A white man yells to a black man. "Hey colored boy! You're blockin my view."
The black man turned around and stood up. He then said:
"When I was born I was black,"
"When I grew up I was black,"
"When I'm sick I'm black,"
"When I go in the sun I'm black,"
"When I'm cold I'm black,"
"When I die I'll be black"
"But you sir..."
"When you're born you're pink,"
"When you grow up you're white,"
"When you're sick, you're green,"
"When you go in the sun you turn red,"
"When you're cold you turn blue,"
"And when you die you turn purple."
"And you have the nerve to call me colored?"
The black man then sat back down and the white man walked away...
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Never ask for food.
REAL FRIENDS: are the reason you have no food.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Call your parents Mr/Mrs
REAL FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD/MOM
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: bail you out of jail and tell you what you did was wrong.
REAL FRIENDS: Would sit next to you sayin "Damn ... we fucked up ... but that shit was fun!"
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: never seen you cry.
REAL FRIENDS: cry with you
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Borrow your stuff for a few days then give it back.
REAL FRIENDS: keep your shit so long they forget its yours.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: know a few things about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Could write a book about you with direct quotes from you.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.
REAL FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowds ass that left you.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.
REAL FRIENDS: Walk right in and say "I'M HOME!"
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Are for awhile.
REAL FRIENDS: Are for life.
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Will take your drink away when they think you've had enough.
REAL FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place and say "Bitch drink the rest of that you know we don't waste."
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: will talk shit to the person who talks shit about you.
REAL FRIENDS: Will knock them the fuck out
FAKE ASS FRIENDS: Would ignore this
Un{Love}Able for neverending eternity
UNABLE
Everyday goes by,
Like another tear to cry.
Everything gets harder and harder
Unable to stand,
Unable to move.
I just lay here
Wanting and not
Suffering...
Some days come close
One thing holds me back
Im never sure of anything.
All I know is one thing,
Im unaware of what it is.
Outsides just like inside,
Complete isolation.
A crowd around and Im still alone.
If someone else knew, if only.
So I lay here,
All alone,
Especially in this world,
No one to help me, guide me, lead me.
All alone,
Unable to stand,
Unable to move.
Everything is harder and harder,
Cry inside, but tears do fall,
They crash down,
As does the sinking of my heart.
FREAKS
Die today and forever, live never.
Darkness and blood red, suffer not when you kill.
Freaks know the way, fuck that jesus shit.
Stupid shit made up by man.
Die with sin in your heart, not fear.
When fear enters you, you are living.
The only thing to fear is fear itself when you die.
Die today and forever, Live never ever.
Inside:
Im screaming.
Outside:
Im Distracted.
All Over:
Im Crazy
~No one
-No one that matters at least.
-ME
LIgHT?
Light: Have not found
Light: Hardly a microscopic speck
Light: Wonder if its inside.
Dark: All around
Dark: Truly inspiring
Dark: Over powering.
Inside: Darkness
Outside: Dark
Light: ?
Light: What is it?
There is no light.
No religion,
Hardly anything,
Nothing to Believe,
Nothing out there,
Death.
Die: Not yet.
Live: For now.
Future: Unknown.
Death: Not yet.
Death: Not quite yet.
Death: Why?, NOT YET!
Death: Not giving in.
Death: Definately not soon.
Death: Wait, whats going on?
Death: Okay, one second.
Death: NO NOW!...BANG!
DARK FIRE
Everything is black with the glow of orange, red and yellow.
All I see is the fire burning deep inside me,
And its growing higher and higher.
The flames are engulfing me, burning me.
Help me, I am suffocating inside,
Help me out but do not ever let me see the light,
The light is evil in my heart,
Get over the fact that Im not perfect,
Just help me out, Bring everything out,
My feelings, my art, my life.
The fire is burning everything.
I must save it. It shant be burnt.
I must keep it and show it off,
Its the only way, this cant happen,
This must be brought to an end.
STOP! STOP! STOP Burning!
I must make it stop, Its truly the only way.
Now the fire is going down down down,
Replenishing everything, Making them better than before.
Now im living with all intention,
Except I still shall never see the light,
The light, to me, shall forever be evil,
And will suffer without me.
I shall forever be me in all my potential,
I LOVE THE DARKNESS!
Its so beautiful, I shall forever dwell in darkness.
All alone, just the way i want it.
{this has no title}
When world domination occurs, the devil will clap his savage hands, everyone will die, fore they shall kill themselves. World domination, rather damnation, will occur. If you don't want to live through it, take this knife, slit your throat and die. There, very good. Now who's next?
{neither does this one}
If only they knew
If only they listened.
