Ever been so in Love when you read about the person so in Love with you, you just get lightheaded thinking how someone could love you so much, I've never had someone actually love me that much and it hurts thinking I can't see them or talk to them, Cold rushes hearing their name falling weak, eyes burning with tears cause you just want to see them.

Heart seems to heal knowing she cares, I feel like my old self again. .I really miss her.

Hey another one,

  Well Lets just say it blankly, The Girl I Love put something about how she fell for someones Lie's and Im really confused if she Think I lied to her, I really don't know what happened because she put up that no one should lie to her saying they cared and missed her and she found out that they missed someone else. Well the only person I missed Besides Laci was Filicia cause I thought she was getting her internet cut off, and trust me I dont miss Filicia More then Laci thats a no brainer, so Im just confused and thinking she thinks I lied to her, if anyone can say anything to help out it'd be nice, Yeah, Its gonna tear at me untill I figure out what hapened.

Thanks for reading another on.

You Know You're Addicted to Video Games When...
Your wife tells you that you are, and you two kids; Mario, and Sonic; agree with her.


Whenever something bad happens you reach for the pause button.


You can microwave and eat a pizza pop using only your feet.


You've spent so much time playing Tony Hawk Pro Skater 4 -- you actually taught youself how to skateboard.


You've worn out the buttons in the elevator of your apartment.


The only joystick you play with anymore is plugged in to your Xbox.


You've decided you won't go outside anymore due to the 'tacky graphics, poor sound and low playability.'


You've moved your PS2 into the bathroom -- just in case you make it to the next level on Vice City.


Your hands are so gnarled from gripping the controller, you can't even tie your shoes.


You ask your doctor how many lives you have left.


You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends who are addicted to video games.

This may be my last entry for a long time,

I had to say goodbye, to the only thing in this world I would've never wanted to say goodbye for the last time to, If I could've done anything possible to get it back I would, My chest keeps hurting with relentless pain, I can't help but think my heart is litteraly breaking in two, I just wish she'd reconsider, Shes the only one I want, I don't want anything else. . .nothing else. . .Just her. . .

Thanks for putting in the time to read. . .

[A girl and guy were speeding, on a motorcycle, over 90 mph on the road..








Girl: Slow down. I’m scared.








Guy: No, this is fun.








Girl: No, it’s not. Please, it’s too scary!








Guy: Then tell me you love me.








Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!








Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.








*Girl hugs him*








Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? It’s bugging me.








(In the paper the next day)








A motorcycle crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it, but only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his
breaks broke, but he didn’t want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved
him & felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even
though it meant that he would die.



*if u luv sum1 this much.. put it on ur page*

Back to this thing again. . .yeah. . .

Anyway. . .if anyone does read this, well don't expect to for a long time, I wont be online for a bit on ET, I dont know how long either most likely a few weeks, anyway, no details needed I just dont want to talk about it, see you guys later.

Thanks for reading

Hey yet again, 2 days in a row,

   Anway I just don't want anyone getting the wrong Idea about the last message thingy, Everyone knows that I Love Laci, so don't think cause I wrote something nice about Casteina that I now don't love her or something. Laci Means the world to me, the last thing I need is for her or someone to convince her that she dosen't. If I lost her cause of that I'd go jump off a cliff, Just cause I wrote one diary entry thanking Casteina for still talking to me and for what she's done for me dosent mean I now hate Laci or something. I could sit here and name off like a million reasons why I fell for Laci, and one day I probably will, every now and then people tell me it useless or w/e they wanna say but I could care less, cause I honestly think it can work, So if your gonna message me saying "Shes not worth it" Cause that just pisses me off. The end line is I Love Laci, Im sorry if that ticks anyone off or anything. Well thanks for reading again

Cya soon.

This one's for A girl I fell for a while back, She's been a help to me ^^, a big one, Its something special we share, Extremely special, Lots of things have happened and its been pretty bad at times, Good at times too but who's isnt, We still probably like each other im sure the love we have for the people we love now is Greater, but I just want to thank her for doing what she did for me,(not stop talking to me and such) and I don't want anyone freaking out like "He's Leaving Laci!!!" Cause Im not I Love Laci, she knows about Casteina, I know in time she can accept whats happened or probably already has, Its just something that I wanted to say. Thanks Cas, Your great :P

Thanks for reading ^^ cya next time.

