well once again my life has gone all wrong. i am stuck, living with a man who hates me, my master needs to find a house and move his ass out of his mothers house. he's 39, how pathetic is that? he still lives with his mom. and dear lord, the state of the house. its.........ugh....*shudders* have they heard of a broom?? he is so hardheaded, everything has to be exactly his way or you get released. not thats a huge deal. only the master i want, [Master Wolf] just lost his apt. so i cant be His yet. i love him and he loves me. i hope he gets a new place soon. i dont want to wait. i think i will finally have someone decent in him.
feh

What is life?
what is sound?
sight? smell? taste?
Is it real?
Or insanity?
Our speech
our perections
Our mind
is it really ours to begin with?
is it loaned to us?
is anything really ours?
Or is it all a delusion?
What are feelings?
Do I control them?
Or they me?
Out the omnipresent?
always there?
forever?
Or are they only in out crazed mind?

FATHER: (picks up tha other fone, interrupts & yells furiously) ERiKA, wat did i tell you about talking to boys?!!!!!....Get off the damn fone!! (And hangs up)]








Boy: wow ur father sounds really mad
Girl: u know how he gets, but anywayz i dont want you to go
Boy: would you run away with me?
Girl: baby, u know i would, i would do anything for u, but i cant... U dont know wut would happen if i did. My dad would kill me !!
Boy: *sad* its ok i understand i guess..
Girl: *thinking* i cant believe wuts going on
Boy: i need to give u sumthing 2nite b/c i am leaving on flight 1-80 in tha morning, so i need to see you now.
Girl: ok i will sneak out & meet u at tha park
Boy: ok ill meet u there in 20min








[They meet at a nearby park, they both hug eachother. And he gives her a note.]





Boy: here u go, this is for you i gotta go.
Girl: ****tear (begins to cry)
Boy: baby dont cry, u know i love you...but i have 2 go
Girl: ok (begins to walk away)








[They both go back home. And erika begins to read tha letter her gave her]





It says.....





Erika,
U probably already know that im leaving, i knew this would be better if i wrote a letter explaining tha truth about how much i care about you. The truth is, is that i never loved you, i hated you so much, u are my bitch and dont u ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, n be around u. U really have no clue how much i hate you. Now that im leaving i thought u should know that i hate you bitch, u never did tha right thing, and u were never there. I didnt think i could hate someone as much as i hate you. And i never want to see you, for the rest of my life, i will never miss kissing you like before, i never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and thats a promise. U never had my love, and i want you to remember that. Bitch u keep this letter bcuz this may be tha last thing u have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much. i will not talk to you soon bitch.... Goodbye
- Ricardo








[ erika begins to cry, she throws tha paper in tha garbage & crys for hours ]









....A day passes, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely.... Then she gets a fone call....



Friend: how are u feeling?
Girl: i just cant believe this happend i thought he loved me.
Friend: o, about that. Ricardo left me a msg. A few days ago. He told me to tell u to look in ur jacket pocket or something...
Girl: ummm ok





[She finds a piece of paper in tha jacket,





It says.
Baby i hope u find this before u read my letter. I knew ur dad might read it, so i switched a few words...








Hate = Love
Never = Alwayz
Bitch = Baby
Will not= will








........ I hope u didnt take that seriously because i love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats y i wanted u to run away with me...
-Ricardo]








Girl: omg its a letter, Ricardo does love me!!, he must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I cant believe how stupid I am!!
Friend: lol ok but i g2g... Call me later
Girl: *happy*ok bye, i'll be at home waiting for my baby to call me !!





...... Erika turns tha T.V. on......








[Breaking news] "An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for Survivors...This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80...it was on its way to an all boys boarding school..." Reporter says.



[ she turns off the tv....3 days later, she kills herself, because of tha fact that Ricardo was dead & she had nothing to Live for... ]





....A day after that the fone rings. Nobody answers. It was Ricardo, he called to leave a msg. "Its Ricardo, i guess ur not home so, I called 2 let u know that im alive, i missed my flight b/c i had 2 see u one last time. So i hope ur not worried. I am staying for good. Sorry if u got scared, i promise 2 make it up 2 ueverything will be a be ok i love you so much...call me asap bye!!





