriend. 

well its been a long time comin'..... so some new things that have happen like i have a job at my dad's business. i got a second hard drive for my comp so i have lots of room for my media and i got a new comp chair that is nice and comfy.... so in short lots of good things have been going on. currently im saving my money to buy a new comp for myself and its going great. im going to be getting a new shotgun soon which makes me happy for my old one isnt that great. well until next time ill write to you all soon.

sweet guys im grounded... all because of a stupid class called american lit. i hate the class and i hate how the tacher (ms. sova) teaches it

so i ha vent written anything in a while... nothing much has gone on in me little town. i went to Central Michigan University last weekend for the
jackpine Conferance championship and my team took fourth. no bad considering there was 12 teams.

so today is the day before prom night in rosco mich. im not going cause im a underclassmen but tomorrow ill have a quizbowl match which is always fun.. me birthday is in a couple days... cant wait..

so today is me sisters birthday ugg... nothing else is happening in the small town of roscommon... so bored...