hah well...word is gettin around so i guess i better tell the rest of the world before they hear it from someone else...yes, im pregnant, and yes im keeping the baby. no i havnt gone any more insane than i was previously and yes i am happy with my decisions.

people have already tried to put me down and put me off the idea..."your too young"...blah blah blah...honestly yes i know im too young but this is how it is and ive learnt to deal with it and so should you. the last thing i need right now is poeple thinking they know everything and tryin to lecture me about it. 95% of people that do dont even know my situation and i really would appreciate negative opinions and smart comments being kept to yourselves.

thanks to all the peoples that have been supportive, it means alot.
well i guess thats all i wanted to say

X me X

hah well...word is gettin around so i guess i better tell the rest of the world before they hear it from someone else...yes, im pregnant, and yes im keeping the baby. no i havnt gone any more insane than i was previously and yes i am happy with my decisions.

people have already tried to put me down and put me off the idea..."your too young"...blah blah blah...honestly yes i know im too young but this is how it is and ive learnt to deal with it and so should you. the last thing i need right now is poeple thinking they know everything and tryin to lecture me about it. 95% of people that do dont even know my situation and i really would appreciate negative opinions and smart comments being kept to yourselves.

thanks to all the peoples that have been supportive, it means alot.
well i guess thats all i wanted to say

X me X

HOW EMO ARE YOU!?

http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=930

i was bored and found this on [bloody wounds :(] house and thought i might fill it out...


THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME
01 – Maori's
02 - eels
03 - fat people in tight clothing

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND
01 – why theres never any gas in my car!
02 - why i always burn shit when i cook
03 - moari's

THREE THINGS I'D LIKE TO LEARN
01 – how to pole dance (hehehehehehe)
02 – how to steal candy from a baby
03 - how to make my eyeliner stay on for longer!!

THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
01 – the scarf my mummy knitted for me
02 – my favorite jumper
03 – socks...odd ones

THREE GIRL BEST FRIENDS
01 – ASHLEY!!
02 – FLY
03 - FLEUR

THREE GUY BEST FRIENDS
01 - 
02 - boys have germs...i like michael germs tho <3    
03 -

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
01 – party till i drop
02 – remind me to paint my nails tonight
03 - buy some black lacy panties

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
01 – sarcastic...too much for my own good
02 - boring at times
03 - bloody witty

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE
01 - POM!
02 – POM!
03 – POM!

THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
01 – eyes
02 - thats
03 - all

THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
01 – tummy
02 - feet
03 - nose

THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT YOU
01 - im not a virgin
02 - i once sung "somewhere over a rainbow" in a rather large, respectable production
03 - i HATE monopoly

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
01 – FUCK
02 – oh yeap
03 - woot!

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO
01 – Canada
02 – second draw down
03 – my backyard

Yeah i juss did this disorder thing...not quite sure what it means but these are the results!!

Disorder | Rating Information
Paranoid: High click for info
Schizoid: Very High
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

A poem i have had for a while and thought i wud share it with...whoever reads it i guess!

What Is Love?

What is love?
But a fallen star, i dare not grasp
...for fear it may quickly burn?
But the coolest breeze, i dare not call
...for fear it may slightly turn?

What is love?
But a single rose, i dare not touch
...for fear it may make me bleed?
But a hungered soul, i dare not show
...for fear is may want to feed?

What is love?
But a question i put to you, i dare not ask
...for fear you would not see
How much i love you, but dare not tell
...for fear you did not love me

Urgh i am so disgusted at the amount of people that message me with "I Love You" or "hey sexy" ok that one i can just about handle but fucken hell..."I Love You" what is up with that?
URGH!!!! NO I DONT WANT CYBER OR WHATEVER IT IS YOU DESPERATE WANKERS WANT FROM ME!
Anyway thats all i wanted to say...i would have put it in my description/profile but then it wud be gay and boring :D
Haha ok bye!