[...he eventually finds out wut happend, and also kills himself...]




*crys*

A guy and girl were speeding over 100 mph on a road on a motorcycle...



Girl:"Slow down. I’m scared."
Guy:"No, this is fun."
Girl:"No, its not. Please, its too scary."
Guy:"Then tell me you love me."
Girl:"Fine, I love you. Slow down!"
Guy:"Now give me a BIG hug."
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: "Can you take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me."
Paper the next day: motorcycle crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people riding. Only one survived.
The truth:
Halfway down the road, the guy realized the brakes went out, and he didn’t want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug him one last time, then had her put on his helmet. So that she would live, even though it meant that he would die.



One question for all of you who read this.i have one qusetion for u:
Do guys hate it more when girls say that they should just be friends, or do girls hate it more when guys say that they should just be friends?

Sorceress
In the war between good and evil, Sorceresss take the side of the noble and good.

You are gifted with the elemental plane of Air
A Sorceress creates magic the way a poet creates poems, with inborn talent honed by practice. They have no books, no mentors, no theories just raw power that they direct at will. Some Sorceress' claim that the blood of dragons courses through their veins. It may even be true-it is common knowledge that certain powerful dragons can take humanoid form and even have humanoid lovers, and it’s difficult to prove that a given a Sorceress does not have a dragon ancestor. A Sorceress often has striking good looks, usually with a touch of the exotic that hints at an unusual heritage. Still, the claim that a Sorceress is partially draconic is either an unsubstantiated boast on the part of a certain Sorceress or envious gossip on the part of those who lack the Sorceress's gift.

Your powers are highly attuned to the elemental plane of air. Storms and the powers of the winds come at your beck and call. Sometimes a magic user tuned to the elemental plane of air has the power to fly at will, and infuse his living body with the powers of his element. Often mages of air will build their strongholds or magical dwellings in high places such as mountain tops or flying citadels high above the earth where they can be close to their element. Some of the more powerfull spells in your arsenal include Lightning Bolt, Desert Twister, and Divine Wind.

I am a A Tiger Dragon!

Hey, I took the http://dragonhame.com online Inner Dragon quiz and found out I am a Tiger Dragon on the inside.

In the war between good and evil, Tiger Dragons take the side of the noble and good....
When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, your inner dragon is a risk taker and answers to no one....
As far as magical tendancies, a Tiger Dragon's nature does not lend itself well to the ways of Magic....
During combat situations, whether by spells or by claw, your inner dragon will do whatever it takes to get the job done....
'
Tiger Dragons willingly live in any environment, so long as it is isolated from the influences of man. They have been known to build massive and incredibly complex structures of all shapes, kinds and purposes, though many never build anything. A Tiger Dragon is honest and forgiving with a very long patience. They are slow to anger, but, once enraged, may destroy entire civilizations before cooling down. Should one become exceedingly angry, it will tend to take revenge by completely destroying every aspect of its targets' lives, but never killing them. The Tiger Dragon's mind is its most formidable weapon.'
Tiger Dragons are armored in short, soft, but incredibly strong and resilient fur. They can come in a variety of colors and patterns, including white, black, orange, yellow, gray, and tan, with stripes covering most, little, or none of their bodies. They tend to smile frequently and laugh freely. Tiger Dragons tend to dislike violence, but when enraged can do anything. A Tiger Dragon is very selective when choosing close friends, but is intensely loyal to all it deems worthy of friendship. A Tiger Dragon leads a very quiet and unobtrusive life. A Tiger Dragon's feelings run deep and true. Tiger Dragons mate for life.
'
This Dragons favorite elements are: Life, Wisdom, and Love.

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I have a question for you boys/men out there. I want to message me back the answer and please be honest!!

If the girl is unconsous or drunk, is it still rape?

This is for a study I'm doing so please be honsest, your name will not be included in it. Just one man from..... USA said.....

Hi, all. So I have decided to keep a dairy. Most likely I won't write in it every day, its going to be more of a ranting/figuring out shit zone. You don't like, then stop reading.