Today's Title: Suuuuch fuuuuun...

Subtitle: Professions of love.

Meaning: Ahhh blast it all, this ain't good!

Subject: Yet another heart broken by me... *insert favourite curse here*

Yes... yes... another broken heart, another person who claimed to love me. Another guy who I have to suggest other places to turn their affections to. *Sighs* I really do hate telling I can't be interested, even though I'm not. I'm engaged, BLAST IT! I'm not availible, and I am MORE then happy to be like that...
And I still hurt when I hurt someone else. Even when they know about my beloved... I've told my friend on MSN as much as polite society will allow, he thinks my beloved is awesome, and is trying to help us get together... yet at the same time he's in love with me?
Not happy J'ssey.
*Sighs* And the worst part of it is that I missed my beloved by FIVE FREAKING MINUTES!! I really... really wish he had been here to help... to comfort... something... I miss him, I need him..

End of message.

Well, its been a few days, but I'm starting to get over whatever this is... still not going to work tomorrow though, since I'm still running a fever, still fatigued, and now have meds... evil "happy juice"... It keeps kicking my tail, and making me pass out. Took it recently, and now I'm dragging..

Plus side! I've been able to be with my beloved most the day, which makes for a very happy J'ssey. Also means *GASP* I GET TO ACTUALLY SLEEP TONIGHT! Wonder of wonders! ~Glee~

I'm still working on the studying/graduating/moving thing, but its alright, I have a lot of help, and support... Also been drawing a lot more again, and starting my "publisher" search again.

Mewl, what a day. And it hasn't even really started yet!

Another day another dollar, and I am tired. But it was a good day, so I have no complaints. I've been able to spend a lot of time with my beloved, before I have to go to AL for a week. (No internet... not much computer... no news from beloved... or from friends, I'm going to go crazy @.@). Ahhhh well, I'm happy, in love, and nothing can change that.

Speaking of being in love, I had to deal with my ex, THAT wasn't fun. But I had my beloved, so I was good. I LOVE MY BELOVED. And I have NO problem with telling every single person in the world that. ^_^

Wow, its been a very, very.... well... a long time since I last posted on here. Lots of things has happened. Too much to really talk about in one post, and a lot of which I don't wish to anyways. But for the most part I am happy, though I am worried about the man I love for some reason. 10:30 my time something REALLY hit me. So... I'm waiting anxiously for him to come back. *sighs* Lots of things happening, yes, yes.

I apologize now, because I'm going to be VERY preachy on a topic that is very close to me. THIS IS FOR EVERYONE CHRISTIAN AND NON.
I'm tired of meeting or hearing of Christians who are telling others they are stupid and wrong in their belifes. Not only is this the wrong way to go about saving people, it is also the BEST way to make them hate you! Lord help me, but if I hear another Christian tell someone they are stupid because they follow someone other then Christ, I WILL tell them OFF!
Yes, I am a Christian.
Yes, I belive that it is importent for other people to be saved.
BUT NOT THROUGH INSULTING OTHER'S BELIFES!!!
I not only belive in God and Chirst, but I do belive there is a Goddess. I do not worship Her, and I do not honor Her but I know She is there. I also know there are Spirits, Angels, and other beings we cannot see, for the most part. Don't belive me? Look in the BIBLE.
LOVE AND KINDESS is the best way to help ANYONE. DO NOT tell someone "You are wrong and I am right". DO NOT tell someone "You are stupid" and then curse them for it! May God help any Christian I meet who does that. Really. I am a very gentle and kind person, but this is getting to the point BEYOND foolish! "Blessed is the meek for they shall inheriate the kingdom of heaven." Heard of that? Or how about "Blessed are the peace-makers for they shall be called Children of God." Or the Golden rule! "Love Thy neighbor as thy-self, yea even thy enemy"! Anyone, Christian or non who wishes to complain about my belifes will find them gently but throughly rebuked. And any non Christian who wishes to tell me about how a Christian cursed them out and totally turned them away from being ever interested in becoming saved will be apologized to and shown all the kindness and love they do or DO NOT deserve.

Children of God, learn to love and be kind to EVERYONE!!!!

Lady J'ssem

Ever noticed how people tend to make two opinions of you? The first is always your physical appearance. The second is how you talk, and is either an editing of the first or an addition. You can look like a punky goth, the "bad" sort, then add a sweet personality. You get: A sweet kid, who should really wear more colors. Now, you do the same with a prep, the "good" sort and add a nasty additude. You get : A very pretty child, who might need some discpline. *Sigh* I'm sorry if I'm on a rant, but I am tired of people looking adorable and getting away with EVERY BLOODY THING!!! I'm not saying that about ALL cuties.. but I do know quite a few who need their priorities straightened out PRONTO.

