[Cr0550utTheEyes]'s diary

543714  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-04-06
Written: (6981 days ago)

I am worn out beyond belief. This is crazy. CRAZY!

527446  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-03-20
Written: (6998 days ago)

Yay for yet another quiz (I'm bored)

HAVE YOU EVER
1) Dated one of your best friends:Yep
2) Loved/Liked: Yep
3) Cried: Yep
4) Drank alcohol: Yep
5) Done drugs: Yep
6) Broken the law: Yep
7) Broken a bone: Yep
8) Cheated on a test: Yep
9) Skinny dipped: Yep
10) Played Truth or Dare: Yep
11) Ridden in a fire truck: Yep
12) Come close to dying: Yep
13) burned yourself: Yep
14) Given someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: Yep
15) Eaten a worm/mud pie: Yep
16) Stayed up till four on the phone: Yep
17) Tipped over a port-a-potty: Yep
18)Fell asleep while eating: Yep
19) Met someone famous: Yep (Matthew Lillard)
20) Been in a school play: Yep
21) Cried in public: Yep
22) Seen someone die: Yes
23) been in a fist fight: Yep
24) given someone a bruise: Yep
25) gotten a bruise: Yep
26) knocked somone out:Yep
27) been knocked out: Nope
28) flipped any vehicles: Do golf carts count?
29) cut someone: Yep
30) been cut: Yep
31) burnt any buildings down: It was a model for a school prject of the school...so Yeah, you could say I have.
32) sex in public: No but almost
33) mooned someone: Yep
34) acted kidnapped in a car: Yep
35) flashed someone: Yep
36) kissed an ass: Yep
37) blew something up:Yep
38) caught your yard on fire:Wasn't my yard :-p
39) threw a firecracker at someone: yep
40) been in any wars: Depends on what kind of war you're reffering to.
41) stayed up all night: Yep
42) slept all day: Yep
43) watched the sunrise: Yep
44) rode a motorcycle: Yep
45) driven a car: Yep
46) wrecked a car: Golf Cart Only!
47) gotten a tity twister:YES OW
48) given a tity twister: Yep
49) posed for a nude pic: Yep
50) been suspended: Yep
51) been expelled: Kinda
52) been arrested: Yep
53) been in jail: Yep

521528  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-03-13
Written: (7005 days ago)

Forever You

Your Hands Grasping My Shoulders
Your Cheek Brushing Against Mine
Your Hair Tickling My Forehead
Your Lips On My Neck
Your Hands Adventures
Inflaming My Body
Tossing And Turning
Without You I Refuse
Together We Amuse Thee
You Kindle My Heart In Your Hands
Cause You're Watching Me
As I Slip Away
Melt In Your Hands
I Try Real Hard
Not To See
What You Have Done To Me
But My Body Yearns
For Your Simple Words
Your Perfectly Typed
Kiss
Touch
Taste
Being
Your Picture Ambulant In My Mind
You Have Ambushed My Heart
Mind
Honor
Success
Needs
Your My Paragon
My Pleasure
My Place
My Want
My Need
I Want To Obtain Your Mind
Heart
Love
This Restless Being
Sees Only You
I May Be Mad
But Atleast I'm True
Forever Scarred
But Loving You

521526  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-03-13
Written: (7005 days ago)

Tomorrow (wrote this in 6th grade)

As I Sit Alone In My Room
I Realize Nobody Can Save Me
My Parents Are Only A faint Noise In The Back Of My Head
Problems Constantly Flash Infront Of Me
You'd Think They'd Realize Something's Wrong
My Attitude Has Blinded Them
My Little Problems Make Them Sick
They See The Big Problems As Nothing
I've Cried Wolf To Many Times
What Will They Think When...
I Stop Talking
Lock Myself Away
When They See...
My Blood On The Floor
The Gun In My Hand
The Empty Pill And Liquor Bottles
The Note With A Simple" Sorry, Good Bye"
Not Like It'd Be A Great Loss
Not LIke I'd Be MIssed
I Cannot Keep Living With This Bullshit
I Need To Escape And Go Free
Get Away And Have Risky fun
Do Dangerous Things
Hope For The Best
Take MY Chances
Live Or Die
No One Knows
No One Cares
It's The End Of Me
I Will No Longer Take Up Space
Breathe In Your Filthy Fucking Air