The people who find me,
Those people wont know me...
No one knows me.
2/9/07
My heart beats
although it aches
aches from wonder
aches from what it will never have
the world, it seems, sees,
but not reality
not the future
little things, truth betold,
they still wouldn't know
beyond what they see
imaginations run wild
everyone sees what will never be
It seems I am the only one who knows
Knows what the future holds
all this doubt, that's not a lie
In the end no one shall cry
Fore I knew all along
Life's no mystery to me
I'm dead before I've died.
2/7/07
SUICIdE
Suicide, my favorite word
Death, reality, suicide
Murdering yourself
My crazy obsession
suicide a simple little word
Suicide packed with so much meaning
so simple, very very simple
Guns, water, rope
Jump! simple little ways
Who says we have to abide by silly little rules.
Suicide. Massive suicides.
Kill yourslef!
watch me laugh
my psychotic obsession
Suicide
Make the world a better place
A seven letter word
make use of it
The simplicity drives me insane
Nothing vacuous here
Full of meaning, like a painting
This obsession is chaotic
suicide, my favorite word
An obsession with passion.
2/6/07
UNdERStANdINg
Understanding is everything, my love
Without it we simply can not be
Mysteriously, I am unknown
Everything is chaotically tucked away
My feelings are too crazy for me
I don't understand them
My head is always spinning
With you, forever, in there
Too close, too close, too close
I am getting too close
You have to understand
My wanting of a little distance
I try not to speak
I wish never to speak
Because avoidance seems impossible
I try, I try the impossible
You broke down my invincibility
Now I know almost nothing
I haven't prepared for this
I don't know how
We both have to understand
Understand before it's too late
Understand reality
Understand truth
Understand past, present, and future
Understand everything.
In my mind--vacuity
my feelings are mostly vacuous
In the end we are all empty
except for the hatred of the fake
Our lives rest in our own hands
We have the power,
but do we have the will?
I couldn't sleep
not until i cried
my head was spinning
thoughts of everything
I couldn't fall asleep
not until I cried
I shed one fantastic tear
and then I died
The moon shines so brightly in the misty sky
I'll hold your hand until you say good-bye
I want more than life can give
I'm sorry if you can't hear me
all I hear is the rustle of the wind
Howls at the moon
I feel you, but you're not there
At the moon, all I do is stare
This life, tonight it's all a dream
I need better offers than I recieve
As you let go
As you say good-bye
I am dying
utterly dying
There is no moon at full moon
you drift away with the wind
I'm forced to stay where I am
This world is too slow
Now I fade into the darkness you left for me
I close my eyes and it's over
The moon returns but nothing else resurfaces.
1/6/07
Cooperation
If then, they knew--If we'd met--
we would have been together--
years pass--no one came--
They left me here--lonely--
everynight--em
it calms me, the night--
and the moon--they are both rather cold--
just like my heart and the darkness--
If only my brain would cooperate with my heart.
12/27/06
Frustrating confusion
I see mostly light illuminating around everyone, But I do see the fire around a few. I'm totally confused. Why can't I see anything around you? Why are you doing this? How is it you're the only one with nothing around you? It's killing me not knowing who you are inside. My feelings, I'm sure have nothing to do with the reason I cannot see inside you. Others I used to feel for I could always see inside them. This frustrating confusion! I want to see inside you more. You must be facsinating. Just give me a chance. I know the flames around me are harmless. Just let me see. I'm so full of frustrating confusion and it's all because of you.
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Troubled, troubled, I'm so troubled
It hurts when I look into your eyes
This pain is worst of all
my privacy is killing me
But when I think, I think less of myself
my only question is will you?
I always wonder if you wonder
wonder about me, I know you must
Fore you pretty much know nothing
I wish you did and wouldnt think less of me
I can handle many things right now
I feel so broken
I used to feel so invincible
Now I feel oh so lost
Being mysteriously private
I feel as if it's killing you as much as me
Inside I feel so dead to you
I wish I felt invincible again
Being as I am It's not too normal
My friend, My friend, My friend,
Friend, friend, friend........
Ahhh the insanity the insanity. I truely am going insane, Everything just needs to huury up and get done with, I need to "chill out" calm myself down, OOOHHhh the insaity the insanity. I really need to burn something or kill something right now, but not me, I do not wish to kill myself yet, when you go insane and noone around you seems to notice what in the world is wtong with you? When someone gets mad at you but the are afraid to lose you how do you deal with that? especially since thats why you make them mad in the first place, for them to get rid of you? AAHHHH insanity insanity. the world shall suffer with my insanity.
IF I cannot trust my own dad, how in the world shall I trust anybody?