You know, reflecting on what I have written in this diary I find that most of what is in this thing is very depressing. Yes, a lot of crappy things have happened, most notably in my love life. Damn me and my giving heart! But that is not the reflection I wish to portray. I am very upbeat, in a somewhat dark way. I do not brood, well, sometimes I do, but let things go, except things that I have learned a lesson from. I smile, A LOT, I can't help it. My stress level is extremely high, but you'd never know it looking at me or how I act. Hmmm, well, I guess I'll add more later, but for now thats all I'm gonna put on here. Listening to Nightwish and Within Temptation right now. GREAT BANDS!!!

If I was granted more time in that place I would have cherished it, but fate decided that it was not so. Now I sit here, typing away pouring out my feelings in this small diary, if only she knew, but alas, what good would it do? Life, it seems wants to take all my time, life, is greedy and wants all of me. Why can't I own what is mine, my own life, my own time? This world has taken much from me, but nothing more costly than my love, nothing more cherished than her voice. "Give it back!" I cry to the darkness, the void within, but nothing happens. 

Time, something we never have enough. Love, something that we try to give but fate always wants to make it that much harder. The Dagger, the love you know that time denies. Why?! The plead, asking heaven or hell both divine circles to let it be, let it come to pass. Sorrow, now I know... love will always be out of reach...

I hate the holidays!

I killed Cupid and stole his bow and arrow and then shot the Easter bunny with it and turned him into a fur hat. Then I shot Santa out of the air with a RPG and barbecued his reindeer and laced the meat with poison and fed it to the elves.

Evil, aren't I?

NO MORE!! Make it stop! Make this longing stop! What I would do for this feeling to just leave me alone!! To be at peace!! But peace never comes!! ARGH!!

Before you talk to me you should know a few things...
I hate!= You (And everything about you/ Not really)
     Inuyasha (No real good story. Wimpy demons)
     Harry Potter (Not much better than toilet paper as far as I'm concerned. And YES! I have read it)
     Cheerleaders (They think they're better than other people)
     Jocks/Preps (Same as Cheerleaders)
     People that have 'sexy' in their names (Just stupid)
     Me (Can't stand that bastard! Oh, wait...)

If you do not like this you have a few choices which are...
A.) Fuck yourself!
B.) Argue with me (I don't mind fighting with people)
C.) Try to change my mind (Not a chance in Hell!)
D.) Send me a bomb in the mail (Do this and I will kill you! If the bomb doesn't kill me :/)

Ok, got something to say. First off, I don't want to cyber with anyone! I prefer the real thing so quit asking me to! Second, most of the messages I send out do sound sexual, yes, and SOME are meant that way. But they are only for fun. I don't expect to ever have sex with anyone on Elftown because half the people I know don't even live near me. Thirdly, I don't really mind 'Hi' messages, so send them if you want. Thank you for your time and blood.

~Fallen Paladin
Revel in inner darkness

Why is it that people are happiest when you feel your crappiest?

LOL, rhymed

HAHA!! You get a treat today. For wanting to look into my diary I will describe what I look like! What do you mean you don't care!? To hell with you then! For all those that WANT to know what I look like just ask. I'll tell ya if I want.

I'm in my own little world right now so knock before you enter! No you can't pull a Vader and blow it up!!

Me being random, and tired and stupid.

Tell me, why do men have to put the seat down for women after we're done?
Because then we just have to put it up to piss.
Shouldn't the women put the seat up for the guy when she's done?
Kind of makes sense to me.