521525  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-03-13
Written: (7005 days ago)

Fall (Big One)

I Wanted To Tell You This For A While I Wanted So bad To Tell You That The Words
Each Time Graced My Lips Like An Imposter Only To Fall Away Like Some Great Lizard
Which Was Taken Out To Sea And Areighned Its Fury On The Dark Ocean Alone
Invisible To Any Heron I Pray That You can Hear Them For What They Are
Feel Them For What They Are And Not Mar Them With The Knowledge
That They Stand Apart From Your Ability To Reciprocate Them
Please Take Them In Your Heart And Feel Them With Your Eyes Closed
And Your Soul Open My Voice Speaking Them Softly In Your Ear
With A Kiss When You Smile When You Kiss me When You Act Boldly
When You Laugh When You Whisper My Name When You Love Me
What I'm Sad About Is Selfish I'm Only A Girl And As A Girl I Miss You I Miss Your Kiss
How I Miss Your Smile But Most Of All I Miss The Moment That Hasn't Happened Yet
The Moment When You Let Yourself Fall For Me What Makes It Hard For Me
Is Knowing How Much You Cared For Me And How Much In Way You Do Love Me
How Muc You Would Enjoy Me Smiling Riley As I hurled Myself Backwards off A Cliff
Saying "Catch me Baby" If I Didn't Know That I Could Make You A Villian
And Me A Victim And Sooth Myself But I Can't And We Both Know The Truth Is Not Today
I KNow You're Not Going To Leave Your Life For Me I Wouldn't Want You To
I'd Want You To Leave For You I Also Know That You Wouldn't Fly A Million Miles
Just To See Me Smile At You Not Today So I Guess I Should Disappear I Know You'll Be OK
And Soon I Will be Too Maybe Just maybe If Life So Desires We'll Find Ourselves
Strolling Across The White Cliffs Of Dover And From The Heights And The Stars Amongst Us
The Angels Whos Arms Wil Cradle Us In A Moment Neither Of Us Was Told About
But Knew Like Our Oldest Happiness We Will Know It Is Today, It Is Today
And Whether That Day Is Tomorrow Or Next Week Or Next year Or Next Lifetime
I Will Finally get To Tell You To your Sweet Face The One That I Will Miss
More Then I Could Ever Tell I Love You
I'll Smile Riley
Close My Eyes
Say "Catch Me Baby'
And


FALL

521518  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-03-13
Written: (7005 days ago)

Me And You

How Could I Ever Express My Intentions For You?
Show You Acts To Make This So True
Dream Of A Love
Only For Two
Those Two Being
Me And You

521516  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-03-13
Written: (7005 days ago)

Torchered Arms

I've Seen You In My Dreams
Held You For A second
In These Battered Arms
The Ones You
Cut
Yanked
Crushed
And Thrashed
This Body You Torchered
For Endless Nights
I Hate You For This
This Shit You Put Me Through
I Hate Myself
Because I Am "You"

521451  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-03-13
Written: (7005 days ago)

HAVE YOU EVER
1. Smoked a cigarette?: Yep
2. Smoked a cigar?: Yep
3. Snorted coke?: Yep
4. Smoked Weed?: Yep
5. Been high?: Yep
6. Had sex?: Yep
7. Said "I hope you die" to someone?: Yep
8. Tried to kill someone?: Yes, I Was Very Drunk.
9. Tried to kill yourself?: Yep
10. Got in a fist fight?: Yep
11. Lied to your parents?: Yep
12. Given someone a bruise?: Oh Yes.
13. Ditched someone?: Yep
14. Freak danced?: Yep
15. Stole something?: Yep
16. Cut yourself?: Yep
17. Skipped school?: Yep
18. Hung up on someone?: Yep
19. Threw up at school?: Yep
20. Done someone else's make-up?: Yep
21. Put make-up on a guy?: Yep
22. Kissed someone of the same sex?: Yep
23. Had a burping contest?: Yep
24. Snuck out: Yep
25. Been to a school dance: Yep
26. Thought your teacher was hot: Yep
27. Lied:Yep
28. Run away: Yep
29. Failed a class: Yep
30. Dyed your hair: Yep
31. Gotten in a car accident: Yep
32. Been out of the country: Yep
33. Driven illegally: Yep
34. Thrown a temper tantrum: Yep
35. Been suspended: Yep
36. Been expelled: Yes, not From School But A Martial Arts Academy.
37. Given the finger: Yep
38. Been in jail: Yep (Juvi)
39. Overcharged your credit card:Wasn't Mine...:)

Well That Was Fun..

