i'm back and i dont know if that's a good or bad thing. not yet. i need input. i really am starting to think about killing myself. it's not really easy for me right now. people just dont get it. i dont like people, as a matter of fact the only people i can stand are my friends and children. plz someone just talk to me . . .plz

life is better now. i dont hate myself any more, but i still dont love me . . . .heh heh. i do love havoc demon though. he's the greatest thing to ever happen, and i was lucky enough to talkto him. he's so sweet and charming. i really love him, and i hope he knows

i did it again. I carved "life's bitch" into my skin