I'm done ranting, thanks, this has been another exciting edition with your hostess Lady J'ssem.
*Bows Out*

Something I forgot to mention:

I have finished writing my first book.

J'ssem's book.

*Grins slightly* All bloody 214 pages of J'ssem's books is DONE!!!! It is currently in need of editing.. ~Somehow doubts her da' will finish doing it.~ And I have to finish my ink drawings for it. But, other then that.. just needs to be published. 

Something new.. whee


Warmth |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Intellect |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78%
Emotional Stability ||||||||||||||||||||| 70%
Aggressiveness |||||| 14%
Liveliness ||||||||||||||| 46%
Dutifulness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Social Assertiveness ||||||||||||||| 46%
Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 86%
Paranoia ||||||||||||||| 50%
Abstractness |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Introversion |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Anxiety ||||||||||||||||||||| 66%
Openmindedness |||||||||||||||||||||||| 74%
Independence |||||||||||||||||||||||||||| 82%
Perfectionism ||||||||||||||| 50%
Tension ||||||||| 30%

And how to read this....

Cattell's 16 Factor Key


Factor low score          high score
Warmth cold, selfish       supportive, comforting
Intellect instinctive, unstable  cerebral, analytical
Emotional Stability irritable,  moody level headed, calm
Aggressiveness modest,      docile controlling, tough
Liveliness somber, restrained   wild, fun loving
Dutifulness untraditional, rebellious conforming, traditional
Social Assertiveness shy, withdrawn  uninhibited, bold
Sensitivity coarse, tough       touchy, soft
Paranoia trusting, easy going    wary, suspicious
Abstractness practical, regular   strange, imaginative
Introversion open, friendly    private, quiet
Anxiety confident, self assured  fearful, self-doubting
Openmindedness closeminded, set-in-ways   curious, exploratory
Independence outgoing, social   loner, craves solitude
Perfectionism disorganized, messy   orderly, thorough
Tension relaxed, cool      stressed, unsatisfied

I'm back, again.. heh.. the sad little girl is back too. Why? You know.. I really don't know.. wish I did, but I'm not going to worry about it. Just live on.. as I always do. Ignore the worries and the saddness and just live on. Boy that sounds rather bad. *Siiigh* I'm just lonely at the moment. Kindda get that way when every person you talk to has a signifigant other they like to tell you about. Me? Alone, alone, alone, in a place where people just don't give two hoots. Not a good feeling, really. *shakes her head* But what can I do?

lady J'ssem

Back, once again

Dear Elfwood,

Look who's back amoungts the living! *Chuckles* I'm back! Moved, and in a new house. New veiws on everything too. But, that's the way I am.. and YESSS please stop the world I wanna get off!!!!!

For more information please do not IM me, as it's none of anyone buisness and you will be yelled at. Seriously. I mean that.

Told you I've changed. Question is: Is it for the better or worse?

Love,
Lady J'ssem

I had to add this... but for the love of everyone I'm going to remove all the images until someone tells me what I'm doing wrong.

You have an animal soul! Arent you lucky! You are very interactive with animals and can understand them even if you dont speak their tongue. The birds arent afraid of you, deer can eat out of your palm, and every dog will roll over for you. As an Animal Soul, you follow your instinct, sometimes making rash decisions, and not thinking properly. If you dont understand something, you reject and push it away, and can get very disastrous when angry. At the same time, youre a very kind person who can make people feel better, and are understanding and compassionate. One of the great things about you is that your rarely jealous, and know that you have to share and help other people if you want to survive this world. You are very loyal and optimistic, and can make it through the toughest times.

your dark and mysterious..you have a hidden talent but you don't tell anyone..its probably an art of some kind...you don't let people get that close to you because you've been hurtalot...your tough and independant..your actually alot like me....cool..please rate..

Take the quiz: <a href="http://www.zenhex.com/quiz.php?id=735">"Which God or Goddess are you?"<br></a><br>God of Beautiful Death<br>Elegant, regal, and beautiful. You accept death for what it is, and unavoidable part of life. You often feel higher than others, more mature or sane, and tend to wear dresses and skirts if your a girl, or collared shirts if you're a boy. You bring those who have died a peaceful death to their resting place.

"Tis an Earth Dragon be awakening...when a rose survives through winter..."
You are an earth Dragon! You have a knack for Nature or animals, and are peaceful, careful, chariming, and optimistic. You can throw a tantrum now or then, but who doesnt? You value simple things in life, such as friends, familly, and Nature.

You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and creativity, and usually are highly intelligent. Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.