519851  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-03-12
Written: (7007 days ago)

He says he wants to talk...Why does this frighten me a bit?

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Written about Friday 2005-03-11
Written: (7008 days ago)

_-done
X-never done
?-not telling

(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DRUNK
(_) I NEVER HAVE SMOKED POT
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(X) I NEVER CRASHED A FRIEND'S CAR
(_) I Never HAVE BEEN IN LOVE
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX
(_) I NEVER HAVE HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPED
(_) I NEVER SHOPLIFTED
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN FIRED
(_) I NEVER BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(X) I NEVER HAD A THREESOME
(_) I NEVER BEEN SNUCK OUT OF MY PARENT'S HOUSE
(_) I NEVER BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY)
(_) I NEVER BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(X) I NEVER PISSED ON MYSELF
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(_) I NEVER BEEN ARRESTED
(_) I NEVER MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(_) I NEVER STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(_) I NEVER WENT ON A BLIND DATE
(_) I NEVER LIED TO A FRIEND
(_) I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(_) I NEVER SKIPPED SCHOOL
(X) I NEVER SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER
(X) I NEVER BEEN SKYDIVING
(X) I NEVER HAVE BEEN DUMPSTER DIVING
(X) I NEVER PUT MY PANTS ON MY HEAD RANDOMLY
(_) I NEVER WALKED IN ON FRIENDS HAVING SEX
(_) I NEVER WALKED IN ON MY PARENTS HAVING SEX
(_) I NEVER WALKED IN ON ONE OF MY PARENTS MASTURBATING
(_) I NEVER HAVE BEEN CAUGHT HAVING SEX
(_) I NEVER EGGED A PT CRUISER OR HONDA ELEMENT
(_) I NEVER LIED JUST TO COVER MY OWN ASS
(_) I NEVER CUT SOMEONE AND MADE THEM BLEED
(_)I NEVER TOLD SOMEONE I LOVED THEM JUST TO MAKE ME OR THEM FEEL BETTER
(_) I NEVER HAD SEX WITH TWINS
(_) I NEVER WATCHED PEOPLE HAVING SEX
(X) I NEVER BROKE A BONE

Got kinda confused...I've done the _ ... *shakes head* Blonde issues

518843  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-03-11
Written: (7008 days ago)

Poem - 1 2 Nothing

one is to nothing
as nothing is to all
i am to him
as he is to me
truth is to sadness
as lies are to happiness
but what is truth
what is this
what is that
who is this
where is this
is this out of reach
when was it not
nothing could stop this
but everything will
nothing could ruin this
but everything will
it changes itself
and leaves us stranded
because we are nothing
in the eye or something
but in my eyes
you are so much more

518842  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-03-11
Written: (7008 days ago)

Poem - Explanation?

A stranger
in my mind
searching
finding out
what no one should ever know
but this stranger
is not
he has my heart
in a noose
he has too much
but it's ok
if i could express
and not regret
everything i hope
I would
but I can't
not today
not tomorrow
not next week
all he needs to know is
I love him
in such a twisted
incredibly unimaginable way
but due to lack
or something more
i wish to be
everything
but tis a joke
i am this
always will be
he is that
always will be
one can only hope
this could be so much
but fear what is to come
for this cannot be explained enough
he cannot be explained enough
not this feeling

518424  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-03-10
Written: (7008 days ago)

Hmm So I just Started An Account On Here And It Looks Pretty Cool. My Friend AKA Secret Lover Chels Showed Me This. Glad She Did I Think I'll Have Fun With It.

Later For Now.

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