 ~-I-~ [^*remember*^] the first time that I thought of XxyouxX
   )First( {time} >I< [laughed] for real
 \I/ -remember-the-first-time ~you~ saved my l.i.f.e.
   ^First^time^ :I: lived for )_real_(
 .I. r.e.m.e.m.b.e.r. the ~`first`~ time [I] saw |your| smile
   XxFirstxX Time ~I~ felt That(^happy^)
    ~`*Because*`~ ^I^ was )with(
     You (With you)

       I.n.t.o ^-your-^ ~*eyes*~   [They're so-Beautiful]

[-This-] is the part where I reach out [(For.*you*)]
[-This-] is the part where I )(hold on)( (-To><you-)
[-This-] is the part where I X-thank-X ^_god_^ (*-Cause-* [w/o] you)
   [-This-] just wouldnt be the same

^^ Song for the Girl I Love [Disconnect ..-Dots-..]

        Into your eyes     

          (Intro)
This is the part where I reach out (For you)
This is the part where I hold on (To you)
This is the part where I thank god (Cause w/o you)
     This just wouldnt be the same

          (1st Verse)
  I remember the first time that I thought of you
     First time I laughed for real
  I remember the first time you saved my life
     First time I lived for real
  I remember the first time I saw your smile
      First time I felt that happy
       Because I was with
         You (With you)

          (Chorus)
 Cause I was so Into your Eyes (In your eyes)
 I didn't even realize how time passed
       Staring In your eyes
  I sit back at least once a day, and realize----
     Just how much I think about
       Staring into your eyes
     I know I couldnt be forgotten
    especially in your eyes. . .in your eyes. . .

         (2nd Verse)
    In the dark, when the lights go out
  I'll hold you hand, so you know where to go
      When these lights go out
 I'll kiss your cheek so you know when to smile
       I'll still look deep into your eyes
     When these lights go out, even in the dark
  I'll see what I've always seen deep in your eyes
      everything that's kept me smiling
          With You (You)

             (Bridge)
  Into your eyes (Into your eyes) (In your eyes--)
Falling----- into your eyes (into you)
  Falling with you (anywhere with you)

          (Chrous)
 Cause I was so Into your Eyes (In your eyes)
 I didn't even realize how time passed
       Staring In your eyes
  I sit back at least once a day, and realize----
     Just how much I think about
       Staring into your eyes
     I know I couldnt be forgotten
    especially in your eyes. . .in your eyes. . .
     . . . . . .In your eyes. . . .

The Last thing that was ever in my mind was some dumb better looking skank walking around trying to get my attention and taking me away from those I Love the most, well it ain't happening, last time I checked I was in Love and still am Nothing taking this away not ever gonna either so step away if you try to take it away, cause your gonna have one hell of a time trying. I never cared about Better Bodies, Lips, Hair, Personality, cause I fell in Love with you, so I don't need anything better.

Special Song I know someone Loves

"Tangled Up In Me"

You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl who's kicking the coke machine
I'm the one that's honking at you cuz I left late again

Hey! Hey! Hey!

Can't you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me

You wanna know more, more, more about me
Gotta know reverse phsychology
I'm the reason why you can't get to sleep
I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see

Hey! Hey! Hey!

Can't you see I want you by the way I push you away, Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction Ya!
Hey! Hey!
Get tangled up in me

You think that you know me
You think that I'm only
When everything I do is only to get tangled up in you
You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl that's sweeping you off your feet

Hey! Hey! Hey!

Can't you see I want you by the way I push you away Ya!
Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today
Mix the words up with the actions do it all for your reaction, Ya!

Hey! Hey!

Get tangled up in me

Hey, would ya look at that I'm writing in this for real again! go me.

Well I'm just here to tell everyone who will read, or sorta listen I guess, thats if they talk to themselves, but hey thats up to them. well anyway. I love many people, but theres only One person who has helped me with my life the most and absolutey can not no way impossible to be replaced in my life, If anyone were to talk smack to her Id smack them, but lets move on.

She means almost everything to me, and its just over the internet if I were near her in real life, it'd be like Best Friends. but I am here to say that out of at least around the 1,000 people I have met in the USA, and other places, she is the ONLY one to ever have helped me care about myself, if you care to know just ask. She is the ONLY person to help me that much, and I will never replace her or let her go if its in my power.

8-3-1 forever!

This one is a bit odd but kewl


(Guitar Strings)

Don't care about me------

(Guitar strings)

Don't look out for me--------

(Guitar Strings)

I'll be just fine----

(Guitar strings)

Just knowing, everythings ok------

(Guitar strings and beat with drums follow up as I sing the next line)

With you----. . . .

