omg like this week has been the hardest on me, i left my family a lil over a month ago and they treat me differently and ik they miss me and hell yea i miss them to but idk... i just hope that one day my family and my lil bro will talk to me again soon since how i hurt him by leaving them the way i did. i had wrote a long letter saying a lot of things and then taped it on my front door and ran out with 2 GIANT bags of my shit and it made me cry and other emotions but at the same time i'm glad i left i don't feel so caged and for those that read my diary entries I'M NOT DATING ERIC ANYMORE THAT WAS LIKE SOOO maybe a lil over 5 years ago so yea don't talk about it or feel my dark wrath -does evil fingers- MUHAHAHAHAHA anyways later, gonna go watch a movie with my gf/finace.

I'm having a kick ass day that amazing so yea... FUCK OFF LOL

Lost in a world, that scares me to death,
Lost in a crowd I’m losing my breath,
Lost as a kid, lost as an adult
I feel everything is falling apart and its my fault
Lost as a person, cant find my way
Lost in life every day, Lost in worry
Who am I?
I’ve lived a Lie
Lost to Kindness,
Lost to Love
Lost in the sky,
Like a lonely dove
Lost in thought which I shouldn’t do
It Winds me up,
I can’t get through
Lost to comfort all kind words
Lost to advice that isn’t heard
Lost to those who really care?
All these people always there
Lost in Me, I need a break
Lost in wonder which road should I take?
Lost in a place I don’t know well
Where are you now? There’s no one to tell
Lost here all alone To break these walls
Lost in mind
Lost in soul
Lost memories, there just a hole
Lost family, lost my place
Still yet I’m full of hate
Lost in boredom think I’ll leave
There’s a lot in life I need to achieve

I feel as if my life totally sucks, and i have an amazing friend who makes me lauph my ass off and try's soooooooo hard to make me happy and make my life be better.

i miss susie-q so much that it really isnt funny. we were best friends and x girlfriends and whish that she would call me or send me an e-mail back. i hope that she does soon cause i really do miss her.

today i keep thinking about Susie Q and wondering to my self does she still like me even though i left her? the world may never know., , ,

Dear Tiger,
OMG im now dating some one named Eric at my school and its ok. Susie-Q and i talked today during class and it made me feel to keep rembering when i broke up with her. I really don't smoke anymore good right? well anyhow i gtg for now but i'll try to keep up to date and in contact with u Tiger.

Love:
Crystal White

Dear Tiger,
Susie Q and i had broke up on August 14th and i crushed her heart and mine at the same time. Susie Q atleast is now my friend and we talk during school or at my school. I am not a lesbian im bi. I am trying to make friends this year and including on this cool site elftown.eu so it is kinda a goal for me. I am a little lonely and now am single wishing i had some one to love or even like but i guess i wont get lucky this year.

your owner:
Crystal White

Dear tiger,
Susie Q and i broke up on the 14th of this month so i broke her heart and it broke mine as well. i am now single and lonely wishing that i would not be single anymore. I am not a lesbian i am bi. Susie Q talks to me at school or at my school. This year im trying to make friends as my goal including from this cool site elftown.eu this year as my goal. I am really sad that i hurt Susie Q but it was for my a reasion which im not gonna say. Well gtg see ya.
your owner:
Crystal White