yeap heres another one:
[X]Ever Been Drunk? Yeah
[X]Ever Smoked Pot? Ahuh
[X]Ever Kissed a Member of The Opposite Sex? Yes
[X]Ever Kiss A Member Of The Same Sex? Not sexually!
[X]Ever Crashed A Friend's Car? No
[X]Ever Had Anal Sex? ick...No
[X]Ever Been In Love? Yeah
[X]Ever Had Sex? Nope...waiting for the 'right' person!!
[X]Ever Had Sex In Public? See above!
[X]Ever Been Dumped? Yeah
[X]Ever Shop Lifted? Never have never will
[X]Ever Been Fired? Never had a job:
[X]Ever Been In A Fist Fight? Yeah...with a DUde
[X]Ever Had A Threesome? Uhh no
[X]Ever Snuck Out Of Your Parents House? Yeah
[X]Ever Been Tied Up(Sexually)? No
[X]Ever Been Caught Masterbating? Lol no
[X]Ever Pissed On Myself? Prolly when i was little
[X]Ever Been Arrested? No
[X]Ever Made Out With A Stranger? No
[X]Ever Stolen Something From My Job? No
[X]Ever Been On A Blind Date? Noh
[X]Ever Lied To A Friend? Yeah T_T
[X]Ever Had A Crush On A Teacher? ick...No
[X]Ever Skipped School? hah ... yeap
[X]Ever Been Sky Diving? Noo
[X]Ever Put My Pants On My Head Randomly?
Ofcorse
[X]Ever Walked In On Friends Having Sex? Just About!
[X]Ever Lied Just To Cover My Own Ass? Yeah
[X]Ever Cut Someone And Made Them Bleed? By accident!

Yeah im kinda copying ash on this one a bit...juss tryin to make my house a lil less complicated...

Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song TITLES by that Band:: slipknot

Are you female or Male :: Me inside*
Describe Yourself :: The Virus of Life
How do some people feel about you :: Some Feel
How do you feel about yourself :: diluted
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend :: Tattered & Torn
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend :: People = Shit
Describe where you want to be :: 74261700027
Describe what you want to be :: Left Behind
Describe how you live :: No Life
Describe how you love :: Gently
Share a few words of wisdom :: Danger, Keep away
***************************************************
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I need : Time
I find : Nothing
I want : you
I have : a void in my heart
I wish : i could be alone with someone.
I hate : The way i feel right now
I fear : being this way forever
I am : so confused
I love : to be loved
I miss : my innocent childhood
I feel : so useless
I smell : SKANK!
I hear : AFI - The leaving song part 2!
I know : i have to make something of my life
I crave : what every girl craves
I should : get dressed
I search : the question, not the answer
I wonder : Why i feel so cheap and hollow
I regret : Letting love slip through my fingers

Haha!! HeLp MAMA HELP!! System guitar man is FUCKING CRACKED!! ahh so much fun...I have bruised ribs and scratches from slipknot! Who absaloutly fucked the place up!! I've never seen so many people sit on the floor and jump up so quick and violently!! I WONA WANK A MIC!!

Every bogan and his goth (i stole that from matt) waited all day to see Hatebreed and fuck me up the ass with a broomstick, i have never seen such a huge circle...limbs everywhere! Yeah i have to admit to moshing juss a lil too hard and headbutting a few too many people but hey its all good...i have a throat and neck to hold to it :P

Anyway if u havnt already figured...i juss got bak from the Big Day Out...and now im going to sleep for a few days because i'm sore and tired!!

HAHA

mmm ok so things arnt so exciting at the moment...but i have the Big Day Out to look forward to...which means slipknot...system of a down...Hatebreed...and a whole load of New Zealand bands that the majority of you people wouldn't even know!

Muahaha its ashleys [Rider] b'day soon...and i have no idea what to get her...Suggestions people suggestions...bearing in mind she got me a rock for xmas!! (whos name is Raglan)

*listens to Something Corperate - Constantine* ahh so ....

I got called a cool kid today ^-^ twas a dazzleing experience...
Anyway...hopefully the messaging will be back up and running soon ... btw im not complaining im sure the fixer people are doing a grand job...

Bye for now!
Jos'

HEHE i got a rock for xmas!! Haha made me so happy!! Someone cares about what i really wanted!!
ASHLEY YOU ROCK!! (oops sorry for the pun)

Haha i feel quite jolly...
What shud i get ash for xmas?

Well there has to be a first for everything right...
Im hopeing writing what i feel will help me resolve some stuff:s
well here goes...
I dunno, confusion seems to have gotten the better of me. I break up with my boyfriend of 8 months who i truly Loved...then after breaking up the feelings that i thought had vacated me return and hit bak very hard...but at the same time, im half content being single...hmm im a believer in fate but at the same time i think i have to make what i want to happen, happen...im just not so sure how to do that right now...and it kinda doesnt help that we dont talk as much as we used to.

Yeah ok i dunno if thats gona help but we will soon find out...

If anyone reads this and has n e advise or just wants to chat please message me, im very open to chat to anyone =)

Haha...he(my ex) just messaged me....coincidence or what....that made me smile!!