Don't Look to concerned, I'll be just fine, Knowing your alright..
I'll strech a smile across your face, You'll strech one back on mine.
But I don't let you know, what's under my skin, How I feel, I'll Laugh.
Only because I don't want you to ever worry about me.

(Chours)


Not Done

[BH-T] Prototype Band Logo

Really sappy love song lol, But I like it.

      The One The Only

Strech back the hairs hanging in front of your face
Wishing I could Lean in and kiss you
Just wanted to know the taste
(of your lips)
Trying to act so cool
Want you to laugh everytime I see you
Found somone like you all too few


{Chorus}
I Look into your eyes, tell you I dont know what to say
You Look Back in mine, and tell me thats ok
You put your hand in mine
I make the comment "Is this a sign?"
You smile and seem so happy
I just make jokes that seem really sappy
(Melting in thoughts of you)

Nose to Nose
I stare into your eyes
Looking past the beautiful green and brown
Just to see what many have seen
But throw to waste
I lean in closer to you
Saying something stupid so you'll smile
(always love that smile)

{Chorus}

(Bridge)
I look into your eyes (Melting with thoughts of you)
You look back into mine (Smiling you seem so happy)
Put your hand in mine (In my hand----)
My Breathe stands still staring in your eyes
Where all my love lies

{Chorus}

No I dont have suicidal Tendiencies, I just write songs about how people feel, the ending of the song is actually a happy ending just read it :P you'll most likely not hear this song sang by us so don't get your hopes up.

You drew my heart on your mirror
So you could Break easily and
Throw----- It---- Away-----

  (Chorus)

Im Falling In love with you
I only hope you'll think this through
(THIS TIME ILL RIP MY HEART OUT MYSELF)
Maybe Next time you'll realize
How much love can come from the inside
(MY ANTI-LOVE SUICIDE)

I'll carve your name into the bullet
So everyone will know your the last thing that
Went---- Through----- My----- Heart-----

  (Chorus)

  {Bridge}
You start the fire
Get Lost in the crowd
You need to step up
Instead of falling down
Now the fires spreading
Your just part of the crowd

    (Chorus)

I'm sitting on the edge of a building now. . . . .
Looking down at you. . . .
Barely Believe. . . .
That I finnaly walked away. . .
from you. . . .