You are the Strange Creature that fell from the sky. You are not understood and are careful in any kind of realtionship. You have peculer ways and thoughts. You are quiet but present. I like weird people, rate my quiz.

You are a green dragon. YOu dwell in the forest and you love peace. You don't often bother yourself with human affairs but you love to help when needed.


You are the chinese element of Metal. People who are under the element of Metal are organized, discriminating and tidy. Metal, you are a trigger, and also very controlling and hate being wrong. The color of metal is white and your symbol is the tiger. Autumn is the season in which metal shines, and it's months are July/August. Your weather condition is clear. Metal is the direction of west, and your day is Friday, while your planet is Venus. Animals under your element are usually furred. People under you are Tibetan. Your sense is smell, your taste is acrid/spicy, your sound is lamenting and your virtue is righteousness. Your organ are the lungs. You were created by Earth and control Wood.

You are an angel of the forest. You love to have a good time and to get in trouble. For you, it's all fun and games. You like to have friends, preferably not human, and can converse with all animals. You love to party, and like to be alone. You are a deep person, but most people miss it. Thinking that you are just childish and young. Which you are not. You are old, and wise, even if nobody can see it. You know what the real world is like, better that your peers. You have a naturally beatiful singing voice, and are a natural with most instruments.
You can often loose your self. But will always find yourself again. For that is just who you are.

Be happy. Never change. Because you are beautiful.

I have passed test, and I am now deemed worthy to be known as a ... ... Sorceress. In the war between good and evil, Sorceresss take the side of the noble and good.I am gifted with the elemental plane of Earth. 

Find out what kind of Wizard/Wizardess you are at <a href="http://WizardSoul.Com" > WizardSoul.com </a>

A Sorceress creates magic the way a poet creates poems, with inborn talent honed by practice. They have no books, no mentors, no theories just raw power that they direct at will. Some Sorceress' claim that the blood of dragons courses through their veins. It may even be true-it is common knowledge that certain powerful dragons can take humanoid form and even have humanoid lovers, and it's difficult to prove that a given a Sorceress does
not have a dragon ancestor. A Sorceress often has striking good looks, usually with a touch of the exotic that hints at an unusual heritage. Still, the claim that a Sorceress is partially draconic is either an unsubstantiated boast on the part of a certain Sorceress or envious gossip on the part of those who lack the Sorceress's gift.

Find out what kind of Wizard/Wizardess you are at <a href="http://WizardSoul.Com" >WizardSoul.com</a>

You draw your powers from the element of Earth. Mountains move with the power of your will and the stones of the earth sing your name as you pass by. The earth is your sanctuary and protector. Some of the more powerfull spells in your arsenal include Earthquake, StoneSking, Petrify, and oh … did I mention EARTHQUAKE?

Find out what kind of Wizard/Wizardess you are at <a href="http://WizardSoul.Com" >WizardSoul.com</a>

You're Element is Night. You're a loner who is very creative but never show your work to anyone. You may smile a little but sadness or loneliness surround you and other can feel it when they're near you. You have a dark or unusual beauty that makes you mysterious and you probably have a lot of secrets that you've never told anyone. You're beauty is intriging and unorthidox but the real thing that makes you special is your eyes. Something in them makes them like "Diamonds in the Rough".

Love. You Truly Desire Love. You long for someone to hold you and take the pain away. You haven't been in much relationships or you need to work on how to handle them. You always seem lost in a daydream about the person you care about most.

You are one of the few out there whose wings are truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and divine, you are one blessed with a certain cosmic grace. You are unequalled in peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of Light your wings are massive and a soft white or silver. Countless feathers grace them and radiate the light within you for all the world to see. You are a defender, protector, and caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver of the wrong, chances are you are taken advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often. But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in everyone and so this mistreatment does not make you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will try to help misguided souls find themselves and peace. However not all Angelics allow themselves to be gotten the better of - the Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting for the sake of Justice and protection of those less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever change - the world needs more people like you.

Purple Vibes
Your Energy is Purple. You are a visionary with unmatched intuition and spiritual consciousness. The mystical world and unexplainable forces fascinate you. There resides in you a true dignity and nobility, and others see you as a worthy leader, and loyal friend. You are often very mature, with a deep understanding of human nature, and you will instinctively encourage and guide others toward< their full potential.

You find it natural to express yourself aesthetically and artistically, you may be involved in the artistic professions, a religious organization, or in activities that have a degree of ceremony and ritual. You would make a good therapist, healer, psychic, or entrepreneur.