[001: Name:] Michael
[002: NickName:] As long as it isnt an insult
[003: Country of living:] USA
[004: Shoe Size:] Depends- 9 1/2 in boots and 11 in DC's
[005: Birthday:] April 24 1988
[006: Hair Color:] Natural dark black or brown never thought into it too much
[007: Eye Color:] Hazel- Green and Brown
[008: School/Work:] ?. . . . . . . .
[009: Smoke:] Sorry Not here
[010: Hobbys:] Drawing, Writing
[011: Brothers/Sisters:] 2 bros, 2 Sises
[012: Relationship:] No
[013: Piercings:] Yeah
[014: Tattos:] Ill think on it
[015: Favorite country to go to:] Possibly Autralia
[016: Are there people you wont reply to:] I prefer not to insult them nationally
[017: Nicest person you met this year:]. Well Thats a tie
[018: Person you rather not meet this year:] George Bush
[019: Who would you like to meet:] Anyone but George Bush
[020: Who do you admire most:] Well, Um, hell I dunno
[021: Most sexy person(s):] Honestly I think Red-Heads are the Sexiest. But if your Blonde or Brunette Like me Its kewl, Brunettes can be very sexy too, sorry Blondes!!!
[023: Favorite car:] 1776 FastBack Camaro SS
[024: Favorite Movie:] Gladiator and Day after Tomrrow, I Robot too.
[025: Favorite town:] Um. . . . . . . .
[026: Favorite Music:] Linkin Park!!!!!!
[027: Favorite Stuffed Toy:] Well now, thats personal ;)
[028: Favorite Perfume:] Ive got colone, does that count?
[029: Favorite Magazine:] Game Neformer-(not original spelling)
[030: Favorite sound:] Rain, best sound yet
[031: Favorite Tv Show:] Well I do watch Japan Anime if that counts
[032: Favorite writer:] Dude that wrote DreamCatcher (I need to find that book)
[033: Favorite Nickname:] Wait, You asked me this one. . . . .
[034: What is on your mouse pad:] A Lighthouse, does that mean something?
[035: What is under your bed:] You care that much?
[036: Favorite Color:] Orange
[037: Favorite song:] Thats a list that you can make a bridge from here to Europe with
[038: Favorite song at this moment:]
The Used- Box Of Sharp Objects
[039: Favorite Food:] UM anything Mexican
[040: Favorite class in school:] Haveta say- Its between ROTC and French II
[041: Favorite Drink:] Water or Sunny D
[042: Lucky Number:] 10 hell ya, I love this number for absolutely no reason
[043: What do you think is the greatest about yourself:] My ability to speak????
[044: What deodorant do you use:] Air X
[045: Favorite Shoes:] DC's
[046: What time do you go to bed on weekdays:] Bout 11:00 or 12:00
[047: What word do you use most:] Son Of A- (This is good)- Mother!!!
[048: Most romantic moment in your life:] Um, Time I spent with my Ex I guess
[049: Most embrassing moment in your life:] Every moment I spend around others and I love it!!!
[050: You spend your time outside or inside:] Inside a lot But I prefer Outside
[051: What do you do in the weekends:] Friends (not like that) and Church
[052: What class on school do/did you dislike most:] That goes to Algerbra I- I hated that teacher. . . .
[053: Your Breakfast:] Anything The Cafe musters up from the corners of their Cafeteria
[054: What do you really, really dislike to eat:] Mayo, so disgusting! Ya sickening
[055: Pets:] Kittens or Cats
[056: Laugh or dream:] Um well I love to laugh and I dream ever night. . .. .. . .
[057: Serious or funny:] Funny, rarely Serious (You'll know when I am)
[058: Fast or slow:] Fast most the time, Im slow at only certain things
[059: You prefer being alone or have relationship with someone:] I love to be in a relationship but I am alone its not to bad
[060: Simple or complicated?:] I have no idea what this deals with but Complicated, gives me a challange
[061: Cremate or Buried when you die:] Cremate
[063: Stay up late or go to bed early:] Up late
[064: Light or dark?:] dark
[065: Speak or Silence:] Silence
[067: Newspaper or Television] TV is boring News is boring. . . . .
[068: Hug or kiss:] Hugs
[069: Happy or Sad:] Happy
[070: Life or Death:] Life
[071: Gig or Disco:] …gig?
[072: Left or Right:] Right
[073: Sausages on top, or on the side:] Well um, thats new
[075: What would you ask God if you could ask him 1 single question:] Whats up?
[076: You believe in reincarnation:] Its only possible with those egyptians
[077: You believe in Aliens:] Someones' gotta be keeping us in check
[078: When you die, what will be your last words?:] Well this tickles more then I thought it would. . . .
[079: Does true love exist:] Yes
[080: How many kids would you like to have:] Depends on what the woman wants
[081: What is the one thing you can't stand:] Stupid People that dont shuttup
[082: Best feeling:] Loving somone A LOT
[083: Worst feeling in the world:] Someone being dissapointed in you
[084: What are you afraid of:] 1 Person Named Kayla
[085: Are you an emotional person:] I can only get emotional around girls thats about it and I haveta know em Real Well
[086: Do you ever cry during a movie:] I know its fake
[087: Your goal in life:] Does living count?
[088: What was the promise you made to yourself at New Years Eve:] Damn I knew I Forgot something
[089: Favorite art-artist:] Dude with Cubism think that one was Derevinchi
[090: As what animal would you like to come back as:] Noone expects the Butterfly
[091: What is the most beautiful part on the Female body:] Eyes always the eyes
[092: Most original place to ask your love to marry you:] Place you met her of course.
[093:What do you think of Elftown:] Starts to slow down now and then but fun
[094: Is there something you miss about elftown:] Not a whole lot
[095: Where did you get this question list:] Some dude in Plano
[096: Besides elftown, what do you do most on your PC:] Listen to music, talk on aim, view art sites ect.
[097: Whats the most annoying thing that people ask you?:] Are you going out with her??!!
[098: Do you get in trouble a lot:] Heh.....Heh......
[099: Favorite actor:] Jim Carrey and Tom Cruise
[100: Favorite Actress:] Julia Roberts and Phenollope Cruise
[101: Have You ever gone skinny Dipping?:] Sorry
[102: Have You ever gotten in a fight?:] Once I was young Grasshopper
[103: What do most people like about your body?:] I really dont know, you ask em
[104: Have you ever kissed a member of the opposite sex?:] No I sit around and kiss my hand, of course nimrod, You're running outta questions arent you?!
[105: What do you want to be when you are older?:] Professinal Musician or something that I like