You are a forest shadow. Your essence is that of the tree or beast that casts you upon the earth. You feel a purpose to be in balance with the cycles of life and are wise and beautiful in your submission to the justice of Mother Nature. You are peaceful in nature and, though you feel small, your spirit is precious, strong, and mighty as the (green)forces with which it is affiliated. (please rate my quiz cuz it took me for freaking ever to create)

You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator.

"And The Goddess planted the acorn of life. She cried a single tear and shed a single drop of blood upon the earth where she buried it. From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into the world."

Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek), Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian).
The Goddess is associated with the concept of creation, the number 1, and the element of earth.
Her sign is the dawn sun.

As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic individual and people are drawn to you. Although sometimes you may seem emotionally distant, you are deeply in tune with other people's feelings and have tremendous empathy. Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your own self. Goddesses are the best friends to have because they're always willing to help.

Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two important sides. There is your strong, powerful side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows that along with the good, you also can see bad, which can come in handy. (please rate my quiz)

I am a A Opal Dragon!

Hey, I took the http://dragonhame.com online Inner Dragon quiz and found out I am a Opal Dragon on the inside.

In the war between good and evil, Opal Dragons take the side of the noble and good....
When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, your inner dragon is a risk taker and answers to no one....
As far as magical tendancies, Your inner dragon has the ability to conquer the world of magic, but it will not be easy....
During combat situations, whether by spells or by claw, your inner dragon will do whatever it takes to get the job done....
The Opal Dragon is smaller than most other Dragons but does not allow this
to get in it's way. It's speed in the air, on land, and in water make up
for the Opal Dragon's smaller size. It's scales shine with a soft silvery
glow that flicker with the deep colours of the energetic flashes found
within this Dragon's body. The Opal Dragon is secretive and nocturnal in
nature. Though this dragon is not fond of being seen in it's natural form,
it's curious nature cause it to often shapeshift to look like other Beings
and walk the world seeking wisdom.'
The Opal Dragon will make it's home anywhere but travels often. This has
earned the Opal Dragon it's reputation as a nomadic creature. This Dragon
is quick to defend any who are being treated unjustly, regardless of
species, though it will always attempt a non-violent solution before
resorting to bloodshed. However, if a peacable solution cannot be found
then watch out...the Opal Dragon has earned the title of both the bravest
and fiercest when forced into battle and nothing can stop this dragon from
destroying those who would cross it in this way.'
The Opal Dragon is a contradiction. It loves the presence of others as long
as the presence is sought by the Dragon, itself...if an Opal Dragon does
not seek you out first, it is unlikely you will find one. All in all, this
Dragon is honourable, protective, magickal, and wise...just don't make it
angry or hurt those few this Dragon is close to.
'
This Dragons favorite elements are: Opals, Wisdom, and Justice

Http://Dragonhame.Com


I want to clear something up for all of ya'll.. with all these Quizilla quizzes, I've basicly figured out I'm an artist, intune with nature, whose a hopeless romantic, loves helping people, but tends to be quiet and alone... meaning?

That I've just basicly said everything that I am, through taking a ton of quizzes... thanks!

*PLEASE NOTE* I moved it here because I felt it should be here..

I moved my song here.. thought it might be easier...

"I Know"

I know where you've been
I know where your going
I've been down the road
So many times.

Don't you understand now?
I know where you're going?
I know where you've been?
I've seen the whole wide world.
So I'll be watching over you

Can't you understand know?
I'm here for you?
I'm always here.

I know where you're going
I know where you've been
I've been down the road
So many times.

Now, don't you worry,
Don't be afraid now
I know this world is scary
But it's lovely too.

I know where you've been
I know where your going
I've been down the road
So many times.

Don't you understand now?
I know where you're going?
I know where you've been?
I've seen the whole wide world.
So I'll be watching over you.

I've been all over the world
I've seen everything
I know about the sinners
And I know about the good
I see through the lies
I see through the truth



I know where you've been
I know where your going
I've been down the road
So many times.

I know what your doing
I know what you've seen
You will never see everything
Unless you believe in
Something far away
Something that heals the day

I know where you've been
I know where your going
I've been down the road
So many times.

Don't you understand now?
I know where you're going?
I know where you've been?
I've seen the whole wide world.
So I'll be watching over you.

Elftown...
I want someone to answer this question for me.. Why?!? WHY do people, good people, make WRONG choices?! WHY do good people fall in love with complete.. @$$3$!!! WHY do they NOT listen to friends, best friends, family, who KNOW what their "loves" are REALLY like...


*Siiiigh* My best friend is marrying a complete... pervert. A jerk who, before dating her, had a kid, and then, while dating her, got another girl pregnaunt. Tell me, if you would.. is that love to you? Because it isn't to me.

J'ssem